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libsoftiktok going after a beloved inventor furry for some reason

if you're wearing a fitbit, you're using spottacus's technology. be grateful.

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[gamedev: part 12]

Okay, I’m very hyped to share this. I had this in mind for such a long time, and this week I was finally able to get the technical side running.

The intro music was basically the first track that I wrote. The loop I used ingame was more or less a second part after this banger of a song. I exported the song without mastering before. Now it is so much louder and the drums sound pretty thicc.

I wanted to be able to sync the camera to the beat and finally I figured that out.

func _ready(): %FmodBGM.connect("timeline_marker", Callable(self, "_opening_anim_fmod_events"), 0) func _opening_anim_fmod_events(dict: Dictionary): var marker = dict.get("name") if marker == "titlecard": References.sync_animation_title_card() var voice_line_intro = FmodServer.create_event_instance("event:/Voice/Opening/2clubmate bitte")

These are the functions I’m using. I found the documentation very difficult to get me to this point. But through trial and error, I finally made it work. I’m still unsure about the Int at the end of the Callable, but Godot demanded one, and I offered it one. At least it doesn’t break anything … for now.

The intro isn’t done—obviously. I still need the character animations. The idea is that the camera follows the protagonists while they walk to the pavillion.

I might get voice acting done for the whole game. If not, I at least wanted the intro to have some. The voices are done by me and @sixleggedboar. I have no real exp with voice acting, besides doing voices while reading VNs at home. But, I thougth it would be fun. And game jams are a good environment to try out things. I plan to do the voice acting in German, but there will be an English text version. I will either hate or like my voice more after this is done. I think I went a bit too soft and high here. But it I actually often go that high when in customer situations. Service voice was the term @sixleggedboar coined for this kind of voice. Kinda want to share how trannies sound in German—because it does sound different from English. I can attest to that, as that was a frustrating part for me during voice training.

Oh. And, I also added a main menu, a save option, a load option, and a few more lines of dialog. Not a bad week all in all. Still a long way to go. And I’m daunted by the feature creep and general scope.

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Long before the introduction of color film, a Russian chemist and photographer named Sergey Prokudin-Gorsky used an innovative technique. He took three individual black and white photos, each through a colored filter (red, green, and blue), to create fully colored, high-quality pictures. The photo of this woman, taken by him, is around 107 years old!

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we need to give this tweet more credit for im pretty sure coining "die mad about it"

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I'm watching a video essay about a game ive been interested in playing. The creator of the video, who has crossdressed multiple times, makes a "women arent funny" joke, and i suddenly realize ive never witnessed him acknowledge a woman in an uplifting way before.

I'm on a dating app for lgbt+ people. I've stated multiple times on my profile that i would rather lose an arm than recieve nudes without consent. I will be sent five dick pics for every 2 people i talk to that night.

I'm talking with my dad, who informs me he's been trying his best to learn about trans issues. He says the same things steven crowder brings up when trying to ridicule trans people. I gently but firmly correct my father and get told that ive been fed propaganda.

I'm on instagram, under the comments of a post ridiculing someone for being a misogynyst. Someone's left a comment saying "it must be hard being a woman on the internet" and i respond "it is." I will have every aspect of my appearance scrutinized as a reminder that no matter how well i pass, it will never be enough for someone with bad intentions.

I'm back on that dating app for lgbt+ people. I'm messaged by an attractive looking person, but i can see their partner prominently displayed in all but their main photo, oftentimes striking what im sure they thought was a very intimidating pose. Their bio says "looking for a third for our anniversary." I know that even if I did feel up to it, the gruff partner wouldnt approve of me because i don't pass.

I'm at a job interview for a clothing store. I tell the gracefully-dressed woman interviewing me that ever since i began my transition, i've discovered an interest in fashion, and that this job would allow me to dip my toes into the industry in a safe way. I'm told that i've reduced womanhood to a stereotype, and i can tell by her tone that i lost any chance at the job the minute she realized i was trans.

I'm at the same hospital i got facial feminization surgery in, trying to figure out what's wrong with my bowels. When the person behind the desk gives me a wristband with my patient info on it, i notice a single, lonely, letter M. I ask a nurse in private why it would say that despite me having changed it nearly a year prior. They say they have no clue, and bring in paperwork for me to fill out and have it re-changed again.

I'm living with my mom at the time. I'm new to transitioning, and decide to try my hand at voice training. It feels a bit off, but otherwise im feeling neutral toward the whole thing. I try speaking in this new voice to my mom and she laughs. Now, when people ask if i intend to voice train, i find speaking at all difficult for minutes after.

