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on survival

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[hisui555]

Hey did you know there's a tell all book about the behind the scenes of Meta and the author is forbidden from promoting it?

The good news is however that it's already published and can't be stifled and whoever didn't sign the NDA can promote it as much as they want.

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Painful but true !

(grabs you by the shoulders) you have to make room for new experiences in your life. you have to go through the unpleasant work of leaving your comfort zone, even if just for a few minutes at a time. because if you don't, your brain will trick you into stagnation. you will start to believe that the world can barely fit you in it. but that's not true. it's the opposite way around. you can fit the whole word inside of you. your task is only this: to welcome it with open arms

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(The same two but whatever. Yes the white one needs to hold your hand to sleep.)

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TpoH Puns (2) : Concepts & Trees

TPoH Puns 1 : Titles

TPoH Puns 3 : Characters (later)

Alright before I forget : Round 2 ! A compilation of all the puns found in the concepts and the Sun Trees, and their French translation in the TPoH-VF blog for whoever would like to share or feels stuck finding them. This is meant to help others out (especially non-native English speakers), give the author appreciation and indirect feedback of their work, and have fun.

Some are French-translation exclusives or creative detours (so, not a direct 1:1), all Mod approved !

As always, the rules :

Be nice to each other : no mocking or hating. We want to be a good fandom, not a frothing mess full of tantrum-throwing toddlers.

Don't bother/flood the author or other readers and translators about it.

Don't be afraid of pointing out what looks "obvious" : you can share as long as it doesn't repeat something already said.

Let others read at their own pace.

Mark your spoilers in the tags if you reblog, and, if putting your findings in the comments, follow this template : "I have found a pun about X" => Reply to your own comment : "[insert the pun here]"

Again, warning : THERE WILL BE SPOILERS. Also the fun of the reading experience is to find them out yourself first and foremost. Reading TPOH first is highly recommended.

I also might be wrong and I'm far from infaillible and invincible. Take this all with a grain of salt.

The trees (pieces of the Sun/Light) : 

Disembark as in the bark of a tree (prendre le bois)

First tree : Heart/Hart (a hart is a type of deer) (no equivalent in french)

Third tree : Lùng/Lungs (a lùng is a chinese dragon) (no equivalent in french)

Second tree : Birdbrain (cervelle d’oiseau) + egyptian bird holding up the sun on its head (like Thot the Ibis or Nekhbet the vulture)

Fourth tree (ox ? bull ?) : Bullseye (?) (oeil de boeuf, a type of window, though no “hitting the target right in the middle” pun) + egyptian bull holding up the sun on its head (like Hator, who mothered Râ, god of the sun), possibly ?

Fifth tree (elephant ?) : Pachydermis aka skin (?) (pachyderme, derme = skin, donc peau d'éléphant ?)

The concepts/things/beings :

World of Make-Believe (Monde du Faire-Semblant) : makes things to believe into, what happens if it doesn’t believe in itself, 

Lies (Mensonges) : white lies (mensonge blanc), lying through your teeth (mentir comme un arracheur de dents), snowballing lies getting bigger (mensonges grandissant), lies falling apart (les mensonges s’effondrent), telling the truth is like pulling teeth (dire la vérité est aussi douloureux qu'arracher les dents),

Doubts (Doutes) : swallowed by doubts (englouti/assailli/rongé par le doute), an air of doubt (un air de doute), shaped by doubt (and fear) (formé par le doute (et la peur)), creeping doubt slithering in one’s mind/body (doute rampant s’introduisant dans l’esprit/corps), casting doubt (projeter des doutes),

Tempers (Tempéraments) : losing your temper (tempérament hors de contrôle), keeping your temper (garder son tempérament sous contrôle), temp-a temp-a

Extra french pun (implied) : "avoir un caractère/tempérament de cochon" = having a pig’s temper, being pig-headed 

Grief (Chagrin) : being hit by grief all at once (le chagrin tombant sur quelqu’un), flooded/drowning by/in grief (se noyer dans le chagrin), grief hits hard (gros coup de chagrin),

