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[hell-in-a-nutshell]

A new low point

I just had to buy fucking adult diapers. My glow is so damn heavy.

I've always had irregular periods. I would not get it for months and then basically I would spot for a while or have a light flow for too long and then it was over. I didnt have cramps or any of that.

I finally being my ass to the obgyn for this and they put me on birthcontrol to help control my cycle. Cut to me finishing the first pack of hormones, and then I start bleeding pretty heavy. I'm also now back in school, I think it's just bc I stopped but then it continues into the next week. Then i move back to school. I have to call my gyno office on the phone and a doctor I had never met changes my prescription to a higher dose pill 3 times a day for 4 days then 2 times a day for 4 days and then once again. After the first four days the bleeding stops, it continues to be stopped with the 2x a day but the second im.back down to 1 a day I bleed again.

Then its labor day and my flow is back to being so heavy that I cant get ot the bathroom quickly enough to change my pad and my tampon.

So I go to the ER beciase something needs to be done. I get put on provera and then an progesterone based birthcontrol. I ask the doc when she though the progesterone would stop the bleeding, and she said probably 48 hours.

Well it's been t days and the bleeding doesnt seem to he slowing down at all. And I'm fucking sick if it. I have ruined every pair of my underwear, I had to wash my sheets this morning. I have to leave all of my classes at least once if not 4 times based on how long it is.

I cant sleep well at night beciase I'm worried about leaking. And I have so much anxiety about the whole situation that its also making me not sleep.

Im. So. Tired. I'm tired of bleeding. I'm tired of being tied to the bathroom. I'm tired if cramps that make me nearly sqeeze stressballs in half. I'm tired if everyone having to worry about me.

At this point I wish I would get dizzy from the bloodloss so I could go back to the ER and maybe have something change.

[hell-in-a-nutshell]

We took note from the avengers fandom and denied harry potter being over for long enough that we get a new series 

[hell-in-a-nutshell]

I read a lot of fictional works, because for me reading is an escape, and a break for the boring ruts and problems of everyday life. Why would I want to read about the real world when that is what i’m escaping from? That would be like taking a vacation from work, to work. 

[hell-in-a-nutshell]

I read a lot of fictional works, because for me reading is an escape, and a break for the boring ruts and problems of everyday life. Why would I want to read about the real world when that is what i’m escaping from? That would be like taking a vacation from work, to work. 

[hell-in-a-nutshell]

I bet you’re wondering who I killed for my url, and I can assure you its none of your fucking business. I didn’t get the gig of bus driver by obeying the law.