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I have a dumb goal, that one day one of my fics makes it to someone’s rec list. Is it stupid? Yes absolutely but it’s my dream

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I went ahead and posted chapter 3 of this new fix cause why the FUCK NOT?! IM ITCHING TO RELEASE THE WHOLE DAMN THING…Aahh okay I’m calm I’m zen I’m here to share the next installment of “Out Of The Ordinary”

Give it a chance eh?

New update schedule is either every day or every other day depends on how busy I get with work!

https://archiveofourown.org/works/64809466

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NEW FIC ALERT

Give it a chance eh? I didn’t do too bad on Fight or Flight right? …or did I? The world may never know!

…just read this if you’re bored yea? New chapters every Friday!

https://archiveofourown.org/works/64809466

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Calling all avatrice fans!

I need some help with a current fic I’m working on. It’s a music industry AU where Ava goes viral on TikTok, Beatrice is already an elite music producer that’s super select of who she works with…Chaos and music ensues and that’s where I need YOU!

Send me song you think are either Ava coded, Beatrice coded, Avatrice coded, or just a warrior nun coded in general! I need more options for things and if you suggest a song and it fits with the story I’ll make sure to shout you out if you’d like for that chapter!

Thank you for your time 💜

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Yo so I wrote something else and this one is just SAD IM SORRY OKAY

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Warrior Nun (TV) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Sister Beatrice/Ava Silva, Sister Beatrice & Ava Silva Characters: Sister Beatrice (Warrior Nun), Ava Silva, Mother Superion (Warrior Nun) Additional Tags: listen, I am so sorry for this, I am hurting so now you are too, blame the song it hits hard, its not even hurt/comfort, its just hurt, Please Don’t Hate Me Summary:

This is what I imagine Beatrice would go through after leaving the OCS behind and trying to live the life Ava gave hers for.

In reality I listened to the song “Indigo” by Sam barker one too many times and wrote a fic inspired by it

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Heyyyyyy yall happy whatever day it is today I don’t know time is a weird soup…anyway it’s been awhile and I figure I’d shoot my shot at getting some more views on this thing I wrote. It’s called fight or flight, it’s not the best and not the worst. It’s been recently completely edited and finished (fucking finally) so if you got the time and got the urge to read a fic then maybe you might give mine a try?

Welp that’s my pitch PEACE!

https://archiveofourown.org/works/53057023

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My grandma passed away yesterday, I’ve got no more updates to give. I don’t know what to feel or think so I think I’m just going to keep it that way. Sorry the updates aren’t going to happen anymore, it was a dumb crush anyway

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New Update:

On Monday we thought my grandma was going to pass away. It was really close for awhile and unfortunately I was the only one who could be there with her for what we thought was going to be her final moments. I was a wreck, I’m not a huge crier because well ✨childhood trauma✨ so when I’m upset in any way I go very very quiet. I was alone and scared, watching my grandma hang on by a thread. Sister Amara wasn’t there that day, not sure why didn’t bother to ask.

That very night, by some power beyond my comprehension, my grandma started getting better. I don’t know who or what was looking out for her but I thank them endlessly.

Which brings us to today, today I got to have my first real conversation with my grandma. She was lucid for a bit but after about an hour she went back to sleep. It felt like as soon as her eyes closed Sister Amara knew and entered the room. I gave her a small smile but to her that wasn’t enough. This blessed (heh) woman strode up to me and pulled me into a hug I didn’t know I needed.

I balled like a baby and let me emphasize something, I work on a horse farm where we take in neglected, abused, and elderly horses. Last year I had my arm broken and eyebrow split open falling off one of our work horses. I didn’t cry then but I sure as shit cried now.

I felt so safe in her arms and I promise not in a creepy way, I don’t know how to explain it. Maybe it’s not something that needs to be explained. Either way, it was a soul crushing hug. She didn’t judge me for crying like a baby she just held me and apologized for not being there when I needed her to be. Of course I immediately told her she had no reason to apologize that she has a life or the nun equivalent of a life. No seriously I told her she had the nun equivalent of a life and then got really weird and apologized because that sounded rude and I got to hear her laugh at my fumbling of words and apologies. WHILE I WAS STILL SOMEWHAT CRYING….anyway…we talked about Monday and she explained that she was pulled away to be with another family who was experiencing a loss. It didn’t matter to me I was just glad she was able to help someone else.

She asked me about Monday and the tears started coming back when she did ✨the thing✨ this woman, this literal nun of a woman used her insanely soft hands to wipe away my tears and had the audacity to smile at me with her caring eyes! Like who does that?! How dare she make me fucking SWOON MORE I HATE SWOONING NOW…

To make a long fucking story short: I’m falling in love with a nun…someone help me…

I made a mistake.