Fears (Peurs) : rooted in place with fear (enraciné par la peur), dying of fear (mourir de peur), struck by/with fear (transpercé de peur), fear being highly contagious (la peur se répand bien trop vite), fear cutting through like a blade (la lame de la peur), 

[  "blank"  ] ( [  "blanc"  ] ) : firing blanks (tirer des balles à blanc), blanking out words/text, blanket mantle of blank, filling in the blanks (remplir les blancs), 

The Black Market (Le Marché Noir) : flooding the Market, Market crash, kisses pun like stolen kisses (baiser volé) or now-or-never kisses (baiser de maintenant-ou-jamais) and farewell kisses (baiser d’adieu), trading and limb puns like an eye for an eye (oeil pour oeil), eye of the beholder, heads or tails (têtes ou/à queues), hands changing hands (passent de main en main), feet by the foot (pieds au pas de course), etc

Time (le Temps) : is a doctor, not a mechanic, because time heals all wounds (le temps guérit les blessures), time passing (passage du temps) and if killed time passes away, Time cut short (temps coupé), time out (temps mort), and all other obvious time puns (p52, 53, 54), Times New Roman font,

Key-frames (Intervalles-Clé) : literal frames opened by keys, doors between worlds, action or animation (key) frames + software keyframes (p 606 guillotines), “Do you know how many frames that is ?!”, 

Frames of mind (Cadres d’esprit) : mindframe, literal frames flying and fertilizing earth, being framed, movie/animation frames, 

Stuff (Choses) : stuff of trees (choses des arbres), made of sterling stuff (faite de grandes choses), stuffing, stuffed (?)

House of Paint (Maison de Peinture) and House of Lead (Maison de Plomb) leading to Art House (Maison des Arts) : lead pencil (mine de plomb), house gone cuckoo, fill and form (fond et forme), sense of fun aka fun house (galerie de l’humour), with a hall of mirrors for reflection (miroirs pour réfléchir), the Rogue Gallery (Galerie des Repris), doing some exposition as in exposing art pieces and explanations (exposition artistique et verbale), public’s domain (domaine publique), mad house (maisons de fous), home is where the art/(heart) is ("le foyer est le refuge du coeur" ou "une maison sans art est une maison sans âme"),

Added in French : Hero restored the gallery (restaurer la galerie) by bringing it back together (implicit in English, explicit in French) Also exclusive to French : "Galerie des Repris" is a 5-in-1 pun. Repris = repris de justice ("rogue gallery"), tableau repris(/échangé/retiré) d'un musée, repris(/corrigé/censuré) pour son comportement, oeuvre/artiste repris(/dériv)é plusieurs fois par d'autres, repris(/arraché/sauvé) du contrôle de Haine.

Ideas (Idées) : can’t be killed/destroyed since ideas don’t die (une idée ne peut pas être détruite), good ideas float (les bonnes idées remontent à la surface), a bad/horrible idea (une mauvaise/horrible idée), ideas run on inspiration (les idées marchent à l’inspiration), all-devouring idea (une idée consume tout), getting carried away by an idea (les idées qui emportent/font dériver),

Dreams (Rêves) : crystallized dreams, broken dreams often when they touch reality (rêves brisés au contact de la réalité), dreams too set in to be removed (rêves trop ancrés pour être retirés), dream turning into nightmare (rêve virant au cauchemar), dreaming big (rêver de grandeur),

Fence (clôture, palissade) : getting over it (surmonter), sitting on the fence, literally fencing up against the Nothing (se barricader contre le Rien), 

Train : train of thoughts (train de pensées), blacklight (lumière noire), runaway train (train sauvage), 

Added in French : “hijacked train” (train détourné) when the train runs away from the Nothing

Nothing (Rien/Néant) : reducing things to nothing (réduire à néant/rien), nothing is stronger than the trees (rien (n')est plus fort que les arbres), e-razing (ef-faucher),

Sea of Limen (Océan du Seuil) : limen as in "liminal/limit/threshold" ("seuil/limite"), made of concentrated thoughts (pensées concentrées) so once you breach the threshold you break the limit and dissolve in thoughts (franchir le seuil/la limite et se dissoudre en pensées), sub-liminal way (chemin sub-liminal), shut-eye (dormir à "points" fermés),

