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haydennicholas-blog1 · 8 years ago
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My friend told me she got a cute ftm waiter that reminded her of me and it was a good moment
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haydennicholas-blog1 · 8 years ago
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So many horror movies would go better
If somebody just turned some fucking lights on
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haydennicholas-blog1 · 8 years ago
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Nazism isn't just a belief system yo. Its just being a hateful piece of crap.
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haydennicholas-blog1 · 8 years ago
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My dad sent this to me with no explanation. Are you expressing your acceptance of me or are you trying to tell me I need an oil cooler for my car?
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haydennicholas-blog1 · 8 years ago
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Getting comfy with the First Order
Cuz once we lose net nuetrality we're gonna be living in it
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haydennicholas-blog1 · 8 years ago
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I refuse to give up my bubble baths just because they aren't inherently masculine things. Youll have to pry my Japanese cherry blossom oasis out of my cold dead hands
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haydennicholas-blog1 · 8 years ago
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I have a new theme song
*to the tune of activia*
Dysphoriaaaaaaaa
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haydennicholas-blog1 · 8 years ago
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The story of That One LGBT Cousin™
"OH YOU LOOK SO PRETTY"
*dysphoria*
*awkwardly sits as conservative family praises trump and inadvertantly mocks my socially liberal views*
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haydennicholas-blog1 · 8 years ago
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SAVE THE INTERNET
If you're not scared right now about losing net neutrality; You should be. Study up folks, or 2018 is going to fucking suck.
This isn’t my type of post but Net Neutrality is so important.
Forget your page’s aesthetic, share this with everyone you know. Without Net Neutrality, the internet itself would change.
Companies would be able to charge websites if they want them to load faster than others on your computer. This means that they would purposefully bottleneck speeds on every website that doesn’t have the funding to pay for it faster speed. There’s NO reason for this. Are you a small business with a website and can’t afford to pay enough to get faster speeds? Too bad. Are you someone with a personal blog? Slow page loading. Do you want to view a website written by a nonprofit organization for your school project? You’ll have to wait until the page loads because, since they’re nonprofit, they can’t afford to pay enough to cable companies so that their page loads faster.
An alternative to this would be having to pay for faster internet. Internet service should be priced by usage, not speed. For home internet, unlimited use isn’t all that expensive so it’s really common. You wouldn’t want to pay extra for more speed.
This would possibly affect the way that the internet works on other devices such as your phone, gaming system, laptop, tablet, etc.
We NEED Net Neutrality.
If a company doesn’t agree with a specific website, they could purposefully limit traffic to their site. This would be censorship, something that nobody likes.
There are many other reason as to why you should protect Net Neutrality.
This is an issue whether you’re a Republican, Democrat, Left-wing, Right-wing, young, old, male, female, rich, poor, etc.
EVERYONE SHOULD ADVOCATE FOR NET NEUTRALITY.
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haydennicholas-blog1 · 8 years ago
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Why I hate holiday times
Dysphoria, dysphoria
Wherefore art thou dysphoria
YOU FUCKIN SUCK
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haydennicholas-blog1 · 8 years ago
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Life goals
The ability to have my future girlfriend tell her family “I’m dating a sweet transvestite from TRAAANSEXUAL TRANSYLVANIAAAA”
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haydennicholas-blog1 · 8 years ago
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I just hate it when someone says bless you after I sneeze and I burst into flames. Seriously. People get so freaked out. Jeez.
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haydennicholas-blog1 · 8 years ago
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Educational shit right here
Testosterone FAQ
What changes will happen?
Your skin will get oiler and you’ll get more acne for a bit.
If you’re older, you might get male pattern baldness/scalp hair loss.
You’ll get facial hair growth, and more body hair.
You’ll also have increased muscle mass/strength, and it’ll be easier to build muscles.
Your body fat will redistribute to more masculine areas, so your facial shape might change a bit, and fat might collect at your stomach instead of hips for example.
Your period will stop, your clitoris will get a bit bigger, and your vaginal walls will get a bit thinner and things may be drier down there. Your libido will likely increase.
Your breast tissue may shrink a bit and get softer but it usually doesn’t change by a full cup size.
