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Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Naruto Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Hatake Kakashi/Yamato | Tenzou Characters: Hatake Kakashi, Yamato | Tenzou, Sarutobi Asuma Additional Tags: Established Relationship, some innuendo and misunderstandings but nothing explicit, Fluff, a little bit of that involuntary mokuton use because I can't resist, Canon Compliant, Drunkenness Summary:

Yamato presses his face into the crook of Kakashi’s neck, giggling and warm with each outbreath, tickling nerves in a way that sends flush spilling up his collar beneath the mask to settle under each eye, “Missed you, senpai…”

(And you will still be beautiful.)

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i was reading some of your fics and i love how big your vocabulary is and your use of words is utterly fascinating, ive never read a fic about Shanks before but the fact that it was you i felt like i had to check it out cause i needed to, like i just needed to read your words i like the words you use idk what else to say

Looks at you with big wet eyes... this is very kind of you, it's always shocking to me when people are compelled not by subject (which is what I use mostly to parse fanfiction, guilty!) but by my style... I think it's just irrational insecurity, but I always think of my style as an obstruction--there's of course an argument that all words are obstructions, but I think that's mistaking their purpose, and wanting them to do the work of the mind--to my content, like something I should get around, but I can't, haha, and so have to deal with, and so the same for anyone who reads something I've written.

So, yes, great to hear you like my turn-of-phrase and diction, especially because she and I have a fraught relationship!

I've said this before, but I don't think synonyms exist in the sense of being able to substitute a word for another--every word has a specific utility formed by the way it is used/has been used/you are presently using it! And the same word in different places always means different things. So for me, it's not about using a more complex or a rarer word, though I admit I am tickled by rare and complex words, but rather a more precise word. Unfortunately, precision requires sometimes obscure or specialist vocabulary, which can be distracting but I generally find refreshing, especially if it can replaces several words... and in this way I comfort myself that I don't violate any rules of concision or needfulness (at least in diction, haha). This is also why occasionally in my writing, you might notice that for certain sensory or emotional details I will lapse into a list of approximates--I'm trying to create and define a field to collect or to distinguish something very specific...

I also have never abandoned the trick of looking up and writing down every word that is new to me, though obviously repeated exposure and repeated use and etymological/positional knowledge is really the only way to begin integrating a word so it can actually be put to work. I also don't use thesauruses unless I have a word already in mind that I can't form, or I have a notion that there's a specialist term that must exist but I don't know. I also am always willing to manipulate and unearth words, though I don't ever really stray into invention.

Thanks again--really one of the nicest things I've heard about my work; I like when a thing I'm conscious of/strategic about is noticed . Hope you don't mind the rambling/found it useful or insightful!

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really old things

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saw ur post abt recommending books... do you keep a storygraph or goodreads or anything of the like 👀👀

Hiii, thank you for your interest, it flatters!! I don't do anything of the sort, at least anywhere public. I do keep track of the things I read in personal lists, though! 'nd I'm always happy to talk about what I'm reading ('cuz I'm a square) so it's not too hard to get out of me if you are ever curious 👍

And always happy to hear about what you r reading, my friend anon : )

^^ I typed this reply in June of 2024, and I had a lot of tags I attached it, so I'm going to leave them here below the cut, because I suppose this is equally--probably moreso addressed to the Haze of June 2024 as it is to the present Haze, but present Haze would like that space back, haha.

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you don't have many Lawlu fics i think maybe i remember you saying "Luffy is hard to write" or that was someone else but can you explain how you portray their relationship? i love how you write them so much

Thank you so much, I'm glad you like how I write them! They're really special to me, something about their relationship is shockingly mellow and very internally incomplex--in terms of their compatibility, the way they get along and accomodate each other, I don't know, they're sweet to me, something about it is strangely easy between them...

I can't remember exactly having said that, but it doesn't seem out of character for me, haha. I think writing a cerebral characters give me more excuses for my stylistic idiosyncrasies, so Luffy is difficult to integrate ahdufkhf.

I think something that drives the way I write them, which maybe gives them a different flavor than other people, is that I am motivated by the things that make them fundamentally similar to each other--which is actually a lot of things, if you pay attention to them! E.g. I think one of the ways they get flanderized (non-pejorative, it's just how fandom is) is that Luffy is empty-headed, and Law is an over-thinker, but I think when you look at both of them, they actually have their own semi-fixed and relatively narrow internal logics that they rely on, which manifests as their being singular in pursuit, kind of insensitive to certain kinds of social/etc. feedback or pressures that would avert them from their purposes, inventive (by operating on nonconventional logic). Law's is more explicable, and more conscious, but I think they're ultimately both pretty internally consistent. And some of their more superficial similarities seem to come from this place: they easily become the butts of the same kinds of jokes, they're stubborn...

I think when you think of them in terms of their fundamental similarities, it becomes easy to see how delighted they are in each other; what expectations they have of each other (unconventional ones, the kinds that would appall or confuse anyone with standard romantic conceptions), how they meet and exceed them... they're just so compatible....

I hope that answered your question a little bit. I look forward to writing more of them when the inspiration strikes. They're really sweet.

Thank you so much for asking and for reading and for caring. Be well!

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several months of miscellaneous mountainboys

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There'll probably be a spasm of paranoiac activity where I am overwhelmed by my need to self-justify but then it will be normal and I will just post gay people kiss again or whatever.

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ok some of you guys are going to see something pretty scary in a few minutes 🤭

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(Cover art by @twigoffir)

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I don't know how often you check this blog but your Earthsea stuff is deeply devastating. I just finished Farthest Shore and I am desolated that Ged and Lebannen do not meet again What!!!!!!!

I'm around, ahaha, thank you for coming to me in your time of need, what an honor, come let's hold each otherhrkdgh....

I literally felt the same way--I stilll feel the same way--the share of unhappiness for that young man devastates me--there is simply no way around it!!! Lebannen my king my angel (messenger!) 😭😭😭 I'll be sad about them forever and an age.....!!! What!!!!!!!! indeed!!!!!

There are ways to make peace with it--Lebannen is sooo full of grace and duty (this is an ugly word for it; wish I had a better one) to let his mourning round out into the wholeness of his life. And I understand--for thematic purposes, for development and consistency of character purposes, etc. why their separation is necessary (not as an ideal/prescriptive, but as a product of their realities).

I though can't help but prod the wound in petulance. And in a way I think it's important and part of his wholeness to revivify that too, so it's not entirely self-indulgent, haha, but maybe that's self-aggrandizing. I want to be petty and rageous and weepy and one million other immodest things on his behalf--or allow him to have his moments. I want only to honor him: the man who is king (who you will enjoy getting to know!) and the boy who had railed at the dragon, all of this out of love always, what else to honor!

Really hope you enjoy reading Tehanu / Tales / Other Wind!! I think some of it will balm you a little bit but that besides Earthsea is a lovely place to live for a while, and it waits for you, too : )

Thank you for sparing the time to read some of my writing about them--sorry also 🤭🤭🤭I live here forever so um if you ever have any thoughts or need to feel like you are being burned alive by sadness on their behalf my inbox/dms are open. xoxo.

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HAZE ART WOOOOOOO i love it as always ♥️

Hi, I typed this reply on Jun 26th (how is it December already?!?!) 😭😭😭 and I just never posted it for insane paranoiac reasons but I'll just post it now (below cut):

THANK YOU GEN i am actually just clearing out my drafts though and tidying up my screenshot folder haha I actually haven't been drawing anything worth posting lately. But I'm glad you're enjoying.

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WELCOME TO CRYSTAL SPRING, FLORIDA

(drew this with my fingers in one hour because i'm crazy)