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A very fine read, as always! :)

Day 1: Forced rest

A/N: Wohoo, I made it! At least I got one entry ready for ShinRanWeek2023! It had been a hectic and challenging semester because there had been so many new things for me besides studying, but the summer holiday is almost here, and to be honest, I really need it. I started to write this fic last week, and oh boy, how much I have missed writing fics. And I have missed you guys so much! I hope you have been well ❤

But yeah, what can I say... This is based on something I experience some weeks ago, though I didn't have anyone to tell me to rest, but then I thought that maybe I should write about this and make a cute entry for ShinRan week :3 I also want to remind you guys to rest when you feel like it! I know it can be sometimes hard to do nothing when there is so much to do, but remember that after a good rest, you have enough energy to do things ❤

But yeah, enough of this, I hope you enjoy this! (And I'm still so bad with naming my fics so don't worry, nothing had changed xD)

Forced rest

She wasn’t the one who gave up easily. She had always worked hard and done her best. And even though it had sometimes felt like there is so much to do and not enough time to rest a little bit, she had encouraged herself with the thought that it would be over soon. Those busy times always were over sooner or later, and she knew that after that, she had time to rest and take a little bit easy before the next rush period.

But now, as much as she tried to encourage herself, remember the price she would get as soon as she would be done, she felt like she had met her limits. It was unusual and hard to accept, but somehow she needed to face the truth. Even though she felt like she had slept well, she felt awfully tired. She tried to make little goals and do even a little bit of some of her schoolwork - because even though it would be a little bit, it would be progression. But whatever schoolwork or textbook she looked at or tried to read, her eyes felt tired. It felt like there was a huge wall in front of her that kept her from reading and that made her feel desperate. She wasn’t even sure how long she had just sat on the living room couch, staring at that open book in her hands, but she was aware that she hadn’t read at all, not even a word. The only reason why she still sat there, trying to push herself to read, was the fact that the day after tomorrow she would have an exam. She also tried to cheer herself, reminding herself that after she would have read, she would deserve to go on a date, but…

She just… couldn’t. She just couldn’t do it. And only the thought made her want to cry.

She just wanted to shut the book and go back to bed. God, she wanted so badly just go to bed, under her blanket and just be there, cry a little bit. Just forget studying even for a moment, and… and…

But she couldn’t do that! If she would, she would lose time to prepare for exams and continue her school works. And it wouldn’t take too long if she would do them now! If she would just start, she would be done much sooner than if she would leave it for tomorrow with all the other things she had planned to do…

“Hey…”

It made Ran startle a little bit. Fast she raised her head to look at Shinichi, who stood behind her, touching her shoulder. How she hadn’t realized his presence at all? It wasn’t like Shinichi sneaked around the house, but then again, he wasn’t the loudest one either.

“What’s wrong?”

“Nothing”, she answered automatically and smiled. She saw how he just stared at her for a moment before he let go of her and went around the couch. She followed how he came closer to her before sitting beside her. Those blue eyes turned to her, looking serious and yet gentle.

“I know I can be stupid and blind and what else”, he said, making Ran let out a little laugh. “But this time I can see clearly that something bothers you. Even that smile of yours can’t fool me.”

Keeping that smile on her lips, Ran turned her head, looking down at her book that was resting on her lap. She just saw letters and words that tried to tell her something about the research on Japan’s social welfare and what those results mean, but nothing more. She didn’t know what was examined, she didn’t know the outcomes, she didn’t know if the results were good or bad, and she didn’t know what could be done to make anything better.

She had never felt so powerless. So hopeless.

How did Shinichi do it? They had started their studies at the same time, and he studied criminology, which - in Ran’s opinion - felt much more gibberish than studying social work. At least social and health services were something they faced commonly and got some kind of idea of it already when criminology was something that hid so much more than people could think of. She thought that studying criminology would take much more time and work, but as much as she had observed Shinichi, he seemed always to be okay. If he was tired, it was because he had stayed awake too late, not because he would have studied that much. And he still solved crimes from time to time, which was taken from his free time, but he still got enough time to study and do well in school, with exams.

