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#THE MAIDEN'S FACE âĄ#s: wife me the FUCK up đđđ đ thats đ some gâyđđsHit rightđth đ ere right there (chorus: Êłá¶Šá”Ê°á” á”Ê°á”Êłá”) mMMá·đGay shit {grelle x ann}
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What happened to you after Will arrested you for killing people? How did you not, you know, get executed?
"Executed? What do you think I am, darling? Alive?"
"No, no, the Dispatch doesn't do that sort of thing. Quite contrary to the purpose. No, I had to take some remedial training on... hm... something or other. It was... dreadfully boring, great deal of paperwork... Bless me, I can't recall. You must understand, I suffered awfully during that time. No collections at all! For months! I couldn't even summon my scythe. Bare minimum pay, too. Why, I could hardly keep the wine stocked. And they were very particular about where I went and whom I saw---I had to file requests for just about everything, and then someone had to chaperone me whenever I travelled to the mortal realm, like I was some sort of child who couldn't cross dimensions on my own! Quite impossible to go on dates, of course. And the men they sent to supervise me were all hideous---short and blond and ugly. Really, darling, the way they treated me, you'd think I'd done something wrong.
"Anyway, at some point the higher-ups were persuaded I was reformed, or else the backlog of London collections grew enough that they couldn't do without me any longer, and now my torture is ended. It wasn't even the fun kind of torture...
"Oh, now I remember what that training was! 'Ethics'."
#[bet you weren't expecting THIS -whips a reply out of my inbox-#I'm not really back#focusing on my original fiction and trying to get an agent t b h#but apparently I still answer asks??]#ic#ic ask#anonymous
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i know this blog is kinda dead but now ive been meaning to ask, what would grell think about the numerous trans women serial killers in modern time? would she feel a sort of connection?
[Erâthank you for the question, but what numerous trans women serial killers?
I hope you mean fictional, so Iâll answer that in a minute; but since itâs not what you said, and there are way too many people who really believe trans women are going to jump them in an alley (the UK has been awful about this recently), Iâd be remiss not to address that first.
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If you do mean irl, then I think youâve been misled. Crime-wise, the only thing trans women are more likely to do is be victims. The idea that there are hordes of trans women skulking around murdering people is a transphobic scaremongering myth, perpetuated by people trying to strip them of their rights and exclude them from society. Itâs the exact same recycled rhetoric that's been levelled against marginalised minorities since forever. (See: black people, gay people, immigrants, etc.) When, inevitably, someone from one of those minority groups does a bad thing, theyâre held up an example of the intrinsic evil nature of the whole group, while bad individuals in the majority group are seen as rare exceptions. If you feel like there have been a lot of bad trans women in the press recently, that is why.
As a general rule, if people are yelling about how a certain minority is coming for our wives and daughters, or killing people in the streets, or preying on the innocent... they are usually trying to weaponise your protective instincts and fear of the âotherâ to whip up a lynch mob based on outrage, bypassing the need to prove their outrage is justified. If you question them, theyâll accuse you of not caring about women and children, but they havenât proven that anyone is even in danger. Be very, very careful what you believe before you pick up a pitchfork, or you might become the one preying on the innocent.
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If you mean the numerous trans women serial killers in fiction: yes, youâre right, there are a lot of those. And tbh... Grelle would definitely relate to and love them. And when they contribute to trans women being seen as an awful murderous threat, sheâd love them even more. Sheâs a bad take.
In her... defence?
1.) She gets off on feeling powerful, and being feared definitely counts. This girl intentionally presents herself as a monster. She wants to be your worst nightmare.
2.) She leans hard into being degraded and dehumanised, which seems like a contradiction to the power thing, but it isnât. If she wants you to hurt her, then hurting her isnât an expression of dominance over her; itâs playing right into her hands. You canât really hurt her at all, and she has the power again.
So yeah, murderpsychos is exactly Grelleâs idea of good trans representation. Since I keep saying edgy things like this (e.g. âGrelle doesnât support womenâs rights lolâ), I feel like I should reiterate that what she believes is often the exact opposite of what is good for her, because sheâs taught herself to love being hated and to enjoy abuse. Sheâd call it empowerment; itâs just as much a form of self-harm.
Basically, sheâs an outlier who should not be counted. Respect trans women, even if Grelle wants you to step on her.]
