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[hiiiorhey]

19 Febrero, 2025

Desde que te amo, ya no tengo frío, fuiste la calidez en mi invierno, pero el invierno nunca dejó de existir.

Un amor que toqué con la punta de mis dedos, pero nunca pude sostener.

Un amor que siempre sentí tan mío, pero nunca logré sostener en mis manos.

Eres la poesía que siempre me encuentra, la palabra en cada verso que no busco, pero ahí está.

La poesía que vive en mis huesos, el susurro entre versos que no se atreven a terminar.

En el susurro de un poema de amor, en la tinta de un libro viejo, en la canción que suena cuando el mundo calla, siempre tu.

Un amor que se siente como lucha y anhelo, como algo que resbala entre mis dedos, justo cuando creo, que por fin es mío.

Un amor tejido en suspiros, en la distancia y el anhelo.

Amarte ha sido como sostener el viento, como intentar atrapar el reflejo de la luna en el agua.

Siempre ahí, siempre hermoso, pero siempre apunto de escaparse.

Te encuentro en cada palabra que se arrastra con nostalgia, en cada línea que se ahoga en esperanza y desvelo.

Te quise en el silencio, en la espera, en la forma que el mundo se detenía cuando me mirabas con esos ojos que parecían conocerme sin palabras.

Eres el amor que se escribe con tinta indecisa, el que existe entre lo que fue, y lo que nunca será.

La historia que quería escribir con mis manos, pero que siempre se escurría entre mis dedos.

El amor que vivía en mi poesía, en cada verso de anhelo y nostalgia.

Pero dime, amor, es amor si siempre duele?

Si mis manos están frías y las tuyas ya no buscan las mías?

Si mi nombre ya no se enreda en tu boca?

Si el destino siempre nos pone en caminos opuestos?

Si el fuego es solo ceniza esperando el viento?

Talvez el amor que perdura, no es el que se graba en los poemas, si no el que no necesita ser escrito para existir.

Y aun así, cada vez que veo un poema de amor, sigues siendo mi primer pensamiento, como si mi corazón no supiera cómo dejar de encontrarte en cada palabra.

Pero si el amor es poesía, entonces Antonio, tú has sido todos mis versos.

Y aunque el destino no me deja retenerte, sigues habitando mis palabras, sigues siendo el amor que mi alma aprendió añorar.

Talvez, tú siempre serás mi poesía, pero nunca mi para siempre.

[hiiiorhey]

If you have chemistry, you only need one more thing. Timing.

[hiiiorhey]

Dear me,

It's okay to wear your heart on your sleeve. I know it's gonna get you hurt quite bad at times but to be so full of love is what makes you so special.

Please give some of that love to yourself too.

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it’s the little things that have always mattered the most to me, a good morning text that i no longer receive, a good morning text that i know someone else would. you used to.. why not now? why can you answer me when i ask about you day? you hardly ever tell me about your days.

i am doing an awful lot of comparing lately, i don’t want to— i can’t help it

i feel so uncared for

it feels so lonely here

i have you here with me, i have always been yours, but i don’t think you were ever mine

you used to tell me how much you loved me and used your words, now you just expect me to know, don’t you know i’m an over thinker? i always tell you that i am.. you used to send so many messages telling me such pretty things, were they just pretty lies?

why have you changed so much? i don’t understand..

i feel like you hide me now

why now

why

you used to always post me, a story, a post

now i haven’t seen you do it in months

i’ve met your mother now

why have you changed

was it always like this? did you try your hardest to get me to fall in love only to let me fall out of it all on my own?

can you not see i am drifting from you?

do you even realize?

do you even care?

why am i afraid to talk to you? you never open up, why is it so difficult to talk, to have deep talks and understand each other

there’s someone always in the back of my mind, the one person who wouldn’t do this, the one person who i could never lie to, the only person i could unapologetically be myself with.

if such person exists, why can’t i just fucking leave you

why do i still want to hang on, i love you and i love him, i chose you— are you not choosing me?

where do i lie in your heart?

[hiiiorhey]

i think by doing what i believe is the right thing i may accidentally be loosing the one person who cares about me the most

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✰✰✰✰ ✰✰✰✰ ✰ MONEY LOVES ME ✰ ✰✰✰✰ ✰✰✰✰

˖࣪ Money loves me.

˖࣪ I'm a money magnet.

˖࣪ I have an amazing relationship with money.

˖࣪ I receive large amounts of money every day.

˖࣪ Every day I receive 1 million dollars.

˖࣪ I am a billionaire.

˖࣪ It's crazy how I'm so rich.

˖࣪ I am the sole owner of my own money.

˖࣪ I have full control of my money.

˖࣪ Money comes to me positively.

˖࣪ I always find large amounts of money wherever I go.

˖࣪ I am the richest person in the world.

˖࣪ My bank accounts are full of so much money that I have.

˖࣪ I have 10 million in all my bank accounts.

˖࣪ Money comes so easy to me.

˖࣪ My lifestyle is wealth.

˖࣪ I am, I look and I feel so rich.

˖࣪ With my energy I project wealth.

˖࣪ I am so rich that I can buy anything.

˖࣪ Every time I spend 1 dollar, 1 million dollars come to me.

