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bad reputation | lee jeno

Pairing: JENO x female reader, Haechan x female reader Wordcount: 17.1k Genre: angst, fluff, suggestive, dark theme Warnings: teen pregnancy, young mother, single mother, mentions and an attempt of su1cid3, death, bullying, spreading rumours, swearing, hospital, sexual harassment, reader punching someone.

Summary: People have judged you for being a single mother at eighteen. They thought of malicious things about your job for having to work from dusk to dawn. All of them are quick to jump to wrong conclusions and as quick to turn a blind eye when you needed help. All except for Jeno.

Disclaimer: This is a work of fiction. It is not intended to offend or insult anyone. Not proofread.

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She got a bad reputation She takes the long way home And all of my friends seen her naked Or so the story goes

“Why won't you just leave him alone?!”

Jeno looked up to see a small girl in bright blue overalls and yellow pigtails standing in front of him, protecting him from the kids who bully him nonstop all day, every day.

“What are you going to do? Tell his nanny? His nanny won't care like how his mom doesn't care about him!” the bully laughed mockingly. Jeno was about to say it's not true, but you rebutted almost instantly.

“No, but I'm going to kick you so hard where the sun doesn't shine you’ll forget your mama’s name.”

Jeno snapped his head towards you, worry plastered on his face. This kind of talk will undoubtedly bring you to the principal’s office if someone hears you and it's not worth it. Fortunately, your threats were enough to scare his bullies away. “Why would you do that?” Jeno is clearly pissed at you.

After what you did for him, the first thing you expected him to say is to thank you, but it seems like this kid in front of you is too proud to say it. You frowned at him, “You're ungrateful.” You disappointingly said and walked away.

Jeno felt bad and lost the courage to approach you after you called him ungrateful. 7-year-old Jeno spent all day how to make it up to you and he resorted to writing you a letter and leaving you a bag of cookies in your book nook when no one else was looking.

You found his peace offering just a little later and struggled to read through his incredibly bad penmanship and a series of misspellings, but any 6-year-old would appreciate his gesture. You offered to share with him the cookies and made yourself acquainted with the older boy.

“My name’s y/n.”

“I'm Jeno.”

Jeno wished he stayed in contact with you, but maybe it's part of growing up that some people will just lose connection with each other. You were never really friends with Jeno the way you were with your other friends, but you find it peaceful whenever you talk to him. It's almost as if you would enjoy conversing with him if he would not stiffen up, look at you and never reply. Which was too bad because you’re comfortable with him and you enjoyed his company that one time he actually said something other than agreeing with whatever you just said.

Jeno knows he’s socially awkward and he cannot really blame you for hardly talking to him because he never initiated a conversation with you ever at all. He's aware that he might have been the very reason why his relationship with you never improves. Nevertheless, he’s still thankful that despite his unintentional silent treatments, you remained friendly with him.

In return, he does his best to look after you from a safe distance. He was there when you joined band class in junior high, he remembered himself begging his parents to enroll him in guitar lessons so he can brag his skills in front of you during band practice. He was the one who left his clean sweatpants by your locker when you first had your period- he had no idea what that was. At first, he thought you didn't get to the restroom in time and it took him years to understand what just happened to you that day. He would leave treats, lunch and notes by your locker every chance he gets.

His crush on you grows over time, but he never pushed through it. He’s happy to watch you read his notes after class and stick your own note on your locker saying your thanks to the person who left the treats. You always ask him to meet you, but Jeno is still the same shy boy from kindergarten, he’d rather stay quiet and invisible than approaching you.

He couldn't find the best time and to gather enough courage to confess his feelings for you. Jeno thought he had all the time in the world and idled his confession but everything shifted in senior high for both you and him. Your lives went spiralling down.

Other girls at your age may have been having love problems, but you're different. The woman who raised you, fed you, clothed you have passed away. It was your grandmother who raised you and your older sister since the day your parents died in a car crash when you were young. You don't remember much about your parents to feel sad about their passing, but the death of your grandmother surely took a toll on you.

Your sister being 7 years older than you took the responsibility for taking care of you. She and her fiancé, Taeil, took you to their apartment without second thoughts and did their best to provide for your newfound family. From then on, it's the three of you against the world.

Jeno saw all these hardships and thought that he could do more than just leaving you comforting notes on your locker. He wanted to comfort you personally, talk to you, hold your hand when you're down, be the shoulder you cry on and to hug you. But someone else has clearly thought the same thing. The day that Jeno finally gathered enough courage to talk to you and excitedly looked everywhere for you with a bag of cookies in one hand is also the day when he found you at the football bench hugging someone else.

You're with Haechan. A boy from the same year as Jeno and the captain of the school’s soccer team is hugging you as you cry your heart out to him. He didn't think much about it, thinking it was just a friendly interaction.

But as days go by, all he could do is to watch you helplessly fall in love with the guy deemed to be perfect by social standards. What does he have against the popular jock in school? He’s just the guy who only learned to play guitar to impress a girl. He’s just the guy who couldn't even stand up to his own bullies, what more confessing his lifelong crush to you. Who is he compared to that guy? He’s just him, just Jeno.

He was broken-hearted even before he got his shot at you. It was wrong for him to assume that he could take his time and now he is regretting it. If he only decided to confess a week before or at least an hour earlier maybe things would turn out differently. Maybe he’s not watching you laugh because your boyfriend whispered something funny to you. Maybe he has the appetite to eat the chicken his friend, Jaemin, bought him for lunch. Maybe he’s not this miserable to see you happy with someone else.

It was hard for him, but he did what he does best. Love you from afar.

It took Jeno over a month to get over the fact that you're now dating the popular guy in school and eventually got used to the sight of you walking hand in hand with your boyfriend in the hallways. He found himself smiling at the sight of you having fun teasing your boyfriend for having a small hand. Maybe you dating that Haechan guy wasn't so bad after all.

You look happier now that you're with him and you finally have someone to lean on whenever life gets too harsh on you again. You seemed to be genuinely happy and Haechan looks like he cares for you deeply. Jeno wishes for your happiness and it doesn't matter if you found it in someone else, even if it means losing the chance of you liking him back. If you're happy then that's good enough for him.

Your life started to get back to normal with the help of your family and your boyfriend. You're thankful for them for helping you get back on your feet after the passing of your grandma. Haechan has been very sweet and funny, you couldn't ask for a better boyfriend than him. Soon enough, you’ve already been together for almost a year and it feels like you’ve only started dating last week.

~

It's Saturday and you're out at the mall with your sister and her fiancé, Taeil. Both of you were seated on the couch at Victoria’s Secret as you watched your sister walk across the room to look at the pyjamas on sale.

“What do you think Haechan would like to get as a gift?” You asked Taeil. He looked at you with a teasing smile.

“Why would you ask me? You know I suck at that. Ask your sister, she has very good eyes in buying gifts.”

“I don't want her to know I'm getting my boyfriend a gift.” You shrugged, you saw his eyes widen. You looked at your back and saw your sister standing behind you, one hand on her waist.

“You’re getting Haechan a gift?” Your sister asked you, giving you the eye.

“I am. It's almost our first anniversary and I'm thinking of getting him something.” You explained trying to make it sound like it's not that big a deal. You thought she’s going to ask you more questions, but you're surprised that she only smiled at you.

“Well, in buying gifts you should find him something meaningful. What does he like?”

You smiled as you thought of him, “You know that he plays soccer and he’s really good at it, in fact, there are colleges that are in contact with him already. He’s very well known at school and he’s one of the top students in his year. He’s really handsome and funny.”

You didn't notice that your sister and Taeil shared a meaningful look. “Okay, so he plays soccer and is popular. Anything else you know about him?” Your sister asked you. Her slightly concerned tone made you snap back from daydreaming.

“What do you mean? I already told you. Maybe I should get him something soccer-related since that's his thing, right? What do you guys think?” You smiled at them.

They decided not to meddle with your relationship but gave you a piece of advice that you wished you listened to, “I am happy for you that your relationship with Haechan is going strong, but I need you to remember to never give your all to a person you hardly know. Save some for yourself. Okay?"

Mistakes we all make them But they won't let it go, no 'Cause she's got a bad reputation But I know what they don't

The day you've been waiting for came.

It's finally your first anniversary, Haechan picked you up from your house and took you out to a carnival. He never lets you spend a single cent for the whole day even if you insisted. When the night came, he took you to a garden restaurant and spent dinner talking and laughing about everything.

You’re so much in love with him and you believe he feels the same, so when he parked his car in a secluded part of town, you prepared yourself for whatever may happen in that car. He was ever gentle and ever so sweet whispering comforting words to ease the pain you're feeling. He’s your first and you’re his. It was perfect and just like how you imagined it would be.

What happened that night brought the two of you closer. If he was already sweet before, he’s definitely sweeter now. He’s very attentive and gives you his full attention when you ask him for it. Your heart couldn't be any happier and Jeno saw that. Your glow is different, your smile is brighter. He’s jealous, but he’s very much happy for you.

This happiness only lasted for a month. When you missed your period and your frequent headaches took the best of you, you decided to tell your boyfriend what you think it might be. Both of you are smart enough to list down the possibilities of your symptoms, but none dared to speak it out.

Both of you are seated in his car in front of your house, you watch him as his hands grip the steering wheel. He knitted his brows, he was quiet for the longest time and you had to call his name to get him out of his thoughts.

“I don't want us to jump to any conclusions. Take a pregnancy test before you tell me shit like this.” You looked at him shocked, even he was taken aback at his tone and reaction. You chose to stay silent and nodded in agreement. Offended, you took your things hastily and hooked your bag on your shoulder, about to leave his car.

“Can you come with me when I do it?” You ask before you leave his car, he didn't look at you.

“I’ll be busy with practice this week.” He coldly replied.

“Fine. Then I'll take the test next week if that means I'm doing it with you.” You quickly slammed the car door and not even a second after he stepped on the gas and sped away. You watched his car lost in your sight.

That Haechan in there wasn't your Haechan. Instantly he became distant and cold, but you’re still thankful that he picked you up on Friday after school and brought you to a gasoline station as you took the test in the public bathroom.

Your heart is pounding, you were so nervous and you wished endlessly that it wasn't you think it was. 5 minutes later, you stared at the 3 sticks resting on top of the sink as they all drew a second pink line. Mouth hanging open, you broke down crying. Haechan heard the sound you made and worriedly knocked on the door. “What’s happening y/n?!”

You opened the door and quickly hugged Haechan in front of you, his instinct was to return the hug and caress your back. He whispered things to calm you down, but then he saw the positive pregnancy sticks on the sink. His mind stopped working and his body made the decision for him, he slowly removed your arms from his neck and mumbled, “I-I can’t.”

Confused, you looked up to him, “What do you mean you can’t?”

He shook his head, his eyes still remained at the sticks. “This. Y/n I can't be the father of your child- I can't be anyone's father.” His voice is shaking and fear is vividly shown in his face.

“Baby. Yes, you can. Of course, you can. We can do this together, we’ll talk this out and prepare for this.” It was your time to calm him down.

He shook his head one more time, “I said I fucking can't y/n! I'm not doing this! How can you be so sure that's even mine?! You could have easily cheated on me! I could not be the father of that child!” He said with so much venom your hand found its way to his cheek.

You slapped him so hard as tears run down your face, “You know fucking well that you're the only man I’ve ever slept with, how could you think of me that way?” You hardly finished your sentence with all the sobbing you did.

He looked you in the eyes, you saw different emotions flashed on his face. “I'm sorry.” That is all he managed to say and left you alone standing by the washroom with three positive pregnancy sticks and a life forming inside of you.

You spent the weekends in your room, avoiding your sister and Taeil. Guilt is reigning you, they took you in and fed you, and this is what you’re going to give back in return? Your sister is getting married in a few months, you know she’d postpone the wedding if she finds out that you're pregnant and Taeil doesn't deserve that.

You have so many plans in your life and getting knocked up at eighteen isn't one of them. You took your phone and confided to Twitter.

“This isn't happening to me”

“You fucked up my life”

“I fucked up my life”

Jeno follows you on Twitter and doesn't exactly know what you were talking about. It was hard for him to be only one screen away but unable to read you. He finally understood what your tweet was about when people at your school were wasting their time and energy whispering to each other, gossiping about someone else's life.

The news that you're pregnant spreads like wildfire, but what felt like a punch in the gut is it was Haechan who started it. He only told one person and the rest is history. You are now the infamous girl who cheated on the most popular guy at school and managed to get knocked up by the guy you cheated with.

What you didn't understand is why did your friends desert you, why is no one checking on you if you were okay, and why is no one asking to hear your side? Everybody believed the first thing they have heard and decided to stick with it. They already closed their minds for any explanations because in their eyes you're already a cheater and a whore. The saddest thing is the people who hate you are the same people you have showed kindness to. The people who keep spreading rumours about you are the same people you once called friends.

You were worried, paranoid, anxious, problematic and alone. You couldn't get a hold of your ex-boyfriend anymore and you figured he really didn't want to do anything with you. Your friends look at you with so much disgust that you can’t even find someone to have lunch with.

You're looking around the school cafeteria to find a place to sit, people are either looking at you with judgment or avoiding your stare. Then you saw a friendly face, the only person who gave you a sincere smile since the news about you blew up. You took a deep breath and walked towards his table. Jeno was in the middle of shoving spaghetti in his mouth when you sat in front of him and placed your food tray on the table. He stopped mid-track to look at you, he blinked a couple of times to make sure that he’s not hallucinating.

You just sat there waiting for him to say hi or welcome you, but you felt stupid for thinking he’s different as he just stared at you like he didn't even recognize you. “I'm sorry. I thought you- never mind. This is stupid I'm sorry.” You said as you stood up from your seat.

He quickly swallowed the food in his mouth and it almost choked him. “No, please don't leave, sit with us. I'm sure Jaemin wouldn't mind.” He looked at his friend at the same time you looked at him, he still had spaghetti sauce on his mouth, it made you smile a little.

“No. I don't mind at all. Eat with us by all means.” Jaemin replied. Jeno looked back at you with a smile on his face, his eyes are like crescent moons.

Their acceptance is enough for you to feel thankful. You were about to sit down when you heard the murmurs behind you, the whispers were so loud you weren’t sure if they're even trying to be discreet. “Where does she get the face to show up to school? And just look who she's sitting with, is she trying to corrupt every boy here?”

You were staring at your food when you felt a hand on top of yours. “Don’t listen to them. We don’t believe them.” Jeno assured you that made Jaemin nod his head.

You gave them a weak smile, “It was true though. I am pregnant.” Jeno was clearly taken aback, he thought the rumours about you were just rumours. He didn’t think it would be real.

You saw the dilemma in his eyes so you quickly added, “But I never cheated. I only slept with-” Jeno stopped you almost immediately. “Please don’t think you owe anyone an explanation. You don’t have to explain anything to us.” He told you kindly which almost made you tear up. “And honestly, it shouldn’t be anyone’s business anyway,” Jaemin said loud enough for the people around you to hear.

You were thankful for them but after that one time, you didn’t consider eating lunch with them again. They are genuinely nice people and you don’t want to drag them into your mess.

And I don't care what they say about you baby They don't know what you've been through

All of a sudden, you stopped showing up to school. Your sudden and continuous absences certainly made Jeno worry. He wanted to ask you how you're doing but he thought he might be crossing the line if he does. In the second week of your unexplained absences, Jeno decided to visit the school councillor and ask about you.

“I appreciate your concern for your friend Mr. Lee. Miss y/ln came here two weeks ago with her sister to inform us that she will be dropping out of school. Her health is the main reason for the decisions they have made and took her doctor's advice to take a much-needed rest away from the stress of school."

Jeno’s mind is quick to think of the worst possible scenarios, his leg is jumping up and down from tension as he couldn't stop himself from imagining you in a hospital bed. “What happened to her? How is she? Is she stressed out? I did some research and read that stress could be dangerous for the baby. How’s her baby? Are they okay? They should be okay if they're resting at home right?”

The councillor cleared her throat as Jeno mentioned ‘baby’ and carefully picked the right words to say, not wanting to give any sensitive information about you. “The pregnancy rumours about her could or could not be true Mr. Lee. Let’s not dwell in that.”

“But I know she’s pregnant. She told me that herself. I just need to know what happened to her. Please.”

“If she really told you about that very personal information, then you're probably close enough with her to ask her how she's doing. I cannot talk to you about her situation any further, I hope you understand.”

Jeno walked out of the councillor’s office dejected, Jaemin who's been waiting for him to come out stood up from his seat and walked up to Jeno. “What did she say? Is y/n okay?

“She didn't say anything else other than y/n dropped out from school due to health reasons.”

“Health reasons? Could this be about her pregnancy?” Jaemin whispered.

“I don't know, but it's most likely because of it. I hope they're doing okay. I'm worried about her baby.”

“Why would you worry about the baby? Wouldn't it be better for you if she los-”

Jeno quickly grabbed Jaemin’s collar and pulled him closer. “Don't you even dare finish saying that.”

Jaemin raised both of his hands and apologized as Jeno let go of him, “I'm sorry man. I just thought you’ve been in love with her for so long and having a baby is such a dealbreaker.”

“How’s that a dealbreaker? She’s bringing a life into this world and that's more to love about her. And why are you thinking that way Jaem? That’s a new low for you. You're no different from the people who judged her.”

Jeno quickly left, leaving Jaemin speechless.

~

The stress from school and the pressure of keeping your pregnancy a secret drove you near to having a miscarriage.

Your sister is excitedly talking about her wedding and how your graduation is two years away and how you should start sending applications to universities soon made your head started spinning. You felt a sharp pain in your abdomen and couldn't help but groan.

“What's wrong?” Your sister quickly walked to you. The excruciating pain couldn't let you speak. “Oh my god.” Your sister mumbled beside you looking at your legs. You followed her stare and looked down at yourself. Blood is dripping down your legs and starting to pool at your feet. You're slowly losing your strength and lean your weight on your sister. You heard her screaming for Taeil and felt him carry you.

“I'm sorry.” You whispered before blacking out.

You woke up in a hospital bed, you looked around and saw Taeil sleeping on a chair. A little later your sister came into your room with a cup of water. She quickly walked to your side when she saw you awake. “Y/n! You gave us a heart attack. How are you feeling? Are you hurt somewhere?”

Your sister examined you herself and the genuine concern in her voice made you cry. She already found out about your pregnancy but there is no hint of anger in her. She tried calming you down but it only made you cry harder.

“I'm going to call a doctor.” Taeil said and got up from his seat to look for help.

“What's wrong, y/n? Use your words, honey.” Your sister cooed at you.

“I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to.” You finally said between your sobs.

She only gave you a smile at you with tears in her eyes threatening to fall. “Shh. We’re going to be with you every step of the way.” She assured you.

All the fear you have been keeping to yourself faded. A little later Taeil came back with your doctor. She asked you if you were stressed in the past days and for the sake of your baby, you told the truth in front of your sister. “The stress started when I had suspicions about being pregnant. I told my…” You looked at your sister before continuing “-boyfriend about it and he asked for me to take a pregnancy test before assuming things so I did, and when the tests came out positive, he denied that he’s the father of my baby when he knows all too well that he’s the only guy I ever slept with. For some reason, everyone in school found out that I am pregnant and someone spread rumours that I was sleeping with different guys. And I couldn't find the right time to tell my family about it because I was scared that they'd get mad at me.” Your heard your sister sobbing beside you but you kept your eyes on your doctor who only gave you a sympathetic smile.

“The stress caused your blood pressure to spike up. High blood pressure is extremely dangerous to the health of your baby, it could end in several things including premature birth and miscarriage, which brings me to the reason why you're here today. You had what we medically called a threatened abortion, this gave you a higher possibility rate of having a miscarriage especially during the early stages of your pregnancy.” You felt your sister's hand on top of yours, you gave it a squeeze and she held onto you tighter. “If all of your stress is coming from your environment, I suggest that you avoid it in the meantime. I know education is very important and you wish to continue your studies but I highly recommend that you take a break from school- at least until you give birth to a healthy baby.” Your doctor added.

“I’ll do everything to keep my baby safe.” Your sister gave you a nod in agreement.

“And you have our full support.” Taeil also gave your hand a squeeze. You were certain that you could handle everything and anything with them by your side.

Trust me, I could be the one to treat you like a lady Let me see what's underneath, all I need is you

8 months later you gave birth to a beautiful baby girl. You named your daughter Dasom, which means love. Her family might be unique but she will grow with overflowing love.

Your pregnancy was so difficult that you had to get extra hands to help you to do the simplest things. Your sister and Taeil have the kindest hearts to put you first before their wedding. You felt so bad but they already made their decision and focused on helping you with your pregnancy. Half of the money they saved up for their wedding was used to buy things in preparation for your baby’s arrival. They did not give you the chance to stop them, mostly because they buy the baby stuff behind your back.

The wedding happened six months later. In the end, the couple decided to have a civil ceremony in the mayor’s office instead. The wedding might have been less grand than their initial plan but their hearts are still over the moon. Now that they're married you thought it would be best for you to get your own small apartment. Your sister and her husband would be needing a lot of personal time to start their own family and you didn't want to be the one hindering it too.

Although they insisted that they didn't mind you and your daughter staying with them, you moved out anyway. You saw an ad for a one-bedroom apartment a few blocks away from your sister's house and you immediately grabbed the opportunity to rent it. It’s time to live independently. Being a single mother will never be easy and you have to get used to it.

You’re finishing high school through GED and attending classes from 5 o’clock in the afternoon until 10 in the evening, then right after class you will go straight to your job and work from 11 PM until 7 in the morning. You leave your daughter in your sister’s care and will pick her up the next morning before your sister leaves for work and after you take a couple of hours nap. You spend your whole day playing with Dasom and you couldn’t think of any better way to spend it. Sure, it wasn’t as independent as you imagined it would be, but as long as you're giving the best for your daughter you don't think you're going to regret anything at all.

People were still quick to judge you when they found out that you’re a teenage, single mother that works from dusk to dawn in a suspicious bar. You couldn’t care less of what they have to say, you just let them think whatever they wanted to think and continued minding your own business. Your days of trying to please the people around you are over because the moment you became a mother, the gravity of your world shifted from you to her. Everything you do, every decision you make is for your daughter. You watch her grow every day and each day you see more of yourself in her. Her smiles are just like yours and when you look her into the eyes it’s like you’re staring in a mirror.

You’re so proud of her and her achievements at a very young age. At nineteen months, she chooses her own clothes to wear and you would always post her outfits on your Twitter account.

When you dropped out of school you decided that it’s best for you to lay off social media and deleted every account you have on each platform except for Twitter. You blocked almost everyone from your school. From almost a thousand followers you only left 20 people in your followers and it’s arguably one of the best things you did.

Jeno is one of the few people you didn't remove from your followers. And since you detoxed toxic people out of your life, you started sharing more intimate and personal things about yourself. You posted pictures of your pregnant belly back when you were still pregnant, to pictures from your sister’s wedding, and even the very first picture you took with your daughter in the delivery room.

He's never been more updated to you before than he is now.

Now that Jeno’s in college, reading your tweets is his way of de-stressing. A cute picture of you and your daughter would easily take a week worth of his stress. You often tweet pictures of your daughter and Jeno would always be the first one to like them. The resemblance you had to your daughter is uncanny.

Tonight is no different for Jeno. After a long day of studying and burying himself in workloads, he laid himself in his bed and opened his Twitter account going straight to your page. The vibe of your twitter is always light and welcoming, something he needs after a tiring day. Other than your updates about your daughter you retweet a lot of motivational quotes and hilarious memes every day, but instead of seeing something funny, he saw an extremely alarming tweet posted just a few seconds ago.

Forgive me, love. Mama isn’t strong enough. I love you so much. Don’t be like mama.

Without any second thoughts, Jeno bolted from his bed and ran to his car. There is something wrong with your tweet and he felt it in his bones. He was so worried that he didn’t hear his mother calling after him. Jeno looked at the time, it’s 2 o’clock in the morning. Where could you be at this hour? The only place he could think of was your job and that’s where he found himself heading to.

She got a bad reputation Nobody gets too close A sight of a soul when it's breaking Making my heart grow cold

Jeno was so worried he kept mumbling things to himself, it's even plausible that he's already praying without him realizing it. He didn’t bother checking his speed anymore, all he could think of is to get to you as fast as he possibly could.

As he was passing through a bridge, he saw a very familiar figure standing on the very edge of the rail. He quickly unbuckled his seatbelt and quietly- but quickly- run to you. Jeno was smart enough not to close his car door, afraid to make a sound that could scare you to jumping.

You were crying your heart out, begging for your daughter’s forgiveness but no matter how hard and how much you weep, the weight and agony in your heart never ceased. You’re lost, hopeless and beyond help. You couldn’t think of any solution other than this and the only thing that’s stopping you is your daughter. It was never your intention to leave her fatherless and motherless, but she’s better off without a mother like you. Taeil and your sister are more capable of giving her the life you couldn’t give.

