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I love Payos' friendship with Moo because that boy desperately needs a friend he is not in love with to remind him what that's like. He's in so deep with Potae he's lost sight of everything. Poor boy has forgotten the side of friendship that isn't unrequited love.

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Deep Night Ep 3 Thoughts

Like I said, no self control. And things on my street seemed to have quieted down…for now. I am starting to get sleepy so let’s see how rambly I get. Time for Deep Night 3: A Case of the Sleepies:

I cannot believe it took only 3 seconds after typing that for a car playing the strangest music to drive by. Its still here. Stopped by the light. I have questions. Are they summoning an alien? Are they a forgotten deity trying to regain their lost power? What’s going on with that music?

I want Pan and Seiji to kiss SO BAD. 

Why are there no boys in cages actually?

The vocals in this opening are keeping me from skipping it and that is truly impressive. I have been kindly informed me this OST is by Fellow Fellow and now I have a new obsession. 

Hear me out. Deep Night but women hosts. Wearing beautiful gowns. Still all of the clients are women. Do you see it? Do you see my vision?

This show is surprisingly wholesome?? This is not computing in my brain. I don’t know why I was expecting to be so toxic but I am LIVING for these two sweeties. I hope nothing bad happens

AH THE HANDS

Now wait a minute. Who is driving that car?

Awww Pan. 

*drinks sparkling cider from the bottle* I’m feeling completely sane about all of this. I don’t feel an all encompassing need to give Pan a hug. Definitely not. 

Okay I give Seiji a hug too. He gets a hug. They both get a hug. 

In fact, I tuck them both into bed. I get them a cup of cocoa and read them a bed time story. Then I place a gentle kiss on their foreheads and whisper sweet dreams before leaving them a good night’s rest. They sleep while I hit on Khem’s mom.

THAT IS TOO MANY CANDLES. WHAT IS SUPPORTING THOSE CANDLES? WHO LIT THOSE CANDLES? WHO IS GOING TO PUT OUT ALL OF THOSE CANDLES. THAT IS A FIRE HAZARD I AM STRESSED BEYOND BELIEF. 

LIKE LOOK AT THIS. THIS IS AN EXCESSIVE AMOUNT OF CANDLES. I GET IT. YOU’RE ROMANTIC. BLOW THOSE OUT.

Oooohhh telling Wela about his mom already. I love this. Would love it more if they weren’t surrounded by all those damn candles let me tell ya. 

Oh a blindfold. Why hasn’t this happened so much more often in BL?

Ohhhhh drama. Why tf are cops at the club?

Literally obsessed with Seiji’s outfit. Actually I think I have an outfit similar enough. I could reasonably cosplay that man. 

Listen. Listen. That meme. Seiji’s got two hands (I do know how this ends and they are why I am watching to be clear)

These two are impossibly cute. Absolutely entirely impossibly cute. 

The song during this scene with Seiji and Ken pretending to be a BL couple makes me feel like I’m watching a Disney Channel original movie from the early 2000s.

Mr. DJ man with the wisdom. He is speaking from experience. I should learn his name.

I give these subtitles a C+. They’re doing their best but there are some…issues. 

The jealousy I actually don’t mind here. I think they’re playing this out well. I mean, of course Khem’s jealous. And of course Wela is worried about it. 

What is this? COMMUNICATION? In MY BL? I think I might actually sob I love this. 

The music during this make out session has me feeling some type of way. I don’t know if its making me nervous or not.

See. The thing is. I desperately want to watch episode 4. But I am sleepy. And I work tomorrow. And I need to take a shower and wash my hair. So I need to stop. Which is incredibly rude. I need a three day weekend I think cause I cannot go on like this. So I will continue this liveblog another night. Perhaps tomorrow. Perhaps next weekend. It will happen when it happens.

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Deep Night Ep 2 Thoughts

Just finished watching episode 1 and I am READY for episode 2. I got my cake. My headache is gone. I’m feeling just as rambly as earlier so another cut for you guys:

Khem is a sleepy boy. It makes me sleepy. 

