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Ayyyyyyyyyyye I’m gonna be moving main blogs so if you want to keep up with my things go follow me on @mokiinspace

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Oh shiz

Reblog or your mom will die in 928 seconds.

I love my mom.

I am risking nothing

I AM SORRY FOLLOWERS, I LOVE MY MOMMY

Will not risk.

sorry followers :(

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Nobody :

Me : Describe myself in images on my device? Okay!

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Doot doot

*Gasp*

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Give me the dang doot doot

ha?

every single person who reblogs this

every

single

person

will get “doot doot” in their ask box

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reblog if you are ASEXUAL, support ASEXUAL PEOPLE, or SECRETLY A DRAGON IN HUMAN FORM

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Hey if you’re lgbt rb this and tell us how you chose your icon in the tags

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LOOK AT HER I love her and I don’t care

this background dancer is going so hard

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Fucking stab that reblog button if you hate pedos

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😳

Acoshiba

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WE’RE OFF TO SEE THE WIZARD THE WONDERFUL WIZARD OF OZ WE HEAR HE IS A WHIZ OF A WIZ IF EVER A WIZ THERE WAS IF EVER OH EVER A WIZ THERE WAS THE WIZARD OF OZ IS ONE BECAUSE BECAUSE BECAUSE BECAUSE BECAUSE BECAUSE BECAUSE OF THE WONDERFUL THINGS HE DOES WE’RE OFF TO SEE THE WIZARD THE WONDERFUL WIZARD OF OZ

No one can stop me from reciting this song at the obviously appropriate time

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Tumblr is toxic and I’m very afraid :D

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Peanut Butter wants to explore but also wants to stay inside his warm blanket.

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i need help

i'm sorry to post something like this on this blog, but the person in question follows my main and personal blogs, so this is my only option.

im not going to write a whole novel and give the gritty details, but im stuck in a situation of domestic abuse. ive been living with this person for about a year now, and it wasnt until very recently that the full weight of the situation came crashing down and i realized how horrible living with this person truly is. she's been violent with me, gaslights me, has physically hurt me, and has mentally and emotionally tortured me. i feel trapped... these past few days, i've finally reached out for help. my mother, my therapist, and my other roommate all agree that it would be best if my other roommate and i move out as soon as possible to put an end to this. i need to escape. i have no other choice, or i'll continue to be abused and i'm not sure how much more i can take before it breaks me. its already had horrible effects on me and my health as it is... but i have very little money. my teaching job is halted during the summer, and my summer job hasn't been giving me hours. i cant wait another two months to wait for my teaching paycheck to come in, because i cant spend much longer here and it would only be for 2 weeks worth of work. i only get paid at the end of each month. at that job.

please, if you can, consider helping me out by donating to my paypal or my ko-fi links. any little bit helps, even just a dollar. there are a couple of places that are in our price range in the area but neither of us can afford a full months rent from this current apartment + deposit and rent for new apartment + food and necessities. i only have about $500 to last me a full month and i still havent paid for conservice or the wifi or pg&e for this month yet. and idk when ill be getting paid or how much it will be from my current summer job that hasnt been giving me hours.

paypal: https://www.paypal.me/lionbirbs

ko-fi: https://ko-fi.com/animorbid

i can offer tarot and pendulum readings in exchange if you want one, depending on the amount donated. i'll try to be generous based on my time available.

if you dont donate, i would appreciate if you reblog to get the word out. i need all the help i can get.

thank you.

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Warning : I’m a grumpy confused nonbinary and I want to kill myself while simultaneously flirting with cute girls REEEEEEEE

I hate being a female, I just want to chop off the physical bits that assign me as one and feel free. I obviously can’t because that would hurt like Hell and I would probably die if I attempted it. I, in no way, encourage self harm or anything like I just said I wanted to do, so don’t assume I’m telling other nonbinary, trans, etc people to do that, in fact no one should.

Then there’s surgery, but I’m 15 and there is no way in a billion gazillion years my mother or any other members my family would approve of me going up to a surgeon and saying “Hi can I apply to have my boobs removed, thank you”

I wish gender didn’t even exist, I hated explaining to my mum why I was uncomfortable being referred to as a “she” but also a “he”. I told her I want to be called a “they” and that’s the only pronoun I want to be referred to as. As many times as I kept explaining that literally sometimes the word “they” doesn’t always mean a group of people and it can mean one person, she doesn’t get it, she pretended she understood. Every day after that she had completely forgotten and still referred to me as a “she” and I gave up trying to explain because I hate explaining certain things in general. No matter how uncomfortable and unintentionally disrespected I felt on the inside I kept quiet from there.

It’s okay to not understand, we’ve all been there at least I know I have, the least you could do is try to respect someone by simple ways they request to be respected such as being called a different pronoun, even if it feels like rocket science to you.

I feel a bit stuck to be perfectly honest. I want to be seen as a person without a gender in public, but that’s not as easy when you have a family who you feel you can’t talk to about these changes because they’re probably as confused as you are.

I really want help, but I know it would involve talking to my family and they’re always busy, it would take time to make them understand at least a little bit.

I don’t know what to do, maybe I could try displaying how I feel in a subtle way and then keep doing that gradually over time.

I can’t go up to them and say “Hi here’s a word you don’t understand and I’m that!” And call it a day, easy, done. Nope.

Honestly I don’t even feel my genitials need to be there! I’m also asexual, I don’t experience sexual attraction or any interest in sex. Asexuality is a spectrum so it’s not just that simple self explanatory definition. I like girls romantically and my mum found that out recently. She doesn’t know I’m asexual but kind of knows I’m nonbinary like a little bit? She thinks I’m just a regular lesbian living my “I like vagina when I get old enough I’m going to-” life. Well that assumptions a bit complicated for me specifically, but you know explaining what I actually mean when I say “I wanna date girls” would take more loads of effort knowing who I’d be talking to.

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