Threshold Guardian (Gardien de Seuil) : go to hell door (aller brûler en enfer), threshold as in threshold of a door so naturally they’ll have keys, guardians like zoo guardians/wardens also have keys so double pun here, 

Inkwell (Puits d’Encre) : literal inkwell being an ink well (encrier en puiseur d’encre, puits-seur), thanks to it Dial has an inkling about the train's origins (vague idée, "goutte d'idée"),

Wishing Stars (Étoiles à Voeux) : fallen/shooting stars (étoiles filantes), 

Caves of Introspection (Grottes d’Introspection) and Crypt of Isolation (Crypte d’Isolation) : ? (dunno for now)

Fields of Reverie (Champs de Rêverie) and Plains of Hesitation (Plaines de l’Hésitation) : ? (dunno for now)

[hisui555]

I've been thinking I really want to do something to try and help folks over in Palestine, so while I can't donate I want to at least help link to some of the general charities for folks there:

Here's arab.org's daily clicks for Palestine!

Here's eSims for Gaza!

Here's the Gaza Soup Kitchen!

Here's the linktree for the Sameer project!

Here's Crips for eSims for Gaza!

Please donate and helps spread the word if you can! If you're like me and can't donate, there's at least the daily clicks site you can bookmark and do!!!

[hisui555]

The funny thing is that, up to now, we've seen them all use cartoon logic on themselves, but Ep 6 is the first that shows them blatantly changing or exploiting the rules of the Circus' game.

Jax is right, as they ARE cartoon characters that DO operate by cartoon logic, but just in the sense of exploitable cartoon physics, not cartoon morality (which is shown to be Jax' own undoing and might be a major reason why people abstract : not just obsession with a thing, but losing humanity through it)

To list :

The cast's general ability to withstand huge yet comical amounts of pain... BECAUSE it's comical.

The Holding Your Breath Thing having mundane-to-funny effects, some are even useful (Kinger glowing in the dark).

Zooble getting comically dismantled every other episode only to be back standing a few frames later, and controlling their detached limbs (or getting them burned on a stove in a more realistic episode)

Pomni being stretched like a rubberhose cartoon in Candy Carrier Chaos.

Jax's habit of breaking the fourth wall to address the "audience" (and the others commenting on how weird it is from their POV)

Kinger literally detaching and using his still functional eyes to various effects (sightseeing, softball...)

Gangle's mask breaking and getting repaired with a literal snap.

Ragatha (like many others) suffering over-the-top injuries that SHOULD be lethal and disturbingly graphic but aren't (due to her ragdoll body), in pure slapstick fashion.

Jax's hammerspace (keys, bowling ball, even the guns when he starts pulling one out of his back to shoot Ragatha after the first one explodes, etc) and kleptomaniac tendencies (stealing stuff in an invisible and impossible way) which also are straight up cartoon Bugs Bunny logic - Jax is already shown bending the rules of other objects within the Circus, not just on himself, since the others are always surprised how he's managing it (Ragatha remarks on where the hell he got the keys).

In Ep 6, Jax literally shows Pomni how to use cartoon physics to her advantage - "You're holding that gun too realistically !" - which then Pomni fully weaponizes later against Zooble, intentionally doing a shot that could be called the whacky surprise baby of Cartoon Physics and Anime Coolness (link to a Tiktok right below) and knowing it will work.

Jax IS onto something by saying things play by Rule of Funny in the Circus, but not the way he thinks : while he exploits it to be a complete douche as a coping mechanism (which is costing him and others their mental and physical well-being - Gangle has honest to goodness trauma tied directly to Jax), Kinger shows with his butterfly trick that the Circus can be turned to their advantage on a larger scale than just on the characters themselves.

Slapstick might be the way out, or at least to survive : if that Chekhov's Gun is gonna fire, it's gonna be with a silly trumpet noise and confettis while (partially ?) solving the problem. Maybe.

TADC EPISODE 6 SPOILERS BELOW

This “Cartoon Logic” thing…

Can anyone else practically hear Chekhov’s Gun being loaded right now?

