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Old Feelings

Summary: It’s been 2 year since Y/N & Shawn broke up, but one faithful day may just bring them back together.

A/N: An old draft I never got to publish but here it is. Will I continue it? The world may mever know. Angst on angst on angst

Another day, another 24 hours flying by without thinking about him, and living your best life.

At least that’s what you continued to tell yourself 3 times a day for the past 2 years. You’ve heard breakups were hard but never knew just how difficult it could be, when that person impacted your life tremendously.

The day Shawn Mendes entered your life, it changed for the better. You saw the world differently in the most bright, positive way. He brought indescribable feelings upon you, and you wanted more. Until December 12th, 2017 happened.

The day you realized, you couldn’t keep up with Shawn. He was becoming more and more successful, following his dreams, gaining the attention and adoration from people across the globe. How selfish would it have been for a small town girl like you to hold him back from his new life? It only took one note, and one voicemail to end it all, but it was going to take centuries to forget it all.

Occasionally you’d see his posts from social media and notice his smile just a little bit smaller than before. It tore your heart, but news from tabloids about his new famous girlfriend hurt even more. Yet, you couldn’t feel sad about it, after all this was good news…for him. He’s happy living his best life just like you should be.

Then March 1st, 2019 happened. That faithful day, you decided it was the perfect day to grab a celebratory green tea latte after a crazy week of work.

“Hi, what can I get you honey?”, the barista cheerfully asked.

“I’ll get a –” you were interrupted by a long lost familiar voice that called out your name.

“Y/N?”, his calm voice asked in disbelief.

“Oh.. hey.” you quietly responded, looking back at the barista. “Umm, can I get an iced green tea latte?”

“Sure thing, sweetie.” the barista wrote up your order and went on her way to create your drink. It only takes 5 minutes for your drink to be made, but what was supposed to feel like 5 felt like an eternity of awkwardness.

The boy you left 2 years ago had just re-entered your life, and was standing next to you. What were you supposed to say, if anything at all?

“Y/N…Please…” he finally spoke out.

You shook your head. “Don’t.. just don’t”, looking at him with pleading eyes. You were doing so well getting over him, he couldn’t ruin that for you.

“Im not the one who left. I just…God I just..I just think we should talk.” he looked into your eyes trying to find some answer. A hint to why you left when he was all in from the beginning. “Please? You at least owe me that.”

You should have said no. That would be the smart thing to do. Say no, walk away, and forget him all over again. But what came out of your mouth was far more stupid, dangerous, and possibly more deadly. “Okay. Let’s talk.”

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I just read your pep talk and it’s honestly just what I needed. I was almost in tears, I try not to tell people these feelings because they won’t understand but you did and thank you. Just thank you ♥️

Youre so so sooo welcome anon. I know its tough but like I said it will all blow over soon and youre gonna get through it ❤️❤️❤️

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Yall know I hate talking about my opinions towards Shawns dating life on here BUT I wrote this and knew people would feel the same after the whole Senorita drama.

Truthfully I know its weird but sometimes you get so invested in Shawn it feel like youre close to him however close you want to percieve and sometimes shit happens and it can hurt you. So heres a quick pep talk. ❤️

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Holy shit. This was a year ago and still my favorite thing ever.

But also...

Holy shit a year ago since I graduated college 😱

Graduation is in 9 days and y’all know I had to decorate my cap Shawn Mendes Style

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Old Feelings

Summary: It’s been 2 year since Y/N & Shawn broke up, but one faithful day may just bring them back together.

A/N: An old draft I never got to publish but here it is. Will I continue it? The world may mever know. Angst on angst on angst

Another day, another 24 hours flying by without thinking about him, and living your best life.

At least that’s what you continued to tell yourself 3 times a day for the past 2 years. You’ve heard breakups were hard but never knew just how difficult it could be, when that person impacted your life tremendously.

The day Shawn Mendes entered your life, it changed for the better. You saw the world differently in the most bright, positive way. He brought indescribable feelings upon you, and you wanted more. Until December 12th, 2017 happened.

The day you realized, you couldn’t keep up with Shawn. He was becoming more and more successful, following his dreams, gaining the attention and adoration from people across the globe. How selfish would it have been for a small town girl like you to hold him back from his new life? It only took one note, and one voicemail to end it all, but it was going to take centuries to forget it all.

Occasionally you’d see his posts from social media and notice his smile just a little bit smaller than before. It tore your heart, but news from tabloids about his new famous girlfriend hurt even more. Yet, you couldn’t feel sad about it, after all this was good news…for him. He’s happy living his best life just like you should be.