You exhaled deeply and stepped closer to the edge ready to jump when you felt two arms wrapped around your body and hastily pulled you back to the ground. Your body dropped over him, Jeno could feel your whole body shivering. His arms tightened around you, terrified to let you go. He was so petrified he didn’t realize that he’s now crying with you. Jeno somehow managed to call 911 without letting go of you. Your legs turned to jelly and lost all your strength to fight back so you stayed in his grip. He held onto you on the ground whispering comforting words trying his best to calm you but your tears are flowing uncontrollably. A few minutes later an ambulance and police came to your aid.

The emergency responders gave you a much-needed sedative to calm you. A police officer is nice enough to drive Jeno’s car to the hospital as he jumps in the ambulance with you refusing to leave you alone. He held your hand tightly and watched you peacefully sleeping on an ambulance stretcher. A doctor quickly assessed your condition upon arriving at the hospital and only then the police took Jeno’s statement. Even while talking to the police he never took his eyes away from you, as if you were going to disappear any second.

You’re now in a private room. Jeno is by your feet just watching you sleep when your sister, Taeil and Dasom arrived. Your sister cried as she kissed your hair while Taeil quietly caressed her back. Jeno looked at your daughter. This is the first time he saw her in person, she’s beautiful and she looks just like you. Your sister noticed Jeno in the corner of the room and hugged the life out of him while endlessly thanking him for saving your life.

“Some people would think nothing of her tweet, but you did something. How can we ever repay you?” She said between her sobs and sad smile. Jeno wanted to say he’s not just some people. He’s in love with you for god knows how long.

“I’m her friend and I only did what a friend would do.” Jeno smiled at them. Taeil walked to Jeno, Dasom in his arms, and offered him his hand that Jeno gladly took. “Thank you for saving my sister’s life. We’ll be forever in your debt.”

It was already 4am when Jeno got home to his worried parents waiting for him in the living area. “Lee Jeno, where the hell did you go in the middle of the night leaving your phone in your room?!” It was the first time Jeno saw his mom mad, let alone yelling. His father is just sitting on the couch looking intently at him waiting for Jeno to answer his mother’s question.

“Mom, dad. I’m sorry I didn’t get to text you or call you but there was an emergency-”

“How urgent could it be that you just ran past me?” His mom asked.

“A friend from high school tweeted something concerning so I went out to look for her and I saw her…” Jeno remembered how his body went cold at the sight of you standing on the edge of the bridge. “-about to jump off a bridge.”

Jeno buried his face in the palm of his hands, his parents went silent. He didn’t realize that he’s already crying in front of them. He was so scared. What if he didn't get to you in time. What if he didn’t open his Twitter account that night. His mother said not another word and hugged him tightly and his dad joined later on. “How is she now? Is she alright?” His dad asked as Jeno calmed down.

Jeno nodded. “Yes, dad. I got there just in time to stop her. She’s in the hospital right now with her sister, brother in law… and her daughter.”

“A lot happened tonight. You should get to bed and try to catch some sleep and pay her a visit later. And if there’s anything at all, you know you can always talk to me and your dad right?”

Jeno gave them a smile, “Yes mom. You don’t have to worry about me.”

“We love you son.” His father added.

~

Skipping school to visit you in the hospital is probably the most rebellious thing Jeno has done in his life and he’s more than willing to do it again if he has to. He couldn't think of anything to bring you so he brought you cookies instead. As he made his way to your room he ran through your sister coming from the cafeteria holding two cups of coffee.

“Did you at least sleep? It's only been 4 hours since you’re last here.” Your sister asked Jeno, handing him a cup of coffee.

“Thank you.” Jeno said. He took a sip and felt the warmth of the drink spread through his chest. “I tried sleeping but after last night, I didn't really expect to sleep easily."

Your sister gave him a nod and a weak smile. “I get it. We’re all worried for her. Even my husband wanted to stay here in the hospital to watch after her, but one of us has to continue working to pay for the hospital bills. The ambulance alone costs two grand, imagine that."

Jeno couldn't lookup. He somehow felt responsible for the expenses they have to pay since he was the one who called 911. “I'm sorry, I will pay for the ambulance fee.”

“Oh god no! That's not what I meant! You’ve done so much for us already, I shouldn't have told you that I apologize. I'm just overly stressed, I forgot to think for a second there."

He didn't listen and took out his wallet and pulled out five-hundred dollars cash. “I could withdraw more later or pay directly with my card, but please take this for the meantime.” Jeno handed the money to your sister with both of his hands.

Your sister could only look at the money and shook her head. “I can't do that to you Jeno. This is too much.”

“Please. You need all the help you could get for y/n and Dasom. I will never ask for anything in return, I just want to help.”

Your sister sighed and took the money from him. “Thank you, Jeno. But I'm only borrowing this. We will pay you back, I promise.”

“And can we not tell y/n about this? Please?” Jeno pleaded, the least your sister could do is nod.

~

You're already awake and currently playing with your daughter in your room. Last night should have been your last night and if it weren't for Jeno you wouldn't be playing with your daughter right now.

“Mama, sad?” Your daughter asked you as she tries to erase the sad frown on your face.

“Mama’s just happy that I get to play with you today.”

Your daughter hugged you tightly, burying her head in your chest, “Don't be sad. I will play with you every day.” Her voice was full of innocence and you're so mad at yourself for even considering hurting her.

“And I promise you that I will be with you every day.” You kissed your daughter's head and lulled her to sleep. You were watching your daughter fall asleep on your chest when Jeno knocked on your door, holding a bag of cookies in one hand.

Remembering the events from last night was so embarrassing for you. You never wanted anyone to see you so vulnerable, especially by someone you’re only acquainted with. Jeno, who you barely talk with, saw you at your lowest and you didn't know how to act around him now after what happened. You were so ashamed to look him in the eyes, but you tried your best to give him a smile.

“Hi.” He whispered, careful not to wake Dasom up. “I met your sister at the lobby. She's doing some paper works but she said she'll be back soon.”

You nodded and cleared your throat. The silence is killing you. You wanted to thank him for what he did last night but you couldn't find your voice to speak. “I-Uhm.” You started, but words flew out of your head. What's so hard with saying I’m sorry and Thank you?

Jeno sensed that you're uncomfortable and prompted to leave. “I could leave and come back later when your sister’s here.” He offered.

“No, please stay.” You called out. “I haven't thanked you for what you did yet. Thank you.” For the first time, you looked into his eyes. You’ve known the guy since you were just little kids but you couldn't recall if you ever looked at him the way you're doing right now. His eyes are so pretty as if they hold the wonders of the world. Jeno is a shy boy but his eyes are bold and candid.

He only gave you a smile and looked at your sleeping daughter. “She’s beautiful. Looks just like you.”

Your eyes shifted to your daughter, “She is.” You said as you shuffled on your bed trying to find a comfortable position. She didn't get enough sleep last night and you didn't want to wake her from her much-needed nap, but your IV line is caught in between your daughter's body and you could feel the piercing pain every time you move.

“Isn't she heavy? Do you want me to take her?” Jeno asked. You nodded immediately and gave a shy chuckle. He walked closer to your bed, put the bag of cookies on your bedside table before carefully taking your sleeping daughter in his arms. You could swear that you felt your heartbeat loudly as you watched Jeno cradling your sleeping daughter. Jeno couldn't help but smile at the sight of your daughter sinking her face to his chest.

“She does that all the time. She loves cuddling.” You told him with a smile.

“I love cuddles too.” Jeno cooed and showed his ever most beautiful eye smile. Jeno sat down on the chair by your bed and continued to cradle Dasom in his arms. “I brought you cookies.” He said. “I don't know what's appropriate to bring and that's all I could think of. Please enjoy them.”

You chuckled and took the bag of cookies to your hand. “Just like the cookies you gave me in kindergarten.”

His heart jumped. He didn't think you would still remember what happened over a decade ago. He feels like screaming in so much happiness but the sleeping figure of Dasom keeps him from doing so. He blushed like crazy though. “You still remember that?” He asked.

“Of course. I saved you from your bullies and you gave me these as a thank you. You're my very first friend.” and currently my only friend, you thought.

He relived that day so many times in his head and this is the first time he's hearing your side of the story. “You were my first friend too. My bullies left me alone after what you did so I kind of owe you my peaceful childhood.” He laughed at his own joke and you couldn't help but chuckle with him.

“And I owe you my life today. I guess we're even now.” You tried to make a joke about what happened, but Jeno knows how serious it was and he couldn't let it go without letting you know that you're loved and cared for.

“Y/n.” He called out. You hummed and looked at him. “Whatever you're going through, I need you to know that it will not always be this difficult and it will not always be this painful. It's okay to be weak, but it's critical to know when to ask for help. I know we're not that close but if you need someone to talk to— even if I'm the last person in your mind— I will always be here for you.”

You never had someone tell you this. Sure you have your family, but you couldn't tell them your problems and risk being a burden again. They’ve done so much for you already. It might sound shallow, but Jeno’s heartening words took off some of the weight you carry. His promises made you feel protected. You felt like you showed him the bareness of your soul and the next thing you know you're already pouring all of your troubles and distress to him.

“I work as a waitress at a club, a strip club to be precise. I don't strip, I only serve drinks and snacks to customers. It's the only job that works well with our schedules that pays good and gives good tips. It's the perfect job despite what people think of me. That job provides for us, it gives Dasom a comfortable life and I get to save money for her future.” You gave a sad smile.

“But something happened a week ago. A club’s patron came and ordered his usual drink except that he also wanted me to strip for him in private. He knows I'm just a waitress and I am off-limits, but he…” Your eyes started to get cloudy as you think of what happened next. “—he forcefully touched me so I punched him in the face and broke his nose. They wanted me to apologize, but I refused so the club fired me instead. I begged them not to, but they're scared of him. I've been applying to different places but that man is influential and blacklisted me wherever I go.” You wiped your tears before continuing,

“I have been using my savings to buy diapers and formula for Dasom, to pay bills and to feed myself. In the span of a week I already used half of it and I still haven't gotten a job. I was desperate and I thought of my life insurance. We got a generous amount of money when our parents died and if Dasom were to receive that kind of money it would be more than enough to give her a better future.”

You looked down on your fingers and played with them. Jeno stared at you with so much pain. His heart broke after hearing your story and he swore that he could do so much more than a punch in the face if he ever saw that man that caused you all this. “I'm sorry. That man is a jerk. He got what he deserved and you should have given him a nice kick on his shin too.”

You laughed. “I guess I should've done that. Make sure it's broken, not sprained.”

“All jokes aside you have to know that no amount of money is worth your life. I understand that you only wanted the best for your daughter but Dasom needs her mother more than a pile of money.”

You kept your head down as you let your tears fall. What Jeno said is a bitter pill that is hard to swallow but you needed to take it to make you feel better. You looked at Jeno who was staring at you and gave him a faint smile. Jeno saw tears starting to pool around your eyes but there is understanding and deep gratitude behind those tears.

A little later your sister came back and that was Jeno’s cue to leave. He planned on staying in the hospital with you for the whole day, but after your talk, he had more important things to attend to. Jeno walked to his car and dialled someone, “Dad? I'm on my way to your office, I have something to ask from you.”

And into the deeper she's sinking I'm begging her please don't let go She's got a bad reputation But she's all that, all I want though

“What is it, son? I'm sorry but you have to make it fast. I have to leave the office after this.” He rambled as his eyes were still focused on the papers in front of him. A frown is visible on his forehead but there's also a noticeable wrinkle beside his eyes and crease on both sides of his mouth, a sign of his frequent smiles.

“Is your next meeting important? Can mom be here too?” Jeno asked in all seriousness that made his father look away from the pile of paper in front of him and glanced at his son.

“I can push it in the afternoon. What's wrong?”

“Nothing to worry about dad, but I’d still need mom with us if you don't mind.” Jeno gave his father a reassuring smile.

“Of course.” His dad called his secretary to move his schedule an hour later and asked for his wife to his office. Ten minutes later his mother arrived with a worried look on her face. Jeno guided his mom to the seat in front of him. “What do you want to talk about Jeno?” His mother softly asked.

“Mom, dad. Do you remember the friend I talked to you about yesterday night?”

His mom nodded, “Yes. What about her? You paid her a visit earlier right?” Her eyes widened, “Is she alright?” His father seems to have caught up with his wife’s thoughts and gasped silently, darting his eyes to his son, hoping for good news.

Jeno immediately raised his hands and waved their assumptions away. “Oh god, no! God, no.” His parents' expressions softened. “Nothing bad happened to her. She’s okay, her sister and her daughter are with her at the hospital. She’s getting the help she needs and she’s doing much better.”

“You should have led with that son.” Said his father to lighten up the mood. Jeno chuckled.

“Actually, I came here to talk to you about her and the reason why she did what she did yesterday. And I need both of you to listen to me first before saying or asking anything.” His parents promised and waited for their son to speak again. Jeno inhaled deeply. This is probably the first time he’s going to open up something so personal to him, to his parents.

“Her name’s Y/N. She has an older sister who is married to an electrician. Their parents died in a car crash when she was extremely young and were brought up by their grandmother who died just a couple of years ago. She fell in love with the wrong man at eighteen and got pregnant, the guy did not want to do anything with them. She bravely dropped out of school to work full time so she can raise her daughter alone while she studies to get her diploma equivalent certificate. She goes to school in the afternoon and works in a bar at night as a waitress. She’s a very brave woman and she’s so much more than what people judged her to be. Unfortunately, she recently lost her job when she stood up and protected herself from harm. Her name was blacklisted in every place she applied at. Desperate, she thought about her life insurance and how the insurance money would benefit her daughter financially. The next thing she knew, she’s standing at the edge of a bridge. I'm here asking, as your son, using all the privilege I could use to get my friend a job in this company.”

His parents shared a significant look as if their eyes were spoken a thousand words already. He watched his parents stare at each other for what feels like forever. His father put his hand on top of his mother’s lap and nodded. “Son, do you mind me asking, what's your relationship with this girl?”

Jeno looked his father in the eyes. He knows what his father meant to ask and he’s scared of their reaction if he says something they might not like. Jeno avoided his father’s stare before answering. “Nothing special. As I said, she’s a friend.”

“You’d go crazy looking for a friend in the middle of the night?”

“Dad, I already explained that to you. Any decent human being would do the same.”

“And you would barge in my office, demand our time just to listen to her depressing life story and then expect us to magically find a job for her just because you said so?” His father asked calmly. Too calm that it scared him, but Jeno didn't let it get to him.

“I didn't barge, I called beforehand. I asked for your undivided time respectfully and you gave it to me. It doesn't matter who she is to me, I just need to know if we could help her or not, sir.” Jeno ended on a strong note but kept it polite.

“You like this girl do you?” His mom finally spoke. He tried reading her eyes but he couldn't read anything, he then switched his gaze to his father who also shares the same expressionless face his mother holds.

“This girl’s name is Y/N and yes mom, I like her. I think I've liked her since we're in kindergarten and I never stopped liking her since then. Actually, no. I don't just like her. I’m in love with her.”

Jeno confessed his feelings for the first time. He knew that he’s in love with you but he never said it out loud. Hearing it from himself after years of hiding it made his feelings more serious and deeper than he thought it was.

“But she has a daughter—”

“A very beautiful and innocent daughter.” Jeno quickly added. “I honestly don't care if she had a child. She is the most kind-hearted person and she deserves to be loved just as much as any other person out there if not more.” The next thing happened quickly. His mom is crying but there's a smile on her face. His dad is also smiling, showing the same crescent eyes he has and keeps on saying he’s proud of him.

“Wait. You're not mad?” Jeno asked, confused.

His mom walked to him and hugged him tightly. “Of course not. We're glad that we brought up a gentleman.”

“And about your request, of course, we could open a position just for her. We can hire her as an interim assistant for now and prepare her for a secretarial job. In that way, you’ll have someone to guide you when you take over the company after you graduate from business school. As for her salary, we can only give her an appropriate amount of pay for her job to keep it fair to our other employees, but her pay would increase annually by 2%. I'll also make sure to give her benefits and full coverage insurance for her including her daughter by extension. How’s that sound?” His father proudly said.

Jeno stood up from his seat and hugged his father, tears threatening to fall but he couldn't care any less. “Sounds perfect. Thank you, dad.” He whispered before turning to his mother, “thank you, mom.”

~

“And there's also an exclusive daycare at the building where you can leave Dasom. You can visit her any chance you can get, and think of the benefits, you can easily save money for Dasom’s college.”

Jeno already told you the news about the job offer. He’s been hyping about it for an hour no, you didn't listen to half of what he said because you were so busy watching him talk excitedly. You have never seen him this talkative and you just noticed that he makes the cutest giggles when he says something funny.

“So what do you think? Dad said you can start as soon as you can. Y/N? Are you even listening?”

“I'm sorry I was just thinking about something.”

Jeno groaned and slumped himself on the chair. “I’ve been talking for an hour now. My mouth is parched already and you didn't even pay attention. Wow.” He sarcastically said, gaining a laugh from you.

“I heard half of it! I'm sorry.” Which of course he forgave you. How can he ever get mad at you?

“So? Will you take the job?”

You hesitated. The job is the best you could get especially for someone who didn't graduate from high school and hasn't finished taking GED classes yet, but you don't know what to feel that it will be Jeno, once again, giving you another chance to live your life. He did so much for you already and you feel bad that you caused this burden to him and he probably feels like he's responsible for you now. “I'm grateful. I really am. But am I not extremely underqualified for the job? It's literally a secretarial job at a corporation and I'm just a teenager without education or experience in an office job.”

Jeno walked near to you and sat by your feet. “You're one of the smartest students in your batch and there is nothing you couldn't learn. You have 3 years to learn everything you need to learn and when you're ready for the actual job, you’ll be working mostly with me. I’ll always be here for you so there's nothing to worry about. Don't let this opportunity get away and just say yes.”

You quickly inched closer to him and hugged him so tight he thought he started seeing clouds. He reached your back and hugged you too.

“Thank you much Jeno. You don't know how much this means to me.”

His heart swelled with pride. Finally, he’s not just someone who watches from afar. He’s no longer hiding behind the pieces of paper he leaves on your locker, no longer hiding behind the screen. He’s now helping you, hugging you, talking to you. It's far more than what he craved to do and he’s pleased with how much his relationship with you improved. From being someone you know from kindergarten, he's now a friend.

“Mama?” You quickly break away from the hug and Jeno backs away from the bed. You look at your daughter watching you from the door. “Hey baby, what are you doing there? Where's your aunt?” Dasom ran towards you and asked to be lifted. “Baby, I can't lift you. I’m still wearing this tube see?” You showed her your left hand with an IV injected into it.

She took a short glance then walked to Jeno stretching both of her arms up to him. “Can you lift me to my mama's bed?” Jeno’s heart pounded with joy, feeling special that your daughter casually walked and talked to him.

“Of course.” He pulled her up to his arms and gently put her on your bed.

“What are you going to say?” You asked your daughter.

“Thank you, sir.” Jeno couldn't help but smile. He thought he's going to faint in happiness when she blew him a kiss to say thanks.

“You're very welcome, Dasom. You can call me Jeno.” He properly introduced himself to her.

“Okay, Jeno.” She smiled so big her missing tooth was showing.

“He’s Uncle Jeno, call him Uncle Jeno.” You corrected your daughter which almost made Jeno seizure on his feet. He was so flattered that you made your daughter call him uncle, he could only give you a smile which you gladly returned.

And I don't care what they say about you baby They don't know what you've been through

Two days later you were finally discharged from the hospital, but you still have to keep up with counselling that helps you learn how to properly handle problems and stress. You rested at home for a week after discharge and went to start your new job at Mr. Lee’s company. The people there welcomed you warmly and were very friendly. All of your coworkers are older than you, they guided you through your first day and helped you understand how the office works.

The salary you're earning now is just a little over what you're earning at the bar, but here, you have a safer workplace, lots of benefits and you work on normal working hours. There is indeed an exclusive daycare in the building, you visit Dasom at daycare every chance you get and watch her play with kids her age.

Your relationship with Jeno changed in some way. Every day, Jeno would pick you and Dasom up from work and drive you home. Sometimes he would take you and your daughter to Mcdonald’s drive-thru and get Dasom a happy meal while the two of you shared 20 pcs Mcnuggets. There are times that Jeno would play with Dasom at the daycare to keep your daughter from getting bored when you're needed to stay overtime.

Jeno did not try hiding that he likes you and even though he never confessed, you're aware of what he feels for you, and there is no point in denying that you're starting to reciprocate special feelings for him too. The way he takes care of you and Dasom is something that always gets you.

But the last time you fell in love you were left alone with a broken heart and a pregnant belly, so even though you know Jeno is nothing like your ex-boyfriend, you decided to not make a big deal out of it and continued acting as if your heart's not beating so loud every time your eye catches Jeno.

“Hey. I came here to pick up a kid. She’s from the daycare, her name’s Dasom. Do you know her by any chance?” Jeno said with a smile on his face, Dasom giggling beside you.

“We’re the ones you're going to pick up uncle Jeno.” Dasom ran to his leg and hugged it.

“Oh. You're here! I didn't see you.” Jeno bent down to hug your daughter.

“Yes, you did! Mama said lying means no Peppa for a week!”

“No Peppa for a week?! That's outrageous! I guess lying will do me no good, does it?” He smiled and straightened his back as he carried your daughter in one arm then put the other around your shoulder.

“How’s work today babe?” He asked it so casually like he’s been calling you babe for a long time now. Your heart is like throwing a big EDM party in your chest, you couldn't find the right words to say. Jeno, like you, was caught off guard by his unexpected use of the term in endearment. “Uhh. S-sorry. That’s- that's”

“No. It's fine.” You saved him from another embarrassment of explaining why he called you that.

It's been a year since the day you almost committed the stupidest mistake of your life. Jeno and your family supported you in your recovery and pull your life back together. They became your emotional support and you couldn't imagine life without them anymore, so his small mistake of calling you “babe” shouldn't scare you at all right?

“Mama is uncle Jeno’s babe.” Dasom is giggling while you're strapping her in her booster seat. Jeno heard it loud and clear, his face immediately turned bright red. Lucky for him you weren't able to see that. “Uncle Taeil calls auntie babe too.” You love your daughter to death but at this moment you could only wish for her to… “Mama, are you getting married to uncle Jeno too?” —shut up.

“Shh. Please take a nap, Dasom baby. I'm begging you.” You whispered to your daughter, but then again Jeno heard it, making him snort into laughter. Hearing his laugh is contagious. You couldn't help but laugh the awkwardness away. “I'm sorry. 3-year-olds are normally this curious.” You apologized as you put your own seatbelt on.

He smiled at you. He’s been meaning to ask you out for a long time, but he couldn't find the right time to do so. And the more he procrastinates the more he sees himself in the same situation he was in high school. “I don't mind being your mama’s babe. Do you think she would?” Jeno bravely asked your daughter at the backseat, keeping his eyes on the rearview mirror.

“I don't know. Mama’s right beside you, you ask her. Uncle Jeno’s silly.” She giggled louder when Jeno looked at you next.

“So? Do you mind being my babe?” There's a smirk on his face.

The world feels like closing into you like you couldn't breathe but in a good way. Would this be a good idea? Getting back into the dating world scares the shit out of you, but you thought, you're not going to date just anybody. It's Jeno. The person you could literally trust your life with. “I think Uncle Jeno should take us out on a date first. What do you think, baby?” You asked your daughter too.

You heard your daughter’s loud ‘yeah’ and screamed ‘Mcdonald's nonstop, but you couldn't take your eyes away from the man beside you that is wearing the widest and sweetest smile you've ever seen. He took your hand and kissed your knuckles. “A chance is all I'm asking for. Thank you.”

You touched his cheek with the same hand and caressed it, he put weight on your palm and looked at you dreamingly. “Something tells me you're worth the jump.” You smiled back

Giving Jeno the chance to prove to you that not all men are assholes is one of the best things you have done. You started seeing him in a different light, you saw how he and your daughter get along well, how he takes care of you, how he manages his time studying and spending time with you. He’s been everything you imagined he would be. One time you found yourself letting people at the mall compliment your little ‘family’ and your heart fluttered more when Jeno thanked them for saying that he looks like your daughter.

Jeno exceeded the standards of being boyfriend material. At the age of 23, you saw responsibility and maturity in him. He does well in his school, is a gentleman and is a family man. You're proud that you're the one he loves and you've been wanting to become his girlfriend for quite some time now, but something is stopping you.

Guilt.

How could you make a perfect man like Jeno father a child that is not his? A man like Jeno should be with a woman that meets his standards. Smart, educated and free. Unlike you, who barely even finished high school, knocked up at eighteen. You believe that he deserves more than what you can offer at your best.

“Hey babe what are you thinking?" He sat beside you on the park bench with a princess Tiana backpack hooked on his shoulder and a bright pink toddler’s cup in one hand.

You gave him a smile. You truly don't deserve him. “Nothing. Just things.”

He frowned. “It looks serious. What's it about?”

You looked away and searched for your daughter playing soccer with the other kids. “Thank you for bringing us here. It means a lot.” You said, changing the topic.

