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i dont know what any of your icons are i just notice the vague colour patterns and thats it

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I don't come to you because I want to. But I know that I must. ( christidselloutthenantion )

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He peered over the rim of his glass at the man Annas had so skillfully recruited, the ember illuminating the turning of the tide. It was a gift, his presence here. The one that, more than any other sucker in the crowds, had the best chance of incriminating that conman to the stroke of the letter of the law. What was it that kids said these days? Had the receipts?

Anyway, his knowledge was everything they needed but to let him know that would be nothing short of foolish. Especially when the muddy, nicotine-stained punk was going to charge in here like he owned the place, making excuses in the tone of demands. No, of course you don’t let the pawn know how much power they hold. Can’t have them taking check into their own hands, after all.

It was a hell of a war they were fighting, honestly. A country that had gone from fighting occupiers and oppression to fighting its own children. His kid, anyone’s…it wasn’t something to be proud of. But he wasn’t really fighting them, he had to remind himself. He was fighting the man who had weaponized them. The man intent on destroying the culture he claimed to epitomize. The man who had whipped his people into a nationalistic frenzy, deluded that they could bring Rome down with Molotov cocktails and viral videos.

Forget his story, forget his whingeing; Iscariot was the key.

“Is that so?” He asked in a measured tone. He sips his drink. He’s got time. Let the fiery man pacing before him become trod himself to ash. Caiaphas won’t match his frenzy, won’t show his fear. All the time in the world. “Well, I should hope it’s worth my time. And your considerable distress.”

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SLYTHERIN:

“Geniuses, lower your voices You keep out of trouble and you double your choices.”

-Lin-Manuel Miranda (Aaron Burr: Hamilton: My Shot)

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One thing that really gets me about today’s society is how emotional/psychological child abuse is normalized and even celebrated.

I’ve noticed a phenomenon of parents getting together and talking about how they’re such a Mean Mom or Mean Dad and how they’re raising their children to be respectful. They talk about destroying their children’s possessions, isolating them, humiliating them, and/or publicly shaming them.

And when these people hear about, say, a parent smashing a kid’s phone for not cleaning their room or burning their possessions or filming a punishment or embarrassing moment and putting it up on social media, they commend the parents for “teaching the kids a lesson”.

Why the fuck do we, as a society, think this is okay?

It doesn’t teach kids valuable life lessons, it teaches them to be scared of repercussions. It’s bullying and child abuse and for some reason, people think that’s commendable.

Whenever I hear people saying “haha I bet that 14 year old learned a lesson”, it instantly makes me suspicious of them. I will instantly think of you as either a potential child abuser or a child abuse enabler.

As a survivor of psychological abuse, people dismissing this behavior as “harmless life lessons” makes me wonder if it really was abuse. If I deserved it. If I really deserved to have my pet’s life threatened because I was a liar.

It’s not cute. It’s not “good parenting”. It’s intimidating, shaming, and traumatizing your child into compliance.

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"Some days he wouldn't say A pleasant word all day Some days he'd scowl and curse But there were other days... When he was really even worse."

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You used to make a lot of references to frogs and scorpions on here. What was that?

It’s a reference to a middle eastern folk tale; The Scorpion and The Frog. The Scorpion wants to cross the river, but of course it can’t swim so it asks the Frog if the Frog will carry it on its back. The Frog of course is skeptical and asks the Scorpion “How do I know you won’t sting me?” “Trust me,” says the Scorpion, “I wouldn’t do that, I would drown.” So the Frog agrees and with the Scorpion on its back, it begins to cross the river. About halfway across, the Scorpion stings the Frog. “Why would you do that?” asks the Frog, “Now we both will sink.” The Scorpion simply replies, “It is my nature.”