Then March 1st, 2019 happened. That faithful day, you decided it was the perfect day to grab a celebratory green tea latte after a crazy week of work.

“Hi, what can I get you honey?”, the barista cheerfully asked.

“I’ll get a –” you were interrupted by a long lost familiar voice that called out your name.

“Y/N?”, his calm voice asked in disbelief.

“Oh.. hey.” you quietly responded, looking back at the barista. “Umm, can I get an iced green tea latte?”

“Sure thing, sweetie.” the barista wrote up your order and went on her way to create your drink. It only takes 5 minutes for your drink to be made, but what was supposed to feel like 5 felt like an eternity of awkwardness.

The boy you left 2 years ago had just re-entered your life, and was standing next to you. What were you supposed to say, if anything at all?

“Y/N...Please...” he finally spoke out.

You shook your head. “Don’t.. just don’t”, looking at him with pleading eyes. You were doing so well getting over him, he couldn’t ruin that for you.

“Im not the one who left. I just…God I just..I just think we should talk.” he looked into your eyes trying to find some answer. A hint to why you left when he was all in from the beginning. “Please? You at least owe me that.”

You should have said no. That would be the smart thing to do. Say no, walk away, and forget him all over again. But what came out of your mouth was far more stupid, dangerous, and possibly more deadly. “Okay. Let’s talk.”

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First Kiss

A/N: So I just started school two days ago & I wanna cry, but its okay because listening to Shawn in the car to and from school makes it all better. Also I got inspired to write this because of New Girl, which y'all should watch. It’s so funny!

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What You Need

Summary: Y/N has been on edge, struggling with making the biggest decision in her life, but Shawn knows exactly what she needs to make her feel better.

A/N: Wow it’s been a while L O L. 

To say the past month has been stressful is a complete understatement. The past month was complete hell for you. It wasn’t supposed to go this far, you simply just wanted to apply to a new job in the city and see how far you'd get through the interview process.You weren’t prepared for them to actually give you the job and now face decision on whether to take it or not.

“I can’t do it. I can’t take the job.” you groaned on your boyfriend’s couch.

Shawn looked up at you with disbelief. “What? Why? I thought you were excited about working for this company.”

You picked your head up looking at him, “I was...but they’re not offering me as much as I thought. I make the same amount as my other job but it’s here in the city. Do you know how much money that will take out of my salary just to commute and pay for my apartment? Plus benefits, plus taxes, plus retirement? It’s just not worth it.” 

He put his guitar down and sauntered over to sit next to you, placing his arms around you. “You could always counter offer, you know. See, if they’ll give you more money.”

“But it’s entry level Shawn. No company in their right mind would pay an extra $15,000 a year for a junior like me. Even if I have more experience from my job now, they wouldn’t.”

“Hey, don’t sell yourself short. That’s all the more reason why they should offer you more. Because you’re hardworking, intelligent, experienced, beautiful, --”

“Okay, that’s what you’re supposed to think. You’re my boyfriend.“ you rolled your eyes. 

Shawn chuckled at the response as he pressed his lips to your hair. “I may be your boyfriend, but I always tell you my honest opinion. You have so much potential. Please just try. The worst they can do is say no we can’t go higher. At least you still have your current job and it’s their lost. If they want the best, they'll have to pay for the best.” 

After a moment of silence and comfort, he quickly checked his watch and started to get up from the couch. “I’m gonna go grab some food. I’ll be back soon. Okay?” You nodded silently as he kissed your temple and then your pouty lips. Taking Shawn’s advice you took out your laptop and started writing the best damn counter offer letter anyone has ever created. 

You hear the door creak open, as you looked up to see your boyfriend with more food than you and him could possibly handle. “Babe, why so much food? I know I’m stressing but I don’t stress eat THAT much!”

“Because Im here!” a familiar figure popped through the door. You couldn’t believe it. It was your best friend since day 1. You hadn’t seen her in months since she moved to Vancouver for her new job. 

“Spence?! What are you doing here?!” you asked in excitement, Your gloomy mood, quickly disappearing. 

“I knew how stressed you were this past month, so i called Spence to see if she could come visit you. I know you needed and missed her more than anything during times like this.” Shawn explained, shrugging his shoulders. 

You looked at your cuddly giant of a boyfriend. You couldn't believe he’d asked your best friend to visit you. Shawn knew exactly what you needed and for that it gave you more reasons to continuously love him. “I love you, you know?”

