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"اللهم البصيرة و النور و اليُسر و الإنشراح أينما ولينا وجوهنا" . . أشياء كثيرة حصلت من آخر تحديث لي هنا، و الحمدلله حققت أشياء حلوه و قطعت ثلاث أرباع الطريق لهدفي 🤍. الحمدلله على كل حال، حلو او سيء، حنا بنعمة لا تُقدر بثمن، و أياً كان الي يحصل محد يدري وين الخيرة فيه، و بيقين تام الخير فيما اختاره الله 🤍. #خلك_في_البيت It’s been a while since my last update, a lot of things happened, accomplished and, thankfully, achieved 🤍. I’m so grateful for everything, bad and good, ups and downs, everything happens for a reason and whatever it was, it is the best for us. I do hope everyone is safe and healthy. #stayhome and #stayhealthy . . . . . #friday #morning #sunset #sea #seacolors #sky #skycolors #photography #photographer #nature #pinksky #pinksea https://www.instagram.com/p/B-yPvmphnry/?igshid=gzygcfda152x

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It’s my half way through.. ✨ It’s a real hard work ! A way to be only stronger, completely independent and responsible with every tiny decisions.. to run to what good for you -and you are the only one who knows that- الحمدلله على كل صغيره و كبيره ♥️ . . . . #masterstudentlife https://www.instagram.com/p/B4k0ICkhJkd/?igshid=r810rnsir0pz

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" على الأرجح أن هناك حكمة و غاية من تساقط كل هذه الأحداث على عاتقك دفعة واحده، هناك رحمة و خير كثير، هناك فوز ساحق و و نهاية تليق بجهدك و تعبك الذي أسرفت فيه، هناك فصل رائع يستحق كل هذا الصمود و الثبات" بمعنى آخر، توكل على الله دائماً، و الخيرة فيما اختاره الله. ✨♥️ . . . . #تذكر #توكل_على_الله #reminder #night #citylights #friday #october #sunset #photooftheday #photography #photographer #sky #mountain #mountains #countryside https://www.instagram.com/p/B3fYHkfhfSr/?igshid=1svp4cumgvfxo

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“تفاعل مع الموجود، و لا يشغلك المفقود" -Tedx , محمد المطيري . . . . #sunset #clouds #white #gray #blue #sky #tedx #tedxksu #tedxtalks #nature #abovethesky https://www.instagram.com/p/B09Z2o5B9ui/?igshid=1c6k829g2lhww

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“Don’t revolve your life around one person, one feeling, one place, memory or one problem. The complexity of life and diversity of the world is beautiful and you have the right to explore. Do not settle for less when you deserve so much more.” A saying to REALLY think about it. . . . . #saturday #cloud #clouds #sky #bluesky #blue #white #quote #quoteoftheday #thinkaboutit #life #world #diversity #complexity #nature #mentalnote #mentalhealth https://www.instagram.com/p/Bz1Y51CBo96/?igshid=c22644rluya3

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"اللهم انك عفوٌ كريمٌ تحب العفو فاعفُ عنا" ✨🌙 . . . . #pink #flowers #green #ramadan #ramadannights #tbt #kalanchoe #kalanchoeblossfeldiana #plant #indoorplants #indoor https://www.instagram.com/p/BxyM2FJhq1y/?igshid=upr7c800i0w4

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11.05.2019

I don't know how to react to this actually ! 

is it a good sign to stop doing it since it is forbidden ? which is a positive way to see it, really, very positive ! and I have been thinking to stop celebrating it along with new year thing 

and/or a punch in the face from someone I just recovered from her acting and behavior ? a punch to stop expecting things from people, specially her.

it my 25th birthday.. it just a few hours.. a very first ones 

I was so damn happy at the 12:00 am and now, 2:09 am, and I feel so dawn ! my shoulders are hurt I don’t know why! maybe from the tension !

12:30 am, and I checked, nothing with mind of excuse for her that she is working, poor thing.

I replied to one of her msgs to see if she had a connection, and two checks 

1:00 am, still nothing, with same excuse for her, awww poor her

1:15 am, I called with a huge enthusiasm waiting for “ HAPPY BIRTHDAY” but what hit me was a voice with the most bored tone and I just said “ oh, are you working?” “no” -bad connection and I can’t say what she is saying- “I can’t hear you, talk to you later, bad connection” 

Hung up 

few minutes, with thoughts of she might be sad ? or something wrong with her! 

“heeey” I said “change of planes” saying nothing about my birthday or even clues

she was talking and I was searching of what she wrote for my birthday last year , I know pathetic, she pranked me last year but she didn’t forgot ! and yeas I was right … I felt so down but I was trying to keep it together and I succeed, poor me.

I made excuses for her, ones I didn’t mention them above, even after the huge disappointed that she did to me before and after a long time to recover, I still made excuses for her ! 

I know still just two hours and half have just passed and she might still prank-ing me ! but I am so disappointed and I made up my mind that I not only lower my expectations but have NO expectations from her .. AT ALL .. AT ALL TIME ! 

I love her, that’  why - I think - I keep making excuses for her, but I love myself much more to let her -myself- feel down because of someone who doesn't sense the wrongness of their action. 

a hit of growth, a hit to love myself more, a hit to expect nothing form EVERYBODY no exception, a hit to stop celebrating it since it is forbidden. 

