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Christmas A Season of Warmth and Affection

Hi! It's almost Christmas, right? It's beginning to look a lot like Christmas. This time of year always makes me think about all the Christmas memories I've made, especially with my family. Christmas is my favorite time of year – it's a celebration of Jesus Christ's birth, but it's also a time for being surrounded by loved ones. While I always look forward to opening presents because soon enough I will be the one giving than receiving (it feels scary getting old), I've come to realize that the true magic of Christmas lies in the moments we share together.

There was never a dull Christmas with my family. The Pinoy spirit is always with us during that time of the year. Those are one of the things that I thank God for. However, despite all the joyous moments, there are always hidden unwanted things that we as a family possessed. Unlike any family, we are not affectionate towards each other. We don't show it, we just feel it. So back then as a child, I was always confused. How could they be so close without showing any affection? I also reached the part where I questioned whether they loved me or not. In that, I've concluded that I was craving affection as a child because I was never given any. As time passes by, I realized that we are just not used to showing affection, rather we show it through other forms of actions. Our love language is basically acts of service, and that concludes why I as a person hated skinships or being clingy, but deep inside I do love clingy people, I just can't do it myself. So going back to Christmas, there was a time during Christmas where we had our family reunion. That day was amazing, playing with my cousins, gift-giving, and of course, the foods. Laughter was heard all over the place, and it's just so amazing to be in that moment. Later that night, each and every adult was taking turns in giving messages like it's closing remarks. It was my mother's turn, and I was never expecting her to express her feelings in front of that large crowd. She said all the things she's thankful for, and that as her daughter, I was touched. I cried so hard hearing her message because I feel like I am so proud of what she became. From suffering with her husband, raising us, her three children alone, to finally having her eldest daughter graduate and become a teacher. It's like a slap to those relatives who look down on my mother and who always brought up my dad like they're the ones who weren't able to move on. In that moment, I feel like I am the mother being proud of my child. It made me more determined to do well, to give back to her. That time the presents were not the gift for me, but to be able to hear my mother tell her success in front of us and show affection towards us was the real gift.

Christmas is not only the time of giving. It is also the time of telling your love to your family. Well, that's for us because we're not used to affection (heh). Therefore, Christmas has always been my favorite time of the year. The time when God was born, and the time to give thanks to all the blessings. That was one of the memories I had for Christmas, I have many more, but I think I am yapping too much now. So lastly, I found a quote that describes Christmas like how I think it is, "The magic of Christmas is not in the presents but in His presence."

Have a Merry Christmas everyone!

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