Your voice will deepen, and you may or may not get a bit of an Adam’s apple.
Some people experience mood swings, as it is your second puberty. You’re more likely to have mood swings if you’re taking T by injections that are 2 weeks apart or more. Testosterone doesn’t cause “roid rage” or anything like that though!
For more information, read Testosterone Therapy, a complete guide.
What are the potential negative effects of T?
Side effects of taking T mean you’re more prone to the health issues cis men have, like higher cholesterol or increased cardiovascular disease with dyslipidemia, hypertension, increased red blood cell production, clots (legs, lungs, heart brain)- this is rare but it’s a possible side effect.
You will be getting regular blood work to make sure you’re healthy, so your doctor should be able to tell that there’s an issue if something develops and adjust your dose. If you want to reduce your risk of side effects, make sure you eat healthy and exercise. A goal should be maintaining good nutrition (including 3 dairy products a day or fortified almond milk) and doing cardio (for 30 minutes 5 times a week) and lifting weights (3 times a week).
For more information, read Testosterone Therapy and General Health
How can I take T? Are needles the only option?
T can be taken via injection as the most common option. Some injects are subcutaneous (sub-Q) and some are intramuscular. You can self-inject when shown how to do so, however you can often also get a nurse to do it. Some people find that they have mood swings or energy changes when they’re on a longer shot cycle like every two weeks or longer instead of weekly because they’re getting a bigger amount of T at the start of the cycle and then hitting a low in the days before their next shot, but other people prefer longer shot cycles because it means less frequent injections.
You can also take testosterone by applying a topical gel once a day. Each pump or packet is a certain measured amount, and you’ll put the gel wherever your endo/the instruction tell you to apply it. It’s usually an area where your clothing covers because it’s important to avoid skin-to-skin contact where the gel is applied. Some people say that the gel isn’t as effective as the shots, but if you are having your T levels monitored, and adjusting the dosage as needed, that shouldn’t be true. Some more info on the gel is here!
There’s also pellets you can get implanted that release T over time, and you get them replaced every few months. The implantation process does involve needles. You’d be numbed with a lidocaine injection first (the only pain you’d feel). Then the doctor inserts a small hollow tube (a few millimeters wide). The pellets are fed into the tube and under the skin, which feels weird but not painful. The whole process takes a few minutes and you’re done for awhile.
There’s also a patch you can use that you place on your skin and it releases testosterone that way, although it can cause skin irritations like itching sometimes.
For more information, read Testosterone Types and Delivery
How do I get prescribed T?
This post has more on that! The process can vary; there isn’t one singular route to testosterone.
You have to have permission from your legal guardian to start T if you’re a minor. This post should help with getting the conversation started about that. Note that many endocrinologists don’t allow someone to start T until they’re 16, but this isn’t a law and it’s up to the prescriber’s discretion.
You do have to have started puberty to get T. If you haven’t started puberty yet, you should look into puberty blockers.
How often do I take T?
All injectable T is taken on a weekly cycle. Some low cycle ones are every week, every 2 weeks, every 4 weeks, or every 6 weeks. Longer cycles would be 10, 12, or 14 weeks. If you have an itchy swelling at your injection site, look here. Gel is taken once every day.
Can I do testosterone on my own?
No, sadly not. It isn’t legal to get a testosterone prescription without a doctor, and it’s dangerous to do on your own; look at The Risks and Dangers of Illegal Testosterone for more on the dangers. Testosterone supplements and “natural transitioning” methods don’t actually have enough T in them to make any changes- in fact, your body will convert low levels of T into estrogen, which is not what you want.
Can T cause weight loss/gain?
It depends. T can cause an increase in metabolism, but also an increase in hunger. It can cause fat redistribution, from hips and rear to midsection. It can also cause muscle gain. We have info on eating disorders here and getting help here if you think that weight gain could be a trigger.
Can I get taller on T?
It depends. The younger you are, the better your chances are at growing. If your growth plates have already sealed, you won’t grow any taller on testosterone or without it. We have info on height dysphoria here.
What happens to my downstairs bits on T?
T and your Genitals: A summary is a good place to start.