The frown on his face disappeared as he watched Dasom chase the ball, “You don't have to thank me every time I spend quality time with you and Dasom. I love her as much, she's such a sweet girl with a kind heart. Just like her mom.”

You were about to answer when you saw her tripped and fell on her stomach, you wouldn’t worry at first but then you heard her cry and she rarely cries. Both of you jumped up from your seat and ran towards your daughter when a strangely familiar man came to her aid first. “Where does it hurt?” You heard him ask as he checked your daughter's feet. That voice is too familiar to you and you didn't like it. You only confirmed who it was when Jeno looked at you with a worried look.

It's Haechan.

And trust me, I could be the one to treat you like a lady Let me see what's underneath, all I need is you

“Excuse me, that's my daughter.” You sternly said, slightly shoving Haechan away. “Where does it hurt baby?” You felt his gaze on you but you didn't bother looking back. “Jeno, we should get this checked. I think she twisted her ankle and she might have a sprain.” Jeno nodded and immediately carried your daughter and ran to his car. Haechan was about to follow them when you stopped him, “Your concern is appreciated, but you're done helping.”

He looked at you with pleading eyes, tears started to pool around them. “What’s her name? She’s big now and she plays soccer too.” He sounded desperate but you didn't pay attention.

“Let me make this clear, Haechan. We don't want anything to do with you so you better stay the fuck away from us.”

“Please y/n.” For the first time in your life, you saw him cry but you felt nothing.

“Y/N let's go! Dasom won't stop crying!” You heard Jeno call you from the car and you ran up to them. The car ride was quiet other than Dasom’s whimpering. Jeno noticed a black motorcycle following and he instantly knew who it was.

“I think we have company.” Jeno hinted and looked at you through his rearview mirror. You snapped your head to see and he’s right, Haechan is following closely behind.

The nurses checked your daughter’s feet immediately and confirmed that she indeed sprained her ankle and needed to wear a cast for two weeks. You and Jeno are standing side by side and Haechan is standing by the door, keeping away from everyone’s way. You wanted to ask him to leave but you didn't want to create a commotion when your daughter's present. When the doctor and nurses left, you sat on your daughter's bed and kissed her forehead. “You're so brave, baby. I'm proud of you.”

“Am I brave uncle Jeno?” She asked, Jeno walked closer to you and rested his hands on your shoulder then gave Dasom a high five. “You are! You really are a big girl now.” He complimented which made her giggle.

Her giggles stopped when she saw Haechan by the door, looking at her with a sad smile on his face. “Who’s he, mama?” You gave Haechan a glare. He cleared his throat and stood taller, “I'm just your mama’s old friend.”

“But you don't look old?” Haechan laughed but tears are streaming down his face. Jeno quickly took your daughter's attention as you approached Haechan and pulled him away from your daughter's room.

“What's your deal Haechan? What do you want?” You asked in gritted teeth.

“I'm sorry. I have been thinking about her for 3 years and this is the first time my daughter ever talked to me.” He shared it with you with a smile on his face.

“She is not your daughter. She's never been and never will be.” Your voice is filled with venom and he understands that.

“The last thing that I want is to ruin your lives. I don't want to cause any trouble with you and your boyfriend, I just want to be in my— your daughter's life.” He tried reaching for your hands but you avoided his touch.

“And the last thing that I want is for you to show up and demand to be in my daughter's life!”

“Y/n, I was stupid. I was young. I had a bright future in soccer and colleges are wanting me to play for them. I was scared and I thought it would ruin my dreams. I was selfish and a jerk, and I truly regret everything I did to you. I have never stopped thinking about our daughter since the day I left you at that gasoline station. I know I deserve nothing from you, but I'm begging you. I’m here for her now. I'm done making mistakes, I just want to set things right.”

Haechan is on the floor of the hospital halls, kneeling in front of you, begging for forgiveness, begging for a second chance to be in your daughter's life. Little did you know Jeno is on the other side of the door, listening to the conversation you were having with Haechan. He couldn't help but get frightened, threatened even. He never thought of your ex coming back to your lives and the thought of Haechan taking you and your daughter from him scared the soul out of him.

He took one look at Dasom and his worries eased up a bit. He walked to her and sat on her bed. “I need you to remember that Uncle Jeno loves you so much. Hm?”

Dasom looked at him confused but hugged him nevertheless and replied, “I love you so much too, Uncle Jeno.” Jeno closed his eyes and savoured every word she said.

Nobody knows the way that I know her, said Nobody knows the weight that's on her shoulders, said Nobody knows the way that I know her, said She got it bad, she got it bad

Jeno is driving you and Dasom back to your apartment. You kept quiet and so did he. He wanted to ask you so many questions but he refrained from doing it. When you arrived, you carried your daughter from the backseat to her bedroom and thanked Jeno for staying with you in the hospital.

“Are you alright?” He asked. Suddenly you felt the weight of your problems on your shoulders. Without thinking twice, Jeno pulled you in an embrace and let you cry on his shoulder.

“I don't know what to do, Jeno. Haechan doesn't deserve shit, but my daughter, what about my daughter? Maybe now she’s not asking about her father but what am I going to say to her when she starts asking? That I pushed his father away from her life? What if he takes her away from me?”

Jeno tried so hard to stay neutral and give you rational advice, not letting his emotions take the best of him.

“You have to see if Haechan is willing to stick this time. Dasom does not deserve to be left by his dad once, let alone twice. And it's totally up to you if you're going to introduce Haechan as her father or just someone you know. You have the full custody of Dasom and no one’s going to take her away from you.”

His words surely did give you comfort. Both of you stayed in that position as you slowly fell asleep with Jeno on your couch that night.

The smell of bacon woke you up from your sleep, half awake you bolted to the kitchen to check if something’s burning. Your heart melted at the sight of Jeno cooking breakfast with your daughter wearing an oversized apron while sitting on a stool.

“Mama likes bacon with eggs!” Dasom exclaimed.

“Shh we have to keep real quiet so your mama can get more sleep,” Jeno whispered, making your daughter laugh.

If this is the sight you're going to wake up to every day, then there's nothing else you could wish for. Then it hit you. Dasom never asked about his father because Jeno has been filling up that empty role in her life.

You have never been happier since you've given Jeno a chance to prove his love for you. Today you decided that it's your turn to give back his undying love. Quietly, you sneaked from behind. Your daughter caught you and you immediately put your finger on your mouth, signalling her to stay quiet. Gently, you wrapped your arms around his torso and peeked under his arm.

“Good morning.” You greeted him with a smile.

He lowered the heat of the stove before pulling you to his front to hug you properly. “A good morning indeed.”

“Mama stop hugging Uncle Jeno! He’s cooking us breakfast!” Your daughter whined.

“He can still cook while I'm hugging my boyfriend.” You smiled at her, knowing too well that she didn't understand it. Unfortunately, Jeno did not quite get it too.

“Your mama’s right. I can still cook while she's hugging her boy… wha-what?”

“Wha wha wha what?” You imitated him showing him the biggest smile.

“What did you just say?” His smile is even bigger than yours, eyes disappearing completely.

“You heard me.” You said and buried your head on his chest, hugging him tightly.

“She said her boyfriend, Uncle Jeno,” Dasom repeated you for him.

Jeno loosen your hug to pick up your daughter from the stool. “She did say that right? But I never agreed to that didn't I?”

“Oh is that how it is?” You answered laughing.

He quickly pulled you into a hug together with your daughter. “I love you.” He whispered in your ear with a smile.

“I know. I love you too.” You whispered back.

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It's Sunday afternoon, you don't have to get to work and Jeno’s over your apartment spending time with you. Dasom is taking her nap in her bedroom and you thought this is the best time to address what happened last week at the hospital.

After that hospital trip, Haechan keeps on trying to get back to her daughter's life and honestly, you have no idea what to do. He promised to give you time to think and would do everything to gain your trust back.

“Babe?” You called him, his eyes never left from the movie. You shifted on your seat to look at him. “Can I talk to you about Haechan?” Suddenly, you got his full undivided attention. He turned the TV off and sat properly. Jeno couldn't help but feel threatened by Haechan’s unexpected reappearance in your lives. Sure, he's your boyfriend now but you were Haechan's first, and the daughter that Jeno loves dearly, is also his.

“What about him?”

“I don't want to keep any secrets from you and I want to tell you that I'm thinking of letting Haechan into Dasom's life.”

Jeno was quiet for a minute, carefully thinking over what to say. “You're going to introduce him as what?”

“I don't know yet. I'm going to see how she's going to react around him first.” Jeno looked down at his fingers. You saw how worried his eyes are and you could only imagine what goes on in his head. “Hey, babe. What are you thinking? Talk to me.”

“I'm just scared he’s going to take Dasom away from me. I know he’s the father and I'm just the fun uncle. But I love her like my own and it's going to wreck me when she starts calling him dad.”

You embraced Jeno, you didn't know he’s been thinking that way and it broke your heart. You have been thinking of Dasom a lot that you forgot that Jeno is affected too. “Babe, you're always going to be Dasom’s first love and she's going to love you for a long, long time. Do you want to know what she asked me before we started dating?” He nodded. “She told me that she wishes she's your daughter so you don't have to lie at the mall.”

Soon enough Jeno's crying on your shoulder. His heart clenched at your daughter's wish and he couldn't express how much he wishes the same.

“I understand you're scared that she's going to forget you, but that's not our Dasom. She has to know about Haechan, but that doesn't mean she's going to love you less.”

A sound of a door creaking halted Jeno from crying. Your daughter’s awake and is standing by the door, looking at Jeno confused. “Come here, baby,” Jeno called her and sat her on his lap. “Did you sleep well?”

“Were you crying?” She asked him and it made you laugh.

“It's because I missed you too much. You slept too long.”

Dasom hugged Jeno and rested her head on the crook of his neck. “I'm still sleepy but I'll just sleep here with you.”

“Never leave me okay?”

“Okay.” Dasom sleepily replied, making Jeno cry again. Quietly this time.

Nobody knows the way that I know her, said Nobody knows the weight that's on her shoulders, said Nobody knows the way that I know her, said She got it bad, she got it bad

That same night you dropped Dasom at your sister’s place to meet Haechan with Jeno. You arrived at the coffee shop and saw Haechan waiting for both of you. You saw his soul leave his body every time someone came in. Jeno held your hand to ease your nerves. Haechan stood up as soon as he saw you and politely gestured for both of you to sit down. His mouth opened a couple of times and looked like he was going to ask something. To your disappointment, you understood what he wanted to know. “I left her with my sister. She should be sleeping by now.” You calmly said.

He smiled, “Ahh. You're right. She should sleep more so she can grow taller.” He absentmindedly said.

“Haechan, this is Jeno, my boyfriend. Jeno, you already know Haechan.” Jeno offered his hand and Haechan enthusiastically took it. “I'm going to be straightforward with you. I don't like Dasom to know about you."

Haechan looked down with a sad smile. “I understand that and I couldn't blame you at all.”

“But Dasom deserves to know about you,” Jeno added, which made Haechan glance up.

“You're letting me see her?” He asked, eyes switching between you and Jeno.

You took a deep breath and you felt Jeno’s hand on your thigh. He really knows how to calm you down. “Yes, but you're not telling her anything yet and she’ll never be left alone with you.”

Haechan stood up and bowed deeply to both of you before sitting back down again, “It's more than I deserve, thank you y/n. And thank you Jeno for being there for her when I'm not.”

“I'll always be there for her even now when you're here,” Jeno replied genuinely.

The latter smiled, “Then I'm eternally grateful.”

And I don't care what they say about you baby They don't know what you've been through

Jeno has been very supportive of the decisions you made. Both of you met with Haechan a few times more before finally letting Dasom meet Haechan. You let Haechan plan everything and he was very eager to talk to you about it, he even asked Jeno to help him find a gift for his daughter and the other willingly helped.

Slowly, Jeno's fear of losing the two of you disappeared. He's just happy for Dasom to have another father figure in her life. You on the other hand are losing your shit for every day that passes by. Unable to think properly, fear and worry overshadow you. What if's are flooding your head. What if Haechan realizes he's still not ready for fatherhood? Should you introduce him as your friend first? What if he's planning on taking custody of your daughter?

You know most of it are just funny thoughts and he made it clear to you that he doesn't have any hidden agenda, but he showed intentions of helping you raise your daughter financially, you refused. Later you found out that he opened a savings account for Dasom’s college fund three years ago and has been putting money there continuously. That's when you started believing that Haechan is finally living up to his words and you cannot help but feel happy for your daughter.

“Hey, babe. Everything’s going to be fine.” Jeno stole a glance from you while you wait for Haechan at the parking lot of an amusement park.

“What's taking him so long?” You whispered harshly not wanting your daughter to hear you.

Jeno chuckled, “Babe we’re 15 minutes early and we literally just arrived.” He unbuckled his seatbelt and gave you a kiss on your cheek. “Calm down okay?”

“Are we not leaving the car, Uncle Jeno?” Your daughter asked from the back seat.

“We are, baby. We're just waiting for a friend.”

“I hope he won't take long.” She pouted and crossed her arms on her chest.

Jeno laughed, throwing his head back. “You really are your mother's daughter.”

Exactly 15 minutes later you received a call from Haechan that he’s at the ticketing booth all ready and waiting for the three of you. Haechan really stood out from the crowd not because of his good looks, but because of the bright pink shirt with a print of a cartoon pig he’s wearing. He keeps shifting his weight between his feet and his eyes are filtering the crowds, looking for three particular familiar faces.

“We’ve been waiting for you for 15 minutes Haechan.” You said in gritted teeth and went past him with your daughter in hand to get your own tickets.

“I'm actually an hour early, I was just waiting in the car. I don't want to text you guys that I'm already here because that may sound like I'm being impatient and I thought it might be hard to prepare with a toddler so I didn't want to make you feel like I'm rushing you guys.” Haechan rambled to Jeno.

Jeno chuckled, giving him a tap on his shoulder, “You're okay. She’s just worried, that's all.”

Haechan thanked him, Jeno’s words somehow made him feel a little better. Of course, he didn't expect other treatment from you other than pissed and he understands that. He’s just over the moon that he’s finally going to spend time with his daughter.

“Also, nice shirt. Dasom will love it.” Jeno added teasingly to Haechan before following you and Dasom to the entrance gate.

“Thanks, man. It’s custom made.” He replied wiggling his eyebrows playfully, making them both laugh.

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It's been almost 30 minutes and you still haven't given Haechan a chance to bond with your daughter. You thought you were preparing her but the reality is, you're preparing yourself. This is a big change in her life and you’ve been having a last-minute crisis.

You were left with Haechan while watching Dasom ride a mini roller coaster with Jeno. The silence isn't awkward, but you felt him getting uneasy beside you. “Just say it, Lee.” You blurted.

“I'm sorry. I just really want to ride a roller coaster with her too.”

You took a deep sigh, “Haechan, come. Let's sit.” You sat down on the nearby picnic table and waited for him to follow you. “After that ride, we're going to tell her about you. I want her to spend this day with you knowing that she’s making a bond with her father, not just one of her mama’s friends. I want you to understand how big this day would impact a 3-year-old’s life. I need you to try your best to cooperate with me and let's try our best to make the situation less difficult for her to understand, okay?”

“Yeah sure okay what do you want me to do?”

“Didn’t I tell you just now? Are you not listening or are you not being serious at all?”

“No, I'm sorry. I'm serious. I just want to know what exactly you want me to do.”

“Try not to speak while I'm explaining things to her, but stay attentive. Watch how she reacts and be mindful. I don't want to give her a shock, it could traumatize her.”

“Traumatized.” He repeated absentmindedly, “We don't want that.”

You nodded, “Exactly.”

“Okay. All ears, hold off the tongue. Got it.” He answered smiling, probably trying to assure you something, but it definitely did not look like that. You only looked at him with desperation when you heard your daughter running to you and Jeno walking behind her.

“I want to ride it again!” Dasom exclaimed as she helped herself get seated beside you.

“Yes baby, you're going to ride it again but mama has to talk to you first. Is that okay?” You asked her and she looked at you confused but nodded nevertheless. You glance up to Jeno and he gave you a nod and mouthed 'It's going to be okay’

For the past weeks you have been practicing how to tell her that his father wants to meet her, but everything you've gone over in your head went down the drain now that you're in this moment.

“Baby, are you not wondering about your father?” You started.

“You mean uncle Jeno?” She asked that took you back. First, you look at Haechan who gave you a sad smile, then to your boyfriend who looked at you with concern.

Jeno walked to you and sat behind you. “I’m really happy that you see me as your father and I love you like my own. But you already had a daddy way before I came, even before you were born.”

“I had one?” She asked so innocently that all three of you moved to tears, especially Haechan, who's trying so hard not to make a noise, muffling his cries with both of his hands.

You sniffed, “Yes baby. You're so special that you have two! You have uncle Jeno,” You gestured to your back where Jeno is seated and he high-fived her. “and Haechan right behind you.” You pointed to her back where Haechan was at. His face is soaked with tears.

“Hi, Dasom. How are you?” He barely finished his sentence with all the crying he did. You know your daughter is not the kid who will get mad at someone and you didn't really expect her to fully understand the situation given her age, but you were so surprised when she hugged Haechan like she knew him for a long time.

“Where have you been?” She asked her cupping his face with her tiny hands. Haechan cried even harder, you had to smack your boyfriend when he couldn't hold off his laughter despite having his eyes pooled with his own tears.

“I'm sorry, I-i just. A-actually...” It was difficult for Haechan to explain the weight of what he did and he certainly doesn't have the intention of lying about the gravity of his mistakes, but he’s also unsure if it's the right time to tell her the full story. He looked at you with pleading eyes, begging for help. You cleared your throat and wiped your cheeks quickly before answering your daughter.

“Baby, he was not here because he went to a faraway place. Then he got lost on the way back, that's why he was gone for a long time.” You explained.

“But we're glad that he’s here now aren't we?” Jeno added making your daughter smile and nod before hugging Haechan once more.

Never have you expected this to be this easy, but finally, your heart is at ease. You’re aware that there would be serious questions she’s going to ask as he grows older, but for now, you enjoyed the sight of your daughter in the arms of her father.

It's already dinner time when you convinced the three of them to leave the amusement park. It's hard to raise a daughter and even harder when two other people are spoiling her.

“Mama, if Uncle Jeno is my dad and Uncle Haechan is also my dad, do I call them both daddy?” Your daughter asked quite loudly, gaining judging looks from the people in the restaurant.

Haechan noticed the stares and hushed murmurs around you. “Take a video so you can watch it again later.” He called out.

“There's an issue when there's no father. Still an issue with two fathers. Can't really please people these days.” Jeno added.

“Please do not engage with them in front of the young one.” You whispered smiling but your eyes were wide enough to make them stop. “Baby, you can call them both daddy if you like.” You answered.

“How about you call Uncle Jeno, papa. Just like how you call your mama, mama.” Haechan suggested.

“I like that. Is that okay with you?” Jeno asked your daughter.

Dasom nodded shyly. “Yes, papa.” And it's Jeno’s turn to cry this time.

Trust me, I could be the one to treat you like a lady Let me see what's underneath, all I need is you

It's been 4 years since you hit rock bottom and your life has always been going great if not the best.

Your daughter’s family got bigger, Dasom finally had a cousin. Your sister and Taeil gave birth to a baby girl just a few months back and they wanted you to be her godmother. Dasom was also introduced to her grandparents for the first time. At first, you were skeptical, but you grew up with your grandmother and you wanted your daughter to create memories with her own grandparents. Haechan’s parents were very apologetic for what their son did, but you told them that it's now all in the past and that he's already forgiven.

Soon enough Haechan found himself a very sweet and kind girlfriend who clicked well with your daughter quite quickly. Sometimes, Dasom would even request for you to go out on a date with Jeno so she could spend the night at Haechan’s place and they were as excited as your daughter to have her over.

Speaking of Jeno, he finally graduated from business school and is preparing to take over his father’s company. You're very excited to finally see him at work every day. You thought you were going to have a problem working with Jeno, but you're glad that both of you were able to keep a professional relationship during work. However, Jeno promised you that he would always find time to eat lunch with you whether you're sharing a packed lunch in his office or in a fancy restaurant 30 minutes away from your workplace.

But today is the first time he’s breaking that promise.

“I'm really sorry babe. It's an important lunch meeting and I cannot miss it.” He explained over the phone, which he already did 10 minutes ago and 5 times more in texts.

You laughed, “Babe I already told you for the nth time that it's fine. I don't mind!”

He sighed, “But you're going to eat alone.” You could swear that you heard him pouting right now.

“I'm going to be alright. If you're so worried about me, I could just facetime Dasom."

“But she's at school babe.” He reminded you. You almost slapped your forehead.

“You're right. Just don't worry about me, I’m sure I can eat just fine. Uhm, hey can we talk later? I'm sorry but I'm quite packed right now.” You bid your goodbye and ended the call and went straight to work.

Little did you know Jeno was never in a business meeting, your daughter never went to school and he purposely gave you a ton of paperwork to do so he can execute his plan properly.

You finished your mountain of work later than usual. You normally leave work at 6 PM and you looked at your wrist to check if it's really two hours past that already. Jeno never came back from his business meeting and you immediately felt your chest tightened in worry. Immediately, you dialled his number but it only rang a few times and went to voicemail after. You were going to give him another call when Haechan’s name popped up on your screen.

“Hey y/n how ar-”

“Sorry I can't talk right now, Jeno left for lunch and he hasn't come back yet he's not even answering my call.”

“Calm down. I know where he is.” He said on the other line. You were confused as to why would Haechan know where your boyfriend was but he didn't let you voice out your question, “Meet us at the small bakeshop at the corner of 6th street and 10th avenue.”

You were going to speak but he hung up on you. That little shit. You instantly ran out of the building and took a cab. It's a 20-minute drive from your workplace to that bakeshop, but it only took the cab driver 10 minutes to bring you there when you offered to triple the amount you're going to pay him if he gets you there quickly. The neighbourhood is quiet and the bakeshop is relatively dark inside. You wondered if you're in the right place, Haechan can't be messing with you can he?

And I don't care what they say about you baby They don't know what you've been through Trust me, I could be the one to treat you like a lady Let me see what's underneath, all I need is you

You gently pushed the door open and the lights on the floor leading to the patio of the store slowly lit up. A small woven basket is by the door and has a note telling you to bring it with you. Your heart is beating violently, your head is making assumptions of what's happening but you pushed it all aside and followed the trail of light.

You saw Haechan and his girlfriend at the beginning of the trail handing you a bag of cookies, you took it and put it in your basket after thanking them. Haechan winked at you and both of them gave you a heartfelt smile. You walked a little further and there your sister and Taeil were also holding out a bag of cookies with their daughter in her arms. As you walked further you meet important people in your life and they give you the same bag of cookies.

At the very end of the trail, you saw your daughter smiling at you also holding a bag of cookies, “Hi mama.” She greeted you.

“Hi, baby.” You replied, holding back your tears.

You felt someone tapped your shoulder and when you looked behind, the whole bakeshop lit up, and right in front of you stood the man you love. Tears are evident in his eyes, but joy defeats them. He held both of your hands,

“You were my very first friend and the only girl I've ever loved. Because of these cookies, I got to know the most beautiful girl I've ever had the chance to see. You told me I was the reason why you're living your second life, but you, you and Dasom gave me a meaningful one. I never thought I am capable of loving someone this much and it surprises me how much more I fall for you every day. I love you both so much that each passing day scares me that I might lose one of you, and today I'm going to make sure we're staying together for the rest of our lives.”

Jeno knelt down on one knee in front of you and took a red velvet box from his back pocket and opened it, revealing a beautiful diamond ring.

“Y/N, you are the reason for my happiness and the woman behind the man that I am today. I am lucky enough to be your boyfriend, can I be as lucky to be your husband?”

Hot tears are staining your cheeks, you couldn't even see him clearly. But in your heart, the answer is as clear as the night sky. You knelt down on both of your knees and hugged him tightly, digging your face on the crook of his neck. “Yes, Jeno. Yes.” You answered.

Everybody screamed and cheered. You pulled away so he could slip the ring on your finger and kissed you, both of you still kneeling on the floor. He rested his forehead on yours.

“I never cared what they said about you, none of them know what you’ve been through.” He whispered.

“All I need is you.” You mumbled before kissing him again. “And my daughter of course.” You added.

“Our daughter.” Jeno corrected.

She got a bad reputation She takes the long way home

A/N: So this is the story that started the idea of making a Shawn Mendes playlist! I cannot believe I’m finally uploading my very first story today! Thank you to those who patiently waited and to you who finished reading this!! I feel like I have so much to say, but I literally cannot put my thoughts into words. Thank you again!!

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HELLO??? JAEHYUN DANCING TO MISSY ELLIOT?!

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Not much. But eh. Also thanks for reblogging my shit

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I’m never letting anyone forget about this fancam.

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Please tell me you guys can tell what’s going on in this! <3333

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Not a slick edit. Also credits to @vhrzxn for the video!!