“I love you too. And Y/N, whether this new job gives you the extra money or not, If you truly want to work there, you could always come live with me here. It could be our apartment. Our home. You wouldn’t have to worry about moving because I’d take care of you. Even if Im away for tour, you'd have a piece of me, and you’d be so much closer and live comfortably and--”

You cut off his explanations with a passionate kiss, smiling against his lips.”I really do love you.”

He brushes the strands of hair covering your face, stroking his thumb against your cheekbone.“I love you too.” he whispers, giving you one last kiss before leaving you and your best friend alone to destress. 

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I forgot how funny this was. Now I wanna play Uno!

It was just another quiet and rainy day for London. Shawn had just finished two concerts in Europe, and today was his day off. Of course on a cold and rainy day like this there wasn’t much to do outside. So, he stayed inside the tour bus, with a guitar in hand, trying to figure out some new melodies for his next album.

Thankfully he wasn’t alone. Geoff was with him trying to help him figure out the lyrics, while his girlfriend was at the table finishing up her final paper for the semester. As for his best friend Brian, he was completely bored out of his mind that no amount of filming crazy snapchat videos could suffice the boredom. That was until he suggested a simple yet deadly game to you three. A game that could break all friendships and relationship. A game that goes by the name UNO. 

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The mood is still real.

Fangirling is easily 50X funnier when you capture it in slow motion.

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I quite enjoyed writing this piece.

Sleepy

“Y/N…..Are you falling asleep on me already?!” Shawn asked me as I felt the slight vibrations from his soft chuckle.

My eyes were having a difficult time to remain open, so lazily I looked at his face and gave a weak smile “Mhmmmm…” I replied in denial.

“Really? So what did I just say?” He challenged, shifting his arms.

“Something about a horses face being disfigured.” I mumbled.

Shawn shook his head, continuing to play with my hair. “Or could just be talking about how Brian did his first photo shoot.”

“Is there a difference?”

“No, I guess you’re right on that. So what did you—-Babe really?” He laughed as he heard the snores escaping my lips. Once again, he nudged my shoulder to bring me back. “Did you get enough sleep since I’ve been gone?”

“I have, it’s just that—-“

“What?” He asked now extremely curious.

I looked into his brown eyes through the dark, and let out a sigh. “I sleep much more easily with you around. Being in your arms, staring into your eyes, hearing your voice and the pace of your breaths…it’s so calming.”

Again I started to drift back into sleep but this time Shawn had let me remain in peace. He kissed the top of my head as he stroked my arm. “I sleep better when I’m with you too.”

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Fangirling is easily 50X funnier when you capture it in slow motion.

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I Need a Full Cover of Shawn Singing ‘I Like It’

I don’t just mean a proper cover

I’m taking replacing rocks and nights with rice.

Funky glasses for a music video.

And getting sprayed with a water jet.

If y’all didn’t think that challenge was gold last night....you’re wrong.

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The college that I just graduated from is gonna start their fall semester in 2 days....It’s so weird to think I won’t be going there anymore 😥

Graduation is in 9 days and y’all know I had to decorate my cap Shawn Mendes Style

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A Concept

But like imagine doing those insane escape rooms ( I’m talking like 5 Witz: Escape Room) with Shawn, and a bunch of other friends.

Y’all enter a room where lights start flicking off, doors are closed, and loud sounds of walls crumbling, and evil laughter fill the room.

But in that moment, standing next to Shawn, both of you instinctively reach for the others hands, lacing your fingers with his, and holding on tight. Because it’s basically Shawn’s way of saying “I got you. It’s okay.” without actually saying it.

Even if it is just a silly little game.

Yeah….I’d liked that.

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Have you told someone you love Shawn Mendes today?

My Day Is Not Complete Unless I’ve Told Someone that “I Love Shawn Mendes”.

“I don’t know if you know this but…I love Shawn Mendes l really do.”

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So....Thoughts on creating a YouTube Channel 🤔

Sorry for being so quiet lately but a potential project of mine has been in the works.

I may or may not be in the works of creating a YouTube Channel but just curious....How many of you guys would be in to that?

ALSO NEED IDEAS ON WHAT I SHOULD DO, so if you guys wanna see anything...Let me know!

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You grow up, everyone moves on You’re just learning You stay true to yourself Changing isn’t a bad thing and it never was But at the end of the day you know, you’re the same person And, and where your heart is, that doesn’t change

It happened guys! I’m officially a college graduate ❤️