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My Purly/Papercut playlist: https://open.spotify.com/playlist/5mCdkw9WJCWN9UzNKdngEm?si=xvO_WnAFS_iigoWgLnHuMg

PSA- I do NOT recommend it for anyone who perfectly curates playlists by lyrics and genre. This is very much all over the place and has no consistent style sometimes it’s literally a single lyric or word that I associate with them. But by all means enjoy and take as much inspiration as needed for your own!

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Oh so when I pull up to the function talking about my Tokyo Revengers The Outsiders AU suddenly IM the weird one

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I’m on my hands and knees begging for songs to compile a Purly playlist. This is so important for fueling my delusions 🙏

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shoutout to all the purly/papercut ao3 writers who locked in recently !!

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Tw for breakdowns.

I always kinda imagined pony having like, just a physcotic BREAK, or manic edisode at least sometime after the book due to Johnny and dallys death. Like, it wasn’t slighty either, he had one at like 12 pm and just broke 95% of the shit in his room, tore down a solid portion of his posters (soda a HEAVY ass sleeper, he didn’t break anything of sodas either, all his stuff and everything in his old room.) deff wrote some scary shit like “I’m never gonna die” or “come and find me” and hung it in the fucking kitchen, which was also TRASHED when he left it, mf raided the medicine cabinet (he canonically abuses drugs.) and prolly took like a knife with him bc, after Johnnys death, and bc he’s literally in the mists of a psychotic break. He fucking RAN out there too. He filled a backpack with shit and FLEES. Like deadass didn’t come home for a solid WEEK, and he only came back bc either the come or someone from the gang found him. He was manic or in the break for like the whole month before he got out of it though, he was NOT ALLOWED to go to school (which he liked the not being allowed to go to school part) and watched over 24/7.

ohhhhh anon you have no idea what this did to me wow. um. well that hurt-i haven’t stopped thinking about this all night so thank you-

you know that a fight absolutely ensued because when pony came back he was just…angry as hell and darry and soda were obviously worried sick and they told him that but he just exploded and ended up saying the absolute worst things he could think of to them and when he calmed down and saw the damage he’d done he just felt absolutely horrendous, and darry and soda knew that but part of them couldn’t get past what he said to them and once they get him settled down they both just absolutely break themselves, not even from what pony said, but the stress of him running away again or genuinely taking his life or something.

soda definitely has to bring pony to work because he’s scared to leave him home by himself and daddy can’t make sure he’s okay while he’s roofing houses and working with kids, so pony has to chill at the DX and soda tells steve straight up not to say a word (he wasn’t going to) and it gets to the point soda can’t sleep at night and ever time he feels pony shift in bed he’s holding him tighter thinking he’s gonna run away again

this is fun oh my god

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what outsiders song hurts the most and why is it finale (Tulsa '67)

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chapter 22 is up.

i know yall got a break from cliffhangers last chapter but that ends NOWWW

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I have just read @hearteye-emoji ‘s fic tripping into trouble, and y’all.. The way I am so invested and it single-handedly made Papercut my favourite duo. Ty for feeding my obsession tenfold 🙏

If you have already caught up with that one, might I suggest you check out Tulsa’s (Not So Super) Hero by way_too_many_fandoms on Ao3!! It’s sorta the opposite scenario, Ponyboy is Spiderman but still has to hide it from the gang! (25.6k words, PB&J)

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I HAVE AN IDEA

Here me out, Outsiders au BUT BUT Ponyboy like Kenny Mccormick, except he tries to kill himself instead of randomly dying (sometimes he will randomly die by trying different choices), he keeps coming back but he's repeating the same day over and over again (aka the day Johnny stabbed Bob.), he eventually gives up and tried to tell the gang, but they laughed it off, so he whipped out a loaded gun, aka pulled the Kenny Mccormick and told them to try and fucking remember RIGHT, kills himself, comes back no one remembers.

He realizes the only way to break the loop is to stop the whole thing from happening in the first place, Johnny stabbed Bob but didn't kill him, they still run away, and the church fire happens, but Ponyboy gets Johnny out in time, almost killing himself in the process, but he's so messed up from everything else he tries to kill himself AGAIN, but this time it almost works, there was no coming back and he starts crying and saying sorry for everything he did. Everyone was obviously freaking out about the attempt people crying, upset confused. (You could choose how they found him because I have NO idea)

No one understands what he's talking about because Johnny and Dally DIDN'T die, he goes through a long process of telling them to shut up and listen to him because what he says is real and not fake and he can explain it in detail, in a way no one else could, everyone shuts up and listens to him, he tells everyone about the first one, how Johnny and Dally died, they all thought he was joking, Ponyboy gets upset and tells them all about his different attempts and how he WOULDN'T die, they all shut up and let him talk.

By the end of it, they are all horrified, some of them are crying(again), Ponyboy tells them about how he doesn't want to die anymore and how sorry he is for trying, Darry and Soda comfort him, after all that he finally feels like he will be okay again, he has Johnny and everyone else, and he is.

So, like A fix-it x immortal au of The Outsiders idk I just thought of this while staring at my ceiling

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so sick and fucking twisted that in order to post a fic i have to reread it and edit it

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“You drew stars around my scars.” ♡⁠˖

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I put this on ig but I keep forgetting I have a tumblr account lol

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I love them

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Another Ollie from the beginning of the year!

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Going through the dredges of my computer files. Forgot I made this many moons ago

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I love this game so much

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I have so many thoughts,,,