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CAN WE TALK ABOUT HOW HOT YUTA LOOKED GETTING COAL PAINT ON HIS FACE?! Imagine him being sub lol

I know the edit is bad but you followed for some content on my page so here.

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Videos from nct 127 analog live

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I know this is random but hey she’s beautiful.

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You're the One

Summary: When a mutual dislike for each other turns into something more, just how far can things get complicated?

Pairing: Jaehyun x fem!reader (feat. Lisa, 127 members, Ten, Kun, Sicheng, Jackson, Naeun, Rose)

Genre: the holy trinity (filthy filthy smut, angst, fluff) | slowburn, enemies to ewb (enemies with benefits) to fwb to lovers!au, soulmate!au, college!au

Warnings: alcohol, swearing, sexual tension (a lot), fingering, bathroom sex, protected sex, rough sex, degrading, choking, spanking, couch sex, dom jaehyun, hair pulling, squirting, oral (male recieving), semi public sex (bathroom stall), masturbation (male), bathroom quickie, unprotected sex (reader is on birth control), car sex, slight sexting (not really), mentions of car accident and death (minor backstory), mention of food consumption, mentions of surgery

Word Count: 23.9k

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please be advised, this fic is heavily on smut. if you are a minor: do not interact.

They say you're supposed to know who your soulmate is at least by the age of 21. They say you are to at least have a hint or know who they are. The stories you have heard of people finding their soulmate is truly comparable to a Disney movie of Prince Charming finding his Cinderella with a lost item, or a Nicholas Sparks movie/book, where the girl refuses to fall in love, but ends up doing so, just minus the sad scene. You have also heard stories about the invisible red string, hearing their voices, writings on their skin with a special pen, having constant dreams about them, premonitions, and same tattoo mark.

You have heard every single story regarding any of those, yet, you have never experience any of these "symptoms." You are 24 and get the same two questions from everyone; have you found your soulmate and when are you getting married. You are starting to believe he is either one, not born yet and cougar life chose you instead. Two, in a serious relationship, therefore, there isn't any real clues to zero in on. Three, a fictional character because why not. Four, probably got hit by a bus and the Universe is working hard to find their replacement. Lastly and probably the most realistic case scenario, you were destined to be alone and not have a soulmate.

You thought not having or meeting your better half would bother you, but truth is, it doesn't. It doesn't affect your daily life because it doesn't consume your mind 24/7 365 days on figuring out if every guy you pass is the one.

Relationships are messy. Plain and simple. All of your past relationships started off sweet then along the way it got messy to the point you don't even know what led up to the breakup. Though, out of all your ex's, there was only one who you thought was the one and who you call a close friend to this day.

Dong Sicheng. You met him when you were a sophomore in high school and had a few classes together. He was shy and sweet when you first started talking and along the way, you two were comfortable around each other without any more awkward silences. You dated for a year and a half and surprisingly, it was a mutual decision to be friends. You were thankful he was understanding and didn't throw a fit or a scene during your breakup.

It isn't that you didn't believe in love either because you really do, minus all your favorite couples from The Bachelor breaking up. It is just, you always had this logical thinking of 'if it happens, it happens' mentality, because realistically, nothing in life is always guaranteed. You wish you could wake up one morning and bam, your soulmate appears and live happily ever after, but sadly, that's not your case.

Once you figured out during your first year of college that finding your other half was slim, you went with the hookups and fuck buddies route. There were no commitments and no feelings involved. Just sex for a stress reliever.

On top of that, you don't think you would have time for a relationship anyway. Now that you were close to graduating, that is all you can think of - passing your classes, earning that degree, and having a stable life to support yourself.

Yeah, relationships are definitely not your top priority right now.

You just arrived in your apartment when your roommate Lisa jumps in front of you with a big smile and excited energy. She gives you an unexpected hug as you hug her back in confusion.

"Uhh, did I miss a celebration?"

She pulls away from you and her smile gets even wider, "Y/N, guess what?"

At that exact moment, your two other best friends, Mark and Jungwoo, pop out from the hallway and head towards the couch.

"Um you -"

"I found him! I finally found my soulmate! I was in the practice room going over my dance routine for the spring final and I heard his voice! I know, so cliché, but remember when I was telling I felt off and the universe was telling me something? Yeah! I think it for this exact moment. When I heard his voice, I freaked out and I thought I was just hearing things, but then I heard him again. Out of curiosity, I said something mentally and he freaked out too! And get this," she yanks your arm back and forth from all the excitement, "he goes to the same university. He's throwing a party tomorrow night and you have to go with me!" Lisa is radiating beyond excitement at this point. All you could do is look at her and feel that same happiness for her.

"I am so ecstatic for you Lis! You've literally have been manifesting for this moment for so long and now you get to meet him."

"So will you come to the party with me? Please." She gives you those puppy eyes with a tiny pout that she knows you can't resist.

Sighing you give in, "Yes, not only because you're dragging me, but I need to know if he's a good guy."

Lisa practically jumps up and down as she hurries off into her room on the other side of the wall squealing like a happy kid in a candy store. You laugh at her reaction and make your way to the boys who look annoyed. "What's the matter with you two?"

"She told this story four times already, while our Markie is going through it with his own dilemma." Jungwoo says patting Mark on the shoulders. Mark groans into the pillow in frustration as Jungwoo heavily sighs looking at you, "We saw Haru with another guy when we were waiting for Lisa. She looked ... happy."

Your jaw drops and your heart aches for the younger. "I am so sorry Markie. Have you two talked about what you will do if you want to be with other people?"

Mark shook his head, "No, I mean I thought we would be able to work it out or give it a chance at least. How can she do this to me?" Mark says the last part quietly. You give him a side hug just as Lisa walks back into the room and observes the sight in front of her.

"Okay, what happened?"

"Mark is going through it right now."

Lisa's eyes widen as she crosses the room to sit in front of the younger. "I'm so sorry I've been throwing around my happiness in your face. Markie, why didn't you say anything?"

"I didn't want to ruin your moment. You deserve it so much and I'll be okay. I promise." he smiles sadly.

"Do we have to kick her ass? Y/N and I will gladly do it too."

Mark chuckles lightly, but refuses any violence.

That is one reason why you aren't too phased about finding your soulmate, because what Mark is going through is one of the two downsides no one likes to talk about. People say if you and/or your soulmate decide not to be together, your connection will be broken.

In order for the connection to be removed, it requires surgery of a special kind. Once the procedure is over with, there is no going back to each other. You both would continue with your lives as if nothing happened and all the emotions would be permanently gone. However, if only one decides to remove the bond and the other refuses, the latter will live their life in agony and suffer from unrequited love.

The second deep dark secret no one wants to talk about is ... you won't get another soulmate.

The next night came quicker than you anticipated as you stand in front of your closet figuring out ways to sneak out and have an excuse. In all honesty, you rather stay home and binge watch Grey's Anatomy on Netflix rather than get dressed and go to a party. You haven't gone out in months, so as you transform from comfortable clothes to Cinderella, you are completely out of your comfort zone.

"Stop overthinking. It's going to be so much fun. You need it. Mark definitely needs it. Jungwoo needs it and I certainly need it." Lisa says as you head downstairs where an Uber awaits for you both.

"I haven't gone out in so long. I'm not used to dressing up anymore." you deadpan.

You get into the car and head towards the party as Lisa turns to you, "If you feel uncomfortable, we will go home straight away. Okay?"

You give her a small smile as you tell her okay.

No longer than ten minutes later, you arrive at the frat house. Before you could inspect which fraternity it was, Lisa grabs your wrist leading you into the house and straight to the kitchen. Mark and Jungwoo were already tipsy by the time you stand yourself next to them. The kitchen and majority of the house were pack with bodies that made it a little hard to breathe and hear.

Lisa begins to fill the shot glasses with Vodka to the brim and raise her glass, "Here's to new beginnings!" Everyone raises their own and take the shot. Vodka isn't your number choice of alcohol, but it'll get the job done to help you feel relax.

After downing a couple more shots, you made yourself a drink to feel more at ease and have a little bit of fun. Lisa was right. You needed a break. You look around the place and notice most of the university's population were present. You scan more around the house until your eyes land on a symbol on the other side of the kitchen. You know that symbol and certainly know some of the people in this fraternity.

You turn to Lisa and lean into her ear, "Is this the NCTz frat house?"

"Yeah. He's part of the fraternity. I'm trying to see if I can spot him." she says back.

In that instant, you see a bunch of tall handsome men walking into the kitchen and giving people around them high fives. This is definitely the NCTz fraternity boys. You had some classes with Taeyong, Johnny, Doyoung, and Taeil. Yuta, Kun, Haechan and Sicheng were the three you went to high school with. Most have girls around their arms or girls pining after them in hopes of being the lucky one to get laid tonight.

You start to breathe a little easier when you don't see one specific person. You smile and wave at Sicheng as he and the rest of the boys come over to your corner. You gave each boy a hug and when you take a sip of your drink, you almost choke.

Oh how you spoke to soon.

That specific person you were hoping you wouldn't see just walks in with a girl around his arm. Jeong Jaehyun. The person you hate the most and you wish every time you see him, he never attended the same university as you.

You two go back to third grade and no, you weren't best friends or friends to begin with. Instead, you two were enemies right out of the gates from the very first interaction.

There you were, little Y/N sitting in the sandbox making a sand castle and minding your own business. You were focused on putting the flag on top of the castle, you didn't notice someone was standing beside you until it was too late. Your castle had been squashed and all your hard work now gone. You looked up with tears in your eyes and see little Jaehyun smirking at you.

"That was an ugly castle!" he yells.

You wanted to cry, but held your ground. "Yeah, well you're mean!" Jaehyun belly laughs at you tilting his head back and face you once more, "You should do better!"

You were furious that you stood up in front of him and yelled back "Well you're an ugly person!"

He stopped laughing and pushed you making you stumble backwards. Your jaw dropped at the sudden action and charged at him pushing him as hard as you could. Jaehyun fell onto the sand as other kids began to swarm around you both and laughed at Jaehyun. He got up and charged at you, but this time you grabbed onto his arms and dragged him to the ground with you. You two rolled over on each other as sand went everywhere on your body. By the time the teachers arrived, they called your parents and separated you two.

Both parents made you two apologize to one another and for a split second you thought everything would blow over. You realize now you were such an optimistic child for thinking that.

Since that day forward, he found ways to annoy you and get under your skin. By the time high school came, you were his number one punching bag for his little pranks. Now that you're in college, you have tried your hardest to avoid him at all cost, and it almost worked for the past four years. Except, now here he is walking towards you and your group.

When his eyes wanders onto yours, he smiles smugly knowing you were watching him before he caught you. Your face scrunch in disgust when he looks you up and down with his tongue poking out. It takes everything in you to not roll your eyes or vomit the alcohol you just consumed by looking at him. You promised yourself earlier that you wouldn't let him get under your skin.

You were both adults now. Well, one of you were.

Lisa's loud gasp pulls you out of your staring contest with Jaehyun when you turn to her. Following her line of sight, you would gasp as loud as she would if your soulmate looked just like the one walking towards you both. He was shorter than Johnny, but taller than you and Lisa. The way he smiles, anyone could get blinded and faint on the spot. Literally. You can spot three piercings on each of his ear with black hair, amazing straight teeth, and beautiful skin. Damn, Lisa is one lucky girl.

"Hi. I'm hoping you're the girl I keep hearing in my head." He says looking at Lisa. She was too stunned to say anything, opting only to nod and blush. The action made the male smile brighter and bigger as he chuckles softly, "I'm Ten." he reach out his hand for her to shake, but she stood frozen in her spot.

"Hi Ten. I'm Y/N and this is my best friend Lisa, who I am one hundred thousand percent sure is the girl you've been hearing in your head." You hold back a laughter when Lisa turns to you signaling for you to shut up.

"Yo Ten!" Mark says standing next to you with Sicheng and Jungwoo. You nudge Lisa to get her out of her head when Mark notices the way Ten isn't paying attention to him and is only looking at Lisa. The younger connects the dots looking from person to the other and loudly gasps, "No! Don't tell me. You're her soulmate?!"

Ten chuckles as he blushes, "Afraid so. She is a cutie. Why haven't you introduced us sooner Mark? If we both have known you knew both of us, we would've been together by now." he says cheekily.

Seriously? He is so perfect for Lisa.

"I can't believe she's really here. I'm still in shock." Johnny says loudly enough for you to look at him. You know he's teasing you, because among your group of friends, you were the only one who decided to take a step back from partying and focus on your studies.

"I am beyond shock too!" Taeyong pitch in.

"Okay. I'm not that antisocial. I do go out every once in a while." you try to explain yourself.

"Go out where? The library and coffee shop?" Yuta pipes in making everyone laugh.

From Jaehyun's perspective, he can clearly see you standing between Johnny and Mark. A sudden wave of annoyance hits him as he sees you laughing at something Taeyong said.

Why did she have to come to this party?

"What is she doing here? I don't remember inviting her." he says loud and clear before downing his cup. He gives you a disgusted look once again when you squint your eyes at him.

"Come on Jay. Not tonight please. Let's just have fun." Taeil tells him.

"It isn't your party Jeong. It's the frat's party." You say before whispering, "Not everything is about you, you coincided asshole."

Johnny and Yuta couldn't help but snicker at your last comment making Jaehyun more annoyed.

"What was that?"

Everyone can feel the tension between you both and it wasn't a comfortable one either.

"Alright! I'm playing ping-pong! Let's go." Johnny grabs your wrist and walks you towards the ping-pong table. You grab your paddle, organize the cups, and wait for the alcohol to be poured, and the boys figuring out who is on their team. Johnny turns you to him giving you a smile, "Can you two please not get into it tonight? We all need a break from referring you both."

"He's the one who started it Johnny. I didn't even do anything except breathe and drink your liquor. Tell your boy to calm down instead." you huff in annoyance.

Johnny chuckles at your answer shaking his head as he looks back to your opponents. "I swear if I didn't know any better, I would think you both are each other's soulmates."

"Ew, please never say that ever again. I'm so glad we aren't."

"Alright! Round one is Johnny and Y/N versus Yuta and Jaehyun." Jungwoo announces.

"Oh for fucks sake. Really?" you say under your breath.

Everyone and anyone who knows you and Jaehyun's common dislike for each other, also know how competitive you two are. So, it's no surprise when the duo teams becomes a solo game in a matter of ten minutes.

You only had one more cup to score down, while Jaehyun had two. Nothing satisfies you more than the look of pure frustration on his face as he aims the ball into one of the cups. You did your best to distract him by waving your hands and talking shit, but that was wasted energy as the ball went into the cup.

He points at you from across the table with a smirk, "Drink up loser. I'm winning this one." You roll your eyes and drink the alcohol.

At this point, you just want the game to be over with because all the pre-gaming at the apartment, shots, and drinks are starting to get to you. After downing the drink, you take off your jacket and get into position. Someone wraps their arms around your waist from behind and gives you a kiss on the cheek before retrieving back to wherever they came from. You take a deep breath concentrating on the solo cup as Jaehyun smirks at you thinking he is going to win this round.

To your luck, you made the ball in without missing a beat. You yelp and jump in your spot when you see Jaehyun's stunned reaction slowly turning into stone cold. You point straight at him and shout over the celebration, "What were you saying? Who was going to win this game? That's right! Who is the loser now Jeong!" Jaehyun took his drink and walks away to probably sulk in the corner somewhere.

You just beat and defeated the ping-pong master at his own party. You won't forget this feeling or this night.

After your celebration, you make your way outside for fresh air and enjoy everything around you. You were finding everything and everyone funny. Yeah, you are super drunk. From your sitting position, you can see Ten and Lisa hitting it off with their bodies being close together. You think you should ask one of the boys if you could spend the night here, while Lisa and Ten goes back to your shared apartment. Mark was dancing with a girl, while Johnny and Taeyong are his wingman. Meanwhile, the rest of the boys were being referees during the body shot rounds. Everything in this moment made you grateful to go out tonight.

You go back into the crowded house and make your way to the second floor to find a bathroom. You take the first left and find yourself in someone's room. You look around to see everything neutral with gray undertones. This room must be either Taeil's, Taeyong's, or Doyoung's room because everything was organized and neatly kept. Whether or not you were supposed to be here didn't matter because you needed the bathroom urgently.

After relieving yourself, you open the door at the exact same moment Jaehyun was reaching for the doorknob You stare at each other and you try to move past him, except, his broad shoulders block your path.

"What are you doing in my room?" he says annoyed.

You scoff, "You wish this was your room." You once again try to move past him, but to no avail.

"Yes it is. How did you get in here?"

"The door was open."

"Bullshit."

You shrug your shoulders folding your arms over your chest, "Not my problem."

Jaehyun squints his eyes as he closes the door behind you locking it.

"What the fuck are you doing?"

Jaehyun doesn't say anything except leans back against the door, crossing his arms, and looking at you from head to toe. The look in his eyes are dark and filled with lust making your pussy -

Wait! No! I am not sleeping with him.

"What was that shit downstairs? Do you think you can just disrespect me like that at my own party?"

"Again, it's not your party dumbass"

"The fuck it is my party. I live here, so who invited you?"

"Believe it or not, I have friends who also lives here. Maybe you should go talk to them instead." You sneer. You were getting irritated the more he stood there.

"Are you going to move?"

"Nope."

"At least I don't cry in the corner after I lose a game to a girl." His jaw clenches tight. Bingo!

"You better watch that mouth of yours. You're a real pain in the ass you know that?"

"It's called sportsmanship Jaehyun. You should try it some time when you're not busy sulking and crying."

"Maybe you should learn how to shut up and let people win. God, why did you have to go to the same university as me!" he yells running a hand over his hand.

"Me following you? Oh now that is priceless. Do you want an award for being so dramatic or something? There are hundreds of colleges who would take an annoying jerk in. If I didn't know any better, I would say you're the one who's following me."

"Pft. Don't flatter yourself Y/N. If it were between you and the hottest girl on campus, I would never choose you because you're a bitch. No one would ever want to be with you." he spits out.

"The feeling is mutual. Now move."

He cockily smiles when he see the anger in your face. "I see I hit a nerve there didn't I? Does poor little Y/N not have a soulmate? Hmm? Maybe you should really learn how to be cooperative and a good girl and not talk back." He pushes himself off the door and walks towards you. With every step, you take a step back until your back hits the wall. Jaehyun places both arms beside your head caging you into his bubble.

"Don't be mad just because you haven't had a taste of this yet." He looks down at his obvious half hard cock and winks at you

"Ugh, you're so disgusting. Don't be delusional for thinking I would ever want you. I would never go near you. Who knows where that thing has been and I'm positive that every single guy I've fucked, fucks better than you." you spat.

"I'm warning you right now. Watch that mouth of yours."

You straighten up and stare right back at him smiling, "Fuck. You."

Everything happened so fast. One minute you're in his face and the next he clashes your mouths together into a sloppy kiss. You know you should fight him off for having the audacity putting his filthy lips onto yours, but you don't and put your hands around his neck. Jaehyun realizes you're not pushing him away leading him to push you harder against the wall. He parts your legs with his knee settling in front of your cloth core.

Damn Lisa for giving you this short dress.

You buck into his knee at the sudden action and grind yourself onto him. His hands roam all over your body as he unzips your dress leaving you in your panties. He breaks the kiss to get a look at your body and growls at the sight of you as you take off his shirt. He attaches your lips once more as you fumble with his zipper dragging down his jeans and boxers. He caresses your tits and kneads them for a minute before touching your cloth pussy. He moves your panties to the side and slides a finger between your folds.

"You're so fucking wet" Without warning, he inserts two fingers making you yelp in surprise. His pace is fast and ruthless as you try to keep silent. "Do you have anything else to say?" he says with hooded eyes.

"Good luck trying to fuck the attitude out of me."

Jaehyun hates you so much so he wants to prove a point and teach you a lesson of the respect he deserves. While you try to hold back a moan, his face fastens when he presses a thumb on your nub making you lose control. Everything was too much that your orgasm comes unexpectedly.

As you ride out your high through hooded eyes, you see Jaehyun smiling as if he just won the lottery. He removes his fingers as you stand there slump against the wall catching your breath. Suddenly, you hear a wrapper ripping and see him rolling the condom on his erected cock.

You've had your fair shares of dicks in your life, but Jaehyun was on a league of his own. You will never this out loud, but he was the perfect size and the most beautiful dick you've ever seen. His long and veiny dick made your mouth water and for a split second, you wonder if it would even fit.

You don't have time to recover before he's lifting your leg, sliding between your folds, and pushing into you. You don't hold back when a loud moan comes out of your throat. The stretch of his cock gives you pleasure in all the right places, but you will never tell him that. It takes you a few seconds to get used to his length when he pulls out to the tip, looking at you smugly, "Any last words?"

"Fuck you."

"Gladly." He rams the rest of his length in, not giving you a chance for a comeback. His hips are relentlessly hitting against yours and the tight grip he has on your leg is bringing you closer to your second orgasm.

"You can't say anything now can you slut? Your pussy is so fucking tight no wonder you always have a bitchy attitude. No one has ever fucked you."

When he hits your spot, you grab onto his shoulders for support.

"Look at you. You look so pathetic with my cock in your tight pussy. You talk a lot of shit, but can't back it up can you?"

You squeeze around him grinning the best you could making him hiss. "I fucking hate you." he says.

Jaehyun pulls out almost immediately turning you to bend over the sink and spreading your legs. He pounds into you with force as your head hits the mirror. You look at yourself in the mirror and see your fucked out face. You watch Jaehyun watching the way his cock disappears inside you and looking back at you, before grabbing your bouncing tits.

If he was being honest, you were the first and only girl who could handle his size and the way he's fucking you.

"Oh fuck!" you moan loudly.

"You have something to say slut? You like getting fucked in the bathroom like the slut you are?" You were thankful the music is loud and no one was coming into his room to hear the sinful sounds of your moans and skin slapping.

""Look at this tight pussy sucking my cock in." He grabs your shoulders fucking harder into you and making you rest your forehead against the mirror. His right hand snakes its way to your throat squeezing enough to make you lightheaded. You squeeze around him once more involuntary.

"You like that don't you? You like getting choked while getting your pussy ruined?"

"F-fuck." Your eyes roll back when the coil at the bottom of your stomach begins to tighten and release. The intensity of your orgasm has you convulsing from your high. Jaehyun's hips begin to falter signaling he was close and with two powerful thrusts, he releases inside the condom.

Jaehyun falls on top of you, his breathing next to your ear as you both ride out your highs. He pulls out, removes and ties the condom and throws it in the trash. You low-key already miss the feeling of his cock in you. You both redress without saying a word, but not missing the way Jaehyun smirks at you.

When you catch him looking at you, you squint your eyes at him, "You're still an asshole."

"Guess I didn't fuck you properly enough for you to know the definition of respect."

"This will never happen Jeong."

One strand of his hair fell out of its strong gel, making his hair look like a comma as he smiles and looks at you, "Same place next week?"

You scoff, "You and your dick wishes. Like I said, I've had better." Before he could retort, you unlock the door and walk out of room. You can feel it and Jaehyun can clearly see it, that you couldn't walk properly.

Jaehyun scoffs to himself as he looks around the bathroom and back at his reflection, "She's still a bitch. Mission one completed."

It's been a month since your one night stand with Jaehyun and since then he never fails to mention it to you whenever you're in the same room. If you were out with friends for lunch or dinner, he would sit next to you and hit your leg under the table to get a rise out of you. If you were at the library studying with Johnny or Mark, he would come by and put his arm around you to bring you into a suffocating headlock. If you were forced to accompany Lisa to visit Ten at the frat house, he would walk in the room without a shirt on purpose to see your reaction.

You've done everything humanly possible to avoid contact with him and being around in his presence. The thing is, you could never get away from him. Seriously. Whenever you do try, you would see him walking towards you with someone beside him. If you're walking down a different pathway or the back ways to get to class faster, there he is turning the corner and bumping into you. Never mind those, you would always hear his name either from students in class or the library, from his ex-flings or one night stands, your mutual friends, and even the teachers. If you're at the coffee shop, work, gym, or even the halls of your apartment building, you would always hear his name. Jaehyun this, Jaehyun that. It's exhausting and aggravating.

It's not because you were embarrassed about your hook up, hell, it was one of the best mind blowing sex you've ever had, but you will never admit that, and you certainly weren't going to say it aloud for the universe to hear. The thing is, this is Jeong Jaehyun who has had it out for you since day one. You know he's up to something because Jaehyun always has something up his sleeves when it comes to you and you're itching to know what it is.

You're setting up your laptop and writing down your to-do list, while waiting for the rest of your photography class and professor to settle in. Your mind wanders to what Jaehyun could possibly be up to when you hear a booming voice beside you.

"What are you doing in my seat?" You look up and see none other than the male you were thinking of seconds ago.

"What are you doing in my class?" you deadpan.

"How do you know I'm not in your class?" he fakes a gasp covering a hand over his mouth, "Do you keep tabs on me? Should I be worried for my safety?" When he figures you weren't going to move, he settles for the empty seat next to you.

