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the vibe i bring to the function 🎀🪄

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https://www.instagram.com/p/Bg-WM5ane7j/

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realized today, i don’t think i’ve ever truly experienced self doubt. idk where that comes from, but i know it isn’t the norm.

idk anything about astrology but i know taurus is the bull, which feels very self assured to me, and i have a taurus moon. my dad is also a taurus and i don’t know if he feels self doubt, but if he does he doesn’t show it often. i feel like my lack thereof could also be related to my autism somehow. or i’m just delusional and forgotten every time i may have felt it. i have no idea.

the closest i can come up with in my memory are times a romantic partner has hurt my feelings and treated me as less than, and i’ve wondered why i’m not enough “for them” specifically, but even then, that’s a reflection of them, not my own ability or capacity.

any of MY goals and dreams, it’s never been a question of “if” i can, just “how bad do i want to” and “how do i make it happen.” nothing is out of the question.

idk why that is, but now that i’ve recognized it, i want to say how grateful i am for it. i see others struggle with self doubt so often and it doesn’t seem fun. whether it stems from my autism or not, i do think the autism makes me have a harder time being empathetic when others struggle with it. i find myself unable to understand why they don’t believe in themselves more.

we’re all so capable, in so many ways, even if we aren’t all capable in the same ways, and we all need to have faith in ourselves, because we deserve to be our own #1 fan 🫶🫶🫶

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this is sooo pretty like i have a ridiculous obsession with pretty cosmetics 🎀

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on my first couple playthrus of re4 i could not stand ashley bc she was obnoxious to drag around and keep alive, and i cringed at all her lines… now, i get it. if the finest man i’ve ever seen showed up and started putting himself in harms way to save me, i’d be embarrassingly horny and clingy too. and i’d jiggle my boobs every chance i got. she’s real as fuck for that tbh.

AND??!?!? i JUST realized she only acts like that when he’s in front of her!!! in that part where you play as her in the castle (that i coincidentally just finished) she totally holds her own and is killing the enemies with her own ingenuity, no guns… queen of weaponized incompetence actually?!?! “helpppp me leonnnn i need you” to make him feel important when she really can survive on her own? she’s just like me FOR REAL… i might have to stan

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im so good at pouting and being cute and hmphing and asking whyyyyyyy in that little whiny voice

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The O.C Babe 👙

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she goes on being a poem

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Louise Glück, from Meadowlands; "The Dream"

[Text ID: "why couldn't it go on longer? / Because it was a dream."]

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