[hisui555]

I laughed so hard XD (non-native English speaker here)

In one of mine it would go "Ne me fais pas prendre des vessies pour des lanternes" ("Don't try to make me confuse bladders for lanterns") and in the other one " 'Nem alten Mann in den Bart spucken und sagen, es had geschneit" ("Spitting in an old man's beard and pretend it's snowing")

Edit : alternatively in French it can also go : "Et mon cul, c'est du poulet ?" ("And my ass, is it chicken ?")

you know Jax, there's a saying for that in my native... gonna look up the english equivalent real quick

don't piss on my leg and tell me it's raining.

[hisui555]

reminder that if you ever buy wool yarn secondhand you should put it in a plastic bag in the freezer for a week, let it thaw 24 hours, then refreeze another week. this makes sure that if there are any moths or pests they are killed by the first freeze, and the remaining eggs are lured to hatch by the thawing and then killed with the second freeze. until this process is complete you must keep the yarn isolated from your existing stash or you risk any infestation spreading. i buy a lot of wool yarn from thrift and antique shops and always do this and have never had a problem with moths or other bugs. if you buy wool sweaters or other wool things secondhand you should also do this just to be safe

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->

"well do a headstand and gargle my ample balls. it almost looks like you value free use of your time or something. aww. you sweet predictable bluebird. you absolute skibidi dick-boss. buddy you were created by lord revenue to boost our stocks, so listen to five insurance ads back to back or i’ll publicly boil your bicuspids in acid"

[hisui555]

Pomni wanted to hurt Jax back // A breakdown of the argument between Pomni and Jax

NOW BEFORE YOU SAY ANYTHING PLEASE JUST HEAR ME OUT FOR A SECOND

I've been rewatching the argument between Jax and Pomni, dissecting both of their minds during their most heated moment yet. It's a familiar argument, I've been on both Jax's side and Pomni's side in the past, I relate to the both of them a lot.

So I wanted to share my thoughts, as someone who sees myself in both characters, and I wanted to really pick apart what both of them must be thinking during these moments between each other.

This was obviously a very emotionally charged scene for both Jax and Pomni, but one thing I noticed is that the tone didn't truly shift up until Pomni uttered those words. Beforehand, Jax was just deflecting, mocking, running away from his feelings. He wasn't listening to her, he didn't want to confront the truth.

So Pomni decides that it's time to make him listen, even if it causes him pain. He needs to feel hurt before he can realize what he's been doing to people.

"Is this why you didn't show up to Kaufmo's funeral?"

First metaphorical shot to the chest.

Jax felt angry at first at the sudden unprovoked jab to one of his dead friends, it was pretty unexpected because that's not what they were talking about. It's starting to get real, but quickly recovers, likely because Kaufmo wasn't that important to him to begin with. So who cares?

So, he deflects by saying he doesn't show up to any funeral. Crisis averted, right?

Pomni continues, because she knows hasn't broken into him enough, it needs to hurt more.

"Yeah, I bet you don't. Because you're scared, you're scared you'll actually show a human emotion."

Boom, second shot.

Jax deflects with another snarky remark to get her off his back, because she's beginning to get through to his disguise, and he can't let her have that. "I'm scared I'll be bored to tears!" He says, turning his back to her so he could compose himself once again. And so, Pomni delivers one final blow.

"Have you ever thought that this might be the reason people abstract in the first place?"

Bam, third shot to the chest, and this one struck him straight in the heart.

THAT'S when Jax blows up, that's when he loses his cool. Because now this isn't a game anymore, she's making it real.

She made it personal.

Who does she think she is asking him such questions? Who does she think she is calling him out on the thing he's been avoiding for so long?

Jax percieves this as an attack on him, and it is. Pomni is attacking him, she wants him to feel hurt.

But that's the important part: She wants him to feel.

All this time, Jax has been running from his emotions, running from his feelings of remorse and guilt. Pomni knows it, that's why she goes straight for the throat (literally even!) and strikes him with the one question that can slice his mask to pieces. A question he genuinely does not believe she can be sorry for because it hurt him so damn much.