I played with this dynamic a lot in the beginning because on paper, the Annaphas relationship looks pretty bad. Caiaphas, who is in this more supreme position of power is having a sexual and romantic relationship with Annas who is clearly his subordinate. And at least in the main verse, Caiaphas is the one who instigated it in the first place by making a move on him. He’s acting in this sort of predatory/ “scorpion” role. Annas is vulnerable in terms of his employment being dependent on Caiaphas’ approval, him being physically smaller and kind of having the ‘cuter’ more boyish thing going on whereas Caiaphas is kind of big and intimidating and leering and has that floor-shaking bass going on. Caiaphas initially thinks of himself as being the Scorpion, victimizing Annas as the Frog because he ‘can’t resist’, though this immediately causes him intense guilt.

But it turns out Annas actually really wanted the two of them to become a thing, at least sexually, and furthermore he’s pretty good at using Caiaphas’ desire and feelings for him to manipulate the situation in his favor. Mostly through sex, but additionally, as Caiaphas’ trusted second-in-command(despite his storied reputation for ruthlessness), he also holds a good deal of sway over Caiaphas’ political decisions. Furthermore, though Caiaphas has the ability to damage Annas’ employment options if Annas were to resist his advances or if their relationship were to go south, Annas has too the ability to claim Caiaphas harassed him and out him as queer as well as smearing his reputation and his moral standing as a man of God, which would of course be career suicide for Caiaphas. In fact, Annas seems perhaps to be occupying the Scorpion role, begging “trust me” while positioning his stinger within stabbing distance of your back.

That first story in the main verse is supposed to force you to ask who’s manipulating who, who’s really the Scorpion and who’s the Frog and by the end, Caiaphas isn’t totally sure but he’s willing to grapple with the situation as it is because it does require both of them to cooperate or else they’ll both sink, as the fable portends. Whether or not it’s in Annas’ nature to betray him is for time to tell, since Caiaphas’ own nature is such that he feels compelled to invest in the relationship personally and emotionally(he’s lonely, he’s overwhelmed, and he and Annas have already established a rapport that he thinks of as a close friendship so to engage in an actual relationship, if only just a sexual one, doesn’t seem unreasonable. In fact, it seems like a good fit).

Of course, their relationship has moved away from this simple paradigm over time. It has developed a strong romantic component, for one thing, and as a result has fostered a much greater level of trust and deeper emotional intimacy. They’ve established boundaries and become privy to each others’ mental health needs and have used their complimentary personality types to substantially improve each others’ lives. Their relationship has become a thing unto itself to the point that even though the two of them are inseparably wrapped up in each others’ lives, they’re so necessary for the well being of and just so thoroughly in love with each other that one could no longer entertain hurting the other for personal gain or even out of necessity.

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Me, a year ago: everyone thinks of Caiaphas as fatherly or paternal idk I just don't see it. Me, now: in the first 5 minutes of an interaction with Simon Caiaphas basically tells him to stop being rude, sit up straight and not to fill up on junk because they're getting dinner.

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"Oh, come on. In your experience, has tasting blood ever been a good thing? Maybe I'm just impressed that I finally figured out what it tastes like."

"I'm not sure how your taste buds work but almond butter tastes like blood. Full stop."

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“Uhm…is that a good thing or a bad thing? With your tone it’s kinda hard to tell…”

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HUFFLEPUFF:

“STEVE ROGERS: If I see a situation pointed south, I can’t ignore it. Sometimes I wish I could. TONY STARK: No, you don’t. STEVE ROGERS: No, I don’t.”

–Christopher Markus + Stephen McFeely (Captain America: Civil War)

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I would say either Persian or Cinccino, don't ask me why.

So, either a long, aristocratic, smug-faced kitty…

Or a cuddly cloud mouse? Maybe on the inside.

“Weaknesses: fighting”. Yup

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NOTICE:

Due to the lack of cicadas so far this summer I will climb the trees and scream in their absence

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i like to pretend i don’t give a fuck but honestly i don’t think i’ve ever not given a fuck in my whole life

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“love at first sight? aha no you misheard i said love at first fight as in we punched each other until we got tired and decided to bang.”