But maybe it shouldn’t have been a big surprise. Shinichi had always been smart and good with everything he had done. He had been interested in crimes and cases as long as Ran could remember, he had always paid attention and probably learned many things long ago. And if he hadn’t known something, he had always been interested to find out. There were no questions without answers if it came to Shinichi.

Maybe he knew so much more about criminology than Ran had thought. And maybe it was the reason why studying seemed to be so easy for him.

Of course, she was happy about that and so proud of him! Why wouldn’t she? But the thing was, she envied him a little bit. He made studying look so easy.

“Hey, Ran…”

Again she got out of her thoughts, but instead of looking at Shinichi, she turned to look at how his hand touched hers that kept still that book open. His fingers touches hers, and even though the touch wasn’t anything big, it soothed her a little bit.

Actually, she felt like that little touch just made her want to surrender, let it all go and just cry, hide in his arms and just be there, feel calm and safe, forgot the school and everything else.

But she couldn’t do that.

“You are tired.”

And somehow, that one, simple statement made that wall between her and studying to broke. She felt how tears started to slide down her cheeks, and before she realized to do anything, the first one dropped on the open page.

Great. Now she was ruining the library’s property.

She felt how Shinichi took off his hand, making her feel a little bit lonely and lost before she felt his arm on her shoulders, pulling her closer to him. She leaned on him, closing her eyes and hiding her face on his neck. “Hey, no need to cry”, Ran heard him say, and when she felt the book moving away from her hands, she let it go. She knew that she should keep thigh hold on it, but… “It’s okay, you know…”

“How is it okay?” Ran asked with a broken voice and slowly wrapped her arms around him. “Deadlines are coming and a day after tomorrow is an exam, and I still have so much to do…”

“And when you rested last time?”

Ran shut her mouth. She tried to remember a day when she hadn’t done anything to study. “Well, at the weekend”, she answered finally.

“No”, Shinichi said, making Ran get away from him enough to look at him. “I mean when you have time to be just yourself? Doing nothing?”

Ran frowned. “I told you, at the weekend…”

Shinichi sighed. “You met Sonoko and your mother on the weekend, you know.”

“Yeah, and I didn’t do any school work…”

“Doing them or not, seeing and being with others takes energy too”, he said, making Ran only frown even more. “So it doesn’t count.”

Ran just stared at those confident eyes. God, she hated how he was right. She hadn’t had much time to see Sonoko or her family because of school, so when she got a chance, she had agree to see Sonoko on Saturday and on Sunday to spend time with her mother and later to see how her father was doing. She had thought that meeting them would be her time to rest and do something fun, but she couldn’t lie, on Monday she had been so tired. She had felt like she hadn’t rested at all. The weekend had just taken her energy, not giving any, even though she have had a nice time with them.

He was right. Maybe it couldn’t count as free time and rest. But if that’s the case…

She couldn’t give him any answer.

“Let’s go back to bed, okay?”

Ran raised her eyes to look how Shinichi stood up and turned to her. He looked at her gently while offering his hand.

“Back to bed?” Ran repeated. “But…”

“No buts”, Shinichi interrupted her. “You’re going to rest today and do nothing.” He looked away for a moment, like thinking. “Well, maybe I can let you watch some movies or series if you want”, he continued before his blue eyes came back to her again. “But no studying, no housework, no texting or calling friends or family, and no date.”

She felt like something heavy dropped on her heart and sink it somewhere deep down. “What?!” Ran almost screamed and felt so disappointed when she stood up. “No date? But you reserved the table from…”

“I decline it”, Shinichi said like it wasn’t a big thing. “We can go any other day.”

