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How I 'burnt' my brother

After returning from work, this is what I told my brother today- Me: I am writing about it. Bro: About what? Me: About how I finally 'poptified', burnt, and completely pwned you that day. Bro: What are you even talking abou- ohhh that. *laughs hysterically* are you serious? That was a lame joke. Just a fluke on your end. Me: *shouting* IT WASN'T A FLUKE IT JUST CAME NATURALLY AND I AM GONNA WRITE IT THIS IS THE FIRST TIME IT HAPPENED, ACTUALLY SECOND TIME BUT I DON'T REMEMBER WHAT I SAID LAST TIME SO THIS IS THE FIRST THAT I WRITE DOWN IT IS GONNA GO DOWN IN HISTORY AS ONE OF THE AWESOMEST COMEBACKS BWAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHA Bro: ...oookayy So what exactly happened? We were sitting at the dining table and very casually I broke out the news to my brother that I failed my JLPT N4 *again* by 10 marks. The conversation ensued as follows- Me: Last time it was by 5 marks and this time by 10. Nice. Bro: Nice? What is so nice about it? You failed by 5 marks more than previous time. Me: Yeah, but see. Last time I had prepared something and failed by 5 marks. This time I prepared nothing, zilch, and failed only by 10 marks. That is positive! It means I have retained some things! At this point, my brother was looking at me as though I had lost my mind. A pause. He stared at a drop of water on the table, pointed to it, then pointed to me. Me: What? Bro: doob marr. (drown in this) Me: Jagah bahut hai tu bhi aa ja. (there is enough space, you join me.) I am full of positivity today! Bro: *looks at me for 5 seconds..stares at his food for another 20 seconds.* Me: Acha tha na?(that was good, wasn't it?) Bro: *slowly* yeah..it was.. I didn't expect you to say that. That is it. Those were the golden words I was waiting for all my life. That it was a good one. Ah my joy knew no bounds afterwards and I swore I would write about this somewhere. And I did. :) P.S- I knew it isn't that great a comeback to merit a post this long, but what do you know about the struggle of younger sisters finding a great comeback only minutes, hours, YEARS later and suddenly one day at the perfect time delivers the perfect comeback in all of her existence; so perfect she actually wishes to write it on her résumé as her achievement. How would you know?

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GPOY.

glasses people can relate..

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Is dil ki mohabbat mein to bahut taaqat hai... par ye dil, khud, bahut kamzor hai.

So what do you want me to do? Tell her the truth? If you can’t hear the truth, in spite of hearing everything, how will Naina bear it? What should I do Ma? What should I say? How should I say that for the first time…this heart has fell for someone? For the first time, this heart is beating for someone. For the first time, this heart has loved someone. Naina, the love in my heart has all the strength, but the heart itself is very weak. How do I give her my weak heart, Ma?

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Northern Lights over an Erupting Volcano

In April 2010, the Icelandic volcano Eyjafjallajökull spewed great ash clouds into the sky and caused enormous disruptions to air travel in Europe. The eruptions are best remembered for this inconvenience, but photographer James Appleton managed to capture the event in a different way. In the weeks before the disturbances, a vulcanologist friend of his alerted him to the unfolding volcanic drama, and Appleton travelled straight to the Icelandic mountain before it was closed off. Risking his life to battle extreme cold, high winds, and seismic activity, Appleton captured a rare but gorgeous scene: the glowing lava from an Eyjafjallajökull fissure with the Northern Lights—Aurora Borealis—overhead. These are two very different light sources, so “the photograph needed parts of the scene selectively blocked for sections of the exposure to balance the contrast,” Appleton recalls. “A Mars bar wrapper came in handy for this!”

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That moment when you look at a sentence or a word so intently that it starts looking wrong all of a sudden..

 Even if it's correct.

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It's been an year already!

Last year, on 31st October, there were 3 things happening. One- a pool campus for a company, which I didn't go to because Two- my cousin's wedding was on the same day, which also I couldn't go to, because Three- my mom was diagnosed with breast cancer on that Monday.

She had felt a lump since quite some time but ignored it because there was a shoulder pain that was more worse. But then she read some articles on the newspaper(October had loads of breast cancer awareness articles in newspapers), and being the worried person that she is, she told us about it. It was Diwali time too so Dad had come over from Mumbai, so they decided to have a check up. No one expected anything bad to turn out, but it did.