Who wants to help me kill all street noise forever and ever so I can live a quiet and peaceful life but still live in the city? Any takers? No? That’s fair. 

I still want to hug Pan. I cannot explain it. But it feels like my boy needs a hug. 

Seriously WHO sings the opening? Do you know how hard it is to carry a song that relies to heavily on vocals like this? And the vibrato??? I’m losing it. Not only do they have the range but very obviously they have superb vocal control. Someone remind me to look this up later. 

Khem is a little shit but he did grow on me. I knew he would.

Did he spray perfume on a comb? Actually I want that comb. It looks like a very good head scratching comb.

These two are doing desire very well. I bet they’ll kiss pretty. Well I already knew First does desire well cause of Y-Destiny. Which also you cannot convince me his episodes don’t become poly after. You can take the poly out of my cold dead hands.

Look at that. Still in love with Khem’s mom. 

Pan gets immediately caught by Khem. Love it. 

Bitch you gonna blackmail him to not having you escorted out by using the video you were told numerous times by multiple people to stop recording? I’m gonna steal your phone and oops look at that it fell in the toilet. I’m gonna go key her car too. 

I love Pan. So much. Adore him. I want to put him in bubble wrap and protect him for the pain of the world. At all costs. 

The soundtrack for this show isn’t gonna win any awards but it is very good at setting the tone. 

Oooohhhh so me and Khem are the same. Into the drink. Get rid of the phone goodbye

Drunk Wela is so cute. 

I was right. They kiss pretty.

Oh the hands went right down the pants. I do not know what to make of the music in this scene. Fascinating. 

*eats chip* good thing Khem went and hid all of those pictures just for Wela to immediately find one. 

Wrong conclusion my dude. But not a bad one. I am also Freya’s fan. And future spouse..

Pan is my baby. I love him.

I don’t know how to tell y’all this but I dress like Khem. My cardigans aren’t as nice though. 

This scene in Wela’s mother’s restaurant is just about the cutest thing I’ve ever seen. Please tell me that whole scene has many gifs.

Wela’s mom is precious. Love her. 

If I get interrupted by a loud neighbor one more time I might just start crying. Thank god I don’t have a headache anymore can you imagine?

It concerns me how cute they are in episode 2. Like what is gonna happen? I fear. 

Well now I think I gotta watch episode 3. As it turns out I have no self control. 

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Deep Night Ep 1 Thoughts

I tried to start watching this about two hours ago but then my sister called and then I had to run to the store for some pain meds. They really should invent a me without a headache. Anyway I got my meds, a cake, and about a million beverages so I guess it’s time to start. Episode 1: Headache Nation under the cut because boy oh boy did I ramble

Oh this is only 8 episodes? I thought it was 12. This works for me. I do love a good solid 8 episode long show.

*eats pickle* damn they got aerial boys. More of this everywhere please?

Already obsessed with the music. Do you know what gets me every time? Strings. Just listen to the build up they do. Ughsjsjskdjwkd I love string instruments

WHO sings this opening??? I am OBSESSED with their voice. 

Oh to be a beautiful lady in a skintight bodysuit doing aerial tricks by a giant window in a very yellow room. I might be in love with her. I don’t care if she ends up being evil or something. I love her. 

I know its not exactly the same but every time I hear host club I think of them:

Boy take the cookie! Free cookie! I wish I was a hot boy in a BL that was being offered homemade baked desserts. I just remembered I bought a cake. I must pause to go get a slice or I won’t be able to forgive my man for this:

Do I see…a ql character…with glasses???? Gonna need to add this boy to my spreadsheet. Anyway he better keep them. No one spoil me. 

Wait I have the opportunity to do something very funny. To me and to only me. I also bought a bottle of sparkling cider. The best non alcoholic beverage. So I’m gonna drink this straight from the bottle while these boys are stuck getting drunk with actual alcohol at this club. Okay note to self. In the future, open the sparkling cider over the sink. Why are you more adept at opening champagne?

Ooohhhh rivals. Academic rivals. All these business statistics are too much for me. But I’m intrigued. I actually think these two would make good business partners. Perhaps. Could be wrong.