"That seat is taken." You raise your voice slightly.

He looks left and right, "I don't see a name on the chair and apparently, we can steal other people's seats in this class."

You huff loudly clearly annoyed by him. You look around the room and see there are still plenty of empty desks available. "Can you sit somewhere else? I don't want my work to be infected by you."

He chuckles under his breath, "That's not what you said in my bathroom." You turn to him with wide eyes as more students start coming in.

"What the fuck? Don't say that out loud." you hiss.

He smiles widely when he sees the panic state you're in, clearly enjoying this game of his. "I won't say anything if you don't want me to, but it comes with a price."

You groan internally. Jeong Jaehyun always has a price.

"Fine, what is it?"

He gives you his stupid lopsided smile surprise you caved in as he thinks about the price. His grin becomes wider when he has it, "I sit here for the remainder of the semester, because," he leans in close to your ear and you can smell his cologne when he whispers, "you are sitting in my seat since the beginning of the semester." he pulls away as you scowl at him.

"Yeah, okay. That makes so much sense since I have been sitting here since day one and never once seen you in class until now. Yeah. That totally makes perfect sense Jeong."

"Fine. Have it your way princess. I'll just tell the next person that walks through the door how you begged me to fuck you." As if the universe heard him, a classmate walks in and Jaehyun immediately calls him over.

"Hey Jaehyun, what's up dude." Mike says.

"Alright. Hey do you want to know something about Y/N?" Jaehyun ignores the way you claw your nails deep into his skin. Mike looks at you and back to him in confirmation.

"She-"

"I wanted to know if you knew a place where I can take photos of landscapes. You know, for practice and such." You interject, kicking Jaehyun's leg and pulling excuses out of your ass.

If Mike was curious about the exchange, he didn't voice it. Instead, he happily told you about a place he usually goes to before your professor walks in cutting the conversation. You bid Mike goodbye and turn to Jaehyun who is silently laughing behind his hand.

"Was that really necessary?"

He shrugs calming down his laughter and focuses on the professor. You sigh and say the words you dread, "You can stay there for the remainder of the semester asshole."

Jaehyun leans closer once again, "I'm sorry, I didn't catch that. What did you say?"

You turn to him not realizing the lack of space between you both until then. If you had move a centimeter closer, your lips would be on his. "I said you can sit there you little shit." You turn away, but not before catching his eyes land onto your lips.

You have a hard time focusing on the lecture and playing around with the mock camera. Jaehyun's presence next to you was distracting when he keeps hitting your foot, annoyingly clearing his throat numerous of times, deep sighing, and feeling his heavy gaze on you. You want nothing more than to slap him for making you agree to the stupid deal. When his arm brushes against your arm, you had enough hissing him to stop.

A dimple pops out, "Shh. I'm trying to learn here."

Before you can say anything snarky, your professor gathers everyone's attention to the front before dismissing you. "As you all know, the end of the semester is in three months, which means finals are also three months away. I figure since you all will be stress out, I have a little surprise for you."

"No finals!" a classmate suggest. Everyone, including Professor Choi laughs.

"No, I wish. Instead of giving you instruction about your final next month, I will give it to you now. It is solely up to you if you want to start it now or procrastinate until the last minute. Remember, your final project for this class will be worth more than your written final for this class. With that said, I already paired you up with a partner."

You along with everybody else groans at the fact this is a partner project.

"You two will be working together to come up with a nice presentation of what photography means to you individually and together as a team. You both will decide when you want to start this project, but it will have to be finished on the due date. These partners are permanent so no switching." He grabs a white piece of paper as he reads and calls out people's names.

You pack quietly while listening carefully for your name.

"Jeong, you're with Y/LN." you and Jaehyun nod in agreement before realizing what Professor Choi just said. You heard a couple of girls in the back row murmuring how they wish they were his partner instead and you definitely don't miss the sounds of "oohs" and bets coming from the other side of the class.

When everyone is clearing out of the classroom, you run up to your professor with Jaehyun right behind you.

"Professor Choi, I can't be partners with him."

"I second that." Jaehyun says speaking over you.

"Ah ah ah. I said no switching. That is final. I'm sure whatever differences you two have will be put aside for this very important project. I put you two together because you're both my most hardworking students and have a real talent in photography. I can see how that may seem like a competition between you two, but think of the greater good."

"Wait. What? Since when has he been in our class?"

Mr. Choi gives you a pointed look, "Mr. Jeong has been taking this course online due to personal reasons. It's entirely up to him if he wishes to disclose that with you. As I have said, you two are my top best students. I believe you both can benefit from this. Bounce ideas off of each other." He looks at his watch, "If there are any more questions, please come by my office during hours. Have fun doing this project kiddos."

You look at his walking figure until he is out of your sight. You're completely stun at what just happen.

"Well won't you look at that ... partner." Jaehyun says in disgust.

You face him and glare at the boy, "You do your part and I will do mine. I rather have us do this separately and put everything together when we're done. We are not going anywhere together to take pictures, because if we do so help me I don't run you over."

"Is that supposed to be a threat? Do you even have a car?" he belly laughs making you exhale loudly in annoyance turning around to leave. Jaehyun watches your figure walk towards the exit and out the doors. "Mission two completed."

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"You're doing it wrong!" you exasperate. You're sitting in the living room at the frat house trying to come up with a vision board on how to present your photos for the project. Let's face it, you rather be anywhere but here in this house with Jaehyun.

"No I'm not! This is how it's supposed to look like." Jaehyun yells. He looks around before his eyes land on the piece of paper of requirements showing it to you. "See! This is what he wants verbatim."

You scan the paper quickly before pointing out the obvious, "Dumbass it says right here 'OR.' Nothing in here says it has to be exactly like this. We're doing it my way."

"Absolutely not! This is what he wrote on the paper and we are giving him exactly that."

"No we're not!" You quickly got up going over to the vision board to start rearranging to your liking. "This is all over the place. I am not failing this class over this stupid project just because of your tiny brain is stubborn!"

Jaehyun gets up and undoes everything you just put up. "No!"

You argue back and forth over which idea is better, neither one is listening to the other. You didn't realize when or how you got so close to one's face suddenly. You can feel his breath fanning over your face and if you dare to exhale, your chest would touch his.

He looks at you when he also comes to the same realization once you've stopped talking. He looks down at your plump lips and unconsciously wets his own. You watch everything unfold when he grabs your head to crash your mouths together.

You're taken by surprise and back your head away a little, but Jaehyun chases you and you give in. The kiss is rough and needy just like the first time, except alcohol is nowhere present this time. He lifts up your shirt as you do the same to his and he wastes no time unhooking your bra.

You both are in need of a release. You pull him closer to you continuing your steamy make out session, your arms around his neck as he places both hands on your ass, giving them a hard squeeze before giving them a slap. You yelp in his mouth at the sudden action and Jaehyun walks you back until your legs hit the arm of the couch.

You undo the zipper to your jeans with success just as he pulls down his sweatpants and boxers with ease. Before you could look his hard dick, he turns you around and bends you over the couch. He finishes pulling down your jeans and underwear for you and starts to rub circles on your bare ass before slapping it once more.

His index fingers finds your slit, teasing your pussy and getting harder by the second from how dripping wet you are for him. He inserts two fingers making you gasp and arching your back. He loves the way you sound and the sound your wet pussy makes.

Jaehyun can't wait anymore and takes out his fingers.

"Condom in my bag." you tell him. He finds the wrapper, tearing the package and rolling it on. He pumps himself a few times before positioning himself at your entrance and ramming into you at full force.

You find yourself sinking down into the couch from his thrust and you try to grab anything to keep you balance. Jaehyun wasn't having any mercy on you as he relentlessly pounds deeper into you.

"You're so fucking wet. I bet no one fucks you this good before." He slaps your left ass cheek before soothing it and slapping once more. "Why can't you just listen to me for once?" he slaps your right ass cheek making your pussy clench around his cock. You feel the tight knot at the bottom of your stomach becoming tighter with every thrust and slap.

"Never." You confess.

He makes an inhumane sound pulling your hair to arch your back. The new position has you seeing fireworks and making your head empty. "Oh my God. Fuck!" Everything Jaehyun is doing is turning you on so much more.

You chant fuck as your eyes roll back when your orgasm washes over you.

Jaehyun feels your tightening around him making him angry, "Fucking slut. Did I tell you that you could cum? You're leaving a mess in my living room floor." He nonetheless fucks you through your orgasm never once making the intention on slowing down.

He lets go of your hair and shoulders making you fall forward into the couch. Jaehyun pulls out shortly only to spread your legs further apart and ram into you again. "No wonder you always have a bitchy attitude. No one has been fucking you."

"F-fuck y-you."

Your loud moans and the way your hips move back to meet his thrusts were enough to make Jaehyun cum into the condom. Once he pulls out, you get up from your position and search for your clothes when he grabs your arm and pushes you against the nearest wall. "Where do you think you're going? Did I say I was done with you?" he smirks when you give him a confuse look.

He inserts two fingers into your already sensitive core making you shudder in his grasp. Your hands make their way to his shoulders holding onto him for dear life as he pumps into you.

"If I let you come, will you listen to me?"

"You w-wish." you keep your intense eyes on him, but the force of his fingers curling is making you see the stars.

"Then you won't get to come." He stills his fingers making you whine. Jaehyun takes a mental image of this moment to use for another time.

"Jaehyun what the fuck!"

"Tell me you'll listen to me and I'll let you come sweetheart."

He presses his thumb to your clit and your voice betrays you, "Fuck! Yes, yes, yes!"

He smiles satisfied, "Good girl." He kisses your cheek and resumes his inhumane pace curling his fingers once more and hitting your g-spot perfectly bringing you closer to your orgasm.

"Jaehyun!"

"Come for me slut. Let it all go."

Your nails scratch his back when you feel hot and tingly all over your body and your orgasm hits making you close your eyes. Your juices spill out of you and coats his entire hand. You slump your head against his chest to catch your breath from your mind-blowing orgasm.

"Holy shit." You open your eyes to see him giving you a look you have never seen before towards you. Jeong Jaehyun is actually smiling at you in awe.

"That's so fucking sexy."

You look down at his hand and find your juices on his hand and leaking down your leg onto the floor.

In all of your sexual experiences, no one has ever made you squirt other than your favorite dildo. You can't believe Jeong Jaehyun is the first person to make you squirt. Embarrassment and annoyance takes over when you straighten back up.

Jaehyun can see right through you, "Aw, is someone embarrassed? Was this supposed to be a secret?"

"No. Shut up." You walk over to your discarded clothes, ignoring the soreness between your legs. Once again, Jaehyun can see you struggling to walk. After you both redress, you try to focus on the project at hand, but you want nothing more than to sleep.

You were sober. He was sober. How? You're trying to analyze how you ended up having sex with Jaehyun again in this stupid house.

It's the stress and the pent up anger. Yes. That's what this is. This was just in the moment one deal type of sex. This doesn't mean anything. Okay, but I just fucked him again while sober. Okay, no this is strictly based on stress and that is final.

Unbeknownst to you, Jaehyun watches your reaction the entire time you're arguing with yourself. To say he is amuse by your deep thinking was far from it. He found it ... cute.

"I have an idea." Jaehyun's words makes you break out of your thoughts.

"No doubt a stupid one no less." you say under your breath, but he still heard you.

"Since we're going to be stuck together on this project and you hate me just as much as I hate you, why don't we just fuck out all of our frustrations on each other?"

You stare at him like a deer in headlights. He really lost his damn mind. You couldn't help but chuckle then laugh.

"I'm sorry, we what? Where did you get the idea that I would have sex with you again after that? That was it It's never going to happen again."

"You said that a month ago and look where you were ten minutes ago with me balls deep in you."

"You really lost your mind Jeong." You look back at the board to avoid his intense gaze on you.

"It seemed to me you enjoy the way I fuck you so I don't see why not. It's just hate sex basically. We both get off on it and you can't deny that."

You eye him suspiciously, "You can fuck anyone in the world, but not me. This is definitely the last time."

"Think about it, we might as well get something out of this that'll benefit both of us. If we're both frustrated we just use each other."

"There's a catch in there somewhere. I know there is." You squint your eyes at him.

"No catch. We just fuck. That's it."

You ponder over his offer. In all honesty, it makes sense just to use each other for sex and release all the pent up tension. You can show him who the real boss is, but on the other hand, this is Jaehyun who hates you since your first encounter. The Jaehyun who is a frat boy no less and every girl and guy on campus waiting to jump his bones in a heartbeat.

Not to mention, he has pulled pranks left and right throughout your entire life. You know he has something up his sleeves no matter what. So, you don't know what prompt you to say the next words.

"Just fucking and using each other when we're frustrated. Nothing else."

He gives you a lopsided smile that you want to slap off, "Two enemies with benefits. Nothing else."

Oh how you wish you could slap yourself for agreeing to this.

"Fuck Y/N." Jaehyun shuts his eyes for the millionth time as he grips and pulls on your hair harder. The sight of you on your knees in the school's bathroom stall looking up at him with those "innocent" eyes while your mouth is stuff with his hard cock drives him insane. The way you suck and lick his cock brings him closer to the edge.

Just minutes prior, you both had been arguing in the library over something he didn't agree with the photo ideas, and because you weren't listening to him, he had enough. He got up from the table grabbing your wrist to drag you away from your friends to the bathroom where you are now.

You drag your tongue to the side of dick down to his balls, sucking them as your hand strokes and squeezes tight around him. You release his balls with a pop making your way to the tip giving it a quick kiss before having him in your mouth again. You don't stop until he hits the back of your throat earning yourself a sexy groan from him.

You bob your head faster wanting him to come quicker than usual. He takes another quick glance at you through hooded eyes and holds back from his release challenging himself to hold on a bit. He grips your hair tighter when he begins to fuck into your mouth.

"Look at you. Who knew you love to give blowjobs in the school's bathrooms." He relentlessly thrusts harder into your mouth making you gag as tears begin to fall. "Fuck your mouth feels so fucking good. This is your punishment for listening to me."

You feel his cock twitch signaling he was close to his release. "Maybe this time you'll learn your lesson. F-fuck."

Saliva mix with his cum drips from the corners of your mouth when he stills and you swallow every drop of his cum. He softens and pulls out of your warm mouth and lets go of your hair. You wipe your mouth with the back of your hand before getting up and exiting the stall. You fix yourself in front of the mirror having a clear sight of Jaehyun still in the stall. Knowing him, he's ready to sleep.

It's been two weeks since you agreed to this insane arrangement and four times a week you two fuck like rabbits. Quite honestly, you're impress by his insanely high sex drive. You're even more surprise at yourself for keeping up with him. On some days, you both would have sex twice or three times a day depending on how frustrated and annoyed you were with each other.

"I'll leave first." you say after a last glance at your reflection.

"Why do you get to leave first?" Jaehyun says slumping back onto the wall.

"Um because I'm a girl and your pants are still down." you stated as if it was the most obvious thing in the world. Jaehyun looks down and sure enough, he is still half naked. Before he could suggest another round, you were out the door.

"Bitch." he says to no one in particular. Jaehyun closes the stall door and stands there sighing to himself. He starts to imagine fucking you dumb in this small stall and having you scream his name for the entire school to hear.

How dare you speak to him like that when he told you repeatedly to not argue back. He's getting hard at the thought of manhandling you in this very public bathroom. He grabs his half hard dick, pumping himself into his hand, just thinking about your tight pussy.

He imagines holding you against the door so the hinges could creak and bang loud enough for the people outside to believe there were ghosts in the bathroom. He thinks about your legs wrapping around his waist and leaving new wounds of scratches on his bath. He thrusts his now hard angry cock into his hand at a faster pace.

He can't stop thinking about your moans or chants of his name that falls out of your mouth. Oh and that mouth. He can kiss them all day and night if he could. Jaehyun thinks about your soft plump lips kissing his neck and whispering dirty words in his ear is enough to send him to ecstasy as he comes undone. After his high, he cleans himself up and splashes water on his face before looking at his own reflection lost in thought.

"About time! We thought one murdered the other. We were about to call search and rescue for you both." Lisa exaggerates when you sit back down at the table with her, Mark, Johnny, Ten, and Jungwoo. Jaehyun was nowhere behind you.

"I was telling them the good news. Haru and I talked and we both decide to give this thing a shot. I mean there has to be a reason why fate put us together you know. Why not test the waters. Our date is this Friday night!" Mark says excitedly.

You turn in your seat and give him a big hug. "That is so amazing! I'm super happy for you Markie." You let go of him when Jaehyun finally joins the group. You can see his cheeks are still flushed with pink from his post orgasm.

"What are we celebrating?" he sits on your other side.

"Our boy Markie Mark here got himself a date Friday night with his one and only." Johnny coos. Jaehyun stretches out his arm across in front of you to fist bump Mark.

"Thanks dude."

"I have an idea. Why don't we make it a group effort and turn it into a group date?" Lisa says excitedly.

You and Jaehyun scoff at the idea, "That's a no. Let them get to know each other first." you reason.

"Yeah, let the two lovebirds see if there is a connection there." Jaehyun added taking everyone by surprise.

"Oh come on please? Johnny is bringing Joy, Ten and I, and -"

"Yeah that's called 'I finally found my soulmate and going on a group date.' In case you forgot, I'm not part of that club." you deadpan

"You and Jaehyun can go together." Jungwoo suggests.

The table is quiet for what feels like an eternity until Jaehyun speaks up, "No absolutely not. I refuse to be around her longer than I need to be. Trust me, you're better off without us there."

"How about you both find dates and we'll meet up?" Johnny suggests.

After arguing back and forth with your friends, surprisingly you and Jaehyun were on the same page for the first time after agreeing to find dates.

When everyone left the library, you yank Jaehyun back. "We're not really going through with this are we? We both can't stand each other." you whisper.

Jaehyun feels his lips curl but forces himself to keep a straight face, "What? Scared to fall in love with me Y/N?"

"Pft as if. I could never fall in love with a guy who is full of himself. You're not my type." you bite back.

"Then I guess we're going on this date with our dates. I don't have anything to hide."

You glare at the tall boy before making a deal, "Deal, but on one condition. You have to find someone you haven't had sex with." you smirk.

Jaehyun looks at you with equal intensity stare "Deal. It'll be easy for me to find a date. I can't say the same for you though."

Before you could rebuttal, he walks the opposite way.

Jeong Jaehyun is still and forever an asshole.

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"It'll be fun I promise and if you're having a horrible time, tell me and we'll go home." Lisa says as you both walk towards the restaurant to meet your other friends.

"What's his name again?" you ask trying to smooth out any wrinkles for the millionth time.

"Jackson. He's on the dance team and one of Ten's good friends. You'll like him. Just watch. Oh that must be them."

You look up and sure enough there is everyone waiting outside the restaurant. You see the familiar boy standing next to Johnny. When you close in, you see Naeun as Jaehyun's date and were chatting away. You knew Naeun from having a few shared classes and she's a sweet girl.

Lisa doesn't miss a beat of introducing you and Jackson. "Jackson, this is my friend I keep telling you about. Y/N, Jackson. Jackson, Y/N." He gives you a shy but secured smile and hug.

"It's finally nice to meet you. Lisa never shuts up about you." His voice is like honey and you can listen to him all day long if given the chance.

You begin to feel flustered at the comment adding, "I hope it's all good words coming out of her mouth." You can sense Jaehyun throwing daggers at you and when you turn your head towards him, you two lock eyes and there is a sudden switch in the air between you two. Whatever it is, quickly disappeared when Naeun said hi to you.

"Can we go in now? I'm starving." Johnny complains.

You all walk into the lovely restaurant and sit in the far right corner thankfully away from people. If you didn't know any better, you'd think fate or your friends were pulling a prank on you with the seating arrangements. Jackson sat next to you on your right, Lisa on your left, and Jaehyun sitting directly in front of you with Naeun by his side.

After ordering drinks and foods, you and Jackson completely hit it off. You enjoy his company and the more you talk, the more you found out the similar interests you share. Although you want to keep your attention only on him, you can feel Jaehyun's foot next to yours or his knee hitting yours. You'd kick him as hard as you can discreetly and an evil smirk would come across your face when you him yelp or slightly jump.

After eating half of your portion of your food, you excuse yourself to use the restroom. What you didn't know was Jaehyun soon following behind you and waiting for you outside the restrooms. The only thing on his mind is the way you look in that dress and the perfume you're wearing. Even though he had asked Naeun to accompany him for tonight, he didn't feel anything towards her.

When you open the door, you're surprise to see Jaehyun in front of you. The look on his face is easy to define with lust.

"Seems like you're finally having fun for once." He says walking and pushing you back into the single bathroom and locking the door. "It's such a nice sound when you're not in a bitchy mood."

"Wha-" your words are cut short when he crashes his lips on your yours, his hands finding your waist, and walking you back until you hit the sink.

He slightly pulls away, "Do you know this dress makes you look hot?" Jaehyun grinds against you to show you how hard he is when you feel his bulge through his jeans. "Is Jackson your soulmate after tonight? Will this be out last time having our fun?" He slips a hand under your dress and onto your cloth core, making you buck into him.

"Just hurry up."

You know it's stupid to have sex with Jaehyun while you're on a date, but there is something about Jaehyun that has a hold on you to let him get you riled up and have his way with you.

"Someone is needy tonight. I don't have a condom on me."

"I'm on the pill."

He wastes no time lifting your dress as you undo his belt and zipper, taking out his hard member and stroking it. He lifts your leg up with one hand as you guide his member to your entrance and push in.

You have to admit, the amount of times you two have fucked, you will never get use to the feeling of him stretching you out in all the right ways. Jaehyun and his stroke game were and are always on another level. He sets his thrusts at a rapid pace knowing you're on borrowed time. It takes everything in you to hold back your moans. He kisses you to swallow the escaped moans whenever he hits your g-spot. Jaehyun can feel you gripping him tightly signaling you were close to your release.

"I bet Jackson won't ever fuck you this good." He breathily says thrusting harder into you.

"Fuck right there. I'm going to come."

"Look at me." You lock eyes with him as he places his thumb on your nub making you shake convulsing and coming in seconds. One powerful thrust and Jaehyun empties his seed inside your walls. You feel his warm cum inside of you and something in you snaps at the feeling. He rests his forehead with sweat against yours as you both catch your breaths.

He finally pulls out and you feel both of your mix liquids running down your leg. Jaehyun looks at it in awe and bites his lips when he thinks you look sexy with his cum and your essence dripping down your legs. You clean up the mess and both redress yourself properly before stepping out.

Before you exit the hall, you see Jackson and Naeun talking as if they have a secret code. Within seconds, you can tell by the look on his face that he was much happier talking to her than he was with you. It didn't bother you because that's the same look the rest of your friends at the table have when they're with their soulmate.

Jackson and Naeun look up, see you and Jaehyun standing there, and break apart with a shy smile.

"This is awkward." Naeun quietly says.

Jackson is the first to break the tension asking you if he could talk to you in private. You nod and follow him passing your group of friends until you're outside the restaurant. He clears his throat and even though you just met today, you can tell he's nervous.

"Y/N, I had a really great time tonight and we get along super great. I wish I had met you sooner and I'm happy Lisa introduced us because you're way cooler in person than what she makes you out to be" You both laugh at how Lisa can over-exaggerate with details.

"I don't want to be rude, but when we were sitting there, I could feel this electric pull towards Naeun. I can't explain it. When you left to use the restroom, we started talking and instantly clicked. We both just discovered right now that we're soulmates. Please don't be mad or hate me." Jackson looks down to the ground.

You let the information sink in and smile at him. "Hey, look at me." Jackson looks at you with sympathetic eyes, "It's really not a big problem. I already knew the moment I saw you two talking just now. In honesty, I wasn't feeling anything romantic towards you either." you joke making him laugh. "We are good Jackson. I promise."

He gives you a big smile and hugs you. "Thanks for letting me down easily." he jokes. "Hey at least we became friends out of this, that is if we're friends?"

You slap his arm gently while giving him a serious look, "Of course we are! Who else am I going to talk about Squid Game with, but I'm taking you out next time so I can repay you back."

Just then, your friend group comes out and Lisa walks over to you with a concern look after seeing Jackson and Naeun talking together.

"Are you okay? Do I need to beat him up?" she asks.

"No we're good. He found his soulmate." You smile at the pair across from you. Lisa gives you a sympathetic look.

"We can go home if you want." she quietly says at the same time someone suggests taking a walk by the Han River.

"Yeah and after we can go to IKON frat party right after." Johnny says making half of the group disagree.

You low-key want to go back to the comfort of your apartment, change into comfortable clothes, and watch Disney movies. You figured this would be a great opportunity to take a couple of pictures for your project.

"No, I'm okay. Let's go."

Splitting into cars was interesting to say the least. Johnny and Joy were with Mark and Haru, while Ten and Lisa were with Jackson and Naeun. To everyone's surprise, you and Jaehyun would be in his car. Lisa tried to get you to ride with them, but you reassure her you would be fine going with Jaehyun and needed to talk about the project anyway.