Ran stared at Shinichi for a moment hoping to change his mind, but it was worthless. His expression didn’t change. He had made up his mind. Ran let her eyes drop to the floor, feeling so disappointed. Actually, she felt like a child who hadn’t got a toy from the shop. God, she had really, really waited for that date with Shinichi. She had waited so badly to get dressed in her new dress and just go outside, to enjoy the good food and lovely company, just do something nice together and forget everything else…

Like she wanted to stay at home, on the bed, doing… nothing.

She felt how Shinichi stepped closer, putting his hands on her hips and pulling her gently closer, giving her a chance to stop him. “You really need to rest, Ran”, he said eventually, pressing a kiss on her forehead. “You always do something, but sometimes you need to stop and just take time for yourself.”

Ran lowered her head. She eyed the book on the coffee table. As much as she wanted to take that offer, but… “But I still need to study, you know”, she said and she realized how weak she sounded. “I have an exam…”

“But you are able to read more if you rest well occasionally”, Shinichi said. “Besides, I believe that you do fine without reading.”

Ran rolled her eyes. “Oh, so you want me to fail?” she asked and glanced at him annoyed.

“No”, he answered. “But you are smarter than you give yourself credit for.”

She doubted that. But then again, maybe he had a point. Just now, she would just waste her time just staring at that book, being unable to read anything. She wouldn’t get anywhere and she wouldn’t be any wiser in the evening. She knew she should rest, and after good rest, she would feel better and would be able to read more.

But just being on the bed, doing nothing…

But then again, who said she should stay in bed alone? If she wouldn’t get her date, she would take her date with her to bed to rest with her.

Like Shinichi would stay in bed with her if she would ask him. That was the same for both of them: they weren’t good at staying in bed doing nothing if demanded. It needs to be decided by themselves, and if Shinichi had other plans…

Well, maybe she knew how to make him stay.

“Well, maybe you’re right”, she admitted finally with a sigh and looked at Shinichi. She showed her a hopeful smile. “And after I feel rested enough, I can continue…”

“No”, Shinichi stopped her. “No, you rest today.”

“But…”

“I said already, no buts”, he interrupted determined. “You are going to stay in bed the whole day.”

Ran rolled her eyes. “Come on, I can’t do that…”

“Yes, you can”, Shinichi said. “I make sure of it.”

Ran smiled. “How?”

Shinichi looked at her confidently. “I roll the blanket around you.”

Ran shook her head. “I can always flee, you know.”

Before she knew it, he wrapped his arms tightly around her, making her body press against him, leaving no room to move. “Then I have to keep you on that bed.”

Ran grinned like a winner. It had gone just as she had wanted. “You can’t keep me there a whole day”, she challenged, knowing that he would never want to lose to her…

“Watch me”, he answered, and she felt a kiss on her hair. “I keep you there the whole day if I have to.”

As she wanted. If she had to stay in bed, she would make sure that he would stay with her.

But then she remembered one more problem…

“But if we don’t go to eat, then what are we eating?” she asked. “We don’t have anything ready.”

“Don’t worry about that”, Shinichi answered. “I handle it.”

She smiled mischievously even though he couldn’t see it. “Oh, are you going to cook?”

“You can say that”, he answered, making Ran giggle. Then he let go of her, and before she was prepared for it, he bowed a little to put his arm back on her knees and raised her on his arms. Even though it wasn’t the first time he did that, it was always a surprise, taking her off her guard. This time she didn’t let out a shriek, but her heart still skipped a beat while she wrapped her arms around his neck, making sure she wouldn’t fall…

“And you can wish whatever you want to eat”, he continued and turned, starting to walk towards the hallway. “I can make it happen.”

“Wow, big things are promised”, she said as she started to relax a little bit. She still was a little bit worried about those stairs, but he seemed to be sure to carry her to the second floor. “And who tells what I’m going to do when you leave to get that food…”

“It isn’t that long trip from the bed to the door”, he answered. “You don’t have time to flee, or if you do, I’m going to catch you again.”

Ran rolled her eyes, but still smiled and let herself lean on him. She closed her eyes and somehow felt already a little bit relaxed in his arms.

Well, maybe spending a day on the bed with him wouldn’t be that bad.

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