I should probably start learning names. So far all I know is Japan. And also that he’s my favorite. *eats chip*

The music is trying to tell me things are serious but I don’t care enough yet for things to be this serious.

Oh a grandiose staircase. I want a grandiose moment on those stairs. But I want to be wearing sweats and be as unserious as possible. Those stairs have obviously seen far too many serious moments. Those stairs need to see some whimsy. 

I do not think I like Khem. At least not yet. I like Japan and Khem’s mother. I bet Khem will grow on me. But right now he kind of irks me. 

Did Khem show up to this club in a cardigan??? Are cardigans fine at clubs? Where can I find that cardigan I want it.

I am OBSESSED with Khem’s necklace. I am not a big jewelry person but this necklace is absolutely working for me. I mean look at it! The way it rests on his clavicle (I think thats what it is don't look at me) but it draws your eye down to his chest where the shirt under his cardigan is hiding his body but the unbuttoned top button of the cardigan is wanting to show more. Maybe cardigans ARE club attire. But only with that necklace and only on this boy. 

Why does this woman want Khem to live with her? I hope the show helps her remove the stick up her ass. Though I’m not sure the actress can pull off the stern character she’s portraying. It makes me take her a little less seriously and I don’t know if that’s intentional or not. 

Ah I see some fantasies ARE universal. Someone remind me when I’m done watching to reblog gifs of this kiss. Also want to point out how much I love the music in this scene. The whole thing absolutely and incredibly gorgeous. Actually obsessed. Stunning. Everything stunning.

I would like to give Japan a hug actually. 

I’m in love with Khem’s mother. Outta my way gay boy I’m about to become your step parent. 

Me vs. street noise. Who wins? The answer is street noise. Every time. Not even hiding in my hoodie helps.

The GUFFAW that came from me when they show Khem as a valet? Oh they say traffic assistant. I am in LOVE with his mother. 

Either these shows need to stop showing me food or I’m gonna need to make a trip to Thailand because that looks so good. 

These sound effects are SENDING me.

Damn right boy. Get paid. Get that bread. I love him. 

A LAPSIT? In the very first episode? More likely than you’d think. 

This soundtrack reminds me of the Life is Strange soundtrack at times and that is my favorite game soundtrack of all time. 

Okay episode 1 done. I really enjoyed it despite all of the interruptions I dealt with. Time for episode 2! I do not know if I’ll watch more than the first 2 episodes today but I am very excited to keep going. 

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Plan.N.Ent (who have previously done Nitiman) have a new series in the works. There's not much info to go on right now except some character and teaser posters. Apparently the series' international title is I Wish You the Best and it stars Plant.N's own artists Vodka Phitchaphong and another actor named Reain (but sadly his ig doesn't offer any other info).

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My sister and her boyfriend called to ask if they could visit for 4th of July and during this call I have taught them both what omegaverse means

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*flips hair* I have never blocked anyone because I'm nosy, but I want to know #4!

What was the last straw that made you finally block that annoying person?

I am also nosy...to my detriment sometimes. Which is why it takes me so long to actually block people that I should probably have blocked a lot sooner. But I do have a story.

4. what was the last straw that made you finally block that annoying person?

I've kind of vaguely mentioned this when asked before but I'll talk a tiny bit more specifically here. Not too specific because I'm not trying to start shit buuuuut....also they are definitely not the only person I've blocked but I think they might be the most recent one? I don't know.

About a year(?) ago I had to block a couple of people because they were starting to make me uncomfortable. I was being tagged in all sorts of posts (and to be clear the posts weren't bad, they were even positive! kind posts even) and something about what was happening was rubbing me the wrong way.

Actually before I keep talking about this, I feel like I need to talk a tiny bit about myself because it's important context. This also might surprise people considering how much I overshare on here, but I am, at my core, an extremely private person. I do not like attention. I get anxiety when my follower count goes up here (genuinely love all of my followers and this is definitely a me problem). I live in fear of being secretly recording for some stranger's tiktoks. I don't want my face seen by people. I do not wish to be perceived. It is 100% a trauma response and I am aware of all of this. And this is extremely important to why I blocked these people.

