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wake up every morning wish the day would end, long nights got me overthinking everything. i'm getting used the pain i start to feel numb, tell me what i gotta do to feel alright. mama told me that it's alright but it's not so i drank, oh no. i don't understand what you're saying till I'm sober, will you say it again when it's over. i've been trying to search for angels fighting demons, i think i've found happiness in self destruction. living hell depressed oh fuck i'm overthinking, too scared to show no i don't wanna spill my weakness anxiety got me relying on these happy pills. i hate to admit but i don't think i can quit my addiction. i'm so happy, oh what a wonderful life.

these nights i'm lost in my head, i don't know when to get out. she might be fucking someone else while i'm alone in my bed. hallelujah jesus, save us hands together. i'm on my knees again praying hoping that you'll be there when i come down. can't fucking take this, will you chase me when i run out? living hell depressed oh fuck i'm overthinking, too scared to show no i don't wanna spill my weakness. anxiety got me relying on these happy pills, i hate to admit but i don't think i can quit my addiction. i'm so happy, oh what a wonderful life.

I'm not sad I'm always high, Dad loves drugs more than I do. Mom crying, Dad is hitting mom who is always crying. Whimpering, I don't need a home. Let's run away somewhere, let's run away somewhere. Let's live in Tokyo, let's live happily. I was in the middle of work when I noticed I want more of what dad liked. I'm sorry, mom.

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Stitch up this heart and hide it away. I keep it somewhere dark and safe, watch it fade to grey. I still feel this way when light catches your face, you open these stitches again when I see your face.

I guess what I'm saying is I don't wanna die alone, keep looking around and there's nowhere left for me to roam. I can't keep my head up, there's nowhere left to go. Please take me home. And now we're standing here with blood on our hands, you tear me open and dig through my chest. I'm so sad and cold with the spaces you left. I stitch up my heart again and lay this to rest.

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It's hard for me to see exactly where the hell I went wrong. I never thought I'd see the day we wouldn't get along. You think I smoke too much, I think your friends all suck, can't figure out the reason why our parents fight so much. But I've given up on luck, but I'm happy here. So leave my sweater on the porch, I'll leave your bag under the stairs. Don't go back to our old place, it's probably locked up anyway. I bet it still looks the same as when I ran away that day. It doesn't matter anyway 'cause I'm happy here. I sleep well alone now...

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Those voices in your head, scream louder through the dead of night. They don't mean anything. We'll make it to the morning light. You call your mom to cry but you can't even tell her why. And each day restarts again while you still focus on the end. No, baby please don't go.

Hold on to something real, I can't know just how you feel, I wont stand to ever see you cry. Please help me understand, and I'll stay and hold your hand, and we'll get through every single night.

And all those words cut deep, your broken heart is hard to head. Still up at 3am, and still your breath seems so unreal. There's just a clouded bath without the chance to turn back. And each day restarts again no matter how it's gonna end. No, baby please don't go.

Just hold onto something real, I can't know just how you feel, I wont stand to ever see you cry. Please help me understand, and I'll stay and hold your hand, and we'll get through every single night.

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Holding back the time to when I used to care, but I'm hopelessly lost so I'll have to meet you there. You say that we can trust you, but then I change my mind. A second chance on the repeat, time after time. And don't you say a word to me without it being true, 'cos life was so much simpler before I had met you.

My eyes are focused, my mind is stretched. This cross you bear to me hold all of our respect. And don't you say a word to me, I guess I'll meet you there 'cos trusting you is numb to us like breathing in cold air.

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How dare you stay, I'm not for you. Turn away my love, I'm not for you. Wait, stay, time keeps slipping away but I remember what it's like to be good. And wait, just stay, I'll keep slipping away but I remember what it's like to be good. I'll take, you take, I'm not a saint. Turn away from me. Even with you, I feel alone.

Wait, stay, time keeps slipping away but I remember what it's like to be good. And wait, just stay, I'll keep slipping away but I remember what it's like to be good. I'll take, you take, I'm not a saint. Turn away from me. Even with you, I feel alone.

Good enough, you've hurt enough. Come stay with me right here. But do you even care? The past, the memories are all I have. You saw the best in me.

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Well I'm unsure of the way that I'm feeling, but it's providing something new or could I pause my life - regress and rewind make fantasy scandals come true. Experience and corruption and my baby boy's graduation seduction - ah, am I a fool to be waiting for you? Oh am I seeing double - head hit - overwhelmed, and I make no mistake that this time I must have fucked with myself. Can I come over? Will you please hold my hand again? I don't care too much who it is - Oh I just wanna feel wanted. Well our timing isn't perfect but we're worth it, so I'm searching further for the first time - Valentine on my mind - overtime, toe the line because I'm feeling those eyes. I know I made you tell me 15 times, but I'm wondering - are you mine?

And I'm thinking of you whether I want to or not, nobody will believe me anyway. We made a promise - I'll be patient with jealous observation. Oh! Baby blue eyes always looking your way!!! OPEN WIDE I'll feed you the lines, and oh we'll try to kill time while we're stuck in the middle OH! They say it's wrong and I thought that I was joking, but I must have joked too many times and now I want to feel wanted. Well our timing isn't perfect but we're worth it, so I'm searching further for the first time - Valentine on my mind - overtime, toe the line because I'm feeling so right. I know I made you tell me 15 times, but I'm wondering - are you mine? Oh... Are you mine? Can you decide what's on your mind? What's going on?

