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nobody:

frank iero in the early 2000’s:

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I have had bulimia for about 1 and a half year

Today i threw up blood for the first time

I knew what would happen to me if i kept going

You know why i stopped there?

I suddenly understood what got me here

I suddenly wanted to pick up my phone and say “i am so sorry” to my boyfriend, my sister, my parents and the friends i no longer have

I suddenly realized why i wouldn’t be able to recall the faces of people i’ve talked with for the past 17 months, only what diet i was on then and how many calories i’d eaten that day

All i have lost, i have lost to this. Food. My bf has a girlfriend that prioritieses food more than him, my sister has a little sister that couldn’t come to her graduation because she had eaten too much and felt fat that day, my parents has a daughter that lies about the money she asked for so she could “buy groceries for the week” and instead bought crap food so she could purge it up and wonder what happend to her and her life all whilst looking down at bloody vomit.

No one deserves this. No one in my life deserves to be less important to me than food. I dont deserve to be less important than food. This is what i suddenly understood as i looked at my bloody vomit, knowing well it could be the end of me if i continued. So i stopped

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Thank you:) I’ll try it out.

I need some advice

I do really good with keeping to my calorie plan during the day and fasting, but, every damn night when im trying to sleep, my heart starts to hurt and beat in a weird way that makes me think im having a heart attack, also, i get muscle stiffness in my left arm which just makes me panick even more to the point that i get an anxiety attack on top of it all. So then i eat something, without thinking about it, because im so sure im gonna die if i dont eat. Because it literally feels like that. What can i do about it? Im tired of ruining my plan every night because of it. 

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I need some advice

I do really good with keeping to my calorie plan during the day and fasting, but, every damn night when im trying to sleep, my heart starts to hurt and beat in a weird way that makes me think im having a heart attack, also, i get muscle stiffness in my left arm which just makes me panick even more to the point that i get an anxiety attack on top of it all. So then i eat something, without thinking about it, because im so sure im gonna die if i dont eat. Because it literally feels like that. What can i do about it? Im tired of ruining my plan every night because of it. 

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🖤Thinner is prettier🖤

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Frances Elizabeth

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The End of the F***ing World

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The End of the F***ing World

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Radio-Lana Del Rey

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