#[while I'm on the topic#I don't think grelle herself or any other one bad trans woman in fiction is necessarily the problem#I think the trend is the problem; and the historical lack of positive representation to balance out the murderpsychos#if ppl in the last 50 years or so had been exposed to trans ppl as anything other than murderpsychos on tv#then the current conversation about trans rights would probably be in a better place]#out of red#ask#anonymous#long post
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I miss you :(((
[Aww thank you!! Sorry Iâve been absent. ^^â I havenât given up on Grelle, Iâm just a bit burnt out on RPing (and this entire bloominâ year, letâs be real) and Iâm focussing on other projects. She shall return in some form, some day---at the very least some thematic cosplay shots once thatâs practicable, because how could I not take advantage of London like that
In the meantime Iâm still sort of around and checking things, just very quiet]
#[local monster girl wishes you all a happy halloween if you celebrate it]#out of red#ask#xxsparklepopsxx
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Itâs already autumn in my country so hereâs a modern Grell in more casual and comfy clothes â€ïžđ§Ąđ Donât repost/use. Instagram. Asks/requests.
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Effeminate pansy. This is my best attempt at cyber bullying, pls rate me
â2/10. Surely you can do better, dear.â
#[sb: ugh you're so girly#grelle: thanks that's exactly what I'm going for#hArdEr]#halfofxerxes#ic#ic ask#f:s
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Can you do the last and first few on the sexuality headcanon post?
[I would be delighted to, thank you!Â
{ Meme }; AcceptingÂ
1. what do you label your muse as, and how do they label themselves? is there a difference, and if so, why?
I call Grelle a trans woman. If she knew of that term and understood it, sheâd use it as well, but alas, sheâs got a lot to learn and even more to unlearn before she reaches that point.
Normally, she just refers to herself as a woman, without modifiers. If you press her on that, sheâll eventually say something like [BAD TAKE ALERT] sheâs a man whoâs happiest pretending to be a woman. If you really trigger her, sheâs likely refer to herself with outdated homophobic slurs, because she has the Victorian idea that [BAD TAKE ALERT] she feels female because sheâs so gay.
2. has your museâs understanding of their own identity changed after realising they arenât cishet, and do you see it developing further in the future?
3. when did your muse first realise theyâre attracted to the gender(s) that they are?
Answering these together because that makes most sense to me.
Her attraction to men is, of course, straight, but since she was raised as a boy itâs the deviation from the expected that she had to ârealise,â and she was made aware of it long before she started figuring out her gender. I say âmade awareâ because other people noticed it before she did. Grelle is severely lacking in self-awareness as is, and her human self was 100x moreso. She would have been made fun of for checking out guys before she was even conscious she was doing it.
Even after that, though, she lacked the presence of mind to really âidentifyâ as anything, and if she had I doubt it would have made much difference anyway. The conundrum of being a woman attracted (mainly) to men, while expected to live as a man attracted to women, made her feel like she was accidentally living someone elseâs life and didnât have the power to change it. Iâve talked about it more in-depth elsewhere but the tl;dr of her suicide was to reclaim some agency in the only way she felt remained to her.
So the first time she consciously presented as something other than cishet was after her death, when she had a brief but intense period of living as a gay man (though she wouldnât have used that label, because anachronism). âThe Tale of Will the Shinigamiâ shows right when she began to realise that wasnât quite what she wanted eitherâor rather that it was only part of what she wanted.
As of 1889 sheâs in a weird sort of identity limbo of knowing that sheâs most comfortable perceiving herself and being perceived as a woman, but she doesnât understand the difference between sex and gender, so she doesnât think she can actually be a woman without a womb and all that. For the same reason, it feels invalidating for her to acknowledge what her body is, even in the context of working towards changing it. Evidently at some point she heard tell of sex reassignment surgery, so thatâs a start. Given that she literally has all the time in the world I think itâs inevitable that she eventually meanders her way around to medically transitioning, and Iâve written a couple things on here where sheâs on hormones or at least further along in going âfull-time,â as they say; but tbh #1 on the RP wishlist is a slow burn of Grelle finally getting some good takes that give her the mindset she needs to transition.
21. what words do they reclaim, what are they okay with being reclaimed, and what do they do not want to used to describe them?
Her terminology is totally different from modern terminology so Iâll address it more generally.
On the whole, Grelle isnât too bothered by words. Sheâs heard every slur for effeminate and/or homosexual men in the book and sheâs put up with them for more than a lifetime. Sheâs also rather good at blocking out things she doesnât like. So yeah, itâs not like she feels empowered by them, necessarily, but nor do they have much power over her. She doesnât use them herself unless sheâs having a self-destructive dysphoric moment, which does happen from time to time.
