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You will burn and you will burn out; you will be healed and come back again.

Fyodor Dostoyevsky

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“Keep the ones who heard you when you never said a word.”

— Unknown

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Soon, wish I had longer sleep. Goal this 2024 🫶

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Me, who you needed the most.

“There are some people who could hear you speak a thousand words, and still not understand you. And there are others who will understand — without you even speaking a word.”

— Yasmin Mogahed

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“Healing is layers. Healing is time. Healing is excruciating. Once you think it’s done, it’s not.”

— Mary DeMuth

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I'm here. Crying. Again.

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Before this year end, I want to acknowledge my achievement this year which is surviving nursing course with RLE duty. It wasn't an easy journey for me, I encountered lots of hardships that made me cry, broken, and even doubt myself. No one was proud of me as they don't see how I struggle with my course. They think I'm taking it easy but no, they don't know my silent battles.

I wish, in the year 2025 I already have a diploma and RN after my name. I want to prove myself that all the challenges I'm battling is worth it. This is God's plan for me and I will fulfill this.

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I'm tired, I don't know what will make me happy anymore.

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🩷

“I would like to be known as an intelligent woman, a courageous woman, a loving woman, a woman who teaches by being.”

— Maya Angelou

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Finally found my peace

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And sometimes I have kept my feelings to myself, because I could find no language to describe them in.

Jane Austen (via quotefeeling)

But when I did, I write them so somehow my feelings would lighten. 

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It is because they want finish this painful journey of them and once they wanted to move forward for it, they will call it as a new beginning for a fresh start.

“New beginnings are often disguised as painful endings.” - Lao Tzu

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March 6, 2020. 11 midnight. It is the last night of our recollection that I felt my true self. Why? Because first, when the teachers started contributing the letters to the students, I keep avoiding eye contact with my classmates to keep myself from crying. I even move my chairs away from them and even ignored their call to me. Why? It is because I am pretending to be strong which means it is not my true self because honestly, I’m not a strong person. Luckily, I avoided it from happening. I controlled my emotions. And when the time comes when we are going to say our grudges to anyone, I felt nervous because I might cry in the middle of confession. And the moment I heard the truth that I want to know, I cried. I can’t help my tears from flowing. And it is where I became me, I show who I am, a weak person. And why did I cry? Because it is my weakness, I felt betrayed the moment I heard the truth. The trust he built from me from the past two years destroyed in a single lie. I felt betrayed that I want to punch his face. And from that moment, I hardened the wall of my heart, I’m not letting someone in and doubt people. The quote is right from the Wattpad book I read, "The severity of pain caused by betrayal focused more on who did it more than actually what they did. The most destructed part is when it comes from the person you trusted the most."

L. 

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I’m going to tell you a secret: You don’t have to believe every thought that pops into your head.

B. Dave Walters (via quotefeeling)