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I’m blown away by the feedback on this fic!! Thanks so much everyone ❤️🥰

You must learn to love, to love always and love entirely

(Part 3 of my series “Some nights you are the sea, some nights you are the lighthouse.”)

4k of domesticity, acts of service, sharing food as a love language, service!bottom John. Rated E.

John’s love language is acts of service. After the war, John wants to take care of Gale and be cared for by him.

Although John has had an abundance of white bread and fresh eggs since returning stateside to fill up his belly, he hasn’t been able to bear the loneliness of eating without Gale or the rest of his men. It is a pleasure now to prepare food for Gale, to perform this act of service as if he can nourish and sustain Gale

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Bike race in the mess hall! Who's in? anon requested: bicycle crash scene in mota

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You must learn to love, to love always and love entirely

(Part 3 of my series “Some nights you are the sea, some nights you are the lighthouse.”)

4k of domesticity, acts of service, sharing food as a love language, service!bottom John. Rated E.

John’s love language is acts of service. After the war, John wants to take care of Gale and be cared for by him.

Although John has had an abundance of white bread and fresh eggs since returning stateside to fill up his belly, he hasn’t been able to bear the loneliness of eating without Gale or the rest of his men. It is a pleasure now to prepare food for Gale, to perform this act of service as if he can nourish and sustain Gale

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↳ variations on i love you by buck and bucky

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Devastated by the tear mark on Bucky’s face

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For my dog-coded Bucky truthers

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20 questions for writers

Thanks to @johnslittlespoon for the tag! Tagging anyone who wants to do it as I think everyone I know has been tagged or already done it!

how many works do you have on ao3?

3 fics at the moment.

what's your total ao3 word count?

6,591 words

what fandoms do you write for?

Mota - it’s taken over my brain and pulled me back into fandom!

top 5 fics by kudos?

lol I only have 3 fics up at the moment but by kudos:

Let the soft animal of your body love what it loves

I kneel into a dream where I am good & loved

If you want to be a dog, first you must learn to wait

do you respond to comments?

Yes, I super appreciate all the comments I get! ❤️

what is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

If you want to be a dog, first you must learn to wait. Only because it’s the first part of the series so it ends with John pining for Gale. I can only write happy endings for Buck/Bucky! So there will be a happy ending for the series as a whole.

what is the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

I haven’t posted it yet but it’s the 3rd part in my “Some nights you are the sea, some nights you are the lighthouse” series that starts with “If you want to be a dog.” (wow just realised how long and unwieldy my titles are! lol they are all from poetry.) The fic is basically about warmth and safety and envisioning a hopeful future for both John and Gale after the war.

do you get hate on fics?

Not so far thankfully! I suppose since I haven’t written much 😂

do you write smut?

Yes but my smut is not very explicit because I’m not great at writing it 🤣 I also feel my smut is pretty much all the same as well, I just keep writing John being submissive or bottoming for Gale (I just have specific kinks I need to write out and I’m not done yet like John having a praise kink or my coming untouched fic 😂)

craziest crossover?

Haven’t written one.

have you ever had a fic stolen?

Not that I know of!

have you ever had a fic translated?

Nope.

have you ever co-written a fic before?

No.

all time favorite ship?

Buck/Bucky as they are consuming my lifeee

what's a wip you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

I don’t really have any like that at the moment. Once I have the itch to write something, it kind of consumes me until I get it down and manage to express it how I want to. Otoh I don’t have wip ideas that are very lengthy or major projects!

what are your writing strengths?

I like writing emotions like character introspections or character studies.

what are your writing weaknesses?

Writing something with plot! Also I have difficulty with dialogue because I get caught up in whether it sounds like the character and getting the voices right. I also trip myself up thinking about whether it is something the character will actually reveal or talk about.

thoughts on dialogue in another language?

I don’t really have any thoughts on this.

first fandom you wrote in?

Harry Potter, I was super into Drarry.

favorite fic you've written?

Let the soft animal of your body love what it loves cos it was my first fic in the fandom and it is so extremely self-indulgent. I have such a thing for fics where John is taken care of by Gale so I wanted to write a fic like that for myself where John is so incredibly babygirl! and wrapped up in a warm blanket. The fic is like my ultimate comfort fic where it’s heavy on the comfort part of h/c and I’m sooo into words of affirmation as the comfort.

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Last Line Tag

rules: show the last line you wrote and tag as many people as there are words.

catching up on tag games, thanks for the tag @counting0nit and @johnslittlespoon. No pressure tagging @hogans-heroes, @swifty-fox and whoever wants to do it!

To hear Gale, usually so buttoned up and reserved, call him “darling’” and “sweetheart” sends a fierce thrill through John. It acts like a salve on the parts of John that feel abandoned and unwanted.

This is from part 3 of my current post-war series. I have re-written those lines SO many times. This fic has had me in its grip for a good week and a half but I feel like I’m nearly done.

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john being a good catholic boy and keeping his crucifix on during sex 😇

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Find the Word

This is so fun! Thanks @counting0nit for tagging me :)

Rules: Share snippets of your work containing each of the words the previous poster selected for you (optional addition: if you can't find the word in your WIPs, or you simply don't have any WIPs, you can just write a sentence around the word).

My Words: anticipation, high, church, finish

Your Words: need, ghost, warmth, tears

Hurt

Let the soft animal of your body love what it loves

“John.” Gale’s whisper is urgent in the dark. “Don’t you disappear like that on me again, y’hear?”

It shouldn’t hurt but it does, that Gale would think that John would go somewhere he can’t follow. It’s like a knife slicing into the tender places between his ribs. 

2. Shining

You must learn to love, to love always and love entirely (current WIP, part 3 of my series Some nights you are the lighthouse, some nights you are the sea)

John sees it now, the bright shining possibility of a future together. Maya bounds up to him, a picture of doggy happiness. He pushes his hands into her fur, thinks “we’ll take care of him together, won’t we girl?”

3. Comfort

If you want to be a dog, first you must learn to wait

Out in the soft enveloping night, John feels comforted by Gale’s presence, the lived in familiarity of walking side by side with this man, out in the mud of the stalag as they skirt the warning wires, shoulder to shoulder as they trudge heads bowed against the freezing cold blizzard that sliced through them like a knife.

4. Scent

I kneel into a dream where I am good & loved

Gale’s familiar scent, the musky smell of his aftershave is driving him wild with need. John wants to rub himself all over Gale, to rut frantically against him like a dog in heat.

Tagging @hogans-heroes, @johnslittlespoon, @swifty-fox, @triggerlil no pressure!

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Sorry I haven’t really been around. Work is so exhausting and draining atm. I have two days off starting tomorrow but I also have a competition with my puppy early in the morning and class. Will catch up soon!!

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JOHN "BUCKY" EGAN in MASTERS OF THE AIR PART THREE ↳ we're gonna get through this. come on. don't you stop believing that.

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John Egan couldn't go a second without confessing his love in some way. Nearly losing an eye to gift a bike, the nickname, singing 'Blue Skies' while looking directly at him, getting demoted on purpose, swapping out his coat, finding radio parts, not letting anyone pack Buck's locker, laying his life on the line by stepping in front of a gun for him. This man revealed his feelings for Gale Cleven in every single scene.

(gif: galebucky)

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