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I am

To be

Beheld, held, beloved

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truth lies where it lies

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Goldilocks, The Red Riding Hood

Alli thought he saw a Humpty Dumpty

All the kings clique couldn’t fix Silly Humpty

My my, what big ears you have

Mari was his Goldilocks Goldilocks

Alli bought a golden ring a golden ring

My my, what big eyes you have

Silly Alli sat on a wall

Silly Mari sat on a wall

My my, what big teeth you have

Much like little lady Princess Belle and Beau

Silly Alli and Silly Mari had a great big fall

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Silly you, my one true

These cliches seem to never end

Your care seems to follow this trend

A way of being

A form of seeing

That which was not

Yet, it was in your heart

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Heart tight with remorse

Wishing I was a tortoise

Cart me away

I’ll be in my shell anyway

Hurt me

Love me

I want you to want me

I need you to need me

No black and white, all’s grey

There’s no reward for honesty

Not when you are guilty

I am guilty of being trash

Hide my emotions

I only pay in cash

Don’t see the receipts

Do I know myself

Liar am I

To the best degree

Top shelf

I have told the lie

Eyes glossed, can’t see

Not even myself

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I am Brutus

Repeat

Rinse

Can’t wash

Can’t think

Broken unmendable

Unmentionable

I thought an optimistic thought once

It shot me in the back, I thought ‘twas Brutus

A little birdie survived the nest

Went out and spread its wings

A little birdie loved life believing what’s best

Went out and a damned hunter shot it’s wings

Little birdie flew in the hunting zone

Condemned to never fly, not even alone

I just want to be an egg

Or better yet

An omelette

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Youth

- The undeniable deliciously inedible belief of being indestructible

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Whom do I aim to become. Who indeed. Not a question, yet somehow a statement of who I have been till this very moment. I want to make a difference, I assume everyone does. I want to marry well to a woman like-minded. I want to have a dog, loyal to the bone. I want to know and be known. I want to speak with loud words in silent whispers. I want a look to divulge a novel, and a wink a sonnet.

I need hazy eyes wandering a lovely bride.

I need a hushed movement to clamor flush with meaning.

I need to succor those who are incomprehensibly poor.

I need a sentiment with candor and no resentment.

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Don’t think about the rejection

Don’t think about the pain and hurt

Don’t think about the feeling of your heart slowly being dismantled

Don’t think about the emptiness that’s echoing within

Don’t think about the searing fears of failure that permeate throughout

Don’t think of the icy way she left without a second thought

Don’t think

Don’t

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I smell beans, fast paced scenes

So it seems, I miss homely bliss

That tender motherly kiss

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Craziness abounds in idiosyncrasies.

The thought stronger, the mind somehow weaker.

If only I could find what I’m looking for, if only.

If only becomes obsession, the mind somehow weaker.

Craziness abounds in indiosyncrasies.

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Head back, relax. Thinking to the beginning I can imagine thousands of different ways of winning. Winning your heart, because there were steps I didn’t go through. For one, spending more moments loving you. Instead I kept momentos, I kept away from any real fun. Our love story was nonexistent, completely led astray. Your eventual rejection was a violent display of egoism. Perpetual hurt permeates throughout my heart. I guess I took a big role and part in my own demise. When you left, there was no great reveal or surprise. I let it happen each day each second, slowly with time. Now, after the fact, I think back in rythm and rhyme. I know we made a pact. I knew when we made it we would soon break it. Our love story never really had a start, makes sense it never really had an end. We drift apart, because it was all a lucid hallucination. Not a godsend but more of straight from hell. You had a different vision than I did, ring a bell? I had a hundred and one different scenarios mapped. Nothing new under the sun, my energy was sapped. I couldn’t keep it going anymore. I left you hurt and sore, trust I’m in the know. I guess I’ll relax and just reap what I sow.

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There is a need for instant gratification

That, indeed, plagues the nation

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We spoke at length

We spoke of game

We spoke with conviction and strength

We fueled, sustained, and empassioned a flame

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Today my heart stopped

She came back

I heard the bullet loaded

Click clack, it even popped

The effect oh so dazzling

Luster it didn’t lack

It was somewhat surprising

I prayed to God that she wasn’t lying

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She called today

She told me

She spoke sweet soft words

She comforted my wretched soul

She listened to my pathetic pleas for relief

She heard my voice yearn for quiet reflection

She uttered mercy marred by devastation

She left me wanton and desperate

She savagely left me asunder

She told me

You’re in dismay

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Through the trials of fire, for the flames of grief engulf me