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I wish I had a mom who cared about me enough to try and save me from unhealthy and disordered behaviors. But when I was younger and still lived at home, I just wanted to get away from my parents. Trust me, having mental illness is much scarier when there is no one near to remind you what is healthy and sane, and what is unhealthy and even potentially dangerous. It’s hard af out here I know it!

ED’s, (I’ve struggled with bulimia and overrestricting) for me get really triggered by feeling out of control of what I’m eating or when someone is trying to force me to eat that is the worst feeling ever honestly!!! It’s awful but we have to keep in the back of our minds that the whole ED mentality is actually a mental illness and normal people do not really attribute their self esteem or self worth or love-ability to their weight.

I'm doing great till now. I just came back home, it is afternoon and I haven't eaten anything since yesterday ( I ate only lunch). And I'm not hungry at all but my mum wants me to eat. I said that I ate out and I'm not hungry for the time being, that I'll eat later. So I think that I can eat only a green apple and I'll be ok, or I can eat a little more, still on my limit (under 200cal). I dont really know what to do, and if my mum suspects me she will force me to eat much more than this:(

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My sister is a nurse who works with patients who have mouth and throat cancer from smoking. No matter what, stay away from cigarettes and laxatives it’s so scary what she sees!!!

I was wondering, how many of you do use smoking as a way to lose weight or decrease your appetite?

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When I first joined ed tumblr it was just for me

Now my brain wants followers/friends/chat groups but like y

This is still just for me, my diary, my safe space, my spo, my catharsis

It’s been a year since I joined and I’ve lost and gained and lost the same 25 lbs

Bulimia sucks... fasting is the most effective for weight loss, but CICO is the easiest imo

It’s tru what they say abt vitamins and supplements...

It’s hard but at least my mental health has slowly gotten better over the year, except I still can’t shake the need to keep getting smaller

BMR= 1350

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Yes!

Made it into 120’s today!!!

Cw-128.

Cico= steady progress stay safe!

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Holy shit I’m so sorry this scares the shit out of me I’ve been purging for years I must stop

Sorry I’ve been a little inactive. I’ve been in the hospital because my purging.

I just wanted to say that eating disorders can affect you at random times. I only purged for a week and I managed to get a tear in my esophagus. This led to air being built up in my throat and chest which was so so so painful. I wouldn’t wish this on anyone. If you want to lose weight please do it safely. But if you simply can’t, avoiding purging at all cost.

I mean it, avoid purging at all cost.

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Intake today

-coffee

-0cal electrolyte power

-vitamin

-1tbsp green powder (20cal)

-1/4 cup peanuts (160cal)

-1 egg (80)

-1 nectarine (63)

-1/2 avo (160cal)

=482

Now, red wine will get me to the end of the night :)

(~360cal, yea I have a prob.. but it keeps away the cravings so..fuck)

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I binged today like a moron so I have gained weight and I’m sure it will pack on later. Tomorrow though I’m starting a diet with zero excuses. I keep pushing myself too hard with fasts and it gives me a fever, so this way I can eat a little bit and try not to fast for longer than 48 hours. I did get inspired by this before and after of me though, the difference is about 7 pounds.

Not a good day overall, but I can easily recover from this slip up, it’s not the end of the world. I’m still learning what works for me, and failure is part of that. I’ll probably post more info tonight in case anyone wants to be my diet buddy!

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Yea I’m lookinfor real anas too plz!

I kinda miss 2014 ed tumblr 💔

Now everything is empty and everyone is gone. Everyone has moved on to other platforms.

I feel lonely. Please reblog if you're active in July 2020

My feed is dead. I miss everyone :(((