الله يعوضني ... الشكوى لك يارب قد إيش أكلت على راسي منها 

بس خيرة حصل هالشي عشان أوقف أحتفل فيه .. يارب القوة و يارب العوض و المغفرة

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1/5/2019 - Wednesday My birth month started with my favorite day and Ramadan will be on the 6th , how lucky I am ! ✨ . . . #wednesday #ramadan #ramadan2019 #lucky #sky # clouds #sunset #photography #photooftheday #may #birthmonth #birthday #yellow #blue #white #offwhite #رمضان https://www.instagram.com/p/Bw7rBR_hiy9/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=fkjb0bi74tfb

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Wed, 3 Apr 2019 27 Raj. 1440 AH Was the first step in the journey (practical part) 👩🏻‍🔬✨ I do hope, this whole journey with all its success, failure, obstacles and ease will be at the very end a great one, fulfill with wonderful and unforgettable moments ♥️ اللهم اني أسألك من خيرها و أعوذ بك من شرها ♥️ . . . . #wednesday #april #newjourney #scientist #friday #tgif #coffee #university #lattecup #coffeelatte https://www.instagram.com/p/Bv4QocbB3n0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=q7yt6o51zzvr

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“ when there is no enemy within. The enemy outside, can do us no harm “ . . . . #photographertobe #photogropher #photography #qout #march #dayoff #rose #plant #white #soil #nature #naturephotography #Wednesday #outdoors #inn #taif #privet #ksa #pink #green #garding #garden #selfimprovment #nofilter #nofilterneeded https://www.instagram.com/p/BurOMy-hboO/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=u5wkjoh70rsz

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كُف عينيك عن رزق غيرك، تُرزق ✨ A place that I had never get enough of it whenever I visit it 🌱 . . . #photography #photographer #photographertobe #inn #mountainhouse #woodenhouse #plants #greenandbrown #resthouse #resort #inksa #goodmorning #taif #cold #winter #plants #interior #wednesday #wednesdaywisdom https://www.instagram.com/p/BuFAuy-hiz7/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=14rz52n51273y

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✨ . . . #dailylife #tbt #dailypicture #dailypic #dailypost #cafe #benecafe #korean #koreancafe #cup #quote #wakeup #wakeupquote #koreanquote #coffee #coffeeporn #coffeelatte #coffeeaddict #korea #koreancafe #photography #photographertobe https://www.instagram.com/p/Btn8ig-hZlo/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=t371o0bnbyrd

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‏"If it costs you your inner peace, it is too expensive” 31.1.2019 ✨ I know it will be a very long road filled with obstacles but I know I will end it with great changes that will benefit me. توكلت على الله و لا حول و لا قوة الا بالله العلي العظيم ♥️ . . . . #clouds #white #blue #sky #photographyaddict #photographer #photography #photooftheday #photofornewbeginning #new #begin #beginning #thursday #2019 #31012019 #nofilter #nofilterneeded #nature #الخميس https://www.instagram.com/p/BtS4PWHhAjn/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1r0w2gqwb6s3e

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Current status: Normal outside, but a hurricane inside. "الله وحده يعلم، الله وحده الملاذ" خليك قريب من الله، و حب نفسك، و الباقي الله يحفظهم. . . . . #photographyaddict #cloud #airplane #window #airplanewindow #wing #airplanewing #abovetheclouds #white #blue #hurricane #tuesday #tbt #outside #outsidethewindow #loveyourself #allahonlyknows #photography #photographer #photographertobe #january #monday #stillmonday #sudiaairline #currentstatus https://www.instagram.com/p/BtMUEWnB6mr/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=yi8k0klzxlbn

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سمستر بدون كورسات، و لا أحلى 👌🏼♥️ الله يتمم بس . The moon during the sunset 🌕✨ . . . #dailylife #tbt #dailypicture #dailypic #moon #moonduringsunset #nature #naturelove #naturephotography #sky #lookup #skylover #skycolors #purpleshade #blueshade #fullmoonrising #fullmoon #photography #photographer #photographertobe #photographylovers #photographyislife #photographyeveryday #photographysoul #photographyaccount #photographyisart #photographyaddict https://www.instagram.com/p/BsvsSWJhyh0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=dhx48r7zkmhb

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Choose yourself first. Care for it. Have a day off to escape from all kinds of stress. With one condition, turn your phone off, believe me you won’t miss a thing. On that day off, do everything you want to do, anything to recharge yourself. Even if it’s just laying in bed doing nothing with most importantly to not think of anything that related to stress or cause you to overthink a matter. And on daily basis, don’t listen to anything that may affect your day or your mood. Bad news could wait till you’re ready. It is all about your mental health. No one would care about you but you. في الأخير، دلع نفسك. اهتم فيها. ما لك احد غيرها. و دائماً استودعها ربي. . . . . . #November #blackandwhite #street #riyadh #hearttoheart #yourself #mentalhealth #chooseyourself #toyou #الي_بخاطري #حاجه_لازم_تعرفها #life #stressfree #itsallaboutyou #care #arabic #road #sunset #cloud #cars #mustknow https://www.instagram.com/p/BqX0I4zBYkC/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=16ckig98ew7t9

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9.12.2018 🗓 I took the very first and fundamental step in my journey. I will make myself and my parents proud ان شاء الله ✨. الله يجعله طريق خير و بركه و اصادف أشياء حلوة و أكوِّن ذكريات جميلة و يبعد عني كل من فيه شر 🙏🏼♥️. . . . . #december #thebeginning #bouquet #pink #green #white #sunday #highhops #tobecontinued https://www.instagram.com/p/BrPnamohKAk/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=z9qd6icfs2dq