I have a crush on a nun.

This isn’t a bit or a joke in waiting I literally have a crush on a nun, let me explain.

My grandma is slowly starting to go, she’s currently housed at a catholic hospital and I’m one of the last few people alive that care for her. I spend everyday before and after work at the hospital with her and today was the weirdest day. A nun came in, something I hadn’t seen before and said she was here to provide prayer or whatever I needed. We talked for awhile and I couldn’t help but stare into her auburn eyes. She was very sweet and of course me being the fucking idiot I am asked her if she had ever heard of warrior nun. Of course she hadn’t so I explained the show to which she was highly entertained by the premise. Then I made *the mistake*… I asked her if she was apart of a secret society of ninja nuns and no joke her immediate response was to deadpan and say “If I told you the answer then it wouldn’t be a secret.” She got up with a smile and left giggling to herself and now I’m swooning. WHAT THE FUCK IM LITERALLY LIVING THE DAMN REDDIT AVATRICE FIC RN WHAT US WRONG WITH ME

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UPDATE FUCKERS IT GETS MORE DUMB BECAUSE IM DUMB

So I wasn’t really thinking she was gonna come back but lo and behold she did and goddamn was I a mess. First off I’m running on three hours of sleep, work is hell, I’m covered in dirt, and to make matters worse I looked wayyy too gay today I mean I was wearing my fucking Stetson today. A custom Stetson with a rainbow leather band I made on it. Anyway…

I walked into my grandmas room and she was there. She immediately smiled and said “Ah I see my agents have eliminated you yet, there’s still time.”

I swooned. But what’s worse is she has a really bright fucking smile. Like I seen the bright end of a police officers flashlight and her smile was ten times brighter. We talked for awhile and I got to know that she’s not originally from the US, her name is Amara and she came to the US when she was five. She told me she always felt a call to be apart of the church more than most and followed her passion. She’s different though and hear me out. She asked about my hat and I told her that I made it for myself after I came out to my parents.

Now at this point I was waiting to get preached on but she simply put a hand on my shoulder and said, “I don’t speak for most others within the church but I have the personal belief that love is love. It doesn’t matter whether it be woman with woman, man with man, or whatever else there is out there. There is no shame in who you love, in fact it shows me how strong you are to be so open about it. Thank you for telling me.” I about cried because I have dealt with a lot of hate about my sexuality cause I’m from the south south y’all.

It got pretty chill after that, she prayed from my grandma and me, we talked more about warrior nun, she was super curious and loved sister Camila but said she wouldn’t be able to watch it herself but was content to hear about it through me. We talked about everything and nothing but what’s important is what my dumb ass did as she left.

She stayed about an hour before saying she was due to visit a few more rooms. I stood up to walk her out and she said she’d be back on Monday. My gay panic took hold and I fucking BOWED and said “Till we meet again” then proceed to quickly close the door. I heard her laughing as she walked away.

So anyway anyone know places that do free euthanizing for humans?

I made a mistake.

I have a crush on a nun.

This isn’t a bit or a joke in waiting I literally have a crush on a nun, let me explain.

My grandma is slowly starting to go, she’s currently housed at a catholic hospital and I’m one of the last few people alive that care for her. I spend everyday before and after work at the hospital with her and today was the weirdest day. A nun came in, something I hadn’t seen before and said she was here to provide prayer or whatever I needed. We talked for awhile and I couldn’t help but stare into her auburn eyes. She was very sweet and of course me being the fucking idiot I am asked her if she had ever heard of warrior nun. Of course she hadn’t so I explained the show to which she was highly entertained by the premise. Then I made *the mistake*… I asked her if she was apart of a secret society of ninja nuns and no joke her immediate response was to deadpan and say “If I told you the answer then it wouldn’t be a secret.” She got up with a smile and left giggling to herself and now I’m swooning. WHAT THE FUCK IM LITERALLY LIVING THE DAMN REDDIT AVATRICE FIC RN WHAT US WRONG WITH ME

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I made a mistake.

I have a crush on a nun.

This isn’t a bit or a joke in waiting I literally have a crush on a nun, let me explain.