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Floating in a cozy state of suspension, I thought I'd find you here. You felt the air between us was unclear. Without a word, tongue in a bind, I was not prepared to speak my mind. The dust settles in time. Oh, enough is good enough for what we're holding onto. I'll wait for another rush of blood. I'm filled up, like enough is good enough for another rush of blood. If only our past tense would speak in simple rhymes, the stones we left unturned would finally roll aside. They would be few. I'm digging in the soil to uncover you, find a place to ease your mind amongst the seeds that we both knew would never bloom. Oh, enough is good enough for what we're holding onto, I'll wait for another rush of blood. I'm filled up. An air of fear and fragile trust. A sour taste, a faulty touch. You will find me, but you won't find love.

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I woke up in bed at 4 am, the first thing i did was think of you again. I don't know but it kills me looking at you. I wanna rip my heart out again. I dreamt all I could when I was young, I'd float on the clouds every now and then. I don't know but it kills me looking at you. I wanna rip my heart out again. I hope to dream with you. I'm sorry it's okay. The music's getting louder for me. Monkeys on me.

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dress up like someone else and pretend like that’ll help all because you’re afraid of being yourself. i’ll be blue if it makes you happy cause in my mind i am trapped in all because i was scared this wouldn’t happen. i hope you hunch til the end of time, you have no guts and you have no spine all because you’re afraid of making the time.

so i’ll give you space to breath that’s fine and i’m your spare time i’ll leave you behind. i’ll give you space to breathe just fine.

daisy chain, all the words you say together their they’re tethered in my brain. 'cause my heads held hostage by all these constant thoughts of you and i every single night.

now every song you’re bound a mention tell me love is that enough attention for you ? it was never enough for you.

so i’ll give you space to breath that’s fine and i’m your spare time i’ll leave you behind. i’ll give you space to breathe just fine.

daisy chain, all the words you say together their they’re tethered in my brain. 'cause my heads held hostage by all these constant thoughts of you and i every single night.

where will i find you, i don’t believe that you’re searching for me the same way that i do for you. a lifetime i’ll spend stuck in my head cause it’s the one place you haven’t left yet.

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All I really wanna do is sit around and drool with you all day. All I really wanna do is sit around and drool with you all day. You watch TV, I fall asleep. I love the way you turn to me. Suddenly I watch you choose what do you know is best for you. Suddenly I watch you choose. I'd die for you

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I see you're out again, I hear that you're doing fine and I guess that's okay, I guess I don't mind. I was a fool back then, I was out of line. I told you I loved you because I felt alive. And I don't-- I don't know. My mother's old brother's guitar strings have finally broken like all things do. Am I a piece of who you are now? Do you carry me around? Do you cast me out like I do to you?

Maybe I should grow up, maybe I should be fine or maybe I am make believe. Maybe I am the puppet strings, maybe I am the spare time you spent between your sheets, maybe I am the spare time you spent between your sheets. I am the spare time and your time.

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I woke up to the feel of your embrace, my heart was a turnstile. I felt something worthwhile that I haven't felt for years and I'm afraid; I just can't settle down, it's just not my style. Ooh, lost in your eyes. Ooh, lost in your lies. I woke up to the sound of the rain coming down on a sky-rise sometime last night, and like the autumn leaves, you were bound to fade; gone with the best times. A kiss under moonlight where you said "ooh, lost in your eyes. Ooh, lost in your lies."

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I fantasize about your eyes, they criticize, I think I like it. Call me crazy, call me a fool-- I would give up anything just for you. And I can't even say her name, but It's driving me so insane. Do you even think about me 'cause I've been thinking about you lately. I want to quit you but I can't, no. Don't go. I don't want to live alone. Without you my life is incomplete, I see you in every girl I meet. Don't lie to me to play it safe, just keep it cool, do what you do. Unexplainable emotions take over now. I live for you my love, gotta wear your heart on your sleeve if you know what I mean. Unconditional love, I'm breathing life into you. I hope you stay, as long as I remain.

Don't go, I don't wanna live alone, without you my life is incomplete, I see you in every girl I meet. Don't go. I don't want to live a lie, without you my life is insincere. Now you're in every song I hear. Downfall, the way it goes for me. Do I ever cross your mind In times when he's not me? Pack all your clothes, I don't want this anymore in a Realm where I'm ignored. Should i savor your goodbyes over and over again. Sell our story of heartache, I would do it all over again, oh don't go. I don't wanna live alone, without you my life is incomplete. I see you in every girl I meet.

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You got marker on your hand. Holding shoulders, I saw a policeman drive-by. Heel to dirt I felt that couldn't cut my wrist and I spent hours on, I'd have held myself much closer then. It's my party and I'll cry if I want to, hearing personal last names.

Never felt like I got off that train, in the back of your apartment I would lay down. Feel the burden of that carpet, brush my cheek and I spent hours on I'd have held myself much closer then. It's my party and I'll cry if I want to, hearing personal last names. Calm the stutter I could lie like you have to just enough to make you wait.

Pooling like the blood around my knuckles or the lake around your parents house or the cut along your eyelid. Heavy in the way I trace my losses in the glass where I had only stood, I could lapse around your offers, feigning like you don't know what to call it in the pace along your brother's eye or the tremble in your hands now.