The weird thing about her (well, one of the many) is that being excessively validated bothers her just as much if not more than being misgendered, because she doesnât think sheâs valid, so she feels like sheâs being mocked. And sheâd much rather be outright opposed than mocked.
Once sheâs a bit more secure in her identity and also actually knows some terms specifically intended for trans people, I think sheâd feel fine about any that donât reference her genitals. Tbh I havenât written enough of her at that point to decide if she relaxes her overcompensatory standards of ladylikeness to use any herself.
For obvious reasons, she absolutely refuses to tolerate being called any slur associated with promiscuity or prostitution.]
#out of red#ask#ask memes#headcanon#anonymous#[tbh I should probably tag thissss#transphobia tw#even though it's grelle's own goshdang takes lmao]
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7, 19 and 20 (and hugs you tightly :3)
{Â Meme }; Accepting
7. how public is your muse about their gender / sexuality / romantic attraction?Â
[Sheâs very public about her gender. Itâs largely unconscious at this point, but every other word out of her mouth is like âfriendly reminder Iâm a womanâ because she knows certain things about her appearance suggest otherwise. Itâs kind of a self-comfort thing as well. She validates herself because not many other people do.
Her openness about being attracted to men is the sameâsee Victorian theory that attraction to men is what makes your psyche female. Itâs also the thing she was most conscious of hiding during her human life and itâs very therapeutic to not have to hide it anymore.
Though she is bisexual, she has more hangups about being attracted to women for the inverse reasons, so sheâs not as aggressively upfront about it. Still, itâs not like she denies it when it comes up.
 19. whatâs your museâs relationship with the current state of their body?Â
In a word: bad. Sheâs mentally present in her body as little as possible. You could argue she copes better than she used to, in that sheâs more aware now of what makes her more comfortable and what sets off her dysphoria, but (a) she still has nothing like a healthy relationship with her body; and (b) she often dissociates so hard that she forgets she isnât actually cis female and ends up accidentally triggering herself, rip.
Bonus related post
20. what are your museâs feelings towards the culture of romance and sexuality as it pertains to their identity?
WELL. Reapers have their own weird cross-cultural, cross-generational, cross-dimensional environment, and I might differ from the fandom a bit here in that I donât think itâs necessarily LGBT-friendly so much as itâs just⊠apathetic. Nobody cares about your personal life so long as you get your job done. Of course there are more resources available to educate yourself on your downtime if you have the initiative, but Grelleâs a 119-year-old boomer and dissociated and dumb and doesnât do that, so I hc sheâs still most affected by human culture, much as she denies association with it.
She was raised Georgian, and though she doesnât remember much of her human life (or any of her life tbh) it had a lasting effect on her worldview.  And obviously the setting of Kuro is Victorian. Grelleâs insecure in her identity as a woman so in one sense she tries to conform to every possible standard of womanhood sheâs presented with. She talks about wanting to be a good lil traditional submissive housewife [insert âKill in Heavenâ here], buuut sheâs also a bloody psychopath with some very Gothic fantasies [insert âShinkouâ here]. Medieval courtly love made a comeback in popular literature (Scott, Tennyson, etc.) and so she dabbles in playing the role of the noble lady-love as well. This may be another reason why she struggles with her attraction to women: she doesnât have an archetypal feminine part to play, and since she doesnât actually care about other people, playing roles is the only way she can have relationships.
Nowadays Victorians get painted as the Ultimate Prudes, and tbf there was certainly a good deal of prudery, but I think itâs more like⊠with English culture generally, and with 1800s people generally, and most of all with English 1800s people, they donât necessarily care what you do so much as what you talk about publicly. The focus is always on keeping up appearances. And Grelle gets a kick out of playing with that. She makes a great deal of very thinly veiled innuendoes, but if you call her out for being sexual, sheâs like âMe? A good Victorian woman? Talk about the naughty? I would never :3câ
Iâm reeling off topic again so to sum up, her attitude towards Victorian womanhood and sexuality is kinda simultaneously conformity and parody? And I couldnât tell you which is ârealâ and which is an âactâ because Grelle is an act, really.]
