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[iamanexperience]

Transphobes: "They're spreading the trans agenda!!!"

The trans agenda (from my experience) that we're not even speading:

1: Wake up

2: Have breakfast

3: Try not to have a mental breakdown over dysphoria

4: Try not to cry over long wait before surgery

5: Have dinner

6: Go to bed

7: End up crying self to sleep

8: Repeat

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It's 2025 and here are the changes I've noticed on T:

Deeper voice but, still wobbly

Longer and dark patch of hair on my neck with longer hairs on my chin and only one side of my cheeks.

No beard/ mustache yet

Muscles

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Transphobes think we have it so easy, that one day we wake up and decide we want to be the opposite gender and it's one and done, ya get the hormones, get the surgery, and boom, you're the opposite gender. When in reality,

You have to think about, and think about it, and think about it some more, and maybe you're not really trans, or maybe you are, then you go back and fourth in between those thoughts but then, all your childhood experiences start to add up more and more and then after a long while of denying it, you FINALLY discover, not decide, DISCOVER you're trans and then you look up how you go about transitioning and the more you look into it, the more you get sad because "I'm never gonna be able to convince mg doctor I'm trans and get my hormones and I'm never gonna able to afford to get any surgery because, I'm too poor to transition" and then you get more depressed and cry in your bedroom about it and you haven't even told your parents yet.

You delete your search history so they won't find out and pretend that everything is normal but, the more you go to school, your skin feels unbearable and the clothes of your assigned gender feel and look awful and as days go on, you hate yourself more and more until you finally end up telling your parents, but, before you do, you gotta pack up what stuff you have just in case they reject/hate you for it and kick you out, and you're damn lucky if they don't and just merely tolerate you.

Then you do, then that's done, but then you have to come out to you're friends so, they don't keep misgendering you and hope they don't reject you which, if they're good friends, they won't. Then, you have to decide weather or not to come out to the school or wait until you graduate because sometimes, if not most of the time, they're not on you're side and you have to check weather your entire state is on your side and let you transition before you even think about doing so. Then you finally graduate and move out to your new place, which gives you even MORE time to think about it. Then you finally decide, "I'm gonna do! I'm gonna transition!" THEN you call your primary doctor and request an appointment for an EVALUATION and tell your therapist who you've be talking a long time about this so they'll give you a letter to give to your doctor when you go in that says "yup, they're transgender" and convince your doctor even more so until they finally diagnose you with, and I'm not joking, "gender dysphoria", then, they refer you to an actual endocrinologist but, you have to wait a week or even longer for your appointment, which gives you even more time to think about and reconsider if you're trans or not/back out.

Then the day comes and you have to dress in the clothes the gender you're transitioning to to really show then that yes, you are in fact trans, then you give give then the diagnosis referral from the doctor that says " Yup, they're trans, here's there name and pronouns" then you have to tell them more about your situation and after that, if they're A good doctor, you'll be able to get your hormones a few days after. But, that's not all, you have to do blood work EVERY. SINGLE. MONTH so, your endocrinologist knows if they need to up or lower your dose. But, sometimes, the pharmacy doesn't give you the hormones in time and sometimes it'll be four whole weeks before getting a refill of said hormones and during the time of your transition the first few weeks/months, you'll see nearly little to no changes. Then think about getting the surgery again. You look up if your medical insurance covers said surgery and if it does, it usually covers it all the way if you're in a good state, then in that case CONGRATULATIONS you can finally start actually thinking about get the surgery!!!!

Then you tell your endocrinologist and they will refer you to the place when you would get the surgery and THEN you have to CALL that place and and request a consultation so they'll make an appointment but, you have go specifically tell them what gender you're transition to so they don't unknowingly give you a boob job instead of removing them or the other way around, and THEN you have to wait until NEXT YEAR for the appointment, which gives you even MORE time and a chance to reconsider if you really wanna go through with the surgery, while you're still taking hormones, and you have be on those hormones for 3 to 6 months before otherwise, you're not qualified.

