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biblically accurate haymitch abernathy

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Marissa Fittes and Tom Rotwell

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𝕿𝖍𝖊 𝖌𝖎𝖋𝖙

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Me at the ripe age of 25 in my front row seat to the Cinder movie

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I have been feeling dog years a lot lately. Always liked the vibe, but now I feel like this song.

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halsey is a polarising artist and they've always had their haters but what I find a little funny about the great impersonator era is that their haters are like, "wow Halsey is just ripping off these artists how disrespectful of her" meanwhile in reality almost every artist Halsey has paid tribute to on the Great Impersonator has endorsed the album. Britney Spears, Bruce Springsteen, Dolly Parton, Tori Amos, and Amy Lee have all given their blessings - and in the case of Amy Lee even went onto collaborate with Halsey on a new record. To be clear this doesn't mean you have to like the songs, but just say you don't like them. The amount of times I've seen the haters lie about these artists being angry at Halsey for paying tribute to their work is so bizarre. It's just not true. Also I'm BEGGING people I'm on my knees begging for people to PLEASE learn what sampling and interpolation is because a lot of youse look so ridiculous saying artists "stole" a track when the track in question features either a) a credited sample or b) a credited interpolation with entirely new lyrics and composition in the rest of the production or most egregiously c) just a common 4 chord structure used in 1000s of songs. Believe it or not, there is artistry in paying tribute, in acknowledging influence. Halsey's work on The Great Impersonator and even on Safe Word are a masterclass in thoughtfully paying tribute to your inspirations as part of your own praxis artist. Halsey made a beautiful album about being sick and actually facing mortality after a life of suicidal ideation, while also paying homage to the artists that made them want to keep going. It's a wonderful album and you don't have to like it but it's just embarrassing how people insist on making things up about it that just aren't true.

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I’ve seen several people talking about how it makes them feel weird that Dog Years, a song that is explicitly about suicidal ideation, is something Halsey performs as a sexy song, and while that’s completely fair, I personally think the performance style fits the song really well, even if it’s uncomfortable? (In fact, I think the discomfort is a purposeful, important element of the whole song)

Discussion of suicidal ideation and sex as a unenthusiastic performance below the cut

The first time I heard Dog Years I called it “evil petplay” when explaining it to my friends because that imagery seems so deliberate. Halsey’s voice is getting all husky and low as they croon about what a good dog they’ve been and how they like a tight leash, and especially given their known love of/interest in kink, that takes your mind to a very specific and imo intentional place. But they turn it on its head — if they’re going to be a dog, then they’re an old, tired, weak, sickly one and they want to be put out of their misery and euthanized like you would any pet in that state, and that is very not sexy. It’s a visceral image that can be quite upsetting and uncomfortable, all the more so when paired with the very sexually charged chorus. It makes that chorus feel like more of a reluctant performance — she doesn’t feel sexy, she’s not in the mood, but it’s what’s expected of her and so she’s going along with it and hey, if she’s a good girl maybe she’ll get lucky and they’ll put her down. “I’m not here, I’m somewhere else” — they’re going through the motions of the performance and playing along with what’s expected of them but their heart is not in it, and they feel nothing towards it.

And I feel like that plays into the entire theme of The Great Impersonator as a whole? The whole idea of the expected performance and what that experience does to a person: going through the motions because you’re an entertainer and your job is to entertain and put on a show, but the whole time you’re in the darkest place you’ve ever been both physically and mentally, so sick that you truly expect you aren’t going to survive it. But you still have to do the show, you still have to make it look good, you still have to be appealing to the crowd, and so you have to play the good girl who loves her tight leash because that’s fun and sexy, and the rest of it is something you keep to yourself because people don’t want to hear about that.

I really like the staging of Dog Years on the FMLT tour for that reason. There is something so visceral about Halsey sitting in sexy leather lingerie while literally chained to the stage singing about how much they want someone to just kill them. Sure, it’s sexy, but she is stuck there performing for you, even as she’s voicing some of the darkest thoughts a person can have about themselves. How does that make you feel? Is it hot? Are you enjoying it? Should you be? That just fits the vibe I get from that song so well.

Of course, I could be fully misreading and Halsey could have had completely different intentions for this song, but that’s just how I’ve seen it?

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Halsey via Instagram stories on May 21st, 2025.

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HALSEY IS RETIRING HALSEY

Hear me out!!!!!!!!!

The tour is called "For My Last Trick" and the tour ends right before the Badlands 10 year anniversary.

The first half of the show is telling the story of her career before we are finally given "The Show".

"i wanna be big!" all songs of hers that are about Fame and how much she craved it but then how it wasn't what she thought.

"alice is too big" it's all about the bdsm and elements of being controlled, by her label, by her lovers, and by her fans even.

"alice is too small" and it's all about how her political and personal alignments and her health made her too much of a liability and she gets dropped from her label.

"alice has had enough" is all about the death of ego (which is probably why ego is NOT on the setlist). it could also mean the death of Halsey herself.

the dream sequence where it plays all these lullabies of her songs and how she forces herself to wake from the dream. how she goes from black hair, ashley's natural hair color, to blue hair which is halsey's "natural" hair color.

how the surprise songs are mostly all songs from badlands because we have to go back to the badlands.

how drive was the first surprise song because that was the music video we never got despite the chords of it being heard at the end of the "new americana" music video.

how the show ends on "the great impersonator" which is what she has been doing her entire career, playing a character of her own self.

how the tour ends on a mediocre flashbang, because it's a distraction from the real final trick.

how her website has always been "iamhalsey" but her merch says "i remember halsey", why would we need to remember someone who still exists unless her arch is over?

she is going back to the badlands, back to where it all started to shed this last layer of herself and to emerge as Ashley.

this is the end of Halsey and the beginning of Ashley!

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Halsey performing at The Hollywood Bowl in Los Angeles on May 14th as part of the For My Last Trick Tour.

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I wish Maysilee Donner would've met President Snow. He wouldve said some corny shit like "Snow lands on top" and she would've eaten the words and chewed them right back up so nasty that he would've been so ashamed to say them ever again.

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Beetee and Wiress make me so sad... wdym Beetee manages to mentor an unassuming Victor no one probably thought stood a chance and then his son gets reaped the NEXT year and his mentee (who is still a child btw) is horribly tortured to the point of permanent mental damage for colluding in his rebellion plot, while he's deemed "too valuable" to physically torture. And then he spends 25 years later trying to protect her (presumably while losing the other people in his life, including his wife and second child) only for them to both be reaped together and thrown back into the arena for the Quell. And then Wiress is killed in front of him while Beetee is one of only FIVE victors to make it out alive. The survivor's guilt that man must carry is crazy.....

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the difference between Haymitch and Katniss's narration is so funny. Haymitch would give us everyone's social security number if he knew them, while Katniss wouldn't even tell us her mom's name.

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the "I'm not a drinker myself" to gradually becoming an alcoholic to numb out the pain pipeline

the "I don't want them to change me. turn me into something I'm not" to being turned into a mutt version of himself pipeline

the "I do everything in my power to protect my sister" to losing her anyway pipeline

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The mockingbird, the jabberjay and the mockingjay 🕊️ inspired by this post by @fromevertonow