#rxseandscythe#[eyy thank you! <3#I've forgotten all my tags hjksfa]#out of red#ask#ask memes#headcanon#dysphoria tw
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[You know the drill, I started writing a reply to an ask meme and got off topic so Iâm making a separate post lol
As Iâve said before, Grelle doesnât identify as trans, or bisexual for that matter. She doesnât even know the words. The hot term in the 1800s was âUranian,â which started as the idea that amab people attracted to men have a âfeminine psycheâ and constitute a sort of third sex. If, hypothetically, Grelle had a moment when she was calm and self-reflective and undissociated, thatâs probably how sheâd define herself. She doesnât feel like a third sex, she feels like a woman; but she doesnât have the knowledge or vocabulary or the braincells tbh to describe it any better.]
#out of red#[I've definitely talked about this word before but apparently it was not on tumblr]#headcanon
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sexuality & gender diversity headcanons.  hereâs one for the lgbtq+ muses: put a number in my ask, and iâll tell you about my museâs gender or orientational identity and their relationship with it. tw: topics of homophobia, transphobia, dysphoria and discussion of internalised oppresive attitudes in some of the questions. if you want to help your followers to pick out questions a bit, tag this post with your museâs label(s) as you reblog!
what do you label your muse as, and how do they label themselves? is there a difference, and if so, why?
has your museâs understanding of their own identity changed after realising they arenât cishet, and do you see it developing further in the future?
when did your muse first realise theyâre attracted to the gender(s) that they are?
when did your muse first realise theyâre not attracted to the gender(s) that they arenât?
when did your muse first become aware that theyâre not cis?
when did your muse first become aware that their gender identity isnât within the binary?
how public is your muse about their gender / sexuality / romantic attraction?
is your muse out as lgbtq+? how specifically and in what situations, if that varies.
how much does your museâs gender identity and presentation differ from one another? is this a source of issues, or does the relationship between the two feel natural?
how does your muse feel about not being cis or straight? are they content with it, proud, ashamed? would the situation be the same if the culture or surrounding support systems were different?
have there been other meaningful people of the same or similar identities in your museâs life that theyâve looked for support or understanding from? how did that go, and was the impact positive or negative in the end?
what are your museâs feelings towards stereotypes relating to their identity? do they affect their self-image, or how they perceive others?
was your muse ever in denial about the matter? do you have any examples of specific instances where it was particularly obvious?
has your muse had feelings or experiences that seem to / do conflict with their identity? are these general knowledge? does it alter how others see them, or how they see themselves?
if the thing that originally caused them to realise / start the chain reaction to realising they werenât cishet had not happened, how much longer would it had take to end up here?
do they consider to âalways have beenâ, or do they see the phases in their life before coming out as âback when i was [cis/straight/allo]â?
how are their feelings towards pride and related phenomenons?
how does their family feel about the matter? friends? coworkers?âand does their thoughts matter to your muse?
whatâs your museâs relationship with the current state of their body?
what are your museâs feelings towards the culture of romance and sexuality as it pertains to their identity?
what words do they reclaim, what are they okay with being reclaimed, and what do they do not want to used to describe them?
#[heyo ask meme to get back in the swing of things?#my grelle is very... weird in this respect so it oughta be entertaining]#ask memes
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#[uhhh well I'm not dead#I kinda moved to london#so that happened#and has consumed most of my time and energy#now the deed is done I'm suddenly like OO RP again#so maybe I'll try to get things going on here again soon#in the meantime ask for my discord if you want it]#out of red
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Whatâs better than your wife or your husband making a cake for you? Your wife AND your husband making a cake for you đ A very very very happy birthday to my darling friend @grelleswife! You are one of the sweetest people Iâve ever met and Iâm so glad to have met you and the rest of our awesome Kuro family! Hereâs to many years of being dorky and soft together đ„° đ Made with Autodesk SKetchbook on iPad 6, finished with Paint Tool Sai and Genius Easypen I405X. This is gift art so donât repost or edit if youâre not the person I made it for, please respect this. Instagram. Asks/requests.
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âShe is dead, the dead are mysteries.â
â Louise GlĂŒck, from The Complete Poems;1962-2012; âPersephone, The Wanderer,â (via violentwavesofemotion)
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#[I thought she wasn't wearing pants for a sec and tbh I support her]#THE MAIDEN'S FACE âĄ#QUEUE OF DEATH â
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grell won my female character poll on patreon. thanks for everyone who voted. :3 [8/1000] ⥠twitter | commish | ko-fi | patreon | store | Leave caption, donât reupload w/o asking âĄÂ
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