On the drive there, it's quiet except for the soft R&B playing in the background. You look around the car and notice it's clean just like his room that one drunken night.

"So, this is how it feels to be dumped?" Jaehyun suddenly asks his eyes never leaving the road ahead of him.

You look over at him in shock, "What? You're telling me you've never been dumped before?"

He shakes his head at your accusation making your eyes widen, "Not even stood up once?"

"Never. It's always me doing that. Not going to lie, it's a pretty shitty feeling."

"Wow and I thought someone broke your heart and you became the person you are today."

He quirks an eyebrow up interested in what you thought about him, "And what kind of person am I today?"

You laugh lightly, "Well for starters, you're kind of a fuckboy since you've never been dumped before. You slack in class, yet somehow still ace the exams and quizzes, so that makes me wonder if you're screwing the TA to get a passing grade. Also, you walk around acting as if you're high and mighty among everyone."

Jaehyun laughs as you continuing pointing out his flaws. He thought he'd be annoyed with you talking so much, but found it interesting.

"I'm surprise you haven't hooked up with Naeun before."

"Are you keeping tabs on who I have and haven't had sex with? Is someone jealous?" he teases stealing a glance at you with one hand on the wheel.

"Don't flatter yourself Jaehyun."

His deep laughs makes you stare at his side profile a little too long, "If you say so."

Upon arrival, you slowly walk behind everyone to capture the true beauty of the night. Nights like tonight where the whether isn't too cold or too hot and the wind isn't blowing you over, are moments you feel a gratitude for everything. You snap a couple of photos thinking it would go nice for your project when two hands suddenly grab your waist and scare the shit out of you.

You jerk forward, hands clutching in a fist ready to throw a punch at the idiot who made you scream. When you turn around swinging a right hook, Jaehyun moves his face in time and holds your hand.

"Jaehyun!? Don't scare people like that you idiot!"

He throws his head back laughing hard and tapping his thigh. "You're so easy to scare Y/N."

"Jerk." You calm your beating heart and begin to walk towards your group of friends who were way ahead of you now. Jaehyun catches up and walks beside you quietly.

"You need to set up your camera at a better angle by the way." he says nonchalantly.

"And you need to get punch in the face. I thought you were up there with everybody?"

"I was, but I had to go back to the car to get something. Plus, all they talk about are more date nights, so why not hang out with my other single friend who sucks at taking photos."

You stop walking, "Since when were we friends?" you ask confusedly "and I do not suck at taking photos."

He turns around, hands in his front pockets, and bites his lower lip walking closer to you. You can feel his hot breath fanning your face and suddenly the rise in the whether went up. The cologne he's wearing fills your nostrils and somewhere in the back of your mind, you don't mind being covered smelling like him.

"Are we not friends? After everything we've been through?" he says next to your ear. His hand ghosts over your waist and it takes everything in you to not cave into his touch. To a stranger's eyes, they would assume you two were a young couple in love. Now, if your friends saw you, they would bombard you with questions left and right.

Just as you're about to give into him, you break away from each other when you hear Johnny's booming voice letting you two know to head to the party. Silently, you follow behind Jaehyun to his car. Your thoughts are all over the place only full of lust.

Every rational decisions and thoughts vanishes as soon as you sit in the passenger seat. Looking around the parking lot, it was mostly empty and the car is nearly invisible in the dark night. Jaehyun definitely knows how to rile you up and you feel yourself clenching at nothing.

Somehow spending all of these special quality time together, Jaehyun can sense exactly what you were thinking. He locks the doors and shifts in his seat too look at you waiting for your next move. You face him meeting his eyes and landing on his inviting plush lips. You both lean in at the same time crashing mouths and teeth together just wanting nothing more than to feel each other.

He practically pulls you over the center console to sit on his lap, feeling your weight on him. His hands roam over your body, while your hands find their way to his hair. In the midst of your intense make out, you both move to the backseat where you straddle him and grinding your cloth core on his jeans for friction.

You kiss his neck just below the jawline, secretly knowing it's one of his weakest point when he lets out a deep groan. His hand squeezes your hips tighter when he feels the sensation of your lips on his skin. Everything in his body is on fire just from your kiss. You push your dress up and panties to the side as Jaehyun unzips his jeans and sliding them down along with his boxers.

You salivate at his angry cock dripping with precum and hover over him.

"Fuck you're so wet babe."

"Only for you. Shit." The feeling of sinking down on him is everything you ever wanted: the stretch, the slight pain, the wetness, the feel of his every ridge, and the way he makes you feel so full. Jaehyun kisses your chest for distraction as you get use to him. You both let out a loud moan when you begin rocking into him and soon bouncing on him. His thrusts meeting yours halfway.

Jaehyun kneads and slaps your ass every time you come down on him. He frees your tits and plays with them as they bounce in his hands. Loud pants, moans, deep grunts, and the sound of skin slapping fills the entire car when you both reach your orgasm in no time.

You chant his name like a mantra hiding your face in the crook of his neck and he pulls you tighter against his chest. You both stay like that as the waves of your highs calm down.

Jaehyun gives you a kiss on your shoulder, neck, jaw, and lips. It's a strange feeling. Sure, you've kissed during sex, but right after you'd pretend nothing happened. His lips linger longer than needed to on yours when you kiss him back. Pulling away, you study his face and for once, you see a mischievous look in his eyes. You take in everything in sight and ask yourself if he's always been this handsome.

Wait, why am I thinking of him in that light? I hate him. Get your shit together Y/N.

"Car sex is officially off the bucket list." He says breaking your train of thought.

You roll your eyes and get off of him, not missing the way your fluids leak out of your hole. You both redress and head to the party. The car smells like sex and you wouldn't be able to look at it the same way again. Still, you couldn't shake off the feeling that this felt different than the rest of your hook ups with Jaehyun and that's what terrifies you the most.

Annoying Y/N: We're going on a trip tomorrow morning loser so be up before 5:30AM.

Jaehyun: and why would I want to wake up at the ass crack of dawn? 😴

Annoying Y/N: Because if we want to pass this class we need to start taking pictures dumbass 🙄

Jaehyun: yeah, that's a hard pass for me. go by yourself loser. i have shit to do 👋

Annoying Y/N: God you're so annoying!

Annoying Y/N: You know what

Annoying Y/N: I'll just do this entire project by myself with only my name on it 😤

Annoying Y/N: You can go fuck yourself

Jaehyun: I would, but I should be fucking you to put you in your place 😏

Annoying Y/N: Grow up Jeong!

Jaehyun: you're making something grow harder by the second 😏

Annoying Y/N: 🤮🤮

Jaehyun: is that you choking on my dick?

Annoying Y/N: Forget it!

Annoying Y/N: If you don't want to come I won't force you

Annoying Y/N: I'd rather not be stuck in the same car with you again

Jaehyun: aw, afraid you'll jump on my dick again

Jaehyun: i wouldn't mind honestly 😏

Jaehyun: what are you wearing right now?

Jaehyun: send nudes

Annoying Y/N: Anyways! 5:30 or not I'm leaving with or without you

Jaehyun: way to kill the mood bro 😒

Annoying Y/N: 😘😘

Jaehyun shuts off his phone and lay in bed with a smile on his face. He thinks back to how you were a couple of months ago from hating his guts to hanging out every day with him. Minus the sex, you're fun to be around, even when you don't say anything to him.

He's the type of person who hates the quiet when he's with someone because it gets awkward, but with you he doesn't mind it. There's something about you that doesn't make the silence so suffocating.

The next morning came and you wait by your phone wondering if Jaehyun is going to text you if he's coming. When the clock struck 5:35 AM, you figure he wasn't coming at all. You roll your eyes, grab a light jacket, your keys and wallet, and lock your apartment.

You head downstairs in the freezing cold and your breath hitches when you see Jaehyun leaning against your car. He's wearing a black jacket, white t-shirt, dark jeans, and a black hat.

"It's 5:37. You're late and it's freezing." he says annoyingly in his morning voice.

It takes you a second later to get out of your thoughts that he actually came. "Suck it up. Maybe next time you should text instead of popping up." You walk towards your car and press your car alarm before getting inside.

Neither one of you is a morning person. That's been establish as you two sit there listening to your own R&B playlist and yawning.

"I can't believe you're driving. You're a horrible driver." he grunts.

You come to a red light and unlock your doors, "You can get out if you want. No one is forcing you to stay." You give him a pointed look as he rolls his eyes.

"Just drive." he mumbles.

You decide to drive to a nearby coffee shop to get yourselves coffee and muffins to wake yourselves up.

"Where are we going by the way?" he asks when you start driving to your designation. He realizes he never asked you. Honestly, he didn't even plan on setting his alarm at 4:30 AM last night in order to meet you on time.

"A place." you vaguely say.

"Is this my last Americano I will have before you off me?"

"Eh, perhaps."

Jaehyun's eyes grew wide when your face doesn't change. You let him sweat it out for a couple of minutes while he apologizes for everything he's done and starts listing things he would do for you.

"Chill out. It won't be your last I promise. Maybe. You'll know when we get there." you laugh.

"You're a bitch sometimes."

"I know, but some of those thing you just mention sound very interesting. I need someone to do my laundry and cook for me though -"

"Absolutely not. That is never going to happen now that I know you won't end me."

"But how do you know? For all you know I could be lying." You go back and forth on the topic before moving onto songs and artists you like to listen to. Conversations soon die down when Jaehyun's eyes flutter shut.

You couldn't help but smile at the man before you. His long flowy and fluffy locks are longer when it's not styled back. His cute little pout he does when he's deep asleep is adorable. You'd never say this aloud to anyone, not even to yourself, but he looks so angelic when he sleeps. You come to a red light and quietly swipe your phone opening the camera app and taking a quick picture of him.

You don't know why you did it, but it felt just right.

Three hours later, you finally arrive at your destination. Jaehyun takes in his surrounds only to see tall trees, no cars in the parking lot, a hiking trail, and fields of tall grass. The sun is barely coming up and though it's known nothing scares Jeong Jaehyun, he had an eerie feeling about this place.

Yeah, I'm definitely not coming home tonight.

You turn off the engine and get out of the car with a huge smile on your face. You couldn't wait to get to your happy place in time. You don't pay attention to Jaehyun and the look of worrisome on his face as he watches your every move until you're looking back at him.

"Are you going to come or not?"

"You bring me here to a land of nothing? I'll just stay here and catch up on my sleep."

You shrug, "If you say so. Just know there are people who kidnaps people sleeping in their cars out here." You turn and start walking slowly.

"Bullshit!" Jaehyun yells back. When you don't answer and continue walking, he feels like he's being paranoid and ends up unbuckling quickly, getting out of the car, and taking long strides towards you.

You hear the crunch under his feet when you turn back to face him. If you could take a picture of this moment and the horror on his face, you'd use it for blackmail. You put your car alarm before continuing on.

"How far is this place?"

"Just another twenty or thirty minutes."

"This better be worth my sleep by the way. If not, you're buying me lunch for a whole ass month."

"Okay scary cat." you snicker.

"I am not! I just didn't want you to go alone. I don't want to have you on my conscious if something bad happens to you."

"Mhm. Whatever helps you sleep at night Jay." The nickname rolls off your tongue easily. It sounded nice when you said it and Jaehyun feels his ears turning red hot. You reach the start of a short hiking trail, but before you could start, Jaehyun pulls onto your wrist.

"Dude, you didn't say anything about hiking! What the hell!"

"You never asked for specifics." you state the obvious.

"Liar." Jaehyun squints his eyes at you, but follows your lead.

You both hike the trail with Jaehyun's constant complaints of messing up his shoes and not wanting to carry his jacket around. From time to time, he would look at your perfect ass.

You reach the top before he did and took in the sight in front of your while his voice falls onto deaf ears.

"This is so bullshit Y/N. If I had known hiking was involved, I wouldn't have come. If I wanted to do boot camp while hiking, I would've done so myself." He finally reach the top and looks at your side profile as he continues ranting. "You're buying me new shoes when we -"

You turn to him, covering your hand over his mouth as he muffles the last few words. With your other hand, you turn is head to the front of him. You feel his jaw slack when he sees what you saw with the rising run. Below is a small lake mead with beautiful flowers surrounding the waters.

"Wow." was all he could say.

You smile softly when you see the emotions change in his expression. You take a moment to appreciate nature, what it has to offer, and taking in the air and breeze caressing your skin. You hike the rest of the way down and when you finally hit land, Jaehyun begins snapping photos left and right.

He has never seen such a beautiful place in his entire life. Everything about this place is magical and he felt like a child in Disneyland.

You on the other hand watch Jaehyun smile from ear to ear and completely at ease. You didn't mean to stare at him, but you just couldn't help it. He really did look like a little kid in a candy store. To say you were feeling different emotions was an understatement. You only saw him in a different light because of this place. A place you love that held so many memories for you as a child mix with the good and the bad.

"This place is amazing Y/N. How did you find it?" he asks while taking a photo of a lotus flower in the lake.

"It's a secret." you wink at him when he looks back at you. Jaehyun swears his heart skipped a beat when he looked at you. You stand next to him taking in the lake in front of you. "When my parents were still alive, they would bring me here every spring break when the flowers bloom and in the summer to experience what summer is all about. Ever since they passed away in a car accident, I would come here to feel their presence. It's my secret getaway from the stress of school and life. Now that I think about it, I've never brought anyone here."

He heard what happened to your parents in high school and wanted to reach out, but every time he tried, you'd shut him down. Since then, he backed off on the teasing. Just a little bit.

Jaehyun can see the twinkle in your eye spark a little brighter as you recount your memories here. He can't take his eyes off of you and when you look at him, he gets lost in your eyes. He feels honored to be the first person you've taken here and there's something about you in this setting that makes him see you differently.

You weren't the girl he hated when he was eight or the girl he likes to get a rise out of or the girl he sleeps with. You were just you with all of your flaws on display.

Breaking the intense eye contact, you were the first to look away clearing your throat, "We should probably take some photos now."

"Yeah." he whispers when you start to walk away. He opens his camera app and snaps a photo of your figure surrounded by the beautiful flowers.

Your only intentions were to take photos of the scenery and call it a day, but after an hour, it turns into a photoshoot. Jaehyun would snap pictures of you posing with flowers in your hand, flower in your hair, and by the lake. You do the same for him snapping photos if him smelling the red tulips, taking a photo of a yellow tulip, crouching down in front of the lake with stones beside him, and a flower in his hair.

You even took selfies together on your phones with his arm around your shoulder bringing you closer to his side or his arms wrapping around your middle while he rests his chin on your shoulder. He would set his phone by a rock with the timer on so he could have the both of you taking funny poses together.

The word happy was something neither of you anticipated when it came to each other, but right here right now, you both are the most happiest either have been in a long time.

Since the trip to the lake, you and Jaehyun start spending more time together just hanging out. At first, your friends were confused at the sudden change, but once you both said you can tolerate each other, they were relieved they no longer needed to hear the never ending bickering.

At first, you thought the sex would be a daily thing since you've been hanging out so much, but in reality, it was becoming less frequent compared to jumping on each other every four hours. The sex even felt different, even though he was still a beast in the bedroom, living room, kitchen, elevator, stairs, or shower. He would perform aftercare for you by running you a bath and taking care good care of you. It was something he nor anyone has ever done for you. There would be nights he'd stay the night and leave his clothes in your closet.

The more you hang out, the more you realize you enjoy his company and the way he makes you laugh. He would come to your place and watch movies or Disney movies, make pizzas or dinner together, explore new places and enjoy the city night life together taking selfies. You would even go to the frat house to spend time with him and the boys.

If the boys were throwing a party or there was a party being thrown and neither wanted to party or drink, you'd make an excuse and cuddle on your couch. Everything feels domestic with him and whenever he's around, you feel safe.

Jaehyun wakes up one morning just before the morning sun creeps into your bedroom. He rubs his eyes and turns his body to face yours on your side. You were hugging your pillow with a cute pout. He thinks you look beautiful like this without makeup, face relaxed, and messy hair, but of course, he will never tell you. He takes a mental image of this moment and takes in your features, your figure, your favorite lotion scent, and he can't help but feel so damn lucky.

There was always something about you that makes him gravitates towards you and he knows he needs to figure it out, but he doesn't want to.

It dawns on him that he's gotten too comfortable around you. Jeong Jaehyun does not do relationships and he isn't the one to fall in love simply because he doesn't believe in it. His parents divorced when he was a kid and his mother left right after. Since then, he vowed to himself he will never have a close connection with someone to spare him the pain.

Yet, he found himself breaking his promise for you. He would find himself smiling when he reads back on your texts, the pictures you've taken together, and he couldn't stop thinking about how far you two have come. From destroying your sand ages ago to laying half-naked next to you.

Truth is, he is scared shitless about this new ordeal and doesn't know what to do. He thinks he has feelings for you, but he doesn't know what feelings are supposed to feel like. Is he even ready to settle down yet?

You wake up when you feel the bed on your left side raise and hear feet scrambling on the floor. Rubbing your eyes and sitting up with the blanket covering your body, you look over at Jaehyun as he puts on his jeans.

"You're leaving already?" you ask in your morning voice with a little pout.

"Yeah, I just remember I have to help Johnny with his car." He says not sparing you a look.

There's something off about his voice, but you blame it on being half awake.

"Okay. Are we going to the arcade later so I can beat your high score?"

He looks back at you and wishes he didn't because you look so happy in this moment. He sighs quietly, grabbing his shirt to put it on, and walking to your side of the bed. He moves a strand of hair behind your ear before caressing your cheek. You lean into his touch when he kisses your forehead. His lips linger for a moment before capturing your lips.

When he breaks the kiss, he whispers, "Yes." He looks at you one more time before walking out of your bedroom and out of your apartment.

Jaehyun knows what needs to happen and what he needs to do, so, he does what he always do best: hides away any real emotion, burying it deep within himself, and put on a facade for you and the world to see.

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You haven't seen Jaehyun since that Sunday morning and that was a week ago. You'd text him to see if he wanted to hang out, only to have an excuse thrown at your or short answer replies. You asked the boys if they knew what was up with him, only to be revealed that he hasn't been at the house much and they rarely see him.

You come to the conclusion that you're starting to sound like a concern girlfriend when he wasn't yours to claim in the first place. He could do whatever he wants, but why did that thought hurt you more than you expected?

It was Saturday when you find yourself at Lee's Bookstore. You and Jaehyun found it when you were exploring the area and wanted coffee, not expecting a coffee shop in the middle of the bookstore.

As you browse through endless rows of books, you see two elderly couple together. The man was gazing into the woman's eyes with nothing but love and as if, it were only the two of them. They were cute and it made you yearn for something like that one day.

You were so lost in your thoughts about your potential future, you didn't realize the woman was asking you a question.

"Honey, are you alright?" she asks again.

"Oh, hi. Yes I am. I' sorry. You two are such a beautiful couple. I hope one day I can be just like the two of you." you smile politely at them.

"It wasn't easy that's for sure." the older man says with a smile in return.

"Oh you hush. You always kept picking fights with me. I'm sure that was easy enough." she teases back. They continue their little banter for a few more seconds and they reminded you so much of you and Jaehyun. You wish he were here right now beside you.

"She's a firecracker." he winks at her.

You chuckle at their teasing, "Ah, well regardless of what is was, it seems to have worked out. If you don't mind me asking, how did you two meet?" If it were any other person, you'd feel awkward, but they made you comfortable enough to ask.

"Well we met when we were five and -"

"And he completely ruined my drawing."

"Ah I almost forgot about that sweetie. Indeed I did do that and -"

"And ever since that day, we had been at each other's throats. We would pull pranks on each other, call each other names, and nit pick everything the other person did. I guess it all changed when -"

"When I was the designated driver for our friends in college. We aren't big on drinks, but our friends, oof, they could drink for hours on end. You college kids know how to party." he says giving you a hi five and a grin.

"We figured since we had mutual friends, we would be civil for their sake. Well-"

"It's been a rollercoaster since. What started out as enemies ended in us being soulmates. We realized we had the same mark on our collarbone the more we hung out and we knew that we were destined for each other." They look at each other with so much love and passion.

"After a few months of dating, I realized I couldn't live without my other half and I asked her to marry me. Thankfully she said yes." you all laugh as you wipe a tear from your eye you didn't know you had.

"Have you always known she was the one or did it come as a shock?" you ask curiously.

"I think I've always known deep down, but we were always fighting that I never realized it until it was almost too late."

"They say these kinds of soulmate connections are the rarest to ever occur mostly because the people end up really despising each other to really look at the bigger picture." she says.

Your mind race all over the place. Their love story sounds almost like yours and Jaehyun's. You were starting to wonder if he was your soulmate.

"I am guessing you have a similar story?"

"Yes, you can say that. It's almost scarily very similar to yours. Now, it's just ... complicated." you admit.

"Oh sweetie. Don't let that little slip up mess with your mind. I've been there before and all you can do now is analyze and come to the same conclusion as us. Tell him how you feel and don't wait. I don't know what would've happened if we both waited or ignore our feelings." the older woman suggests.

"You two are really sweet. Thank you for your kind words and advice and sharing your story with me. I should let you go now. Thank you again." you bid them both farewell and turn on your feet to the opposite side. Before getting far, the woman asks for your name so she could tell her grandchildren and promises to make up the ending for you.

"It's Y/N."

You lay in bed that night contemplating your entire life. You couldn't stop thinking about the story of the couple from the bookstore. You couldn't fathom they sound exactly like you and Jaehyun straight down to the T. You were never one to believe in soulmates, let alone have the exact same story as another couple, yet you're starting to believe in it.

As much as you have tried to forget about him and tell yourself you hate him and it was only just sex, somewhere along the way, you have grown to appreciate him.

You love the way he makes you smile by him just smiling at you. You get butterflies whenever you catch him staring at you from across the room or next to you. You feel the electricity pull whenever your hands or any part of your skin touches. When your bodies are one, you can't help but feel safe and surrender under his touch. He makes you feel like the only girl in his world.

You've come to realize your entire childhood with the pettiness drama all led you to this moment of truth. You look down at your left hand and notice a clear line that wasn't there before on your fourth finger. You try to rub it off, but it wouldn't budge.

Then it hits you. The coincidence story, the sudden mark, the reason you can't get him out of your head.

"Holy shit." you whisper to yourself in disbelief. "Holy shit!" you repeat louder this time. "I'm in love with him. Jaehyun is my ... soulmate." You're suddenly filled with excitement that you can literally shout it out to the world that you love him. You're in love with Jeong Jaehyun. Your long time enemy turn fuck buddy turn to soulmate.

You send him a quick text asking him to meet you at the park that's halfway between both of you. He replies back with an 'okay.' Adrenaline runs through you as you quickly grab a pair of Jaehyun's sweats and shirt, grabbing your car keys, and driving to the park.

You needed to see him and you couldn't wait to tell him how you feel, because surely he had to feel the same connection too. There is no way he would just do mundane things with you every day and not feel anything for you.

You get to the park first and patiently wait for him. As you sit on the bench, you look at the jungle gym playground. Memories of your childhood together of playing tag, getting competitive with Jenga or any sport, and ending it with someone crying.

It's been ten minutes and Jaehyun was still a no show. You text and call him, but he never responded or answered. After an hour, you realize he wasn't coming. Anger fueled you as you get back into your car and drive to the frat house. How dare he ignore you for nearly two weeks, give you the cold shoulder, and standing you up. Who did he think he is?

Upon arrival at the house, you see a swarm of bodies in the front lawn and you forgotten the boys were throwing a house party.

Okay, maybe this is why he didn't show up.

Walking into the house looking like you just woke up, you do your best to avoid the stares and look for the man you need to see.

"Y/N! You're here! We miss seeing your beautiful face around here." Johnny drunkenly says giving you a side hug.

"Hey John. I miss you too. Hey, have you seen Jaehyun?"

Johnny gives you a questioningly look and looks down at your outfit, "You're not seeing him looking that that."

"Johnny please. It's important." you beg him.

"I lost him after we played ping pong. Try his room."

You thank him and head upstairs to Jaehyun's room. Thankfully, the hallways weren't crowded as you made your way to his room. Turning the unlocked doorknob, you close your eyes, taking a deep breath, walk into his room, and begin to speak.

"I know you've been ignoring me Jaehyun, but to stand me up for an hour is unacceptable. The least you can do is apologize and I need to tell you so-"

You stop midsentence when you finally open your eyes and take in the scene in front of you. You really wish you never came to this party at all. You wish you didn't just walk in on Jaehyun balls deep inside another girl. Your jaw drops and your heart shatters into a million tiny pieces.

Jaehyun looks at you wide eyes shock to see you standing there. You hold his gaze a second longer, before the girl beneath him grabs anything to cover herself. You regain your composure, standing a little straighter, scoffing while shaking your head, and walking out of his room.

He can see the hurt written all over your face and he swore he saw tears at the brim of your eyes. There was a feeling in his chest that he couldn't pinpoint. He wanted to run to you and say sorry, but he was still in shock.

