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Chapters: 2/2

Fandom: It's Always Sunny in Philadelphia

Rating: Not Rated

Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply

Relationships: Mac McDonald/Dennis Reynolds

Characters: Mac McDonald, Dennis Reynolds

Additional Tags: Inspired by Everywhere at the End of Time (The Caretaker), Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Past Alcohol Abuse/Alcoholism, Dementia, Memory Loss, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Bittersweet, References to Sex

Summary:

Sundowning: A state of increased agitation, confusion, disorientation, and anxiety that typically occurs in the late afternoon or evening in some individuals affected with dementia.

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Dennis stirs a couple of seconds after Mac speaks, snapping his head up to look in Mac's direction. His eyes are completely fucking empty.

It's nothing like when he used to dissociate. Mac remembers it vividly. It was like Dennis was awake, but not really in control of his body. There was still someone in there, they were just sort of trapped. Dennis used to always agree with Mac's interpretation. He said it always felt like he was imprisoned in his body, or that his soul was floating a few centimetres above his body. He wanted to speak, but no sound would come out. He always said it felt horrible, like Hell on earth.

This... This is completely different. There's no one in there. The lights are on, but nobody's home. It's like what Luther always did. Whenever they'd leave the house, he'd turn the light on in the front room. He remembers asking him, once, why he'd do it, because electricity wasn't cheap, so it didn't make sense to little Ronnie.

"Because, Ronald, heh. If the lights are on, it means someone is home, because who would be stupid to leave the lights on in this economy, right? So if they think somebody's home, they won't try and break in and steal all our shit."

Mac thinks that makes a scary amount of sense, as he watches Dennis. There's no Dennis in there at all, his eyes are simply open so his body can look for danger, or some other survival instinct bullshit like that. Either way; Dennis is fucking gone.

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woke up thinking about trans mac…

luther let him transition as a child because he wanted a son instead of a daughter anyway, so it benefits him as well as mac, but it’s all under the circumstances that it’s very hush hush and nobody finds out so that “shame” isn’t brought to their family

mac is incredibly performatively hyper-masculine because he feels the need to compensate for being born in a girl’s body

he pretends not to be gay because in his and luther’s mind, being trans is “bad enough” as it is. he was also taught to associate being gay with femininity

gets hormones/surgery with the money he makes dealing weed at high school and whilst working at the ice rink

literally has a therapist tell him he has body dysmorphia, but specifically in the sense that he worries about being too small or frail… i.e, too feminine, not masculine enough. sounds like gender dysphoria to me, pal

“button in a fur coat” = metoidioplasty or clit growth

charlie knows because he’s known charlie for the longest and as a younger kid there’s only so much he could keep secret from his best friend, but charlie forgets that mac was born female by frying his brains with glue and other inhalants

going really hard on the homophobia to compensate for being trans

we only see mac get with one other person in the whole show that lasts more than a hasty hook up… carmen. he sought her out, protested just enough to make him look like he’s weirded out by her being trans, but actually, is the whole reason he sought her out in the first place. if he can’t allow himself to be gay, then then second best option after that is to be with another trans person, somebody who will at the very least understand

the internalised transphobia ends up becoming externalised, ending their relationship. he focuses on the fact that she’s pre-op and doesn’t care to hide it that much, because he’s deep down, envious that she doesn’t hide being trans whilst he’s spent his whole life living in shame and fear that people would find out

when he does come out as gay, it takes a while to breach the topic with luther. before he comes out to him, he spends ages getting absolutely shredded, aka masculine, the most physically masculine he can possibly get himself. only then can he stand in front of his father and say that he’s gay — because he needs to make up for the associated femininity with being gay when it’s in front of him. either way, luther stands up and leaves, so mac stops holding onto the masculine front and allows himself to curl up into a woman’s lap and cry for (i think) the only time on screen

claiming to be a top so valiantly because he associates getting fucked and bottoming with “being the woman”, even if he isn’t a top deep down. he stops pretending to be a top after coming out to and losing luther (the pressure to rid himself of femininity)

also i swear to god. i swear to god he has visible scars in global warming.

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Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: It's Always Sunny in Philadelphia Rating: Not Rated Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Mac McDonald/Dennis Reynolds Characters: Mac McDonald, Charlie Kelly, dee Reynolds (mentioned), Dennis Reynolds Additional Tags: Inspired by Everywhere at the End of Time (The Caretaker), For Want of a Nail, Confusion, Mental Health Issues, Prologue, Suicide Attempt Series: Part 1 of It Will Still Be Sunny When It's All Over (title subject to changes) Summary:

Stage zero is without summary.

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It's tuesday night and I can't stop thinking about how Mac and Dennis Move to the Suburbs is right after Dee Made a Smut Film

Dee confronts Dennis about Mrs Klinsky in an extremely retraumatizing way, so of course he immediately starts taking the idea of moving out more seriously, impulsively renting a house the moment he realizes it's an option without thinking it through. But even after he's away from Dee he's tense, on edge, pushing all his friends away, being paranoid and mistrusting the person he's closest to and strangers alike. He never tries to flirt or hook up with anyone, instead choosing to spend his free time alone in a dark corner eating cheap food in silence. Just like he's ignoring the beeping of the smoke alarm to fixate on every other issue the house has, he's ignoring the real problem, his own emotions, and fixating on every other person a problem, even his neighbor.

And he's mad at Mac for not fixing everything, for not fixing him, even though he's the one pushing Mac away at every opportunity, refusing to engage with any of the things actually making him miserable, trying to shove down his trauma like always, increasingly unable to ignore the ways it's ruining his life

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It Will Still Be Sunny When It’s All Over

In canon and fanon alike, it is mutually agreed upon that Frank Reynolds has some form of neurodegenerative disease. He’s old and senile. His memory loss is played for laughs, it’s lighthearted and fun. Yet, there is another member of the gang. With a life time of an eating disorder, alcoholism, substance abuse, and untreated mental illness; brain deterioration is inescapable and unavoidable. When someones entire personality is an elaborate lie, how does it look when it begins to fade away?

An Everywhere At The End Of Time inspired Macdennis fanfiction: In the works. . .

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dennis: “how about a joke! knock knock.”

mac: “dad?!”

dennis: “what?? no.”

mac: *bursts into tears*

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there’s probably gonna be a lot of these polls but…

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same idea, different execution

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now that the mario movie exists, people need to start animating luigi to scenes from always sunny

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charlie: “i am not. . . fuckin’. . . drunk. . .”

mac, pointing to the clock on the wall: “can you tell the time??”

charlie: “. . . yes. . .”

charlie, speaking to the clock: “. . . i am not. . . fuckin’. . . drunk. . .”

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the “everything i do, i do for you” line is amazing because you can always faintly hear the dramatic music from the actual scene and know that a few moments later he reveals that he cooked and fed dennis the dog he gave him 😭

another thing i found today on the internet

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dennis reynolds says micro penis pride! 💪

join the movement with your fellow poorly endowed pals! 🎉

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will never forget the pure panic in dennis’ face when mac says he’s out for real

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Miserable, sad, crybaby drunk Dennis and Mac still falling in love with him like the freak he is

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thinking about this…

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When Mac spends too much time at the Rainbow plowin dudes and Dennis gets jealous and sends him this