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I am a whole new person than I was two years ago. But not in a good way. I’m not a new person in the way that I’ve grown and changed and become a better version of me, I’m a new person because i couldn’t possibly look back at who I was and see the same reflection in the mirror now. I am not in the same body, I do not have the same mind. My heart is tough, my soul is shattered, and my knees are scraped. My body is not home, I am not home. My friends are dead and that version of me lies with them.

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I wish I was skinny enough for a crop top and a skirt and short and cute clothes and to exist and skinny jeans and low rise jeans and tight shirts and cute bralettes

But I’m lying and my brain is sick. I can wear all those clothes and more. My body is allowed to exist how it is and I’m allowed to want to change it but it needs to be in a healthy way. My body is allowed to be a body even though it’s not stereotypically attractive and accepted. My brain is sick and I am allowed to exist.

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Tummy ache tummy ache tummy ache tummy ache tummy ache tummy ac

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The fact that im getting raw dogged by life everyday. Don’t have any medication to take the edge off. Nor any addiction, I don’t even got a religion or spirituality to fall back on. Im facing this life stone cold sober every goddamn day??? Why???

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Thinking about the time I was staying with my friends and we were trying to figure out what to make for dinner. One of them suggested that we have biscuits and gravy and I found out that the reason that I hate biscuits and gravy is because I’ve only ever had it the way my mom makes it. Which is not with gravy but with cream of mushroom soup and ground beef.

Anyway I do actually like biscuits and gravy. My mom is just the WHITEST person to ever white.

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reblog if it's okay for your mutuals to message you and create an actual friendship, not just interactions

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New Sherlock Holmes adaptation idea: Watsondoes a voiceover narration of the story and it frequently contradicts what’s happening onscreen. Sometimes it’s literally just blatant lies. Watson also frequently looks into the camera like he’s on the office. It’s set in the original Victorian era so this should not be possible. He’s the only character who does this.

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Saw a women in the Sam’s parking lot the other day and she was running with her cart then jumped onto the back of it and road it for a full minute before it slowed down and she put her stuff in her car. Very glad people are still experiencing whimsy in these dark times.

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Medical ptsd goes hard when you have an upcoming procedure of which you’ve had so many times and know all the steps to and there’s literally no risk and no way it can go wrong at all but you still wanna bash your head into the wall and scream and cry and run away because now that I found out that I need a procedure I’m all better now actually

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*begging and pleading with the crowd* History has its eyes on youuuuu

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Pedis

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#PBS teaches kindness and inclusion, which are threats to abusive paternalism.

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The person I reblogged this from deserves to be happy

I tried to scroll past this. I really did

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Clinically depressed bisexual😭😭

from now on your tumblr nickname is whatever you get from this sexual identity generator  ☆

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TUMMY ACHE