It's worth noting that Pomni is also hurting here, but she's not blaming herself right now. She knows the problem is Jax, she knows exactly what his issue is, and she knows that running from it is the last thing he needs to do right now. So she forces him to get mad, she hurts him because he needs to feel hurt.

Jax needs to finally come to the realization of just how awfully he has fucked up. And in order to do that, it needs to HURT.

But Jax catches himself, and disscoiates again. He wasn't about to let Pomni yank his humanity out of him just yet.

That's when Pomni steps back, and apologies. She knows she was trying to make him feel the pain he's been repressing for so long, so she chills for a bit, because she thinks she finally got what she wanted.

...Well, kind of.

Then comes the question, "What would you do if I abstracted tomorrow?"

Pomni thinks that Jax has finally felt enough, so she decides to show a little bit of her heart to him. Just a bit, to test the waters, see if her method has actually worked.

"I'd move on. And probably forget about you."

That does it for Pomni. She knows now that nothing she can say will ever get through to him right now, so long as she keeps playing his little game of arguing back and forth, she will never win because somebody has rigged the rules.

As she stares at the gun in her hand, she hears Jax start to backpedal on what he said. She has two choices; shoot herself and make him see that he hurt her, or make him PROVE that he wouldn't care.

"Jeez, you really can't take a joke, can you?"

Jax does not see himself in the wrong.

He doesn't care if he hurt her. That's what he wants.

She needs to play it HER way now.

So Pomni throws the gun at him, in the face, and directly contradicts his statement as her first move.

"You're NOT the funny one!"

Jax doesn't listen.

"Uh, I don't think that counts."

Okay, so she'll MAKE him listen.

That's when Pomni fully crashes out at him, choking him, throwing things at him, biting, punching, kicking and screaming.

She's making her emotions KNOWN. She's giving him a dose of her anger, she's showing him just how deeply he can cut someone so he knows EXACTLY what he's doing to people.

And Jax panics.

This is not how it's supposed to go. She's not supposed to fight back, she's supposed to walk away from him. He's losing control, the feelings are getting real, she's not accepting his facade, she's not playing by her archetype. She's not playing by his rules anymore, she's showing him how she actually feels.

He hurt her so much deeper than he wanted to, and instead of her dealing with it privately outside of where he can see it, she's SHOWING HIM. He cannot be delusional about her feelings anymore, he cannot be delusional about his feelings anymore, because now that reality has hit him in the face it's going to be hard to recover from those wounds.

"STOP!"

Jax has to take a moment to breathe, pant. What just happened?

"What's WRONG with you!?"

He yells at her, because the stage he created, the world he has crafted around them, has just been completely demolished right before his eyes. Nothing makes sense anymore because their interaction is no longer following the script he wrote in his head.

It's real. Everything is real.

"Why didn't you fight back?"

That's the question that completely, utterly destroys Jax.

Because he cannot answer this without admitting that all of his beliefs and rules he's been so convinced of are completely delusional and total bullshit. He cannot answer her honestly, because that would be admitting that he genuinely cares about her, that would be admitting that he's a human being with real feelings and emotions.

He's not an archetype. He's a person.

And so is she.

Nothing that happened here was on his terms, she pulled him into her world instead and showed him the exact perspective he's been fearing for so long. All of his anxieties came true in this moment.

Jax grasps at the last few straws he can to convince Pomni that he is not human, that he doesn't have feelings, but it doesn't work. He can't keep the emotions from leaking between the cracks in his voice, he can't keep his eyes too foggy to see the human being behind his mask, he can't keep the raw vulnerability and anger from shooting out of the strength of his gestures.

The mask is broken. His words don't matter. Pomni knows the truth now.

Jax curses. For the first time in so long, he performs a human action of frustration. No longer a cartoon bunny, but a human being. The person he thought he had lost all those years ago.

Pomni could only stare at him with pity and sorrow, he's not convincing her, or anyone that he actually believes what he's saying.

"There's nothing more to me," he finally says, voice shaking, eyes tired, expression no longer within his control. "So please," he begs her, a last ditch effort to ask her to let him keep playing his mask. "Just stop looking."

Jax walks away, utterly defeated.

...

You shouldn't have asked her to shoot you, Jax. Now you're bleeding out, and nobody is left to patch your wounds but you.