Then after a year of waiting, it's finally time for just the CONSULTATION and you finally talk to your surgeon about it and tell them you really really want the surgery and that you want the soonest possible date for the surgery and you're really luck if you get it within 2 or 4 weeks. Then, in between those days you just prepare to the actual surgery, pick out clothes you can easily take on and off, because if it's top surgery pull over shirts and jeans your your worst nightmare, eat healthy and exercise more often so the recovery period is easier. Worst case scenario, the wait could take a couple more months. Then comes the day of the surgery, it's here, it's finally here, and...

Well I haven't gotten that far yet but, you get the idea. Oh, did I mention that trans people will be doing blood work and taking hormones for the rest of our lives and sometimes we're squeamish towards blood but you know what? We do it anyway if it means continuing to receive hormones. But, after everything is said and done it's worth it in the end and time between will seem as though it has passed so fast.

Transphobes think we're week and this comes to us easily when it may take nearly have our lives to get to this point/even come out. Being trans isn't as easy as they think/say it is. It may take a long time but, it just gives you more time to think about your gender while you wait and honestly, I think that's for the best and all those guidelines are there for our medical safety. Though, sometimes I wish was that fast and easy.

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In regards of the Trump government scraping all trans inclusion in its queer information portion of its websites I have made this thing. Spread the word. Don't let them pretend we never existed.

P.S: Don't like! Reblog! <3

EDIT: Well this got a lot of attention! I got a few users asking to print or repost my art and I am unimaginably grateful to everyone's interest, especially since it's a really simple drawing I made on a whim haha! Anyone who is looking to print these out to hang or hand out or repost on another platform is free to do so, although I ask you to credit me and let people know it's from my Tumblr profile! If anyone wishes to do anything else with my art or post and wants to clarify what I consent to then they can message me privately and I'll explain! <333 all my love to my queer siblings

EDIT: I made an LGBTQIA+ version with a focus on trans and intersex folks, it's on my pinned if you prefer this version of the acronym.

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You know when you just start a relationship with someone and you get this awful feeling in your gut that it's never gonna last? Like, you want it to but, you don't know what's gonna happen?

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The only thing I will document through pictures publicly is me post op. Of which I will post a picture of me moments after surgery, just waking up in the hospital bed, half tired as my pose with my hands. And the captions will say "suck it, pa!" Or something like that. And the text will be in impact font like the old memes and it will be the only picture of my transition ever posted.

Come back to the post next year. You'll see.

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Things I've noticed on 2 months on T

1: voice is cracking more than ever, which means the gel is working.

2: bones hurt (not sure if that's related tho

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Any other trans person go through that ugly girl- handsome man (and vice versa) phase while your transitioning? Like before you started you would see yourself as the most hideous born gender in existence and after your start hrt, you begin to see yourself getting hotter?

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This will be me someday.... Very soon

celebrating my 5 year top surgery anniversary today, so I wanted to draw something that reflects the bliss of feeling your chest for the first time. happy pride 🏳️‍⚧️⚧️💙🩷🤍

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I would like to document my transition progress on tik Tok or YouTube shorts like all the other trans folk...

However because of the stakes of the election, I don't feel safe doing that and putting that within the public eye. Because with what's going on right now, I'm afraid I might get doxed for the worse. That's why I never publicized my name change. Cause I don't wanna be found or found out. That's why I chose what is perceived as a normal name for the legal documents. I will transition in secret and by the time I'm done, no one will know I was ever a girl.

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On my journey towards top surgery. First step is seeing my primary care doctor for a referral

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This trans man will be a part of one of the second most historical Zoom call in potential history. Tomorrow.

Let's hope I don't get too anxious.

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Call me a pro gamer for how much I'm basically speed running my transition so I may already gone through top surgery before the November election just in case trump wins and he won't be able to stop me from transitioning anymore.

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Had a dream where I was hanging out with my sister and my friends, having a sleep over and my sister said "Just think, with the rate you're going with T, you'll start growing a mustache in five days"

It's now day two since the dream. I really hope that's true.

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Night two on Testosterone. Yeh, I decided to do at night cause, I got the goo and doing it at night eliminates the worry of the possibility of it rubbing off on people. Already, I started to notice that I was sweating more and having to keep all the fans on during the day but, I'm fine with it. No regrets though, totally worth it.

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This boy's got his TESTOSTERONE, BOI!!!!