hazamacore

[hazamacore]

flowers i collected on vacation

[hazamacore]

i really love that picture it’s from the cover art of the 3ds game i just love how they edited itona in the back like that

[hazamacore]

hi can u watch my freaks for a second while im gone

[hazamacore]

how it feels rn

[hazamacore]

Secluded places in the portuguese mountains

[hazamacore]

[hazamacore]

[hazamacore]

Pokémon Mystery Dungeon: Explorers of Sky ✦ (2009)

[hazamacore]

When trans women are mocked and made into jokes in the media, I get very upset, and I am often told “Kay, you can’t go through life getting offended every time someone makes a joke.” And I sputter and object but they don’t hear me. So I want to be clear for once, about why the jokes make me angry.

I learned to hate myself for being transgender before I knew I was transgender. I laughed at the jokes in stand up comedy routines, and prime time sitcoms, and animated comedy shows, and in the movies, and in books, and in games, laughing at trans women for existing, about “men in dresses”, about people who “got their dicks chopped off”, and I learned to think that was worthy of ridicule.

And then a day came when I felt a pang of envy at what my female classmates were wearing and I repressed it, and felt guilty, and a day where I felt incomplete because I had no breasts and I repressed it and I felt disgusting And a day when I realized the only images of romance that made me feel anything showed two women together and I repressed it and I felt like a monster And a day when I realized I felt sick when I looked at myself in the mirror after every shower before work and couldn’t bear to look at my own face, and I hated myself. And then there came a day when I hated myself so much, and I thought I could never understand why, and so I just wanted it all to end. And it was just a miracle that I swerved my car back into my lane in time.

And all of it started with a joke that I heard on TV, and then kept hearing from all the voices from the ether, over and over and over, worming an idea into my mind before I was old enough to realize I was absorbing it, the idea that a man in a dress is funny, and that changing your body parts makes you a freak, and that women who have penises instead of vaginas are liars and hurt men. And they’re still making these jokes. And somewhere out there right now, just like all those years ago, there is a little girl in a t-shirt and cargo shorts with buzzed off hair watching the TV, hearing that joke and absorbing it without knowing it, who will someday have to pry herself apart to tear it out of her head, just like I did.

That is, if she doesn’t kill herself first.

[hazamacore]

new one again bc the old one died. tldr I am a disabled autistic person living with his also disabled autistic boyfriend and we need extra help with money

my boyfriend works but his job likes to randomly cut his hours and the pay isn't the best, and I cannot work. he drives a lot during work which in turn makes us need gas a lot, which is where a good chunk of our paycheck ends up going every week. the rest usually goes to bills.

no goal bc we always need help. thank you for reading & reblogging, even $1 goes a long way. thank you. please help us if you can

pp / ca

[hazamacore]

lol he doesnt even know

[hazamacore]

Art by seongryul

[hazamacore]

tagged by rey in a game to list a fun fact about urself ^_^

fun facts about me: i took judo classes until i was 14, every year i replay yokai watch 2 for the 3ds, my favourite fruits are strawberries

[hazamacore]

tagged by cinna in a little game i am very sorry in advance for what u may discover about me (blond, blue eyes)

i’m over 5'5 / i wear glasses or contacts / i have blonde hair / i often wear sweatshirts / i prefer loose clothing over tight clothes / i have one or two piercings / i have at least one tattoo / i have blue eyes / i have dyed or highlighted my hair / i have or have had braces / i have freckles / i paint my nails / i typically wear makeup / i don’t often smile / resting bitch face / i play sports / i play an instrument / i know more than one language / i can cook or bake / i like writing / i like to read / i can multitask / i’ve never dated anyone / i have a best friend i’ve known for over five years / i am an only child

[hazamacore]

me when im so sweet and beautiful

[hazamacore]

like I'm sorry but I will keep posting about this until people stop being cunts and shitheads so I think we'll be here a good while. every time I talk about the colonial framing of australia and how colonialism is at work in modern day understandings of this country I only need to count to ten before every european and usamerican in sight starts spouting complete bullshit. why don't you all take a deep breath and examine why the fuck you're so wedded to the idea of australia you have in your head

[hazamacore]

Free pdf.