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please come in to my normal house where normal events take place

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Please, God, let me live again.

IT'S A WONDERFUL LIFE (1946) dir. Frank Capra

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jennifer’s body 🩸💖

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Blythe Baird, from If My Body Could Speak; “Concerns from a hot-boxed jeep”

[Text ID: “How do I stop / carrying everything / that had ever / happened to me?”]

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First day in America what do you wanna do? Shopping! Hahahaha

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On the way to the air port to say another see you later 🥹♥️

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Our lovely little AirBnB in Gold Bar WA. We had a blast and can’t wait to do it again another time.

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I love him♥️

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Love how one of my dogs photo bombed us😂♥️

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2019, 2020, 2021 & 2022

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Space girl

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Hey it’s been awhile idk if people actually still follow me haha. I haven’t been on since highschool. Craaazy. It’s 1:31am I’m in the United Kingdom for my second time ladies and gents. How can I say I got here gosh well I flew on a plane haha okay okay, well long story short I guess. The internet is wild, just kidding the new age of all our fun gizmos and gadgets I guess you could say helped me get where I am today. Oh my lanta I’m lame but whatever. So back in like the ending of 2015 or in the beggining of 2016 I was like a new flower and scared of life cause well I used some baaad drugs UA know went to rehab and became a fresh little human again and I didn’t wanna ruin my sobriety so I stayed in for like five months unless I went out with my sisters brother or just any family member. Ok I know let’s cut to the chase, so I was basically the bum just not the druggie part anymore, I played lots of Xbox online with a mic. I mostly played zombies black ops two buried haha. Now this is back when cool people played, people who actually made friendships or bonds instead of now a days where everyone on Xbox is either an asshole or a tryhard. “Eyeroll” Anyways I was up late one night and looking for people to play with on buried and ran into three British lads and we all got along pretty well and started playing on a regular basis. There Xbox names uhm let me see if I remember this I know my boyfriends was RiseWarlord.. haha, the others were GodElite, and BradB****ck (not putting his cause his was his actual name) anyways obviously you want me to say Rise and I kicked it off right away... but we actually didn’t haha. Brad and I talked for awhile until he got angry at me because I wouldn’t send him any pictures of myself. So I cut him out. God and I we were more friend basis nothing more just liked to play games together and well Rise he was usually just there to play with us but not a lot. Then he started playing more and his friends stopped and I was on a lot cause I was playing to distract myself from living a life “a bad life” I guess you could say. We ended up playing two weeks straight talking all day all night sleeping on the mic. Then just stopped. Outta no where he just wasn’t on when I was on when he was on I wasn’t on. So that was that. As the months went on I finally got more confident and comfortable with my sobriety and it was time to find a job before my dad kicked my ass out haha so I applied as a care giver and started doing that. Now I forgot to mention that me and rose got so close during those two weeks he even met my little brother who also plus Xbox and we had played zombies all together so he had my little brother on his friends list as well as me. Sorry forgot about that little heads up. Now back to where I was it’s months later I’m not going on zombies as much let alone playing Xbox. Mostly hanging out with new friends and working. I still remember it clear as day, I walk in the house from work my brothers sitting on the couch and I walk into the kitchen to start raiding the fridge (he’s playing games of course) when all of a sudden I get, “hey guess who messaged me on Xbox today!” I was like “haha I don’t know who?” He replies with “RiseWarlord did asking where have you been and if you can play!” I was just so excited like a little school girl to be honest I replied with a “what no way?!” And ran up the stairs to get on the Xbox to talk to him, cause I mean who wouldn’t right?? Haha probably a lot of people but I don’t care it’s me haha. Well that’s kind of it people, crazy to think just because this boy messaged my brother asking for me and I was giddy as a school girl after that we talked everyday and every night since. Don’t get me wrong our relationship hasn’t been easy but damn it’s 2021 and we’re still together. Now I don’t wanna share these last couple years all in one post so I guess if anybodies interested I’ll keep posting if not I’ll probably leave it but I do like telling my story so if you want more like it or comment🥰♥️

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