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09/14/2020

To My Husband:

“I realized that I fell apart because you’re selfish and hateful to everyone who loves you most when your world isn’t going your way and your behavior during those time of rage causes unrepairable damage that you can walk away from with no actual consequence but leaves the rest of us hurt in unimaginable ways and you lack the common decency to take the time to truly look at your actions and see what hurt you’ve inflicted and imprinted on that person forever... but we still love you because we see what GOD sees in you.”

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Culturally… I’ve been dismissed out of the field I love. I guess this is the end. What do I do now?

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I got hired at Urgent care animal hospital in Eagle rock on May 30 of this year. I’ve been there doing exactly whats been expected of me. Being a good team player, helpful and understanding. I don’t understand how “it’s not a good fit” is an acceptable reason to terminate a persons means to survive.

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There’s nowhere safe for me to write without someone coming for me, so I’m just just gonna write on here 😮‍💨🤷🏾‍♀️

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The last star of the silent film era died yesterday at 101.  Diana Serra Cary started in films when she was 19 months old, as “Baby Peggy.” Like a lot of other child stars she was exploited, overworked, supported her entire family with her earnings, was considered “washed up” before she was 10 and was left with nothing as an adult. At 17 she ran away from home, knowing that her parents wanted her to work in films forever and she needed a way out. 

She eventually married an artist, opened a bookstore, and became an author and historian. Her 1978 nonfiction book Hollywood’s Children traced the exploitation of child actors from the 1800s onward. She also released Whatever Happened to Baby Peggy? a memoir of her child star years, pulling no punches on the abuse she suffered at the hands of her parents, directors and studios, who put her to work eight hours a day, six days a week and had her doing her own stunts before she was five. This scene here, from The Darling of New York? Not special effects. They actually put this small child in a burning room and she almost didn’t get out because they accidentally fired all the doors and windows. In 2011 a documentary about her, The Elephant in the Room, was released. She released her last book, a novel, at the age of 100.  She never got a star on the Hollywood Walk of Fame. She’s not remembered much in film histories. But she was one of the pioneers, and with her, the last of the silent era stars is gone. 

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I could get over anything as long as I have something new to be obsessed with

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BFF vs Mother?

Neither trusts the other

Both thinks the other is out to see me fail

Neither speaks to the other

Both gossip

Neither are very nice

Both are Scorpios

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I’m not getting remaining in the middle of this cause I can’t trust either of them anyways .

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Is this why there’s a shortage 😳😡😤

Off topic from my usual stuff but I figured I have a right to talk about this.

I, a person with adhd, have not my medication for 3 Months. I never thought to ask until now, and my doctor told it was because people wanted to lose weight.

You have no idea how mad I am. I can barely function, focus, or even take care of myself without it. And the reason is the same as why we are having diabetic medication shortages. Which my mother struggles with as well. I understand the want to lose weight but please, DONT TAKE MEDICINE FROM THOSE WHO NEED IT, I need my medicine, and same with my mother and everyone else who is having to suffer without them.

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what. the. fuck. tell me this isn't real

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😯😯😯

Reminder for adhd brains on stimulant meds (for extended release meds)

EAT AS MUCH AS YOU CAN BEFORE YOU TAKE YOUR MEDS

This is important bc it can prevent both a dopamine crash and a situation i experienced which idk the name of where the meds kick in too hard bc your metabolism is too fast and so it doesn't release slowly as it should.

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My dad’s boss was murdered by his wife. When I confronted her about it, she turned into Billie Eilish and started singing Bad Guy.

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I just get to my bests house but she’s not at home. So I go down to her dads house. She’s there but I wanted to finish my fries to free up my hands. I hear her talking about this morning but it wasn’t an informative conversation of concern. It was straight up gossip. The “I don’t sound like that” dumb broad voice and the tone of insincerity literally crushed my heart. But what can I say 🤷🏾‍♀️ I give people ammunition by being genuine.

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I never paid attention to the demons before but I see them now 🙃

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My kids were amazed when they found out 😅