Your clitoris will grow (that’s called clitoromegaly) and it’ll usually be around 1.5 inches, although it can be smaller or larger, depending. You can see pictures of what that looks like here. Genital growth isn’t something you can opt out of if you take testosterone; again, if you take T, you can’t prevent your clitoris from growing.
T can cause atrophy of the vagina and and uterus, but vaginal atrophy is treatable if you go to your doctor and get a topical estrogen cream or pill for the area. Vaginal atrophy is symptomized as irritation, itchiness, bleeding when penetrated, and dryness.
When on T you still need to get gynecologist appointments if you still have your uterus and ovaries. There are possible but as of yet unproven links between cervical and ovarian cancer and testosterone treatment, people are often encouraged to get a hysterectomy but it is not considered necessary.
You can still masturbate and have all kinds of sex while on T, but your vagina may not self-lubricate anymore, so you might want to use lubricant for anything that involves vaginal penetration.
Can I get pregnant when I’m on T?
Testosterone decreases your biological fertility and it stops menstruation. Testosterone can cause polycystic ovaries, so lower abdominal pain may indicate an enlarging or ruptured cyst. You may want to look into freezing your eggs if you’re interested in having biological children. If oocyte preservation is desired, that should be pursued before you start T.
You can still get pregnant on T, although it’s less likely to happen than if you were not on T, so you should still use contraception if you’re having the kind of sex that could get you pregnant. You can use an IUD (more info on those here) or a progestin-only pill or a condom, which is the only one of the three that also prevents the transmission of STDs.
Will my chest shrink?
It can decrease somewhat in size due to fat redistribution, but generally not to a flat chested extent. It won’t get smaller by a full cup size, especially if you have a larger chest. It may get a bit softer, which might make binding easier (binding is also easier if your chest gets more saggy from the binding). You may also grow hair on your chest. 
Will I go bald?
Not everyone who takes T will experience hair loss, and if it does happen it usually happens when you’re older. But T can cause male pattern baldness, although it’s not guaranteed and relies mostly on genetics. This post has more information on hair loss, and you can see Hair Loss: Information and Treatment Options.
What if I get acne?
You can look at Dealing with Acne & Other Skin Breakouts to help control the acne.
If you have a personality disorder that is affecting your response to the potential of acne, look into getting a therapist to help find new coping mechanisms and see our distress tolerance DBT skills post and our self-esteem and self-talk post.
I like singing, how will T affect my voice?
T will deepen your voice but as long as you continue to practise and don’t overwork your voice into notes you cannot reach anymore, it shouldn’t harm it. This ask has a link on that.
Do I have to stay on T?
If you want to retain all the effects of T then you do need to stay on it. In order for optimal health, if you get your ovaries removed you will need to stay on a hormone for the rest of your life, be it T or estrogen. Read about what will revert and what will remain if you stop T here.
When do the changes happen?
This post has an outline of when the changes tend to happen. This is someone’s personal experience 1 year on T timeline and then their 5 years on T timeline, and this is Skylar’s 1 year on T. This is mod Lee’s 3 month on low-dose T update and mod Jay’s 1 year on average-dose T update. If you’re on low-dose T, the changes will take longer to happen.
I want X changes but not Y. Help!
How do I know if HRT is right for me? T is not a pick and mix, you can’t get some changes and not others, and as a result you have to weigh up the pros and cons as to how much you want T. It’s all or nothing, although you can take it slow with Low Dose Testosterone and have the changes happen slower, so you can stop when you’ve had enough. Read more: Can you take testosterone and not end up all manly?
I still want to know more!
Check out our #testosterone tag and r/ftm testosterone info and gendercube’s testosterone tags and send us an ask if you have any questions! You can also find a lot of YouTube videos of people documenting their transition on testosterone.
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haydennicholas-blog1 · 8 years ago
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Annoying things about parents #1
When they aggressively force you to be someone you’re not (and you have to go along with it), verbally abuse you for being who you are, but then get upset when you’re not ecstatic to be exactly the way they want you to be.
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haydennicholas-blog1 · 8 years ago
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Anytime I feel like killing myself I just remind myself that pizza in hell probably has pineapples on it
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haydennicholas-blog1 · 8 years ago
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haydennicholas-blog1 · 8 years ago
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