Mom was advised to have a surgery to remove the tumor the very next day, on Nov. 1st, but dad decided to have it on the 2nd. Why? Nov 1st is mum's birthday. Quite a big surprise to deal with for your birthday, right? :)

Anyway, the operation happened and they came out and showed to us the parts that were removed, and all the time before seeing it, I thought I'd faint, cos I'm not really used to seeing these things. But strangely, when I saw it, I felt nothing. It was as though someone had kicked out a cockroach out of the house(bad analogy, but you get it.) I thought that was it. I agree, I was in denial. I kept telling mom that nothing is wrong and hers is just Grade 1 or 2(Grade 4 is the most severe) and easily recoverable. I don't know how much my words helped, but maybe for sometime it's good to be ignorant. Because later on, we found out that hers is somewhere between Grade 2 and 3, but thankfully the cancer had not spread to her bones. Another shocker was that hers is an aggressive type of cancer(this was AFTER the operation), so it worried her even more. Oh, god, why does she have to get so curious about stuff. She didn't even know hers was HER2 Positive until she looked it up on the Internet. Damn you, Internet :D

Anyway, why am I writing all this? I dunno, I guess one of the reasons I blog is because I seriously think that for me, it is therapeutic. I started this blog around the time she was undergoing treatment, so it was kind of an escape mechanism for me. It's not like I was still in denial. I knew she had breast cancer and I also knew I wouldn't treat her differently or show her any sympathy because just weeks before she was diagnosed, she told me she hated being sympathized and I hugely respect that. So, by showing her pity, or acting differently cos she's a little weaker at times, it'd just hurt her. I didn't, and I was as usual even though at times she tried to make me feel all guilty for being my horrible-daughter-self xD I guess it's just my way of dealing with it. I'm not strong, far from it(I haven't cried in front her during this time, though.. yosh!!! >.<), but behaving differently wouldn't have helped either of us. I also didn't ever bother to check out about recurrence chances or any complications after that. I just don't want to know anymore. Anyway, my brother has up to date information about all that, so any queries(MANY queries) that my mum had was answered by him.

Also, Dad... oh man, Dad be a little more stronger. He has probably cried more than mom or any of us, lol xD Out of mom and dad, definitely mom is the stronger one. ^^

Anyway, after 8 chemos, 28 days of radiation and an ongoing 1 year of herceptin dose(ends in April/May), mom is almost back to her nagging self(which I love as much as I get annoyed by.. you cannot believe how much relieved I feel when she starts nagging, like,'oh she's fine'.. it's better than just getting cooped up in your room all day, which happened for a couple of months at the beginning of chemo :-/) It's not that easy.. I told her to start painting again, got her colors and canvas and everything, but she just wouldn't do it. Health is just a state of mind, right? But I dunno what chemo does, it just sucks the life and energy out of your spirit. :-/ (She recently used the colors to make a rangoli during the Ganesh Chaturti festival, yayyy ^_^)

Okay, it's getting all random and messed up and I need to go to office soon :D

All I want to say is, no matter what, you'll smile at the end of it. So, why not smile all through the hardship? It makes things seem a lot more easier. :)

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Hyderabad

So, how is it going in Hyderabad?

Not bad, so far. My first impression of the city was really good, it looks like a younger Mumbai and Bangalore hybrid. I liked how the bus stops had huge 'Bus Bay' signs and the buses actually followed the space provided for them and stopped, unlike in Bangalore. Okay, I won't compare cities. The weather is also nice, especially since the weird weather in Blr made me fall sick and now I'm out of it probably due to the change in the weather. My first impression was really good. And really wrong. Because, that is only one corner of this huge place I had seen.

The place I'm staying at is Q-city, the almost-equivalent of Electronic city, you could say. I say almost because there is one vital thing that is missing here that I don't know why people are quietly adjusting with- transportation. If you think autos in Bangalore-oh, to hell with the "no comparison" thing- are their own gods and rule the roads and don't listen and are in fact highway thieves, I wonder what you have to say about the autorickshaws/mini-taxis here. They are called 'share autos' and they take about 5-6 people easily in the normal auto and charge Rs. 15 per person for ONE KM! Seriously, like, WTH? And there is no other mode of public transport that you can choose, because the very rare buses that do come to this area only come to one particular point, beyond which, it's only share autos you can use. And on top of that they say 'no' like bangalore's drivers do. Annoying. And it's not just this area, in general, the autowallahs are like this everywhere in hyd. While the blr ones refuse if the place is far, the hyd ones refuse if the place is near. xD

Sugarcane juice. Bangalore- Rs. 10- A class juice with little/no ice and thick, fresh juice that you can gulp down in one sip.

Sugarcane juice. Hyderabad- Anywhere between Rs. 5 to Rs.15 depending on the place(in Charminar it was 5 and Salar Jung museum it was 15) and the quality sucked both places. Water, just water and 4-5 ice cubes and probably a pint of sugarcane juice. Sheesh, it just spoiled the rich taste of blr's sugarcane juice I had had T_T

What a random and messed up post. I need  to go wash clothes because laundry is 300 per month which wasn't told before I joined the pg. And thankfully the weather is nice these days, cos if it gets hot, I can't even use the AC that is in the room because that would mean I'd have to shell out an extra 500 bucks plus share the electricity bill. This wasn't told to me either! Hell hidden charges.

