iguessmynamesbiscuit

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We made a blog, @syscringe-posting !

If you’re not into syscourse, that’s fine. I intend to crosspost syscringe posts and talk about them there.

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Just watched Sebastian casually try and take a bite out of my ears and I turned to look at him and he just acted like he was yawning.

And I’m the catboy here??

-Felix

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What’s it like having ARFID?

Tw for weight, eating disorders, and vomit

I have moderate-severe ARFID, “avoidant restrictive food intake disorder”. In summary, I can’t eat a lot of things, for a variety of reasons. Because of how restrictive my diet is, I’m resting at an unhealthy 70-100lbs. It fluctuates depending on access to food.

My main reasons for the restrictive intake is sensory problems, contamination anxiety, and food anxiety.

I have autism, and included in that is some severe texture and taste sensitivity. I can’t handle the crunch of any fried food. I can’t handle the texture of cooked vegetables/fruit. I don’t like the viscosity of any protein supplementing drinks. It’s a long process to recover from sensory problems, and I’m still in therapy for it.

Secondly, contamination anxiety. I’m not officially diagnosed with OCD yet, but I have almost all the contamination anxiety symptoms. I found a spider in my yogurt once, two years ago, and I still won’t eat yogurt to this day. I don’t eat anything even slightly past the due date, or if it smells off in any way. I sometimes even go as far as not eating food if someone’s sneezed or coughed near me.

And finally, food anxiety. I’m so used to not having a stable food source, even living as a middle class white ameircan. My parents buy me food, but my brain prevents me from eating most of it. Because of this, when I am given food I can eat, I will eat as much as possible, usually making myself sick or throwing up. The smell of that smelling like the food I just ate then makes me not eat the food anymore.

It’s a self perpetuating cycle. I’ve made significant progress of coming from 75lbs in January to 100lbs in October now, which is major progress. But I’m still a long ways from being healthy, and I’ll likely have to live like this for the rest of my life.

Thank you for reading/listening to my story :)

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I just tried to alt tab irl into headspace I feel so stupid

I need to not be on the computer so much

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hi biscuit! hope you have a nice and chill time here :3

tell pebbles that i like its name :3

Thank you!! I’m hoping this community is nicer than where I was before.

Pebbles says thank you as well :) (he’s not the best with emotions atm)

-Felix

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Funnily enough, the reason I’m named biscuit is *not* because I like biscuits. I actually despise them. The texture is awful. (I have severe ARFID and autism)

I got the name from my friend, autumn, they needed a way to refer to “my syscringe friend” without immediately seeming like I’m a bad guy. We came up with the name biscuit for me! I’ve just stuck with it since.

The full story between us is quite long, but in summary they made friends with me when I was still a syscringer. They were the reason I reformed. Thank you autumn.

(Autumn is no longer a system, they left the community due to harassment a few months ago and realized they weren’t a system anymore.)

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Hello! I’m biscuit!

I’m a 16yo endogenic system, I used to be a syscringer but as of ~half a year ago, I made friends with a few systems and reformed. I realized I was an endogenic system myself, and I’m much happier now!

We’ve got 10 headmates, some of which I will not list but the most frequent right now are

Felix, he/they

Sebastian, he/they/it

Gabriel, he/it

Lucas, he/him

N, he/it

And pebbles, he/it

We are still friends with a few bad people, but we’re looking for better friends.