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Rejection

Screams come from my son and daughter as their father goes outside to mash up my car. His rage from my rejection is uncontrollable. You see he wants me back, and I don’t feel the same way, so I reject every offer or gesture of love he now wants to give. He reacts in front of my children telling them he wants me back and that mommy doesn’t love him...this is in constant repeat in their ears. Rejection has now become so contagious that my children are now rejecting me. You see, even though he causes their terror, they see me as the one who makes him act like that. They don’t remember all the fights and arguments that happen before because of me and their father was living together. They just see me rejecting him now, so now I’m the bad guy, and I’m about to lose my children mentally and maybe even physically. All because I refuse to stay in the sad situationship I was in, I rejected that life now my children are rejecting me.

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Gym and my situationship

I’m so tired of this weight and this life. I signed up to the gym and it caused more arguments in this situationship that I’m in. Wow... it’s a miracle I won a free month for this new online gym. It was like a setup to drive me insane. The first day I tried it I got so annoyed that I was home I wanted to throw my phone across the room and eat the bag of marshmallows. Fuck this gym and fuck my husband not literally, but I’m going to the gym on the other side of the island. I’m going insane. I need a break. Why can’t I just be me?

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I’m lost.

How can I find myself when I don’t even know where I am. I’m lost within an unhappy marriage and raising two children. I thought families were supposed to be fulfilling, but I just feel empty. Empty so I bury myself in work and school in hopes to feel whole. Empty so I bury myself in food, alcohol, and cigarettes. Hey... now I’m overweight and educated, but still empty and insecure! Fast forward... I’m trying to lose weight but now arguments left and right... I’m taking away time from the kids... I’ll never be at home now. So it back to the emptiness and insecurity. Wondering what can make me happy, wondering how can I find myself, my beauty inside and out. But truth be told, I think I know where I’m hiding but how can I get away with being me!?

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I surround myself with makeup not negativity! - unknown author

One of my makeup inspiration is this lady right here! Viva_glam_kay on Instagram and on YouTube. I watched her very first YouTube video and saw her talent grow over the years and this is why I have chosen her for my next look.

I’ve decided for my next post, I will be attempting to complete this look and ask y'all what you think! If I succeed lol 😂 which is a big IF, maybe you guys can suggest some other looks you want me to try.

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I’m always sorry for something I never did.

Boston Manor // Kill Your Conscience (via onlybandlyrics)

Isn't this the truth.

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Just wing it! Life, eyeliner, everything. -Unknown author. Todays look is a creased wing with blue eyeshadow and a dramatic cat eyeliner to finish! Doesn't that just sound yummy lol. Anyway, as you can see I only did have of my face 🎭because I wasn't going anywhere. Hope you guys don't mind. Saving product is saving money! Tell me what you hid think? Products used were: Mac Studio Fix foundation in NC 40 Mac Match Master concealer for highlights in 9.0 Mac Match Master concealer for contour in 3 Random brown eye pencil for brows Mac Lipstick in Matte Diva Mac black eyeliner pencil for crease and wing Random blue and brown shadows for eyes (labels are no longer legible)

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Makeup is self-confidence applied directly to the face. -unknown author My posts are designated to completing an assignment for a social media class I am currently taking. Today's feature is Me doing a fun makeover on myself. Here I have a before and after picture and if you're interested in knowing what products I used, they are listed below. Moisturizer- Clinique dramatically different moisturizing lotion + Primer- Black Up perfect mattifying primer Foundation- Mac NC and NW 40 mixed Highlighter - Mac bright forecast Contour- Mac 9.0 Match master concealer Powder- Mac transparent powder Eyebrows- Mac Veluxe brow liner in deep brunette Eyeliner - NYX liquid liner Mascara-Givenchy black organz Lip- Viva Glam Nicki 2

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Missy dropped "WTF" about a year or more ago, but I wasn't too impressed. I was thinking she should stay retired, not wanting to ruin my memory of her being one of the best female rappers of my generation. But, after hearing "I'm Better", I think Missy is heading towards a full blown comeback.