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May 1989. 'This summer we're singing the blues...and not just your ordinary babies and navies.'

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Mistrzejowice, Kraków (photos by me - grace4drowning on instagram)

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Still thinking about the time my grandpa got lost while hunting and found a dead body. And then came across a search party he thought was for him and they had actually been looking for the dead guy. Nobody had noticed grandpa was missing because it was normal for him to disappear for days on end. The dead guy had a heart attack while hunting alone and his friends went looking for him after he didn’t come back to camp. I never got the details on that and now he has dementia so I can’t ask but how do you break the news on that? “Good news for me, you found me. Bad news for you, I found him and he’s super dead.”

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translation: “My sheep! [bah! bah!] You are my life. [bah! bah!] Walk behind me…[bah! bah!] Sing (after me).”

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translation: “My sheep! [bah! bah!] You are my life. [bah! bah!] Walk behind me…[bah! bah!] Sing (after me).”

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translation: “My sheep! [bah! bah!] You are my life. [bah! bah!] Walk behind me…[bah! bah!] Sing (after me).”

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my great grandma was one of like 20 children. her youngest sister died in a house fire and her first two children died in infancy (genetic heart condition, it was the 1940s) so she was PARANOID PARANOID about all of the children in the family constantly. worried about every single threat from water to fire to illness. even when she had a stroke and dementia she’d ask “where are the babies?” / “are the babies okay?” usually meaning me and my teenage cousin at the time. she’d always want to sit next to the baby at the family gathering just to make sure they were okay, even when she couldn’t hold them after her stroke. my cousin’s rainbow baby was born the day that she died and named after her. we all like to think she guided him safely into this world as she was leaving it.

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i was trying to think of what the antithesis of equestrogen was and the best i could come up with testostergoat.

and ur so right for that ❤️

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I get being tricked into dating a married man and I don’t think it’s the affair partner’s fault for breaking up the marriage. BUT if I found out the man I was dating was married and lying to his wife, I’d drop kick him off a cliff, not marry him. Or maybe trick him into divorcing his wife and giving her everything and then breaking up with him and moving to the other side of the planet. That one is fun too.

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hello? anyone up? I'm work-shopping my cat fursona

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first morning of having the girlfriends over

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*trans girl jigsaw voice* Popular internet content creator...who is a man. You've amassed a wide and varied audience through posting your works to a public forum. In front of you, you may notice that audience. Your task: to introduce your latest work without adding "Boys", "Fellas", or "Lads" to refer to your entire audience. Should you fail, 11,000 volts of electricity will begin to flow through your nutsack. The time starts now...

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*trans girl jigsaw voice* Popular internet content creator...who is a man. You've amassed a wide and varied audience through posting your works to a public forum. In front of you, you may notice that audience. Your task: to introduce your latest work without adding "Boys", "Fellas", or "Lads" to refer to your entire audience. Should you fail, 11,000 volts of electricity will begin to flow through your nutsack. The time starts now...

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im pro choice and i think there are a lot of good pro choice arguments but my bad evil (speaking facetiously) argument is that i kind of dont care and i dont think it matters for anyone but the specific person whose body it concerns. im not religious so i dont believe in souls. if a lady finds out she’s pregnant and doesn’t want it and aborts it without telling anyone then like so what? i dont feel bad for the fetus. i don’t remember being a fetus. nobody does. it might’ve become a person, but so might every sperm and egg that goes unused. I might’ve become a world class ballerina if i didnt stop taking lessons when i was 6, so i expect all ballet enthusiasts to now start crying for the talent stolen from them. And the situation in which i *do* feel bad is if the woman has her life derailed suffering through an unwanted pregnancy. See, then i feel bad because there’s a woman in physical and emotional pain. I also feel terrible for women who suffer miscarriages during wanted pregnancies. but also because those women are going through physical and emotional pain. i dont feel bad for the fetus itself. isn’t this a normal way for empathy to work or am i somehow evil in some way i haven’t considered

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this character turns 2 yrs old tomorrow ❤️❤️❤️

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"my trauma made me mean/cruel/violent, it's not my fault." no the hell it did not: you chose that. cruelty and violence are responses, which make them choices. trauma does not absolve you from the decisions you make.

trauma does not make you cruel or violent- those are actions and behaviors the individual chooses in response to something. trauma can make you bitter and hateful, but it does not FORCE you to be cruel to others. your trauma is not separate from you, it is in fact a part of YOU that needs to be worked on. it is not a separate entity holding you at fucking gunpoint forcing you to hurt other people just because you were hurt. you are always responsible for how you respond to your trauma. always. no matter what. does not matter how bad you've been hurt or what was done to you. you're not special, you do not get a pass to hurt other people.

stop using the victim card to justify hurting other people and repeating the abusive actions done to you. as a trauma survivor who has PTSD and DID, being traumatized has and will never justify me hurting someone else, and it will never justify you hurting someone else, either, especially if it's on purpose or knowingly. it doesn't matter if you were hurt, you don't get to hurt other people. that's not how this shit works. you're not walking trauma, you're a person with trauma. you're a person first, traumatized second. constantly reducing yourself to your trauma is why you feel so powerless, hateful, and like you aren't even a person at all. you also have to knuckle up and learn how to grow past it in order to avoid hurting others and repeating the cycle of abuse.

doesn't matter the type or severity of the abuse: stop justifying cruelty.

take responsibility.

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Hm. Interesting. Apparently cortisol production depletes magnesium stores. And I have a lot of symptomatic overlap with magnesium deficiency. And it can apparently help migraine. And ADHD. I think I'm going to try supplementing magnesium glycinate. L-threonate sounds really interesting too as that's magnesium that can cross the blood-brain barrier and apparently is super useful for memory and shit.