It is slightly easier for me on tumblr than it is in real life, but this is quite literally my safe space that I have built for myself. It's why I'm comfortable sharing things here. I have no issue being tagged in posts. I have no issue with people wanting to talk about things I've said or if they tag me because they want me to see something. So getting tagged in seemingly genuinely kind and positive posts should be fine, right?

Well, yes and no. The posts I was being tagged in felt...hollow to me. Like I was being tagged in an attempt to build a platform instead of because they actually wanted to tag me. I was being tagged in posts thanking me for participating in a fandom which kind of made it seem like the reason I was posting about anything was for accolades and that...is simply not why I'm here. I am not here to gain a following. I am not here to build a platform or to help others build a platform. I am here to post silly little posts about my shows and my life and also now keep track of character's glasses. If I wanted to build a platform, tumblr is not what I would be using (and honestly if I wanted to, I genuinely think I could be pretty successful at building a platform and gaining followers and other platforms. I would consider myself highly marketable if I wanted to go into that industry).

But the last straw for me? What finally did it? Why I finally blocked the people whose vibes have felt off for me and clearly did not know me well enough to know that doing what they were doing was quite literally the opposite of something I am comfortable with? It was when someone (again not naming names because I don't think they had bad intentions but were just so horrendously misguided as to allow themselves to ignorantly do this) who did not follow me, did not reblog any of my posts, did not like any of my posts, had never replied to any of my posts, nor had they ever interacted with my blog or with me in any type of way (I checked because I'm nosy enough and petty enough to have checked that) tagged me in a post. To thank me. For participating in a fandom. And I am not saying anyone has to do any of those things. But if you're gonna tag me to thank me for participating...perhaps maybe at least like one of my posts about the thing you're thanking me for?

To be clear, this was a show that a lot of people were talking about at the time. I was not the only person tagged in these posts. I was for sure not the only person talking about the show. In fact, I probably posted a tenth of what other people posted. If that. And my posts, honestly, weren't very well thought out or coherent. They were my typical little silly posts. And I know people like those. But they weren't the same as what other people were posting. And to be tagged by someone that seemed to only care when it was something that could gain them notes and followers instead of someone who actually enjoyed what I was saying? Felt strange to me. And rather than start beef with a stranger on the internet I blocked them.

Blocking them solved the issue that was making me uncomfortable as peacefully as I felt I could. They no longer had the ability to tag me in strangely performative posts and I didn't start yelling at a stranger and potentially ruin their day. Or start drama that no one else needed to be involved in. I did make a small post about it at the time mostly because I felt so weirded out and I did feel a little bit bad about blocking them. But it was such a quiet thing that no one noticed and everyone moved on with their lives. Made things happier. For me at least. Probably happier for them too.

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Let’s get the chaos started… number 3.

Ooooo you really meant it when you said let's get the chaos started.

3. screenshot or description of the worst take you’ve seen on tumblr

Not gonna lie, I used to have screenshots of things but I cannot find a single one. I don't even remember why I had the screenshots. Well that's a lie. I remember why I had them but not the context or what it was even about. (If you want to know why I had the screenshots that's a different story for a different ask and I honestly probably won't share it because I might choose violence but I'm not malicious and sharing that story at this point would be mean and malicious cause the whole thing is over now and has been for...probably damn near a year)

So a description of the worst take I've seen on tumblr? This is tough because I have been on tumblr for a very long time and I have seen some just god awful takes. I could talk about people defending the romanticization of manipulation again, I could talk about people defending sending any form of hate to anyone for any reason but particularly for not sharing the same opinion, but instead I think I want to talk about something I saw somewhat recently.

Why on god's green earth am I still seeing people conflating actors and the characters they play in the year of our lord 2024? I genuinely saw someone use the actor's names in place of the character's names when referencing a sex scene and certain movements of the characters during the scene. I actually had to shut down my laptop and take a walk after seeing that. Because good god.