But that's what you wanted, right?

[hisui555]

Also, Jax is the one who took the selfie. (I mean, obviously : Pomni's two hands are busy with guns)

He might be the one having got the idea to take a pic. And it's his shadow over the trashcan, implying he might be the one to throw it away.

If that's the case...

Dude.

PICK A LANE DAMMIT.

MY BOYFRIEND POINTED THIS OUT TO ME, BUT THERE IS A TEAR ON THE PHOTO THAT JAX HAD THROWN AWAY OF HIM AND POMNI.

[hisui555]

Original text:

Caine: Now, now. You know what they say about assuming. It makes an "ass" out of "u" and "Ming".

Ming: Hi, I'm Ming. And I really don't appreciate what your assumptions have done to my reputation.

French version:

“No cohabiting couple bc a person who cohabits

It’s more jerk/asshole…

(Can be translated by the 2 words)

…than Cubain from Cuba”

“I'm Cubain, I'm intelligent, and whoever denies it…

…confuses my name and my nationality.”

[hisui555]

A 'funny' thing about the "funny one"

We've all seen that Jax relishes in acting like a bully and inflicting pain, and he ends up saying just as much.

However, he ironically holds up a very paradoxical view about it, and a just as contradictory behavior : he's convinced (or, 'convinced' ?) that his deeds aren't as bad as the others feel them - which, from his point of view, he'd be right ! After all, ain't slapstick funny despite people suffering ? Schadenfreude at its best. And since they're all cartoon characters, they bounce back just as fast and physically not worse for wear, right ? Which makes him funny, even if not lovable, at least he's endearing in his shenanigans, right ?

Of course, as we all know, there's just one teensy-weensy thing wrong with Jax' theory.

Namely, it's a crock of shit.

Gangle shows very real PTSD from his bullying, Ragatha is horrified and extremely conflicted about him, Zooble absolutely can't stand him, and Pomni is very cautious around him even when they're on good terms (Kinger being Kinger... well). They all call Jax out on his behavior, and he just scoffs it off with a shrug and an infuriating smile : he's doing deliberately villainous things for his own amusement, that's his shtick, get on with the program folks !

Yet there's a recurring pattern (and that's not getting into how he reacts when he gets comeuppance - he's a very thin-skinned bully that can't take what he dishes out) : each time he's actually accused of being a bad person instead of just a "villain", he takes serious offense. Even the word "villain" is a sour spot (he pulls a bit of a displeased face when Pomni asks in a very deadpan way "What's your archetype then, the villain ?" and his response is to defend himself with "Listen, I add a key dynamic !") but he'll readily admit causing pain for fun and using the others as "playthings".

Because y'see, here's the difference : a "villain" can do evil things, but still be entertaining, endearing, you named it, funny to watch. A "villain" can be villainous and horrible without being bad in a realistic, gut-wrenching way (think Pokémon's Team Rocket). A "villain" is a role you can slip in and out at will. A genuinely bad person... is not these things. A bad person is reprehensible, hits way too close to home, and most of all, stays that way. The definition sticks to them. A bad person is not funny at all.

A "villain", especially in slapstick shows, doesn't get any comeuppance - they can be back next episode and be redeemed or forgiven easily. A bad person does not. People remember what they did. People don't forgive them. People act in consequence of their actions and distance themself from the bad person BECAUSE they are nocive and toxic. A bad person doesn't get to show up the next morning like nothing happened.

The very second Jax is accused (rightfully or not : he didn't seemed to genuinely want to "corrupt" Pomni or anything) of being a bad person instead of just a "villain character", he can't stand it. Because that means his actions have consequences, and he has to face them. Because it reminds him he's a person, not an archetype.

And because maybe, he actually MIGHT be actually responsible for someone abstracting, accidentally or not, because he said the wrong thing at the wrong time or being a douche directly caused someone to lose their mind and go off the deep end. It's interesting to note that when Pomni asks him "Have you ever wondered if that's what causes people to abstract ?", he might have misread it : she might have meant such an obsessive attitude causing oneself to abstract, not necessarily his bully attitude making others abstract, yet Jax reacts as if it were the latter, deflecting and bringing up that he wasn't an outlier.

