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to the person reading this: you belong here!!! you belong here with us!!! you have a place in this world!!!! your existence is a joy!!!!!! we are lucky to be able to experience the human being that u are!!!!

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You Deserve Life

She was on the side of the road

In tattered clothes

With a runny nose 

And eyes full of water 

She had not a hint of a smile

It was gone for a while 

A self-proclaimed exile 

From the home she knew

He was walking with a lowered head 

Wished he was dead 

Overwhelmed with dread 

Down the aisle of a grocery store 

Clothed in a false security

Aware of his own mortality

Missing an identity 

In need of something whole

And no one stopped to turn to them

No one stopped to say

There’s purpose to your life 

You’re someone not nothing, okay?

They just didn’t understand 

They never planned

Their lives like sand 

In a hourglass

They were never informed

Their lives felt swarmed 

So they conformed 

To who they were told to be

If someone stopped to turn to them 

If someone stopped to say 

They’d know the meaning of their lives

They’d know why they’re here today 

So here’s what I’m saying 

And I’ll make it loud 

Because quiet for convenience 

Has become the new sound 

Let’s tell people Hope is alive

Let’s talk about Jesus’ reign

Over the things holding us hostage

Our lives won’t be mundane 

And I will stop to turn to you

I will stop to say 

There’s purpose to your life

You’re something, not nothing, okay?

You were made for a purpose 

By Someone Who died 

Because you were worth it

You deserve life 

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You fell in love softly 

and that’s alright 

it’s just that I fell hard for you 

and in waiting for you to come around 

 I fell out as you fell in 

~M.M.

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I used to think you saw me

truly, deeply, richly

you know nothing about me

maybe you never did

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I attended a The Oh Hellos ( @theohfficialhellos )  concert this past Friday, which happened to coincide with Good Friday.  One of there songs, Caesar, describes Christ’s Passion, so I had to make a comic and give it to them (I was able to give it to their merch guy, I hope the rest of band saw it!)

On an aside, that night, the concert, was particularly healing for me, as I’ve been going through some dark valleys lately.  Sometimes Gods love appears in the form of a banjo ya know?

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Excerpt from “Fall”

And He tells me,

“Though you may stumble

you will never fall.

And whenever life pushes you,

I will catch you

through it all.

And even if your down,

don’t worry

because you will always rise.

I will always give you my hand

to guide you through life.”

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PERIOD.

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hey do u wanna be married and live in a tiny little apartment together

sounds lovely when can we go

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We Are Broken People

tw: suicide

This is not going to be some sappy letter to the masses about how we're all broken together and it's okay.

This is not okay.

We are broken people.

This isn't another "we've all been there" message where we talk about everyone's struggles.

We haven't all been there.

We are broken people.

This isn't me saying I know exactly what you're feeling.

I don't know everything.

We are broken people.

We are broken people.

We are a generation of war cries.

We are bleeding and screaming and we are still silent.

We are killing ourselves.

We are broken people.

We are broken people.

We are scared to ask for help.

We are not ashamed to take a stand for others.

We forget to care for ourselves.

We are broken people.

This letter is about suicide, in case it was unclear.

We are broken people.

It isn't supposed to be this way.

We are not supposed to hear this every day.

We are not supposed to lose friends and family to themselves.

We are not supposed to.

We are not supposed to be used to it.

We are broken people.

And here is where everyone comes into it.

We are all broken people.

I said this isn't a "we've all been there" letter.

It isn't.

We are all broken people.

We are broken in different ways.

We may not understand why.

We don't have to.

We are broken people.

Both sides of this situation are broken people.

If you have thought about ending your life.

If you have never.

The ones who have, I am proud you are still here. We are fighting through this together.

If you feel you don't have another fan on this planet, I am here.

To the ones who haven't, do not stay silent.

This is and has never been a joke.

This is the world we live in.

Do not stay silent.

We are broken people.

We are broken because we've let this become normal.

We are broken because we gloss over the subject of suicide.

We are broken because we live in an age of media that glorifies it.

We are broken because we use "kill yourself" as an insult.

We are broken because we have forgotten we have life.

We are broken because we have failed to realize the truly beautiful thing that is the air flowing in and out of living lungs,

We are broken because we hear about these tragedies and move on so fast.

We are broken people.

But we dont have to be.

We are broken people.

And we should be trying to heal our broken places.

We should reach for life.

Life is so important.

Whether it is your own or the life of another you've never met.

Life is precious.

You were made to be alive.

You deserve to be alive.

We are broken people

But not forever.

There is life on the other side of this night.

And this is for you.

You.

Yes.

You deserve to breathe another breath.

You deserve to take another step.

You deserve to have your first dance.

You deserve to want to live.

You deserve to have plans for the future.

You deserve to smile again.

You deserve to open your eyes in the morning.

You deserve the good things you've told yourself you don't.

I don't know what you've done.

I don't.

But listen.

You deserve life.

Even you.

You.

You deserve to live.

You will not always be broken people.

You will be whole.

And let me tell you something.

You deserve to be whole.

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Studies by Olga Kim

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everything you could ever wish for is right inside of you 💕

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it’s completely acceptable to stay alive for tiny reasons. because you want to hear your favorite song one more time. because your dog will miss you if you leave. because the moon is just too pretty to never see again. because you haven’t seen the next season of a really good tv show. because you want to see the christmas lights this year. if you’re alive, you’re doing enough. if you’re surviving, i’m proud of you.

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gentle reminder to you — yes, you — that your writing is better than you think it is and it’s okay to feel proud of it

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and it's you again tonight

you are on my mind

and if only I could find

the courage to tell you why

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Friendly Reminder

if your friend makes a joke about killing themselves please don't just let it slide.

Even if they do it all the time, please acknowledge that you heard them.

Thank you.