My grandma is slowly starting to go, she’s currently housed at a catholic hospital and I’m one of the last few people alive that care for her. I spend everyday before and after work at the hospital with her and today was the weirdest day. A nun came in, something I hadn’t seen before and said she was here to provide prayer or whatever I needed. We talked for awhile and I couldn’t help but stare into her auburn eyes. She was very sweet and of course me being the fucking idiot I am asked her if she had ever heard of warrior nun. Of course she hadn’t so I explained the show to which she was highly entertained by the premise. Then I made *the mistake*… I asked her if she was apart of a secret society of ninja nuns and no joke her immediate response was to deadpan and say “If I told you the answer then it wouldn’t be a secret.” She got up with a smile and left giggling to herself and now I’m swooning. WHAT THE FUCK IM LITERALLY LIVING THE DAMN REDDIT AVATRICE FIC RN WHAT US WRONG WITH ME

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GET TO WORK respectfully of course and if you want to because consent and also if you like it but also GET TO WORK again respectfully of course

Have you ever thought of doing an Avengers x Warrior nun AU or is that just me? Cause personally Scarlet Widow Beatrice and Captain America Ava is like swarming in my mind but I’m shit at writing so if you wanna take thissss maybeeee

i've never written any sort of a crossover fic before, but i will say that @piratekane owes me an avatrice winter soldier au

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CHAPTER 20 HOLY SHIT SO MANY IN SUCH A LITTLE TIME, Sorry I don’t post the updates here I forget alot of time I have a tumblr but I shouldn’t and will try to always remember! I wanted to say thank you THANK YOU THANK YOUUUU for all those from here who have given my fic a chance I recently reached 4k hits and getting close to 5k you guys are truly awesome and I can’t thank you enough for giving me a chance, but anyway enough of me being a sap. Have a great one warriors and enjoy the read :)

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I’m behind on posting my updates on tumblr I know I know I’m sorry! I have a real bad case of small brain initis. The prognosis isn’t looking good but hey here I am letting you know I’ve posted a few chapters since my last update here. Let me know what you think and as always have a great one warriors :)

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Finally got a new chapter for yall. We’re at 60k with so much more to come. Hopefully you enjoy, let me know what you think and as always have a great one warriors :)

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Okay but here’s the real question: Should I (or preferably someone better at writing) do an outsider AU where the OCS is the greasers, Duretti and his crew are the Socs. Beatrice is Johnny, Ava is pony boy? Mary is obviously two bit and Camila is Steve, Lilith is Dallas, Shannon is Soda and Superion is Darry. Obvs just the vibes and all idk if I’m making sense but I’m gonna try it

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I put this in my last fic but it needs its own post cause like tell me im wrong.

A poem Beatrice certainly would’ve written

Everything is perfect,

and nothing makes sense.

One half-silly smile,

a split second knowing glance

and you've lifted me from the ground,

freed me from the laws of man and earth.

And just because of that,

I'm afraid to love you.

It's not your fault.

Don't blame yourself.

It's me.

I'm afraid for you, and I'm afraid for me,

but I still feel my pulse racing

the instant you appear,

a tingling that starts in my fingertips,

then shoots up my body, .. a pulsating lightning bolt

that splashes into my mind

and explodes into.. hot.. blinding white light.

A buzzing, stomping insistence that I recognize

the effect you have on me.

I'm left short of breath, eyes wide, dizzy

and suddenly, longing for your gentle touch.

Chaos inside

I am everywhere

and nowhere.

I am limitless yet tethered

I am willingly losing control

but the fear balances on my edge...

I cannot lose control, again,

and the confusion makes me afraid.

Afraid to love you.

I know

if I let myself

I would be with you forever

which is much longer than a lifetime.

I would take all my choices, my dreams, my fear

and set them at your feet

my.. gifts of sacrifice for the only one

for who I would give my life

I would confess to you my joy

and hide in you my pain

for I know that you would view

each with a critical but loving eye,

You understand that I'm not the perfect woman

that I pretend to be

you're ok that sometimes

I'm not even up

to being me.

You accept me as I am.

You're the only one.

It feels so right,

which is exactly why

I'm afraid to love you.

Still, I see it in you.

I'm not that blind.

I can see what I'm afraid to see.

Your eyes shine when I talk to you

of simple things.

Your breath catches in your throat

when you've made me smile

I make you laugh... You make me laugh.

At little things and when we're angry.

When I am near you

I feel as though I should sing.

I wish for nothing

except our songs entwined.

I feel you tremble at my lightest touch.

You are a dove

unfearful of my captive embrace.

I belong to you,

and you to me.

Oh God, help me

because that's exactly why

I'm afraid to love you.....

......but I do....

~TP Sage~

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Good morning, afternoon, evening whatever you time is it for you. I have another chapter in my fight or flight fic, please enjoy!