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honestly, especially in the current state of the world, you all have GOT to kill whatever puritanical voice inside your head keeps insisting that if something is erotic it has no social, artistic, or intellectual merit.

stop acting as if someone can’t enjoy both erotica and literary fiction or classics. it’s not some dichotomy.

stop acting as if erotic art can’t be poignant and meaningful. and that includes all erotic art - not just fine art.

stop insisting that sex scenes or erotic material ruin movies and shows just because you, personally, get icked out watching it.

no, not all erotic art is high art, and not all erotic art is meant to invoke deep intellectual discussion - but insisting that makes erotic art valueless, a disservice to intellectualism, or whatever else - does nothing but add fuel to a fire built on conservative ideology.

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Forgive me... I can feel Raphael's stare on me. But I had this in my mind for something like two days.

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My first commission is ages! The artist is @triflingshadows who is brilliant to work with. They're a great communicator, work fast, and have a very original style that I adore.

Anyway, here's my Alec de Riva and his girlfriend, Harding, sharing a moment.

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both my partner and i were weeping uncontrollably yesterday (different unrelated reasons) so we are. not cooking today. low effort day. no more adult choices. i am getting a happy meal

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Iris Ingellvar, Cosmic mess extraordinaire

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had to quickly sketch these out bc someone mentioned emmrich in a robe and I wanted to do a comparison

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For some reason, I never connected the dots before this but the Mercar family is in/around Ventus, and that's where Sabine grows up. Mirevas was a runaway slave who ended up in the streets of Ventus, causing general chaos to the local law enforcers until they had to run away (again) into Arlathan Forest.

They're exes! A short, passionate, badly thought-out affair between two teenagers. One was a street rat with more heart than sense, and the other was the little princess from the Mercar estate who wanted to rebel against her parents. It ends when Mirevas lands in very serious trouble with the law, and Sabine helps them sneak away into Arlathan.

This practically writes itself. They were exes!!!!!!

I'm going to chew on this for the rest of the day 😤

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one tiny little detail i love about Veilguard is the absolutely random Memento and codex entry - one of the shortest in the game - that simply notes that if the Chantry ever tries an Exalted March against the elves again, the Antivan Crows (and thus Antiva itself) are going to fucking throw hands. Functionally, it's a conditional but perpetual declaration of war.

No long-winded sanctimony about their guilt, no long annoying thinkpiece, just: "If they or anyone else ever try anything like that again against the elves, either The Chantry (or whoever else) won't be left standing or Antiva won't."

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Thinking about how good the Varric being dead the whole time reveal really was. Like.

We get the trailer and we’re excited and we’re ignoring the dumbasses who think it’s Fortnite (it’s not). We get the gameplay trailer and it’s fifteen minutes of beauty. We go into it and we see Bianca die!! In front of us! And then solas stabs Varric! We’re worried! But no, they wouldn’t kill Varric off before we have the goddamn game right? But we’re scared. We’re oh so scared. Because what if they did??

But we get the game informer article and thank god. They didn’t. It confirms, right there, that we see Varric again. He’s not dead. They didn’t kill him.

And then we get the game and it’s a little weird. Like. Sometimes Varric talks and no one responds. Nobody else visits him. But he’s still there. He still talks to you. You go talk to him before every big quest. He talks about Lucanis.

And it’s the point of no return. You pick if you lose neve or Bellara. You watch Harding or davrin die. Lucanis is just passed out right? What is solas doing? That motherfucker what is he doing? Why is the statue you’re holding… Varric?

You talk to neve or Bellara and it’s about loss. It’s about responsibility. You talk to davrin or Harding and it’s about doing what it takes. It’s about choices. Is it Lucanis yet? No. But you know, now, who it is now.

He was always gone. He’s been gone the whole time (go away Sam Reich, we’re mourning our DAD). He died in our arms at the start of the game and we never got to mourn him. Solas used blood magic to fuck with our brains and denied us that ability to mourn the most beloved character of this franchise. The love of our hawke (platonic or romantic). The best friend of our inquisitor. The storyteller who has been there for us since the beginning. And then solas killed him and never let us mourn.

And how brilliant was that?

They killed him in front of us months before the game released and then did the EXACT SAME THING that solas did to rook. They told us he wasn’t actually dead look he’s perfectly fine see? He’s alive! Look he says things to you! He’s still there!

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naasrin adaar of the valo-kas

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I was working on the sugar baby fic and realized there was no actual ship name set for Emmrich/Rook/Johanna lmao so help me figure that out please?

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This takes place after the events of Veilguard in my lil HC universe, when everyone is kind of 'in transition' with their responsibilities and still often crash at the Lighthouse. Atash and Emmrich continue to live there for a while after they find out she's pregnant, while they get their living situation and marriage arrangements all figured out. Someday I WILL actually write that fic.

Additional Context, in case you haven't read every single entry of the codex (perfectly understandable, I'm just a compulsive lore collector and Veilguard's got some really good stuff about the team's private lives and dynamics):

These are Apple Butter Noodles, as invented by Lace Harding and then made by Bellara at the end of the game (if Harding dies). Harding is an inventive and terrible cook. We love her for it.

Okay, back to my thesis and No Time To Apologize. I just had this wiggling around in my head for a while and wanted to see if I could get it all out in a day as therapy for my drawing anxiety. It's super sketchy but I think it might be my favorite thing I've done so far.

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one of my current wips

(commissions open)

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can someone please be proud of me like fuck I’m trying