I didnt have some sort of grand message to convey by this. I just had a thought and then that thought spiralled into whatever the hell this became. Some, okay most, might call it complaining; they are right to do so.

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When trans women are mocked and made into jokes in the media, I get very upset, and I am often told “Kay, you can’t go through life getting offended every time someone makes a joke.” And I sputter and object but they don’t hear me. So I want to be clear for once, about why the jokes make me angry.

I learned to hate myself for being transgender before I knew I was transgender. I laughed at the jokes in stand up comedy routines, and prime time sitcoms, and animated comedy shows, and in the movies, and in books, and in games, laughing at trans women for existing, about “men in dresses”, about people who “got their dicks chopped off”, and I learned to think that was worthy of ridicule.

And then a day came when I felt a pang of envy at what my female classmates were wearing and I repressed it, and felt guilty, and a day where I felt incomplete because I had no breasts and I repressed it and I felt disgusting And a day when I realized the only images of romance that made me feel anything showed two women together and I repressed it and I felt like a monster And a day when I realized I felt sick when I looked at myself in the mirror after every shower before work and couldn’t bear to look at my own face, and I hated myself. And then there came a day when I hated myself so much, and I thought I could never understand why, and so I just wanted it all to end. And it was just a miracle that I swerved my car back into my lane in time.

And all of it started with a joke that I heard on TV, and then kept hearing from all the voices from the ether, over and over and over, worming an idea into my mind before I was old enough to realize I was absorbing it, the idea that a man in a dress is funny, and that changing your body parts makes you a freak, and that women who have penises instead of vaginas are liars and hurt men. And they’re still making these jokes. And somewhere out there right now, just like all those years ago, there is a little girl in a t-shirt and cargo shorts with buzzed off hair watching the TV, hearing that joke and absorbing it without knowing it, who will someday have to pry herself apart to tear it out of her head, just like I did.

That is, if she doesn’t kill herself first.

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it really is so tiring how people have endless patience and understanding and nuance for the complexities of nonbinary genderqueer identities until you're transfem. the amount of girls who would love to be able to be treated like something other than "binary trans woman" but can't cede any ground without getting relegated to the "genderfuck man" zone is staggering. myself in-fucking-cluded. people love to yell at me about how tma/tme is a harmful binary that excludes nonbinary people AS IF IM NOT A NONBINARY GIRL YOU FUCKING MORONS. but you forgot that was an option didn't you. tired of it

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Anomalous

Go and fucking play this thing. 20k words of beautiful robot x flesh monster toxic yuri.

Visually speaking, this is absolutely delightful! The art style and general art direction are really appealing to me, it's all really pleasant and unique. It kinda reminds me of the well-practiced-but-doing-its-own-thing of styles I'd have seen on FurAffinity in 2016, and I mean this in the best way possible. The artwork is fucking sick.

The story feels so incredibly cozy and comforting to me, and I don't wanna get into details because spoilers but yea

I genuinely just have nothing but praise and adoration for Anomalous. The story, the characters, the audiovisual presentation; It all coalesces into a beautiful and surprisingly heartwrenching story about emotional vulnerability, intracommunal solidarity, and bodily autonomy.

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Artificial Intimacy

Really cool art. Writing didn't do much for me tbh. But I played it for the jam so here it goes

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Everyone shut up they found Patrick and Spongebag

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berging my truck

working on a joke game that we'll probably finish by the end of the month (we've never actually made a complete game before so were doing something simple)

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[gamedev: part 11]

I finished setting up the floor tiles and now have a proper game world without blockout elements. Depending on the time I have left, I will populate it more. For now I want to focus on the animations, story, and getting the opening to work.

The rotating camera does look a bit like the ps1 level overviews in Thrasher or Tony Hawk’s ^_^

A small UI detail I added is this blurred background behind the chatbox, to make the text a little easier to read. I got the idea from Clair Obscure. I still need to update the character name colors, so they don’t get lost in the background.

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FREW HORT

toxicology yuri!

also very diy punk scene infused, fun

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[gamedev: part 11]

I finished setting up the floor tiles and now have a proper game world without blockout elements. Depending on the time I have left, I will populate it more. For now I want to focus on the animations, story, and getting the opening to work.

The rotating camera does look a bit like the ps1 level overviews in Thrasher or Tony Hawk’s ^_^

A small UI detail I added is this blurred background behind the chatbox, to make the text a little easier to read. I got the idea from Clair Obscure. I still need to update the character name colors, so they don’t get lost in the background.