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okay but this is totally jerejean (I stole the photo from twitter)

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what if i said kevallison

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oh. so the only time jean smiles in this entire series is when he’s seeing kevin for the first time in months. that’s so normal.

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Jean Moreau would have an aneurysm reading this

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andreil:

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this one. he needs this one right here.

can someone please get jean a kitten? i really feel like jean needs a kitten

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jeremy buys one of those dog clickers for teaching jabberwocky french. jean sees him using it sometimes even when jab isn’t in the room and it’s just the two of them.

takes him a month to realize jeremy is using it everytime he actually smiles. he’s training himself to be happy.

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kevjean keeps me up at night

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no thoughts just the fact that jean kept every postcard kevin sent him. just that kevin TOOK THE TIME TO SEND HIM POSTCARDS EVERYWHERE HE WENT. just that none of the magnets stuck anymore because of how worn-through they were from him touching them. just that kevin made jean promise not to hurt himself because he couldn’t stand the thought of losing him. just that jean and kevin spent enough time together in the nest that jean was able to teach him an entire language. just that kevin. just the fact that jean spent years loving this stupid, beautiful man that he knew could never love him back, and kevin spent years feeling guilty that he’s hurting jean because he could never feel the same way.

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Pro runner Neil buying a new pair of "high quality runner shoes" by a brand a pro exy player, Andrew Minyard, was sponsored by. His ads look ridiculous, but Neil still gives them a try.

The shoes are useless - poor quality and quite uncomfortable. He lets Minyard know this in his twitter comments under one such ad. The fans of both sports go crazy when Andrew, who is notorious for never responding on twitter and only posting his mandatory posts and a few pictures of his cats, responds to Neil with "tried your protein ice cream. It was abysmal. An insult to ice cream. My Italian nonna is rolling in her grave. You have no ground to stand on."

Despite his PR's warnings, Neil responds to that with a succinct "I don't like ice cream. No idea what it tastes like." Andrew replies with "and I don't run." Both PR teams are in shambles.

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saw your kevjean post and the people are demanding for more

pls share

i have many a kevjean post….i genuinely have no clue which this is referring to

i’m going to assume it was the latest one, so:

-kevin starts bulking between seasons (if only because he knows jean loves how big his thighs get)

-firm believer in pillow princess!kevin (who’s somehow still a brat)

-kevin gets hard watching exy games. not even about a specific player, just the game itself

-kevin loves being edged and overstimulated

-kevin has a praise kink and jean is more than happy to oblige him

-jean gets really into painting for a bit and has a dozen paintings just of kevin laying half-naked in their bed (because what better sight is there to paint?)

-kevin is really into bondage

-kevin is the clingiest mf alive. if you sit next to him, he’s finding a way to press himself against you

-kevin cries during sex

-kevin runs hot at night so he’s always kicking the blankets off of the bed (jean is the opposite so he’s always kicking KEVIN off the bed)

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if andrew had named the cats instead of neil:

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kevin day

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andrew and neil, at some point:

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neil with jean vs neil with literally anyone else

based on this post by @joejhang

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jean would make kevin ramble off history facts while he eats him out and would stop if kevin stutters. if you care.

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wake up babe it's thinking about jeanneil hours. thinking about them being "misplaced forever partners". thinking about neil being jean's "broken promise". thinking about those miserable two weeks in evermore and jean dragging neil back to his feet every time he fell. thinking about jean having to hold neil down and witness neil go through the same traumas he had all these years. thinking about jean losing control which was maybe why riko didn't actually kill neil that night. thinking about jean working dye into a half-conscious neil's hair. thinking about jean telling neil "you shouldn't have come here". thinking about what jean suffered after neil got inked with his rightful number. thinking about the "unexpected rush of anger" neil felt when he saw what riko had done to jean. thinking about "of course it'd be you, you tedious malcontent" and "good morning to you too". thinking about jean watching riko take a swing for neil on tv and just thinking, run. thinking about neil and jean being the same "property" in riko's eyes. thinking about "pop and he was gone. how easily these monsters die in the end". thinking about jean reaching blindly and catching hold of the hem of neil's jeans. thinking about "neil. it was a good game" and the smile that jean could hear when neil replied, "yes. it was, wasn't it?". thinking about the narration change from nathaniel to neil. thinking about jean noticing andreil immediately but never mentioning it because "nathaniel was his broken promise; neil's life was none of his business". thinking about neil connecting the dots about grayson. thinking about neil parking the car and saying with urgency, "jean. i'm sorry." when jean finds out his family is going to take the heat. thinking about neil ordering a hit on grayson and telling jean, "lock your door tonight if it will help, but grayson will never bother you again". thinking about neil taking the phone from jean and saying, "i've got him, coach". thinking about neil asking jean what he needs and planning an escape route so he can grieve in private. thinking about them murmuring to each other in french in the back of the police car. thinking about "chances of them understanding french?" "none. they're american." "hey." "you barely count. don't waste your time feigning offence". thinking about "jean's french. he brings out the violence in people every time he opens his mouth". thinking about neil encouraging jean to exercise his freedom and live his own life. thinking about "so was elodie". thinking about jean echoing neil's words after grayson's death. thinking about "you do not have to trust him. i do." and then ten seconds later, "that ill-bred child is not my friend". thinking about jean trying to snatch the cigarettes out of andrew's hand and saying, "you were barely fast enough to save him last time. the next time someone takes a swing at him, you and your brisket lungs will have to watch him die. i wouldn’t have GIVEN HIM TO YOU if i’d known you would just throw him away so carelessly." thinking about jean calling neil and neil actually picking up. thinking about neil saying bringing up jean's broken ribs in an interview and jean calling him a "rancid menace". thinking about jean watching neil take a hit and holding his own ribs because he remembers how it felt. thinking about jean with his hands to the tv screen as he watched neil on the floor. thinking about neil's voice in jean's head at the end of the book, "the rules have changed".