You run down the stairs, tears falling down your face, while shoving past people to get to the front door. When the night air finally hits your lungs, you walk a little further before collapsing to your knees and crying to yourself. You feel a pair of arms wrapping around you tightly telling you it was going to be okay. You knew that voice, but it wasn't the voice you wanted to hear.

Covering your face, you lean your head towards Sicheng's chest while he holds you.

"Let's go to you place and talk okay?" he says rubbing circles on your back. All you could do is nod and keep your tears at bay, while he drives you home.

You sit on your couch while Sicheng makes you tea. Nothing in your mind made any sense. You were certain Jaehyun was your soulmate. It was far from a coincidence that you ran into the elderly couple along with you couldn't stop thinking about him. There's that saying that says 'nothing is ever a coincidence, so how is it, you're in your apartment with a broken heart and he's with someone else right now? It doesn't make sense.

Sicheng sets your tea down on the coffee table and studies you before asking the inevitable, "It's about Jaehyun isn't it?"

You nod too afraid your voice will give you away.

"Is he ... your soulmate?"

You take a deep breath and think over your next words, "I thought he was. Now I know he's not." As soon as the words left your mouth, your voice cracks and you begin to cry.

If there is anything Sicheng hates more than ever, it's seeing you hurt and crying. You're a caring person who always puts others before yourself and you have a big heart. Out of all the women he has dated, you were the only one he maintained to have a close friendship with.

He sits next to you wrapping his arms around you and bringing you close to him once again letting you cry harder. "I don't get it. I was so certain."

"Does he know?"

"I doubt it. I was going to tell him tonight. Earlier today, I met this cute couple and they reminded me so much of Jaehyun and I, and I said to myself, "I can see myself growing old with Jaehyun just like them." I tried to push it out of my mind but every time I close my eyes, all the memories coming flooding back. I texted him to meet me at the park and he never showed up, so that's when I went to the house and found him -" you stop because you were about to cry again.

"With someone else." he finishes for you. You wish you could take the image of his naked body on top of another girl out of your mind.

"Do you think you'll ever tell him?"

"I don't think so. I mean look at our history. It doesn't say anywhere in the timeline, "hey Jaehyun I've been in love with since the day we met and I'm sure you're my soulmate because of a story I heard, but let's see first."" you say sarcastically.

You take a deep breath to regain your composure, "You want to know what the sucker part is? For the past two days, I've been asking myself why did it have to be him? Why couldn't it be Minho, Nick, or you. Why did it have to him?"

He squeezes your arms to acknowledge your feelings, "Have you thought about what you're going to do with the connection?"

That thought never crossed your mind and you don't want to think about saying goodbye to Jaehyun for good. Life wouldn't be the same anymore.

You feel more tears prick your eyes and begin to fall, "This hurts so much Win."

"I know it does. It hurts because you care about him whether you tell everyone and yourself you hate him. Everyone in the room can see how much alike you two are and care about each other. And while we're on the topic of everyone, we all know there was something going on between you two." You pick your head off his shoulder with wide eyes and about to protest.

"Don't look so surprise," he chuckles. "both of you aren't that great at hiding your affection in public."

You groan loudly, "Don't lecture me now Sich." You lay your head back on his shoulder as he continues.

"As I was saying, sometimes in life, we can't always understand what our purpose is or why we're link to certain people. We can't always figure out why we keep thinking about them or keep going back to them when deep down we know it's unhealthy. However, I do know, every person that comes into our lives are there for a reason and a lesson. It's life. Life will throw challenges our way and it's up to us to decide what to do. You're a fighter Y/N and when you believe in something, you make sure it happens. You have the biggest heart I know and when you love, God, you love so hard. I know because I was able to experience that side of you. Right now, you're hurting because you're truly in love with him."

Sicheng always had a way with his words and right now they were hitting you deep. You squeeze his middle tighter, "What if he doesn't feel the same and it's all in my head? What if-"

"I'm going to stop you there. I know Jaehyun and I know you. You don't see it now, but you're both the same. You try to hide any sort of real emotion as soon as you feel it because you don't want to get hurt, so you deflect all the time. Have you ever wondered why you always joke when something said is true? He would have to be an idiot to not feel the same way, or if he does and doesn't act on it, then it's his lost."

"What should I do?" you whisper, scared to hear what he'll say.

"For tonight, sleep. Take the next couple of days for yourself and think what you want to do. If you want to remove the connection, I will support you. If you decide you need more time and see where it goes, I'll support you."

"Thank you."

"I'm always here for you Y/N. Now get some sleep."

That night you fell asleep with confusion, heartache, and a dash of hopefulness.

The following week, rumors had circulated around campus that heartthrob Jeong Jaehyun has finally met his soulmate. You heard the whispers of various stories of him sneaking out late at night to hang out with his girlfriend or they were ditching class together. Everyone speculated when they met when you overheard a group of girls say he hasn't been flirting with anyone for a month. Even your friends mentioned he was bailing out on their plans and parties.

You've tried to ignore the talks, but in the end, it only broke you heart more.

You were hanging out with Sicheng, Johnny, Mark and Haru at an ice cream parlor you used to go with Jaehyun after late night drives. As you sit in the round booth laughing at something Johnny said, you hear the bell ring. Your eyes wanders to the door to see a those deep dimples you've come to love. You look away just in time before he looks your way.

Jaehyun's legs carry him over to your table when his eyes light up from seeing you laugh. He hasn't seen you since that night you caught him in the middle of having sex with another girl. He knows he should talk to you, but he had been busy.

"Hey guys." Jaehyun says timidly interrupting the moment. His gaze never leaving your face.

Everyone around the table is shock to see him given that he's been MIA for weeks.

"Hey dude. It's good seeing you man." Mark says giving the older a fist bump.

Before Jaehyun could reply, a girl with pink hair comes up to him wrapping her arm around his. You recognize her as the school's cheerleading captain.

"There you are baby." Rose says cheekily.

Jaehyun gives her a small smile before turning to face your table. "I guess this is the perfect time to announce something important."

"What is it?" Johnny says looking between the two. Sicheng, who sat by your side, notice how tense your body become.

"You've probably heard about the rumors around school and I just want to say that it's true. Rose and I and dating and -"

"And we're soulmates!" she cuts him off smiling widely and tugging his arms tighter.

Your heart instantly drops to the pit of your stomach and you do everything to keep your tears at bay. Congratulations are said until Mark tells the couple to join you all. Johnny and Mark scoot over as the new happy couple take the invitation with Jaehyun sitting directly in front of you.

Soon everyone's orders come and you share yours with Sicheng. He whispers in your ear asking if you were okay and you gave him a small smile and a nod. Jaehyun sees the interaction and looks down to see you sharing your favorite banana split with him. That was your thing together and he couldn't help but feel jealous. He knows he shouldn't because he's with Rose. He realizes things are different now because he finally found his soulmate in Rose.

For the rest of the night, you put on a fake smile, laugh, and talk to Sicheng, trying not to interact with the new couple. The next day, they made it official in front of the entire school and you spend the rest of your day crying on your bed.

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It's been a month since Jaehyun and Rose have been together and every day was a nightmare for you. You did everything to avoid him by changing your routine to school and class. You were hardly at the frat house anymore and did your best to avoid all the place you've been to together. No matter what, you couldn't get away from his scent, the clothes that still sits in your closet untouched, or the memories you made in every inch of your apartment. Everywhere you look you're reminded of the happier moments with him.

You wish you could go back to hating him, but no matter how hard you try, the love you have for him outgrew the hatred that was once there.

A week after they went public, you made a consult appointment to the "soulmate" doctor to get more information on removing the connection. At the end of the consult, you're hit with the cold hard truth that once you get the connection removed, you'll no longer be attached to each other. It's like being wiped away from each other's lives. He'd be nonexistent in your world.

You went back and forth on your decision. If you break it, you'd be setting him free to be happy with Rose. There's also the other possibility that you'll never get another soulmate again. You wonder how you went through all of these years thinking you loved the idea of being alone forever just to feel miserable when you think life is granting you your wish.

Being with Jaehyun gave you a taste of what it feels like to be in love. To be loved and receive love back. You love the warm feeling of being wanted and cared for. Now, you just feel empty. Maybe it was for the best to let him go.

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In the last month Jaehyun and Rose were inseparable. He found himself ditching his friends to spend time with her at her house and cute dates. Being with Rose, he feels like he was on top of the world. He felt free and loves spoiling her because his heart truly belongs to her. If anyone asks him what his favorite part of the day is, he would say it's being with her in a heartbeat. She understood him and made him feel things he's never felt before.

He had a tiny crush on her during freshman orientation, but never approached her. Jeong Jaehyun shy of approaching his crush let alone a girl? Who would have known. When he saw her at the party a month ago, he finally had the courage to talk to her and brought her to his room, when you walked in on them. He knew he should have talked to you after sleeping with Rose and finding out they were soulmates, but he figured he didn't need to. You two weren't exclusive anyways.

One night he was lying in bed and staring at the ceiling. His mind wanders back to you like it does sometimes. He hasn't seen or talked to you in a while and when he tries to have a friendly conversation with you, he could feel the walls you've put up once again. Then you suddenly changed seats and he stopped coming to class.

He often wonders how you've been, if you've been taking mental breaks, if you've been eating and sleeping well. He wonders if you hate him again. He even notices the sudden shift in the atmosphere whenever he was around your group of mutual friends. No one would mention your name around him and if he asks, he found himself being disappointed you weren't coming. He know things are changing, but he didn't mind it one bit as long as Rose was by his side.

Jaehyun turns to night stand to turn off the light when he notice what appears to be a small clear line on his fourth finger.

He gasp in shock, "It can't be." He's heard about stories of finding your connection with your soulmate and now he is experiencing it. It just confirms that he and Rose are indeed soulmates. He fell asleep that night excited for what the future holds for the couple.

He and Rose were sitting on the couch watching a movie when he grabs her left hand and holds it. He examines her hand, specifically her fourth finger, only to find no clear line. He's confused, but thought nothing of it. He figures it would take time for the mark to show up, but a week later, it still wasn't there.

Jaehyun walks into the kitchen to grab something to drink when hee sees Mark, Jungwoo, Sicheng, Yuta, and Johnny sitting at the table. They all stop talking as soon as they see Jaehyun by the door. He doesn't like the feeling his friends have been giving him, then again, he did blow them off for the last month to be with Rose.

"Hey guys." he says shrugging off the look Sicheng is giving him.

"Look who's finally home. We haven't seen you in a minute." Yuta says sarcastically.

"Yeah, sorry about that. Rose is at practice, so I came home to take a quick nap." He takes a sip of water trying not to be awkward with his friends.

"Speaking of Rose, since you're in a relationship now, why don't we go on a group date like last time?" Johnny suggests trying to break the tension in the air.

"Oh dude yeah! That was so much fun!" Mark and Jaehyun agree with the plan.

The group date was the next night and it was déjà vu. They went to the same restaurant when Jaehyun and you were still single, follow by going to the Han River. Everything about tonight reminds him of you. The sex in the bathroom, the gazing stares, sex in the car, and everything that has happened since that night.

He misses you and everything about you.

"Alright class, I hope your final project is coming along great. I am expecting good results. You all had three months to do this and it's due next week. You may go now."

Shit. Jaehyun completely forgotten about the project you two were supposed to work on. He hasn't talked to you in nearly a month and has no idea if you were done with the photos. Jaehyun gets up from his chair when Professor Choi calls him over. Once the last few people empty the room, Professor Choi looks at him

"How are you doing Jaehyun?"

"Um, pretty good for the most part. Can't complain much sir." he gives him a cheesy smile.

"That's great to hear. Listen have you talked to Y/N?"

Y/N? Did something happen to you? No, our friends would have said something to me.

"Um, it's been a while. We've both been busy lately."

"I see. Okay, well I hate to be the one to tell you this, but I talked to her this morning and unfortunately you're both on your own for this project."

Wait what!?

Jaehyun clears his throat, "Did she say why?"

"She was pulled away for a family emergency, but she did say you both have enough photos to finish the project separately. I know it's sudden, but I have faith in you Jaehyun. Just thought I'd let you know in case you didn't. You may go now."

Jaehyun stood there like a brick wall letting his brain register the information and on autopilot, he bids his goodbyes and walks out the door.

Why didn't anyone told him about your situation? Better yet, why didn't you tell him about your situation instead of Professor Choi making him look like an idiot. You two were friends, or so he thought you were. Jaehyun's mind wanders to different scenarios, but disregard them when he finds himself standing in front of Lee's Bookstore.

He wanders inside and glazes over the books until he accidentally bumps into an older woman.

"Oh I'm so sorry ma'am." he bows in respect.

"Oh no worries dear. These books can be so mesmerizing." she gives him a soft smile.

Just before Jaehyun can say his apologies once more, an older man walks up to you both. "There you are sunshine. I've been looking for you. I should have known you'd be here instead of the cafe." He kisses the woman and gives her a look full of love. Jaehyun thought they were cute and blushes at the thought of him and Rose growing old like them one day.

"You two are very cute together. May I ask how long you two have been together?"

"Ah, well son, we've been together our entire lives -"

"We just didn't know it at the time." his wife interjects.

"Yes, let's just say we weren't nice to each other. We basically hated each other until one day, we just didn't." He smiles down at her and gives her a longing look.

"How did you know you were meant to be?" Jaehyun asks curiously.

"Well, when we got together, it wasn't by nature per say. We forced ourselves to be civil with one another for the sake of our friends. Then we started hanging out more and surely, we fell in love. I was in denial, so when I tried to move on with another person, I started to hear her thoughts." the older man laughs.

"At first, I thought I was going insane, but it was her voice and I could hear everything she was thinking of. I kept this secret at first and most of them time I was intrigued, but what made me realize I love her was what she thought about me. It was then that I found out that she loved me back. I promise myself that I would do everything in my power to get her back and I'm so glad I did." He hugs her as she wipes a tear away.

They sound exactly like -

"So you hated each other then loved each other?" Jaehyun accidentally says his thoughts aloud.

"Yes dear. He's my soulmate." She turns to look at Jaehyun and ask him, "How did you and your soulmate meet?"

He's taken aback by her sudden question and scratch the back of his neck, "We met during freshman orientation, but recently just found each other again." Jaehyun smiles when he remembers the night of the party.

"Oh young love. Please do tell us more if you don't mind sweetie."

Jaehyun chuckles, "Alright. Well we just reconnected at a house party and we clicked. We've only been dating for a month, but I have this mark show up just a week ago." He shows them the clear line on his finger.

"Ah oh my. What was her reaction when she also found her mark? I remember telling my husband I was weirded out by hearing his voice in my head."

Everyone laughs when Jaehyun speaks up, "She doesn't have it, but I mean maybe it just takes time to show up."

The couple share a knowing look and look at Jaehyun with sympathy who looks back at them confused, "What is it?"

"Son I don't mean to burst your bubble, but soulmate marks usually show up at the same time or when someone is willing to let their soulmate go." The husband says.

"But that doesn't mean she's not your soulmate either darling. Maybe hers is just taking a little more time. Sometimes when one person is really in love, their mark shows up quickly." she smiles at him.

"I hope you have your happy ending dear. Oh and speaking of happy endings, we told this young lady once, I think a month ago about our story. Oh what was her name honey?" She snaps her fingers as she tries to search her memory for the name. "Ah! Y/N. That was her name. It's such a beautiful name. Oh how my heart broke for her. She was ecstatic, but I could tell she was so confused about this boy she was seeing. I hope she had her happy ending."

Y/N? My Y/N?

"Do you remember what she looked like?"

She describes your features from your hair color, face structure, and even the clothes you were wearing that day. Jaehyun couldn't believe that she was describing you. Taken aback, Jaehyun quickly says his thank you's and bids them goodbye.

That night, he laid in bed thinking about you and the couple's story. Their story was exactly like his story with you. He always thought about you, but tonight was different. He remembers the nights you two shared the same bed. He remembers the pillow talks and little games you two used to play. He remembers you would dance and sing out of nowhere and he would join you.

He remembers your smile and laugh whenever he made a joke or simply looking at you. He remembers the long night talks on the phone or texting each other all day if you didn't see each other. He remembers every little thing about you.

Jaehyun tries to think of Rose and how he makes him feel, but after five minutes, he's come to the conclusion that what he feels for her, isn't the same way he felt when he was with you.

This is so stupid. Rose is my soulmate. Not Y/N.

Jaehyun swipes his phone open and opens the gallery app. He doesn't know why he's looking at photos taken from the lake you dragged him to. He comes across the photo he secretly took of you overlooking the lake with a smile on your face. The sun was just coming up and hitting your skin beautifully. He scrolls more and looks at the selfies you took together a bit longer. Then he sees it.

It's a photo of you holding out your left hand to make him stop taking photos of you. He zooms in focusing on your fourth finger and sees the clear line.

"It can't be." He zooms in closer making sure he isn't seeing things, but it was clearly there. He looks at other photos, focusing on your left hand and it's the same mark as his. Jaehyun remembers what the couple told him earlier.

“Son, I don’t mean to burst your bubble, but soulmate signs usually show up at the same time or when someone is willing to let their soulmate go.” “… not all stories have the same signs. Sometimes when one person is really in love, their marks shows up quickly.”

His mind flashes back to the day you met at seven years old and hated each other out of the gates. His mind plays everything like a montage of you both growing up, but one memory sticks out in his mind. He remembers always looking at you from afar. During lunch in high school, he had the perfect view of where you sat with your friends. His eyes would always skim over to where you were and as hard as he tried to stop looking at you, your smile was what always brought him back.

He never meant to sleep with you that night two months ago, it just happened. Both of you tried to stop, but couldn't. All of these memories of your time together comes rushing back in waves. Jaehyun was so overwhelm, he decides to go down for fresh air.

He sees Sicheng and Johnny sitting outside on the porch and accidentally overhears a little bit of their conversation.

"Did she say when her appointment is?" Johnny asks.

"In two days, but I think she's lying. For all I know, she could have done it today or tomorrow. I hate seeing her in so much pain Johnny. It's not fair to her." Sicheng sighs sadly.

Jaehyun doesn't need to ask who they're talking about because he already knew. He needed to get to the bottom of this now. He clears his throat and the two men look behind them to see Jaehyun standing there awkwardly. Johnny gets up, giving the younger a soft pat on the shoulder before sitting next to Sicheng.

It's quiet for a moment before Jaehyun speaks up first, "I'm sorry for being an ass for the last month. I'm more sorry for hurting Y/N."

"It's not me who you should be apologizing to Jaehyun."

"I know, but I know she talks to you and you two are close. I don't blame you if you also hate me too." he says sadly.

Sicheng sighs, "You know you're really dense sometimes, but I will tell you exactly what I told her. You both are the same even if you don't realize it. You really hurt her."

"How is she?"

"She's ... doing better for the most part."

"What happened to her family? Professor Choi said that she was pulled away for a family emergency."

When Sicheng doesn't say anything, he turns to look at his friend who looks like he's arguing with himself. "What is it?"

"She - There's." Sicheng sighs frustratingly. He really hates being the middleman. "She doesn't have a family emergency. She's getting the connection removed." he confess quietly.

Jaehyun's heart plummets to his stomach making it hard for him to breathe. So you did know about the connection, yet, you never told him. He never had the chance to decide because you've taken that opportunity away from him.

"That's what Johnny and I were talking about before you came. As your friend, I am telling you this, if you don't love her the same way she loves you, please let her go."

"But I do love her." Jaehyun whispers keeping his tear at bay and also coming to this realization. "I love her so much Sich and I was stupid to not see it soon enough. We both didn't believe in this soulmate shit to begin with, that it wasn't meant for us, but now? I can't stop thinking about her and it hurts that she ignores me even though I know I deserve it." Jaehyun feels a tear drop and silently cries.

Sicheng knows Jaehyun never shows any sort of emotions and keeps everything buried deep down, but as soon as he hears his friend sniffles, he knows Jaehyun really loves you. He pats Jaehyun's back and lets him cry it out.

"What should I do?" Jaehyun asks the obvious.

"I think you know what to do Jay. You've always known." Jaehyun nods and thank his friend for letting him talk and apologize.

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The next morning, Jaehyun asks Rose is he could come over and talk to her. In less than ten minutes, he was at her front door and broke the news to her. He expected her to cry and yell, instead, she was calm and understanding.

"It's okay Jay. If I'm being honest, I've had a hunch since our second week together. You were always semi distracted, but I was in denial at the time." Rose holds his hand giving it a squeeze.

"I'm sorry. You don't deserve this."

"Jay, listen to me. You're fine. My soulmate is out there somewhere waiting for me. Go find yours and from what it sounds like, you already know who it is."

Jaehyun gives her a soft smile in return and both part ways with a 'see you around.'

Since leaving Rose's play, he made it his mission to find you, except you were hard to find. He's been trying to reach you for majority of the morning, but you never answered any of his calls or texts. He stopped by your place to see if you were home, but as expected, no one answered the door.

He looks in the places you had dragged him to and still, you were nowhere to be found. He starts to panic when his friends said they don't know where you've been or gone to. Jaehyun wanders around campus hoping to see you.

He finally sees Lisa and Ten heading to their usual hang out spot. He runs up to the couple and tries to catch his breath, "Have you seen Y/N?"

Lisa gives him the same look she has given him for an entire month and snaps, "Why do you want to suddenly know where she is? It's not your place to ask."

"Babe -"

"No. He doesn't get to ask about her after the way he treated her and pushed her to the side. She's my best friend and you really hurt her Jaehyun."

"I know and I'm sorry. I need to tell her I'm sorry before it's too late."

"No -"

"Lisa please. I realize now how much of a jerk I've been and I regret it. I regret everything except for one thing. Please." He pleads with he as he shows her the mark on his fourth finger.

Lisa saw the same mark on yours after you had told her everything that happened between you and Jaehyun. Lisa knows you miss Jaehyun and she could see the panic in his eyes are the same ones you wore when you found out about him and Rose.

Taking a deep breath, she gives in. "She said something about going to clear her head. I don't know where that is though." Jaehyun's eyes spark in hope and excitement. He gives them a big hug. "Thank you."

He runs to his car and drives to the only place you go to clear your head. The lake. He hopes to the universe, he isn't too late.

Jaehyun arrives at the lake in less than two hours after speeding like a lightning bolt. He parks his car, not caring if he locked his doors or not and runs on the familiar path.

"Jesus, why did she have to choose a place with hiking trails." he huffs out making sure he doesn't lose his footing while also trying to rush to you.

Finally reaching the top, he takes a second to take in the beautiful view of the lake and the wind blowing over his face. He scans the ground and his eye catches a figure standing by the lake. Jaehyun's heart leaps and rushes down the trail to run towards the figure. He slows down once he realizes it's not you.

His heart sinks once again. He looks to his left, right, do a 360, and you were nowhere to be seen. Jaehyun lets out a choke and feel the tears begin to fall. He lets out all of his emotion as he concludes that he's lost you forever.

He takes one last look at the view before turning around. His breath hitches, his heart stops, his are wide when he sees you standing there in front of him. Your eyes big as his. He could tell you look nervous or was it surprise? He takes in your features and his heart begins to speed up. How could he have been so oblivious that it's always been you all this time.

"Y/N."

"What are you doing here?" You couldn't comprehend he was really here in your safe place.

Why is he here?

Just minutes before, Lisa called you mentioning something regarding Jaehyun. Before you could ask her to repeat it, the call dropped. You haven't seen him in a month and your heart beats faster than ever now that he's in front of you. The visible tears and pink nose tells you he had just been crying.

"I have something to tell you."

"Ja-"

"Please let me say what I need to say Y/N. If you don't like what you hear, then you can leave and I will leave you alone." You nod for him to continue intrigued by what he wanted to say.

He takes one cautious step forward and takes a deep breath, "You're annoying to the point I can't stand you."

Your jaw drops in complete blindside, "Excuse me? You-"

"You've always pertain yourself to be this perfect girl and for that you're annoying. I hate that I can't get your stupid smile out of my head after we fight. I hate that I hear your voice whenever you're not around to the point I think I need to be checked in. I hate the way you stand there looking at nothing and look beautiful without even trying. Even without makeup and your hair in a bun, you still look beautiful. I hate that you don't put up with my bullshit because you can see right through me. I hate when you laugh because fuck I swear I get butterflies in my stomach. I hate that you laugh at my lame jokes, when they're not that funny to begin with."

He takes another step closer as you stay frozen in your spot, "I hate that I think of you whenever I'm with Rose or with our friends. If I'm at a party, on a date, or group date, my mind always wanders back to you. I hate when I'm not around you I feel this sense that something is missing in my life. I hate when I'm alone in bed it's cold and quiet because you're not next to me. I hate that I find myself walking into stores we've been to together. I hate that I can't even listen to the songs or movies we used to watch because it doesn't feel right."