This place is really costly but I think it's a blessing in disguise, as I'm finding myself arguing with every shopkeeper about the rates and bargaining the hell out of things such as a tiffin box or even a washing brush. xD

Ohhh and I forgot about the mobile networks. They are also thieves, probably trying to fit in with everybody.. Airtel is the biggest culprit of all. This was the reason why I had shifted first, 4 years back from Airtel to another network, because they keep sending some messages that pop up EVEN when your keypad is locked and if by some chance the OK button gets clicked, your money gets washed away into their account. Very frustrating I tell you.

So, it's not all good, it's not all bad. Don't judge too quickly, I'm reminded of this time and again.

Please be nice to me from now on, Hyderabad!(Oh my pg mates are nice btw, I just have to learn telugu, and they're already shocked with my japanese obsession, so I've told them it'll be fine in a few days and they'll start ignoring it xD)

P.S- Sorry, no pics yet, though I've taken quite a few. Next post, maybe! ^^

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My respect and love for water and all the small things we take for granted increased greatly after I saw this episode of Time Warp.

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Tomorrow is Raksha Bandhan

Yeah, one of the few festivals that has to do with people and no gods. I like it(more because the tradition says that the brother is supposed to shower his sister with gifts xD and all the sister has to do is tie a thread, and pray for his long life, touch his feet blah blah, no way I'm touching his feet--> I say this but the moron makes me do it every single time.)

I remember how back in school, in Bombay, there was this huge trend among girls as to who gets the most gifts from a guy and for guys as to whose hands have the most threads, or Rakhis, if you will. Lol, now no one feels like that, I guess.

And the rakhis, gosh, how they have evolved over time; from those huge chakra-looking things that would obviously stand out, to rakhis made of gold. No, what's the difference between that and a bracelet really? :D I, too, used to buy the big ones initially, then, it kept getting smaller, and *cheaper*, but no one can complain- that's all my money could buy, okay? But, it was always sensible, the rakhis I bought. I would buy them thinking that he would wear it for the longest time possible.(Believe me, it gives little sisters great joy when they wear it a long time; even if all that we got back was a chocolate. There is joy in the little things ^^). BUT, it would vanish from his hands, within 2-3 days. Aishh guys, no sentiments only. 'It was too tight, it was irritating, I lost it'! Go to hell man. There was this one time when I had to mail post it to him and he lied that he received it, but the mail never reached him(He told me that after an year!). x( Although it made me really mad that he doesn't care about the one or two things that I do give him, I was quite surprised to see that he hasn't actually thrown any of them away. They are all there somewhere in the house, scattered. xD

Ah, the main intention of this post was to show the rakhi I bought for my brother this year. I've always been a nice, considerate sister :P thinking about how the rakhi should be decent, of nice material, no plastic, something that won't fall off etc etc. But, this time, I couldn't resist myself when I saw this one and I bought it.

It's PINK! And it's angry, like my brother will be! xD To hell with what he's gonna say tomorrow; I'll make sure he wears this to work and gets laughed at! BWAHAHAHAHAHA. So much for Raksha Bandhan- who will protect the sister now? :D

Edit- He liked it! His colleagues liked it too! WHERE DID I GO WRONG!! IT IS PINK! He hates pink! Apparently, no one noticed the pink and everyone were gushing about how cute that Angry Bird is. Aishhh, nani itten da yo! :-/ *I got money btw, as a gift. xD*

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They expect you to be walking to school like:

but in reality you’re like:

They expect you to be in class like: 

but in reality you’re like:

They expect you before an exam to be all like:

but in reality you’re like:

They expect to react to your exam mark like:

but in reality they’ll be like:

true story.

Your parents' expectations of school

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I can't even.. there was this dialogue he said in a film, 'zindagi badi honi chahiye, lambi nahi' which translates to, 'your life must be big, not long'. What a beautiful line that is. No matter how long you live, as long as you have lived happily, and making people happy around you, and enjoying every single moment, nothing is a waste. Uwaaaaaaaaa, I'll probably go watch Anand now and cry buckets! T_T I should have been born either before or during these actors' lifetime, or after their deaths. But nooo, I was born when they didn't act anymore, or acted in dabba films in desperation or had health issues. I miss Dev Anand saab, I miss Kishore da, Rafi saab, Nutan, R.D Burman, Naushad and so many more. God, I was so born in the wrong era. :-/ *not that this era is an utter waste- it's but human nature to want things he can't have.* R.I.P Rajesh/Jatin Khanna.

