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I'm so fake for not posting like ever fr ngl 😬

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I pray that you Stay

An original by Lex S. (me)

I pray that you find a reason to stay,

A reason that doesn't bind you

One that doesn't make you fearful of who would find you

A reason that brings you peace & joy

Even if it's just purchasing a toy

I pray you find a reason to stay,

A reason that's not shameful

One that won't condemn you or make you hateful

A reason that doesn't bind you to this world out of obligation

Instead may it fill you with indignation.

May it give you the voice you've yearned for,

And never cause you stagnation

May it give you the strength you forgot you had

Especially on days that feel most sad

May it be your guiding force when days won't end,

And over time, may it be your reason to live.

May you find a reason despite what your mind will say

I pray you find a reason even if it changes every day

I woke up one day and noticed a lot of ppl I cared about weren't having the best time in life at the time I wrote this. I read it back to myself today on a whim, as I wasn't in the best head space, and I felt like it was finally time to share it. This goes out to anyone deeply struggling mentally and trying to find a reason any reason to make it worth it. Whatever 'It' is for you. 🫶🏽

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I have decided to start a series of poems. They will be personification poems. Of things tangible and not. It may take me awhile but I have come to enjoy writing poems that conceptualize the inanimate.

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rough height chart!

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My goal for the next year is to write more. I want my poems to be known but I myself desire to remain a mystery. I also want to try my hand at short stories some. So i think I'm gonna try that too. But mostly more poems are to come.

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Am i not deserving of nice words?

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I pray that this reaches its target audience so that maybe it'll give you a reason even for the day

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Seems the universe works right on time...

This getting reblogged at the time I'm releasing this same person again as I let them hurt me one last time. Seems as though it was a long awaited grieving process. I wrote another piece closing out this person's chapter in my life recently. It's like I came to the other side of things and accepted what can't be now. Giving gratitude to things that were instead of lamenting on what couldn't be. For if it weren't for them I may not have found my voice again. <3 I'll consider sharing it as a farewell send off when I'm done grieving and feeling this go around.

I really hate that my brain can't let go of things. I don't want to hold space for you in that way anymore, but my brain won't let you go. So now i have to establish that boundary, but my brain doesn't really want to do that. My brain wants to tell you that I see you and always have seen you. It craves to tell you how much we adore you.

My mind desires to describe to you the many ways I could love you. The multiple facets of my affection and adoration vibrating all at the same speed with only one purpose. To show you that someone does want you in the way you so long dreamed of. But how jaded of me to think I could be your source of adoration too...

How blind am I to see that you no longer hold that space for me. Delusional and clinging to what could've been, yet again. Knowing you've done nothing extraordinary to catch or keep my interest, I still cling. Possibly in hopes that maybe just maybe I'll get my happy ending.

But it's been time to let go. Passed time, honestly. Time I let you and that cute, delusional dream go. For I can't hold that space for you anymore. You've outgrown its place. Overgrowing my anxieties in the process with haste. Not being "just right" was often the case. So i make boundaries to save face. To save me from the unnecessary heartbreak. But my brain just can't let go of things, and that's something I hate.

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I've been writing a little more, and it's made me really happy. I'm trying to compile more poems so I can start seriously displaying them here. Although, I'm very glad to have been able to find a sense of direction with my feelings and words. I really want to try to write about other things that aren't so personal but I don't know if I can. I wanna try to at least write about more relatable things. I never feel like ppl can relate to what I currently write about. The pieces are so raw, personal, and specific that, I find it hard to believe someone relates to it, but i have an 8H Pisces moon in my tropical natal chart so that's on brand 😂

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Starting to come out of my writer's block so I'm hoping i can push out a couple more poems soon. I've missed sharing my words and I'm really thankful that I have the gift to curate them to fit my feelings and thoughts

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On Gothic

a cute helpful guide on the gothic subculture that no one asked for <3

goth music springing from the late 1970s after the post punk movement was a subculture heavily inspired by the themes found in victorian gothic literature

gothic literature:

frankenstein - mary shelley

dracula - bram stoker

jekyll and hyde - robert stevenson

wuthering heights - emily bronte

rebecca - daphne du maurier

edgar allen poe <3

some keywords that come from gothic literature that can help you spot a goth song:

'dark' 'death' 'black' 'cold' 'heaven' 'hell' 'witches 'bats' 'night' 'roses' 'blood' 'church' 'forest' 'jesus' 'grey' 'horror' 'shadow' 'sacrifice' 'tears' 'ghost' 'spells' 'cry' 'love' 'haunted' 'funeral' 'cathedral'

Some other themes in a song that can help you to decide if it goth or not can be:

heavy bass

synth sounds (the song sounds like it was recorded in an empty church)

mysterious and whimsical vocals

deep vocals

lack of a (electric) guitar

The 1980's and 90's were the peak for the gothic subculture, especially in camden market, london, england

Some bands that were prominent at the time were...

Bauhaus

The Cure

Sisters of Mercy

Siouxsie and the Banshees

Christian Death

Clan of Xymox

The Cramps

Depeche Mode

New Order

Joy Division

Alien Sex Fiend

Fields of the Nephilim

Killing Joke

The Damned

Nick Cave

Softcell

Some other goth band recs:

Boy Harsher

Children on Stun

Earth Calling Angela

Molchat Doma

Forever Grey

Horror Vacui

Lebanon Hanover

London After Midnight

Male Tears

The March Violets

The Merry Thoughts

Paradise Lost

Paralysed Age

Plastique Noir

Rendez Vous

Rosetta Stone

Selofan

She Wants Revenge

Skinny Puppy

Specimen

This Cold Night

Tragic Black

Traitrs

Twin Tribes

ULTRA SUNN

Xmal Deutschland

Your Funeral

The 69 Eyes

Please let me know which ones i've missed because these are just ones that I have taken from my own playlist!

The music is the number one most important part of goth subculture and you don't have to dress goth to be goth... but it sure is fun to do so! Goth fashion holds its roots in thrifting, upcycling and sustainable fashion (buying 'goth' clothes from shein, dollskill and killstar is a big no no).

Anyone can style their gothic outfits however they like but here are some examples of different styles:

Trad(itional) Goth:

Romantic Goth:

Victorian Goth:

The styles can get very similar so let me know if i’ve mixed any up!

I’ve reached the limit on the number of pictures i can add so here are some more examples of goth styles:

Corporate goth

Gothabilly

Mall Goth

Cyber Goth

J-Goth

Baby Bat

Mopey Goth

Vampire Goth

Steam punk

To end the post i'm circling back to gothic literature by listing some films too (which are often based on the books)

Everyone's beloved: Bela Lugosi in the first adaptation of Bram Stoker's Dracula in 1931

The Crow 1994 which comes with a song from The Cure

Interview with the Vampire 1994

The Rocky Horror Picture Show 1975

Edward Scissor Hands 1990

The Addams family 1991 (if he's not like gomez then i don't want him)

The Craft 1996

That's all I have for now and if you made it this far thank you so much for reading and have a nice day <3

current goth song on repeat:

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the queen of punk

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Haha babe ur so sexy~

Read more Crow Time @ crow-time.com 💙

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(you need to view the image or you'll just like the post)

Since people liked it i made a toy that works on the computer: https://nick-nonya.itch.io/trampoline-toy Have fun!

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Some D&D party is out there playing the coolest campaign ever.