You Might Be an Opheliac if You:
- wouldn’t know who you were if you weren’t suffering
- are strangely attracted to those who may just kill you
- spend just a bit too much time in the bathtub
In this crucially positioned line, Bound illustrates how both trans and queer aesthetics are interlaced modes of feeling and desiring gender– the gender of others or the gender of the self– that are not entirely distinct. Violet’s line might be whispered to a same-sex lover or to that correctly gendered self that the trans subject sustains internally.
Cáel M. Keegan, Contemporary Film Directors: Lana and Lilly Wachowski (2018).
“However robust, these discussions of The Matrix continue to overlook the text as narratively transgender, its plot following the sequence of dysphoria, identity realization, name change, hormonal therapy, surgery, and social reintegration in a “new” gender that is associated with the medically mandated pathway for gender transition. Although he passes as a normal corporate employee, Neo possesses a special insight; he knows there is “something wrong with the world.” He uses a name that is different from the one assigned to him, leading a double life that straddles normative and subcultural spaces. After he makes contact with others like him via the internet, he falls under surveillance by the state— the Agent programs that police the Matrix. Neo then enters a queer underworld, where a group of leather-clad hackers perform surgery on him, removing a tracer from his body. They confront him with a choice between two substances: one (the blue pill) will wipes his memory of these events; the other (the red pill) will radically alter his consciousness and wake him up outside the Matrix in a new body.”
Cáel M. Keegan, Contemporary Film Directors: Lana and Lilly Wachowski (2018).
“What is it about love that makes us take leave of our senses? What makes a girl of barely seventeen carve fillets of flesh from her ribs and, lacing her clothes back up over the bulk of soaked bandages, serve her own stewed flesh to a table of her classmates at her wealthy private school?”
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Nibedita Sen, ‘Ten Excerpts from an Annotated Bibliography on the Cannibal Women of Ratnabar Island’
Let Rome in Tiber melt, and the wide arch
Of the ranged empire fall! Here is my space.
Kingdoms are clay: our dungy earth alike
Feeds beast as man: the nobleness of life
Is to do thus; when such a mutual pair
And such a twain can do't, in which I bind,
On pain of punishment, the world to weet
We stand up peerless.
Morpheus’s dialogue- ‘What you know, you can’t explain. But you feel it. You’ve felt it your entire life. There’s something wrong with the world.’- captures a trans affect for which language barely exists. Something is wrong with reality. The gendered structure of the world does not seem true, but others live within it as if it were presocial, coterminous with nature… From this scene forward, The Matrix will harness dysphoria as a cinematic technology, thereby altering what is possible to sense.
Cáel M. Keegan, Contemporary Film Directors: Lana and Lilly Wachowski (2018).