R.I.P Rajesh Khanna (19/12/1942-18/07/12)

Zindagi ek safar hai suhana,

yahan kal kya ho kisne jaana?

-ANDAZ 

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He is the only grandpa-like figure I remember from my childhood days! T_T

RIP Dara Singh :’(

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uwaa! I didn't know Morita said such things! :O I thought only Takemoto came up with such gems(or maybe in the live-action, I had ears only for Toma :P)! I think I'll resume watching the anime again! >.< Seriously one of the best 'slice of life' manga/anime/live-action I've come across. And what an apt title- Honey and Clover, for a bittersweet story. :)

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huhuhuhuhu~

so, bro and i baked a cake yesterday! lol, actually we only made the batter(you get the Pillsbury cake mix stuff and just mix whatever is told in the instructions) and shoved it into the oven and applied the icing. It initially felt like going to a chemistry lab for the first time! xD You know, getting the temperature right and stuff(our dabba oven doesn't have a temperature indicator! Aishhh :-/). But it tasted fabulous! <3 So much that mom decided to brag about it to the neighbors and gave them away CHUNKS of it! I wanted to save some of it for my friends! T_T Nani shiten da yo okaasan~ :-/

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do not read this if you've just eaten something.

Hai, hisashiburi! * yes, long time no see! *

Just remembered something, so thought of posting this completely random nonsensical GROSS post. :P *you have been warned.*

We went to Wonder La- my friends and I, last week. It was my first time to an amusement park in AGES. Really. The first time I went was to Fantasy Park in Mumbai, with my parents, in 4th std. I puked after sitting on Columbus(that pendulum swinging ship), and was only glad that I was a little below the height arrow mark for entry to the roller coaster ride. Phew!

Yes, I puked. In fact, I used to do that a lot in 4th std. I couldn't travel in buses at all. That smell of the bus was so freakishly nauseating; I'd feel dizzy and throw up EVERY single day. It was the school bus you see. Can you imagine the humiliation at being called 'vomit girl' every single day?(No, really, this happened.) I dunno if I cried cos of this, but maybe I did. Sensitive kid. :-/ Maybe I changed after that,  to such an extent that no one believes I may have been innocent at some point in time. I'm just a little devil to everyone now. :D Poor mom thinks the innocent, obeying kid me was much better sometimes. Haha :P

Oh, the vomiting problem has been well taken care of now. I dunno how, but when I came here, I HAD to travel in buses, but never once have I puked, strangely. :D Yayy, this is what I consider an achievement, in the true sense of the word. It's nothing like winning awards for participating in group singing and stuff- anyone can do that. What you can do to improve yourself counts as your achievement, I think. Which is why I always think it's best to compare yourself with yourself, rather than others! <(^_^)v

Anyway, another achievement was not throwing up at Wonder La. To be very honest, I didn't think I would puke, never once- I simply said that to scare my friends xD . What I was scared of, was that that feeling those rides give you- turning your stomach upside down, messing up your intestines, blood flowing to brain- I thought I wouldn't be able to handle that and complete all rides. But I did, and my friends were surprised, and me, even more so! A 9-year old girl, who would faint at the thought of going up dizzying heights and being pulled back down, and then puke, has grown to a 22-year old who can finally go on those same rides, shout her guts out, be very afraid, and still enjoy every single moment of it. It may not seem much like an achievement, but to me it is. I managed to let go of my decade-old fear that I cannot go to an amusement park again. Yes.

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Off late, yes, a lot! I see trains, and feel like just hopping on and go wherever. This feeling of wanting to escape, being invisible for a while.. hmm, I wonder what it means? Am i stressed? Naah, maybe I'm just bored with my life right now being stuck in a rut. Lol, maybe that's why I'm loving traveling in train these days xD

do you ever feel like running away for a day like just taking a bus somewhere and not coming back to your house until the sun goes down

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yeah. this. basically. it's so annoying when the girl is so thick-headed and the guy is a know-it-all and arrogant and acts like he doesn't give a damn but then gets all jealous when one of those smaller-category-in-the-pie-chart-guys(the good, nice, kind, best friend types) get close to the girl and THEN they confess.. lol, this has happened in so many of the dramas I've seen till now- from baek seung jo to gu jun pyo(or domyouji in HYD) to sano izumi to hwang tae-kyung/katsuragi ren. (aah, is it either i watch more k-dramas or maybe more k-dramas have this kind of storyline? no no.. i watch the same number of j-dramas too, but i think there is more variety there. Hmmm). End of rant. I always wanted to talk about this, but had forgotten about it. Being the hypocrite that I am, I'm watching 2 Korean dramas that follow the same cliched storyline even after saying all this. Haha. :P