˖࣪ Every second my money is multiplied by 1,000,000.

˖࣪ My money is physically and energetically protected.

[hiiiorhey]

crazy to think about how much we shared, crazy how much i think of you still despite no longer being in contact with you. i wonder if our paths will ever cross again. how much time will go by before i hear from you again? will i ever hear from you again? i cry when i think of you, crazy how much you mean to me and despite that things ended by my own doing. was this self sabotage? i wonder how i could ever go back to such a time before i met a lion that dragged me into a world unknown to me without you.

i look at the moon and think of you

i look at myself and imagine your pat on my head

i think of gentle forehead kisses and think of you carefully caressing mine

i sing songs about us, the ones you sent to me

i don’t get songs anymore, i don’t get butterflies like i did with you

where are you? laying in the arms of another or waiting for a time to meet again?

i wonder

[hiiiorhey]

luna estas en todo lo que veo, en cada mencion de tu queretaro, en cada cancion de amor bonita, mis suspiros son para ti, irreemplazable como persona, te quiero un chingo pinche morro *head pats*

[hiiiorhey]

saw my lovely boy after almost three months without seeing each other, came down for the weekend <3 had lovely time together met at the park like usual, he got me a gift a virgencita de guadalupe necklace which he struggled for a while to put on then came around whilst i was crying lowkey and crouched in front of me where i was sitting on the bench and asked me “quieres ser mi novia are?��� —claro que si quiero.

25 mayo 2024, 21:00ish

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❤️❤️ Life has been good to me lately, trying not to overthink and let my anxiety get the best of me. Trying to heal and become a better person, for myself, to let myself love again.

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You make me blush like crazy, i never knew that someone could make me blush so hard, to where my cheeks feel on fire and such intensity flows through my veins~ and when you tell me you can see how much im blushing, my heart flutters like a butterfly in its maiden flight, exploring the world for the first time,

I can’t get you out of my head

[hiiiorhey]

Feeling giddy and nervous all at once, such weird emotions— such brand new feelings. I am happy, i am sad, i am everything all at once, do you really want to get to know me?

[hiiiorhey]

Simple Moon Phase Chart

It can be pretty easy to get confused about moon phases, so I'm going to give y'all a little cheat sheet here. It's what I've got in my Grimoire and hasn't failed me since I've started using it. Super beginner-friendly, easy to copy, and you can adjust it to your preference as needed.

Enjoy!

The new moon: Setting new or refreshing old intentions, new beginnings, fresh starts, and trying new things.

The waxing moon: Future planning, confidence in yourself, and being sure in your actions and life steps.

The first quarter: Self-appreciation, pausing to enjoy the moments, reflection on yourself, shadow work.

The waxing gibbous moon: Being mindful of yourself and those around you, honing your skills and talents, taking actions.

The full moon: Manifestation, shadow/inner work, divination, charging magic tools/crystals/moon water.

The waning gibbous moon: Evaluating next steps, reviewing choices and options, and assessing your options/skills.

The third quarter: Releasing worries and troubles, letting hard things go, cleansing mind, body, and soul.

The waning moon: Self-love and self-care, caring for yourself and/or others, forgiving yourself, and surrendering to your next steps.

Although it may not be perfect, this is the chart that I plan m practice around and it's yet to fail me!

As always, practice in a cleansed space and always do your own research. Good luck everyone, and blessed be!

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[hiiiorhey]

Smoggy mornings 🌱

x x x | x x | x

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i want to cry because it’s over, but no more tears will come out.. i’ve cried enough ♥️

—not me tearing up while typing “i’ve cried enough” if i cry it’s because i feel at peace, while it does hurt— im learning it was perhaps for the best

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#5 #6 #7

Before my shower after you said you’d call, i got an overwhelming urge to cry randomly

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When you finally called and i was at kims house and you hung up bc you didn’t feel like talking //because i was at kims

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Now that im home and i think im getting broken up with and i don’t even know why, but you said you are tired and are going to sleep so i let you go but im so uncertain of my future, i’ve never been so uncertain in my life as i am right now— the thought had crossed my mind about possibly not being together for the rest of our lives, but this feels too sudden, we hadn’t even started living. What made you think of this? Why now? Deep down i kind of knew this wouldn’t really last long? But did it have to be now? I didn’t even get the chance to show you how i truly am. You didn’t get to see me thrive on my own (place/apartment) I don’t understand any of this. We just got married for fucks sake does that mean nothing to you

Things were just fine a few days ago.. how did things escalate so bad to get to this point? I don’t understand i just don’t understand

[hiiiorhey]

#4

“Solo dejame solo”

“No kiero nada”

“perdon pero nomas no puedo dejarte solo..rogelio ya no aguanto mas esto, no me nos quiero ver asi peleados, quiero yo arreglar las cosas, quiero saber y entenderte, y disculparme bien contigo por lo de el otro dia.. te diria que me la pase distraída y lo mismo que te dije entonces pero ya se que no son buenas excusas para decirte lo mucho que me arrepiento de aver causado esto entre nosotros..talvez y digas que como chingo con la misma cosa pero tambien no me puedo quedar sin seguir tratando de arreglar esto.”