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Out of the dark the little boy came, hopeful and frightened, whispering over and over: "Lyra—Lyra—Lyra..." Why did the little boy keep calling Lyra's name? Hope.

— THE AMBER SPYGLASS

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ONLY FRIENDS | Ep 10

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Want some donus? No.

bonus:

ONLY FRIENDS | EP 10

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emotionally overwhelmed by ray's rehab entrance scene (who? me? i know right how weird and out of character for me to be doolally over a fictional happenstance with a broken character) and finding it so refreshing that, other than once by sand, there hasn't been an insistence that ray get help "for himself". that at his intake interview, he's given the option to be undertaking this scary vulnerable thing for somebody else's sake. because there is someone who loves him who wants him to do this, and that's reason enough. because he's hard to love! he knows he's nobody's fair weather forever, he's a broken, dysfunctional person, and he's hard to love, it requires patience to be with him, and he doesn't have that patience. ray's on the list of people for whom ray is hard to love, how is he meant to do something as hard as giving up drinking for himself? ray can't give up drinking for ray, ray's not worth that struggle.

but sand...

do it for yourself doesn't get it done for everybody. sometimes do it for yourself just makes it that much harder because "yourself" isn't a person you think is worth fighting for. but for a person you love? who against all odds and reason loves you? yeah maybe it can be done. and at the end of it all it doesn't matter why you do it - quitting drinking, not killing yourself, whatever it is - it matters that you DO it. and i found it really powerful to see that portrayed, when so many depictions will stress that the only way to truly recover is to do it for you. with support, yes, but not with someone else being your "reason" because that's "dependent" or "not healthy". when really, in practice, i don't care why you're still here. i care that you're still here, however you manage it.

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He asked me 'What do we wanna eat?' I said 'Anything.' Then he wants me to choose so we can go eat already. I couldn't think of anything so I just gave him three choices that were neutral for me. And he asked 'Really? These three? Anything else?' So i asked him "What do you want to eat? Just say it.' He's like 'Nothing special. You choose.' Then I need to keep guessing what he wants to eat.

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Perle von nurnburg 🙌💜🌵

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first calling ray a green flag… i was going to say he’s really channeling sand but not even sand is that delusional

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I just saw a post on Tumblr asking if you're "allowed" to do something in a story you're writing. (In this case, a POV shift.)

I just want to sing to the tune of Beethoven's Fifth Symphony, "THERE ARE NO RULES. THERE ARE NO RULES. There are no rules there are no rules there are no rules..."

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NEO TRAI as BOSTON

in ep. 9 of ONLY FRIENDS (2023)

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#subtitles not included #gifs to be used for objectification purposes only

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Holy shit! I just can't. Kissing you gives me nothing. Me neither. Nothing sparked at all. This is embarrassing. The idea was so lame. Are you okay? I am. Don't worry about it. It's funny. We're still friends.

Mark Pakin as Nick & First Kanaphan as Sand aka “Team Second Option" Only Friends (2023) dir. Jojo Tichakorn & Ninew Pinya

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MARK PAKIN as NICK ep.9

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Is there any scientific theory that explains why we're attracted to bad people?

ONLY FRIENDS | EP 9

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ONLY FRIENDS | Ep 9

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i like to imagine jojo just running into the gmm building and yelling "who here hasn't kissed first kanaphan yet?", getting a couple of "been there - done that" gestures from an almost alarming amount of people and then hearing mond sort of quietly say "well, i think i came quite close in not me the series", to which jojo responds "close isn't close enough. you're coming with me!" and drags him away to the ofts set.

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i can go anywhere, if i have you