Listen, I know that pair branding and fan service exists. I know actors have contracts and are paid to do these things. I know all of that. But I also know that at the end of the day, that's their job. And I know it can get confusing sometimes because of that. But I'm gonna need some people to take a step back and reexamine the way they are interacting with the media they're watching. Especially the high heat media. Because the second the pants come off, some people's common sense just goes out the window.

This is not to say that I don't like high heat shows, in fact some of my favorite shows are high heat and I enjoy those scenes, but I never, never ever never conflate the characters and the actors. And that's not just dangerous because of the high heat scenes. Some of these actors play awful and villainous characters and they are very good at their job. And that's just it. It's their job. They aren't the characters they play. They aren't even the persona they put on for the fans. They are their own people and to act like they aren't is quite frankly terrifying to me.

So by all means, talk about the sex scenes! Talk about the pair brands! Talk about the fan service! But for the love of god, do not get those confused. The people you watched in that high heat scene were the characters not the actors and quite frankly it scares me that anyone needs that said.

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I'm just saying that Yuan went after Qian's neck like

it was

the air

he has been

missing

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🔥 choose violence ask game 🔥

the character everyone gets wrong

a compelling argument for why your fave would never top or bottom

screenshot or description of the worst take you've seen on tumblr

what was the last straw that made you finally block that annoying person?

worst discord server and why

which ship fans are the most annoying?

what character did you begin to hate not because of canon but because how how the fandom acts about them?

common fandom opinion that everyone is wrong about

worst part of canon

worst part of fanon

number of fandom-related words you've filtered

the unpopular character that you actually like and why more people should like them

worst blorboficiation

that one thing you see in fics all the time

that one thing you see in fanart all the time

you can't understand why so many people like this thing (characterization, trope, headcanon, etc)

there should be more of this type of fic/art

it's absolutely criminal that the fandom has been sleeping on...

you're mad/ashamed/horrified you actually kind of like...

part of canon you found tedious or boring

part of canon you think is overhyped

your favorite part of canon that everyone else ignores

ship you've unwillingly come around to

topic that brings up the most rancid discourse

common fandom complaint that you're sick of hearing

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Well look at that. Heckin unanimous. I’ll be liveblogging Deep Night I guess

I POSTED IT TO THE WRONG BLOG LIKE AN IDIOT. Let’s try this again:

Sorrt if you voted on the other one but that blog is for glasses only. Not my potentially unhinged ramblings

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Han dropped a banger today and honestly listening to it just pulled me out of whatever mental funk I was just in. Bless

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We have not had internet for an hour and a half. It is Friday. Why will they not let us go home?

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Did this while I was supposed to be working oops. I was tagged by the wonderful @pose4photoml to post what I collect so I figured why not? Cause I collect a lot of stuff:

1. Umbrellas - Obviously. I have a very specific design that I’m looking for right now that is very hard to find I might need to have one custom made.

2. Shot glasses - I used to have a much larger collection but it is no more. However, my older brother used to travel a lot for work and even thougb he lives 1000 miles away, he always picks up a shot glass for me wherever he travels so he can give it to me next time we’re together.

3. Travel mugs/reusable water bottles - I drink a lot. I am very well hydrated. It’s rare you catch me without some type of beverage.

4. Cardigans - I love a good cardigan. And also my desk at work is haunted so I need a cardigan to keep me warm

5. Manga - One day I will have space for just a manga shelf. One day.

6. Cruel polls - y’all already know and I’m sorry but not sorry enough to stop doing it

7. QL characters that wear glasses

I’m sure there are more things. I like my things. Looking at them makes me happy. But that’s all I can think of off the top of my head. Anyway not tagging anyone specifically but if you want to do it than *boop* you’ve been tagged

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Thailand Part 1

Thailand puts out so much BL it will have multiple polls. Sometime. Eventually.

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the screencap folder this was in is called "baby bird behavior" in my laptop

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I POSTED IT TO THE WRONG BLOG LIKE AN IDIOT. Let’s try this again:

Sorrt if you voted on the other one but that blog is for glasses only. Not my potentially unhinged ramblings