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数えきれぬ声よ手の鳴る方へ 闇と成り飾ろう 有終の死を #thegazette #dogma #vampire #blood #undead #cosplay #anime #manga #gamer #otaku #boymeetsevil

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But in your wings theres the devils allure...u start off sweet but you are bitter. Kiss me Allthough it hurts And all i feel is the burn starting to become numb to the pain...

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Rage expo was amazinggggg. Cant wait to go back. I will post more pictures about my day there. It was amazing. I am really sore today my feet hurt so bad but i made it. Now i can rest and prepare for the next event #rageexpo2017 #southafrica #geekspress #cosplay #cosplayer #gamer #game #anime #manga #yurionice #monsterhunter

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CHANGE ME. HELL NO

Hey guys. What is going on today.

Blog number 1. Wow oky so i want you start off with the title of this

This is something that has been going on since 2013. The year i first attempted being visual kei. And finding that im comfortable being in that style that i finally found the look i always wanted

So on August 8th 2013 was the very first day that i tried visual kei makeup. I fell in love. Ever since then i adored the style to death and always wanted to stay in that zone.

So my parents are not very fond of how i dress and look. They think its just a phase

MOM and DAD if either of u is reading this. I wanna say thank u for everything u have done to raise me. But im getting older. Im an adult now. And i can make my own decisions.

My dad doesnt have much to say about my style. My dad has always been the quite one when it comes to me beinh myself. My dad leaves me be can i say. He understands that im and adult now and i can fight for myself.

My mom on the other hand has had her own style and taste in things. I understand that what i do and how i dress is not your style but it is mine.

Ive always loved this style and recently ive been being someone that i promised myself i would never be. . The trendy preppy girl . I have nothing against it . It just is not my style.

I recently realized that. Im becoming one of them. And i put a stop to it. Cause ive been crying nights away feeling like im loosin my true self and now i know why

Ive been pretending to be this girl... this happy preppy girl that wears dresses and does the trendy makeup and hair andi became more depressed by day to be someone that im not.

I want to put a stop to it and go back to being who i am. Following my dreams instead of someone elses to make them happy.

Its really hard to find a job with thisbkind of look but if i go back to cutting my hair the way i used to i can always tie it for work. I just want to be happy again and be my visual kei self.

I honestly just want to let go of this preppy girl that tries to please everyone

I needd to start taking care of myself more. Being who i want to be. No who someone else wants me to be

If you dont like me.

Fine

Im fine with that cause that persons opinion about my style does not matter. Its about what makes me happy. Not you.

Everyone has their own style and own choices in things

This is my choice

This is my style

My opinion.

If u see me in public and decided to bash my taste. Remember 0%of what u said withh change my opinion on how i look.

You know what. What does Adore delano say?

I dont even care who gives a shit. Cause i look fucking cool

Hell yeah i do cause i really dont care what anyone thinks about MY style anymore.

This iss my life. My choices. Either u stand by me. And support me or you walk out so i can move forward

One step forward to being happy.

Always and forever

Renfaë

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Allright so my armor is done now to focus on the skirt Im really proud of this cosplay. I have been working my ass off and i feel so proud for accomplishing this . 🎀💖💖its a dream .

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Hello my dearies

Welcome to the Geekspress.

I am Renfaë Ishihara but you can just call me Ren. ❤ I am a cosplayer. Professional makeup artist. Writer/singer.

I am 19 years old My location is based all around the world.

Follow me in my everyday life.. i will be posting alot. From vlogs to pictures and make sure to follow me on social media and i will follow back

Feel free to hit my inbox, id love to talk to you all.im always here if anyone needs to talk or rant to.

I will also be posting about things in my life and how im dealing with them such topics as depression to trauma and mich more.

So again. Follow my everyday life and be sure to follow me on social media and ill follow u back.

Enjoy my dearies