He then proceeds to bring up the fact that people who are going to abstract "are NOT pleasant to be around ! Like, at all !", which also sounds like self-defense, even if the fact itself has high chances of being true.

And the very next thing is that he's immediately having second thoughts about saying just about the most horrible thing a player can say to another in the Circus, and to Pomni to boot. We might not have been the only ones thinking Pomni would turn that gun on herself, in that scene, if Jax's next move is to downplay what he said as a joke so she can redirect her anger (and the gun) to him - despite Pomni not being in any danger of actually dying.

But the symbolism is here : he would have made someone suicide. It'll be his fault. He knows he did huge psychological damage with what he said, and he knows he's the bad guy for it - worse, that's what he tried to do, because he got himself stuck in that "villain" role... that he keeps using to avoid facing the fact that he's a bad person. When Pomni physically attacks him, he refuses to harm her in any way, tries to flee and disengage (this post points it out nicely).

Jax minimizes the impact of his behavior (his unhealthy way to cope) on others, because there's a high chance he might have caused the very thing he wanted to avoid, and the thing he's trying to prevent : the abstraction of a friend, and his own.

Jax, just like Ragatha, can't stand being hated. It means he'll end up alone, and there won't be anything preventing things to catch up with him anymore.

And in the Circus, the abyss has many eyes to stare back at you.

Anyway. Get potted, idiot.

[hisui555]

Damn they harmonize well to boot !

The German version is so goated for translating Daisy Bell

[hisui555]

Heterosexual relationship culture is so alien to me and I don’t know if it’s the fact I’m not cishet or the fact I’m autistic but I hear so many things that make me go “Am I insane or are they?”

There’s a lot of hate on widowers and I saw a woman say “You cannot compete with a dead woman.” which is perhaps a reasonable statement to say if he’s constantly comparing you to his dead partner but that wasn’t what the post was about. And I realized “Oh my God, these people genuinely feel like they’re constantly in competition with their spouse’s exes and the ex being dead makes them feel insecure that they cannot best her.”

There’s also been an uptick in the ‘men and women cannot be ‘just’ friends’ rhetoric which I feel like is extremely dangerous and reflects the rise of fascism and sexism. Some of these stories of women feeling threatened by their husband’s female best friend have some merit and others are like “I feel angry that my husband still talks to the girl he grew up next door to and she and her wife are invited to family gatherings and included in family photos sometimes. Am I right to be suspicious?” No. No you’re not. I cannot imagine being you and living with that high level of stress and paranoia and constant torment and jealousy about your husband having a positive relationship with anyone who isn’t you.

[hisui555]

Dunno about Attack of the Clones but this is pretty much how I felt about 80% of the media I've been watching whenever someone is getting led into a honey trap (I'm not aro I think, but ace ? Very much). It's like watching a horror movie where the protagonists make the most counter-productive decisions for their survival and then angsting over it because their numbers are dwindling - no shit, Sherlock.

Love triangles tend to infuriate me because my go-to solution is among the lines of "Then date both ? You all have feelings for each other, go forth and share ????"

"I can't have theeeem" okay then move on ? Next ?

"I'm gonna do that for the girl/guy I just met and know nothing about" => I legit always thought it was because they're intriguing and up to uncomprehensible shenanigans so there's some curiosity there (which, partially true), but the fact that it was a First Crush Thing (TM) - or worse, a Want To Bone Them Thing - as 90% of the reason eluded me until late into my teens. Like : why ? I'm more interested in the magic book they're holding than the fact they're pretty or whatever (because that's generally the main ground, for some uncomprehensible reason. ....Oh. Right. Hormones).

Literally people being love-hungry, craving affection because of something happening to them (from boredom to insanity), having some sort of hero complex, feeling lonely and all, I can get. But the ones having everything they need and chosing to focus on the pretty boy/girl instead of the huge-ass dragon they're riding in a world where dragons don't exist may have to rethink their priorities, from my pov.

As an aroace person I actually never had that feeling of being broken. I thought everyone was the same way and some people were just dramatic 😭