You both have tears in your eyes, but he pushes through. "I hate that I was the one who broke your heart when I ran away from you and my feelings. I'm so sorry I didn't see it sooner and I'm sorry I stood you up that night when you asked to meet at the park. I'm sorry for being a coward and not talking to you after I got with Rose. I shouldn't have done any of that, but I was scared. I thought I was doing the right thing. I was scared that it was just me feeling all of these emotions and you were in it for the fun, but now I see it. I see and understand what people say about their soulmate."

He doesn't know when he got close to you all of a sudden. He looks down at your hands and holds them. He can see the line on your fourth finger matching his. He looks at you and wipes away your tears. "I'm sorry it took me so long to say this and I hope you can forgive me. I'm in love with you. I love you. I have always loved you since the first time we met." He caresses your cheek as more tears begin to fall.

"I love everything about you, even the ones you don't like about yourself. I love you and I mean it. I can't see myself falling in love with any other that isn't you. I know I may be late, but I'm hoping this changes your mind. If you don't feel the same way or if you feel like we can't come back from this, I won't push it. I'll accept whatever truth and reality may come. But I just want you to know I love you so much Y/N."

When he doesn't say anything else, you find it hard to find your voice.

"Please say something."

You gulp the lump in your throat and look into his eyes, "I have an appointment today." Jaehyun's heart shatters and he feels his heart is about to explode. He feel his eyes begin to sting once again but prevents them from falling.

You want to yell at him and tell him to fuck off. You want to push him away, but you can't find it in you to do so.

"Please Y/N -"

"I hate that I can't stop thinking about you even when you're a jerk to me. I hate that I can't hate you because I'm in love with you too."

Jaehyun's heart slows down and beats faster at the same time. You smile up at him making him smile so wide, his whiskers shows. He leans down, cupping your face and putting a strand of hair behind your ear and kisses you passionately.

Everything in that moment slows down. Nothing else in the world matters, except for your rapid beating hearts beating as one.

No more confusions, no more games, no more running. You were both coming to terms that you're destined to be with each other.

"I'm sorry." he whispers against your lips.

"You should be asshole, but I'm sorry too."

"No more running." His forehead touches yours as you close your eyes and share the air between you.

"No more running. Jay?"

"Yes, my love."

"I don't want us to change how we were before. It's what made us, us." He opens his eyes, backing his head back and looks at you with a smile.

"Me neither." He wraps his strong arms around you and pulls you closer to him. "Big head."

You couldn't help but laugh at his remark, "Okay, bigger head."

"Thanks. I know it's massive." he smirks. You smack his chest lightly as you both laugh.

"Forget it. I'm not doing this with you."

His arms wrap tighter around you as you both face the setting sun and take in this moment. The moment where the love of your life confesses his love for you and the safety of being in his arms.

"I love you Jaehyun."

"I love you too Y/N."

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"Next we have Jaehyun and Y/N." You both make your way to the front of the class and while he is putting in the USB to bring up the PowerPoint, you begin presenting.

Jaehyun was in charge of rearranging the slides and photos, while you were in charge of what to say about each piece.

In the middle of your presentation, you look up at the projector and the photos on the screen take you by surprise. There were photos taken when you both were kids, starting from when you were born to you both sharing the same class, high school photos, photos you've taken at the start of this project, and ending with a photo of you both in bed smiling happily.

It was your love story and Jaehyun wasn't shy to express how much he loves you.

"In photos, time is forever frozen. The moment you hear the click and take the photo, you have memories of what you were feeling in that moment of time. You can't reproduce that moment as it becomes nothing but a memory and a photo for reference. We solely take photos to tell a story and keep those memories alive." Jaehyun looks at you with nothing but loving and adoring eyes as you stay there lost for words.

"And this is the story of how we fell in love."

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A/N: Phew! She's finally here! If you made it this far, thank you so much for reading! This is the most I've ever written. I think I'll go into hibernation until next year, just kidding. Also Sticker and Lemonade Jaehyun made me go the extra mile hehe. I've had this idea since early April and wasn't sure how to write it because there so much in the plot. I thought to myself, let's write a story with all my tropes - enemies to lovers, fwb to lovers, and soulmates au. To top it off, I also thought, instead of fwb lets make it enemies with benefits, and well we got this lol. The confession was inspired by one of my favorite movies '10 Things I Hate About You' and thought it'd be perfect for this fic. For those who have been waiting for this fic, thank you for waiting patiently. It's been a fun and wild ride and I loved writing this fic. I hope you enjoyed reading my work and please leave feedback. <3

[hyuckstunaroll]

12 days of Christmas

PART 1

PAIRING | Taeil x fem reader

GENRE |smut, fluff

WARNING| cuffing, oral sex (female receiver), slight burn, gentle sex.

A/n: hello sorry for the delay I was just really confused on the whole series. Thank you for waiting. But enjoy ig!!

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Finally its the week before Christmas and your flight had landed 20 minutes ago. Now your just standing outside the airport waiting for one of the boys to pick you up. “Where are these idiots?” You say under your breath wrapping your arms around your freezing figure.

It’s almost leaning to half an hour, when a car pulls up in front of you. Window rolling down to catch your eyes on the beautiful smile appearing on the boys face. “TAEIL” you scream as you watch him hop out of the car and pulling you into a tight hug.

You nuzzle your head into his warm chest. Inhaling his scent . “Do I smell bad?” He asks questioning to why you keep sniffing his warm sweater. “Not at all, you actually smell like cookies” you say giving him a warm smile as you look up to him and letting go when you see him shivering around you.

“Come on little one” he says chuckling. You’re little inside joke nickname slipping out of his mouth. “Little one”, the nickname he gave you since you were kids. Making you jokingly mad. “YAH I’m not little anymore old man” hopping into the car with a pout on your face.

“Oh sorry “pretty girl” I didn’t mean to say that” a smile sticks to his face like a sticker. (Pun intended)

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The drive was quite long. You look over to Taeil who’s face was focusing on the empty roads. You couldn’t help but to admire his face. Looking at his brown locks falling over his forehead and his smooth skin shining under the sunsets light.

“Take a photo if your gonna stare that long” he’s snaps you back to reality. Without thinking twice you turn to your window instantly trying to hide your red cheeks. Covering them with your hands.

“Sorry” your quick apology making him chuckle.

That’s all you said until he stopped in an empty carpark. Worrying you.

“Taeil, what’s wrong?” You said looking around the empty scenery.

But he just stares at you pulling his lips forming a tight smile as he puts your hands into his and rubs small circles into the back of your hands.

“I want you to be honest with me, ok?” Looking into your eyes.

Your face instantly drops, afraid of the next word to drop from him mouth. You just nod slightly looking down at his hands wrapped around yours.

“…Do you wanna do this roulette?” He pulls your chin up to look at him.

You couldn’t help but sigh when a wave of relief washed over you.

“Well…at first no not really. I’m really scared that this could ruin things and that my life could be just going in circles.” You find yourself tearing up a bit which makes Taeil grab ahold of you, pulling you into a hug.

“You don’t have to if you don’t want you. I will even tell the boys if you don’t want to. Just be honest. Do you wanna do this?” He assures you.

But as for now you couldn’t do anything but think about the boys. Taeyong was right, am I selfish? Will I ever get over them? I really wanna have sex….wait wtf

You snuggled up more into Taeil and slowly nod which puts a small smile on his face.

“Really? You would?” He said a bit excitedly. Pulling you chest close to his.

“Only if your the first one to be get with?” You asked waiting for his answer and all he does is say a simple “sure” but to your surprise he just starts the car and tells you that they could start tonight since the boys are probably waiting impatiently.

That’s what you loved about Taeil. He’s such a gentlemen and puts everyone he loves in front of himself. It worries you to see him being selfless but he always assures you that he’s just trying to be the one to look after everyone since he’s the oldest one in the house. He also takes responsibility for the group when their drunk or getting into fights. Which turns you on a bit to see him taking control.

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The drive wasn’t long from your last destination. Which was a relief but as you got back to the old house you could see eyes peeking through the curtains which you couldn’t help but to laugh at.

As you got out the car you saw a big figure who turned out to be Haechan running out the door and straight to you. He wraps his arms around your waist. Leaning your back against the car as you slide your hands around his neck. “Haechan!!” You squeal while the rest of the boys come running behind him pulling you off the car and pulling you to a group hug.

“We missed your pretty face” jaehyun says hugging you last and wrapping his arm around your waist as you all walk into the house. “Is that all you miss about me?” you pout sarcastically.

“Oh and your tits” jaehyun replies getting instant karma from you slapping the back of his head.

As they all sit down you take a seat next to Taeil who had just finished making hot chocolate for everyone. You snuggle up next to him seeing all the jealous eyes as if Taeil was prey.

“Calm down you dogs. I don’t know why you guys are glaring, we’re just cuddling” you say causing them to look away and divide into their own seperate conversations.

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Taeil suggested you to do lights with since he knows the boys will just ruin everything.

“These lights are beautiful” you say hyping him up since he only brought a small amount of lights making the room look a bit boring.

“Thanks y/n I think you shine brighter though” he cringes at himself.

He brings you closer to him, wrapping his arm around you and leaning down a bit. “Can I kiss you?” He asks shyly waiting for your answer. But you didn’t reply. Instead you brought yourself onto your heels and pressed your lips to his.

His lips were soft and warm that you thought that you’d never wanna leave his lips again. You squirmed under him tilting your head for the kiss to become deeper. His hands grip tighter on your hips. “ jump” he groans into your mouth and pulls you up slightly to wrap your legs around his waist.

He pulls off to see his tracks to his room. You stare at him smiling and leaning into his neck and planting small kisses. He then pushes you onto his bed pulling your legs down a bit for your legs to hang off the bed.

You push yourself onto your elbows to look down at him as he gets in between your legs holding your thighs.

“Taeil please” you beg under his touch. He unzips your pants and pull them down along with your lace panties, leaving them wrapped around your ankles. “Oh your so sweet pretty girl. You’re so wet. Did I do this to you?” He says, looking at you teasingly.

“Yes” you sputter out quickly needing him . “Taeil please hurry” you pull your legs up throwing them over his head. The fabric of your pants and panties thrown at the back of his head.

“Since you asked nicely.” He leans in taking one long lick up your wet slit. You jerk up at his wet muscle touching you. It didn’t take him long to take long licks up your core.

Not long after he shoves two of his fingers into your mouth. “Suck” he orders. You didn’t hesitate at all. You sucks his fingers almost ruining his blood circulation in his fingers. He pulls them out with saliva following off his hands and pulls to rub your small hole.

He slowly pushes them in at the same times watching your eyebrows furrow and mouth hang open. Taeil didn’t start slow at all. His pace fastening at each moan that slipped out your mouth. “Taeil..I’m close please go faste-“ not letting you finish your sentence he speeds up his pace and sucks on your clit harshly. You scream at his actions, arching you back and your legs trembling on his shoulders.

He holds your legs down with his free hand. He groans against your core causing your chest to rise. “F-FUCK IM C-CUMMING…FUCK YES.”

This doesn’t stop but makes him slow down his pace a bit to let you ride out your orgasm.

He pulls away with strings of cum on his lips down to his chin. The sight was ethical and unreal. You smile down at him and sit up with his help.

“Do you always make girls feel this good?”

“No, I never go down on girls but you have a special place in my heart” he cringes at his words.

In no time you pull him up and push him so that your on top of him. You slowly kiss down his neck and tug on his shirt for him to take off.

He signals you to do the same with your top and bra leaving your bare on top of him.

He leans forward pushing off the mattress and grips your breast softly needing them and leaning up to suck on one. He sucks your left nipple harshly and needs the other one with his hand.

You push him back softly. His back hitting the bed once again. “Wait” he says pushing you off him gently, sitting on his bed fully naked.

He jumps up shirtless and runs to the living room. He comes back but this time with a string of lights.

“Yo-your not putting that around my neck Taeil. I’d like to make it to my 30s and possibly have a sugar daddy.” Your get a chuckle out of him.

“Of course I’m not I’m not stupid y/n” he steps closer to you.

“Just turn over. Head down, ass up” he orders you again.

Seeing Taeil like this makes you fall for him more and listen to his directions.

You turn your head to the side making sure you will be able to breathe.

He then grabs your hands to pull behind your back. “You ok?” He makes sure your ok. You nod lifting your ass up asking for him to do something quickly.

You feel the rope of the lights wrap around your wrists making a tie around it and harshly tugging it tight. You groan at the slight pain.

You hear Taeil hop off the bed and quickly slide his pants down along with his boxers. “Look baby, look how hard you made me”

You turned your head moaning at the beautiful sight.

He quickly spits in his hand and strokes his dick slowly before lining up with your cunt.

He slides his dick up and and down your slit. He then slides in, in one swift move. Both moaning at the sudden feeling.

“FUCK tae-“ you get cut off when he pushes your head more into the pillows. Grabbing onto the lights tight. His other hand grips your waist tightly before rapidly fucking into you.

“Shit your a tight little girl” he moans while looking at the sight of his dick moving in and out of your cunt.

“Please tae fuck me harder..” you drag the r at the end of your sentence.

He pulled out leaving you to feel empty. He untied the lights “hold on to the sheets for me baby”. He placed both hands onto your hip and lined up with your small hole. He then slammed back in almost cutting your air ways.

“AHHHHHH TAE-“ ignoring your screams, he fastens his pace.

“Fuck, I thought you’d be stretched by now” his hips not stopping.

“PLEASE IM GOING T-TO CUM” you pleaded. “Me too baby cum with my please” he replies.

“OH SHIT CUM NOW BABY, Cum.” His hips stuttering as your legs shake releasing on his creamed cock.

He still stoking inside you to ride out your orgasms. Leaning on your back, tired.

He lays next to you bringing you into him. His body a bit sweaty. Kissing you like there was no tomorrow.

“Let’s get you cleaned up” he stand to pick you up and take you into his own bathroom….letting round two to be taken by your own imagination.

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The next morning you had woken up in Taeil’s arms wrapped around your waist.

You didn’t wanna wake him up so you slip through his arms kissing his temple gently. Which only wakes him up smh.

“Morning beautiful” complementing you.

“You guys really need to raise your standards if you guys call me beautiful looking like this.”

He just chuckles standing your limping legs up and taking you to the kitchen to where you see everyone awake.

“Your all awake early”

“It’s going on to two o’clock dumbass” Jae says mockingly.

“ yeah Morning “pretty girl” yuta says teasingly causing you to lean on him and slap his back.

You look around figuring out who was missing since only 8 of them were surrounding the kitchen island. You realise Taeyong wasn’t there.

“Where’s Taeyong?” You ask

“ he’s gone on a breakfast date with some girl.”

You don’t know why but those words had seemed to piss you off. But once Haechan comes behind you taking you away from yuta and Taeil, back hugging you with his hair everywhere your shoulders seemed to relax in his touch.

Turning around. You put your head in the crook of his neck, feeling the heat of his skin. “Good morning mrs y/n”

“Morning hyuck” you reply

“Are you having me tonight?” You asked him only to feel him shaking his head.

“It’s me” a voice speaks up

You look up to find out where the voice was coming from.

You see a big smile on a face of doyoung.

“I can’t wait” you wink at him. Causing him to panic and smile with wide eyes at Johnny. Everyone laughing at him.

Doyoung, we’ll you’ve never done anything more than just sexting with him. He’s always with his brother or fighting with Taeyong somewhere in the house. But what you loved about him is that he’s a hard dom in bed. He’s a freaky guy. He loves to put smile on people’s faces. He’s a bit sassy and he loves to entertain people with his voice. His mouth is very useful. His dirty talk turns you on. You just loved him.

Every guy had their strengths and you loved each one of their individual selves.

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“Look I don’t care if you don’t wanna do it, just be nice to her” Johnny says in a quiet room with another.

“This is wrong Johnny, you know this could ruin things between all of us right?” The other says

“Oh shut the fuck up. You’ve always wanted to get your dick wet from her. Now your all shy. When you wanna talk about something else come to me. I’m sick of you complaining.” Johnny says leaving the room.

The door slamming scares the other leaving him furious.

“Fuck i have stupid friends. But I really do want her to get on her knees for me.” The other says looking at all the photos around the room.

They grab the one of you and themselves while slowly pulling their dick out to stroke it softly.

Persons thought* what the fuck? Am I really doing this to her?…stop it. You only want your dick wet. But she’s so pretty. Fuck stop I’m gonna cum.

Oh shit did I just cum to a picture of her? Shit. Wtf am I thinking. That’s when-

“MILK, YUTA COME AND EAT YOU FUCKING WANKERS” Haechan screams on the other side of the door. Scaring everyone in the house.

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who was in that room? I guess we’ll find out soon. But for now their going to remain anonymous. Also who will y/n fall for. Will she even choose a guy.

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A/n: THANK YOU GUYS AGAIN. So sorry this was postponed but this was really rushed. I only had a small time to write this so it could be really bad. Please don’t be shy to share your opinions. I really want to improve. I LOVE YOU!! HAPPY HOLIDAYS ASWELL!!! Also this storyline is being made up as I go so please if it doesn’t make sense please bare with me lol. bye👋

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AYOOO ANYONE ELSE SEE THIS?!!!!!

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12 Days of Christmas

# TEASER 2

WARNING | fighting, mentions of death, cream pie, slow burn(ish) public sex, gangbang, masturbation, sex tapes, degrading, choking, violence,

GENRE | SMUT, fluffy-ish, friends-to-fuckbuddies.

RELEASE DATE | postponed - date will be released in next teaser.

Small synopsis | What happens when a group of your guy friends ask to have sex with you “12 days of Christmas” edition? Let’s find out. Having sex with 8 or 9 guys in less than two weeks? Sounds wrong, right? 8 of your hottest guy friends ask to have sex with you. Y/n l/n , A girl who can’t even get her drivers license or get her life on track properly cause she’s likes guys that don’t even know she exists.

…What could possibly go wrong?

A/N: I’m sorry if this isn’t that good lol I didn’t expect to have anyone see this. So I guess I gotta satisfy my small crowd.

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You turn off your phone in embarrassment after the call you just had with the boys though it was just suppose to be Taeyong. You balled your hand into fist and nudge your head a few times thinking it would help with the embarrassing moment you just had.

Thoughts running into your head as you crawled up into a ball and turning on your phone just to look at your wallpaper of your friend who you had recently lost 3 months ago. Moments past and a tear ran down your face slowly until you realised that this is just how life goes. It sucks and you knew it.

Well it wasn’t the first time you realised but it always went like this. You would cry and realise the important things in life and how you failed to miss them. You then knowingly continue to get drunk only to end up in one of your friends bed the next morning. You didn’t like how you coped with yourself though but you had no idea how to stop it this way. You missed your best friend but now that they were gone you wanted to cope somehow and that dumb idea was to sleep with other friends…just like you did with them “you’re best friend”.

You lay in bed thinking about the request you agreed to 20 minutes ago. It doesn’t leave your brain after a million times of trying to forget it . It’s basically carved into your brain. You decided to sleep it off but it wouldn’t budge. The thought of you sleeping with your hot guy friends who decided to cope the same way as you just made you wanna punch yourself until you knock the fuck out. This is bad right? I mean they thought of the idea... You get up to grab a glass of warm milk which you don’t usually do which you thought was weird.

You then decided to turn on a movie to help you sleep. Which partially helped since it was five in the morning and just then your eyes were slowly dropping as the seventh movie played.

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The next morning you wake up from a call. It’s Taeyong. This is how it goes…

“Morning sleeping beauty”

“Uhh I don’t think you would say that if you were right next to me tho”

“Hahahaha you’re always beautiful stop denying it”

You smile at his compliment

Look I just wanted to talk about your flight next week.

You calmly talked for about 10 minutes about the plan of you coming back to town next week. That’s until Taeyong reminds you about what they had discussed about last night with the boys. This was probably the best time to admit that you don’t wanna do it anymore right?

“Yonggieee” you whine softly

“What is it beautiful? ”

You’re small smile turning into a grin at his compliment.

“Yongie I don’t think I wanna do the roulette thing…sorry” you said quietly hoping you wouldn’t have to repeat yourself.

“What’s that?” He didn’t hear you clearly which makes you nervous.

“ I-I don’t wanna do the roulette thing” you say clearer than before. It goes silent until…

“WHAT?! ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS?!” It scares you but you take it well

“I said I don’t wanna do this”

“ WHAT THE ACTUALL FUCK. I BROUGHT THINGS FOR YOU JUST SO WE COULD HAVE MORE FUN AND YOU EVEN AGREED LAST NIGHT” He shouted loud enough for the nosy boys to hear from their own rooms.

“But Taeyong I’m not comfortable I was thinking about them last night…and I-” you get cut off

“ITS ALWAYS THEM, THEM, THEM CANT YOU FOCUS ON SOMETHING ELSE INSTEAD?! THEIR FUCKING GONE. THEIR NOT HERE FOR YOU OR US ANYMORE. HAVE YOU GONE MORE STUPID?! DID SOMEONE FUCK YOU DUMB? THEY WERE OUR FRIEND TOO!! IM GETTING SICK OF YOU THINKING THEY WERE ONLY THERE FOR YOU. CANT YOU SEE THEIR DEAD NOW?! THEIR NOT COMING BACK..” He argues at you causing you to get teary as well as himself.

“You don’t mean that Tae. You know how I am, I didn’t mean it like that-”

“Oh cut the bullshit y/n . We all know you do it to cope with it like us. once you get here you’ll be all over us.”

“No I won’t tae, why do you think so low of me…” you regret saying the last sentence knowing that he’s probably right.

He shakes his head and says “I gotta go. Also don’t think about calling me tonight go booty call the other guys.” He says as he hangs up before you could even say goodbye…

“Fuck” you say to yourself, thinking about what the possibilities of things going wrong because “the possibility of all those possibilities being possible is just another possibility that can possibly happen” You then feel yourself getting tearful and crawl back into bed crying yourself back to sleep….

A/N :THANKS TO THE PEOPLE WHO ARE REBLOGGING THIS PEICE OF SHIT!!! I’ll try to make you all happy and make it as smutty as possible. Don’t be shy to ask anything i’ll be happy with some help you beautiful horny children BYEEEE -<333333333

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12 days of Christmas

Featuring: nct 127

Genre: smut

A/n:Hello my horny children!! This is my first time posting and I can’t believe I’m gonna start with a smut series but oh well🤷🏽‍♀️

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“Yo it’s finally December, anyone got any ideas for Christmas?” Mark questioned as he jumped on to the couch, grabbing all the members attention from their seperate conversation.

Silence filled the room

“Uh Me and taeyong were thinking a secret Santa, anyone up for it?” Jaehyun spoke up.

“Nah, we do that every year…I wanna have some fun” Haechan says as he smirks at the end of his sentence.

The rooms quiet until Johnny speaks up.

“Doesn’t y/n come back to town this week?”

Everyone looks up at Johnny confused on why he switched the topic’

“Yeah, why?” Haechan replies before anyone else.

Johnny smirks at the members. “Well shes a little horny freak, right?”

“Why don’t I like the way this is going?” Taeil says quietly

Johnny ignores his words continuing to explain his idea.

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“So you’re saying…we should celebrate 12 days of Christmas with her but each day we can make her feel good instead of a present?” Jaehyun simply retells Johnny’s idea.

“Yeah, basically” Johnny replies.

“But we’re going to get her permission first, right??” Doyoung and Taeil both say worryingly thinking about what could go wrong.

“I’m not a dick, of course we are” Johnny replies making the duo lay back in relief. The members go quiet for a while thinking not only about themselves but about you too.

“…I’m in” Haechan agrees first.

“Of course you are” marks says while rolling his eyes.

“What’s that suppose to mean??” Haechan says standing up to argue with the other.

Before mark could make a comeback Yuta stands up and agrees. Mark shakes his head in disbelief.

After everyone but Mark agrees to the deal. A call rings from taeyongs phone, It’s you. “Speaking of the devil”. Everyone chuckles at his words.

“Hello?” Taeyong answers.

Silence once again.

“Shit” you curse almost like a moan. The boys are confused. They go closer to the phone.

“Y/n?” The boys whisper as to why you curse.

“Fuck yes…just like that” you moan on the other side of the phone.

“Y/N” Doyoung yells to catch your attention before you embarrass yourself anymore. Everyone jumps and stares at him kinda disappointed as to why he didn’t let you continue.

You look around from where your name was being called. You look at your side table grabbing your phone and seeing Taeyongs contact name at the top of your phone.

“Holy shit” you say as your face turns red from embarrassment. You says hello to try not make the call anymore awkward.

Haechan takes the phones “hello beautiful, I’m gonna get straight to the point right now. We’ve been thinking and we wonder if you wanna be in a 12 days of Christmas roulette?”

“Roulette?” You furrow your eyebrows, confused. It takes you a while to understand but you slowly agree to their request.

“That’s great, we’ll see you next week?” Haechan continues the conversation before saying goodbye.

“I guess we got a deal boys” he smirks as he hands the phone back to taeyong. They jump up like little puppies. Mark watches in embarrassment.

“I guess so” mark whispers to himself as he gets up and walks towards his room.

A/n: This will probably flop but oh well lol can do anything about it.