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subhadip1408 · 5 years ago

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My Mad Darling!

Mrs Lauren was very upset and thinking something deeply, suddenly she felt that someone is calling her. She raised her head and saw her daughter ‘Nina’ was there, standing near the door in her favorite pink dress. Nina said, “Mom please help me out. Look my friend has snatched my doll and now she is not giving it back. Come with me, mom.” Mrs Lauren was shocked because they used to live in a flat and the room was on the sixth floor and she clearly remembered that no one had come to meet with Nina. She immediately watched the time and said, “Who is that in your room! It is already 7 pm. Look, Nina, don’t try to irritate me. Just go back to your room and study. I am not feeling well.” Nina was almost crying and she insisted Lauren to help her to get her doll back. Lauren went with Nina to her room. Nina opened the door and said, “Look there she is.” Pointing her finger she added, “Look how shameless she is. Look she is smiling.” Lauren was out of her mind because there was no one in that room. Nina said again, “Mom give her a slap and tell her to give my doll back to me.” Lauren closed the door quickly and dragged Nina behind her to the other room where Lauren’s husband Joseph, who was sitting on a chair in the bedroom and reading a book. Lauren opened the door like a storm and entered into that room. She was very heated and started saying, “Joseph, do you know what the hell you daughter is talking about? Just now she was saying she saw a girl in her room. Can you believe it? And you always used to blame me haa! I swear there is no one on the room. Nina, come here and say it to your father. What had you told me? Say it now.” Joseph slowly got up from the chair with a long breath and he had put the book on the bed and said slowly, “calm down Lauren, why don’t you try to understand. Nina was no more with us. We have lost our daughter. She had died three months ago. Places get back to your sense and try to understand the reality. Please, Lauren.” “But just now she was with me, you didn’t see her here, she was with me. Joseph, please believe me. She was right here.” “It was just your imagination nothing else. Please, Lauren, please. " Lauren was almost crying and started to walk backside and stopped when she reached the very last corner of the room and she suddenly set down and started crying on her knees. Joseph called Doctor Jon who was basically a good friend of him. Joseph explained, “Jon, this is the third time in this week that I am calling you for the same reason. Now please give me a permanent solution.” “Are you giving the medicines properly?” Doctor replied. When Joseph ensure the doctor that he was giving the medicines properly then the doctor advised to bring Lauren to the hospital. According to the doctor’s advice, Joseph started the journey to the hospital. That was already 7.30 pm and it will take at least one hour to reach the hospital. Joseph was driving the car and Lauren was sitting next to her. Lauren was looking outside from the window of the car though there was only darkness outside like she also had inside of her. The car was going from a lonely rood as Joseph had taken a short cut. Suddenly Lauren shouted, “Stop Jos, stop! Don’t you see? You almost crashed my baby.” Before Joseph able to understand what was happening with him, Lauren opened the door of the car and went outside and she was shouting, “Nina, Nina.” Joseph got down quickly and started shaking Lauren and said, “Don’t be a fool Lauren, there is no one. Get back to the car.” Lauren gave a slap to Joseph and started running on that empty rood. Joseph run behind her and somehow managed to drag her back to the car and shouted at Lauren furiously, “Stop doing drama, for god sake, Lauren! Just stop it. I can’t tolerate it anymore.” “But I saw Nina, she was there, you almost crashed her.” Lauren replied emotionally. "Just shut up and let me drive, next time if Nina comes in front of my car, I will crush her, you understand, don’t even think to stop me again. Here is your seat belt and hold your tongue.” Then Joseph started the car and reached the hospital at about 9 pm.

As soon as Joseph reached the hospital he had called Doctor Jon. After a few minutes doctor had come and said, “I have never seen such a strange case ever. I mean this is a most common disease; I think I should not call it a disease. I thought Lauren was going through a mental trauma as she had lost her loving daughter. Even her symptoms were also giving a clear indication that she was going through from huge emotional stress and which is obvious. And you know what Joseph, we used to give two or hardly three medicines to those kinds of patients and it hardly takes a week to get cure.” “Then why Lauren is behaving like that?” Joseph asked anxiously. “You said you are giving the medicines properly, right.” Doctor Jon asked. “Indeed I am. Even sometimes I have to force her to take those medicines.” Joseph replied immediately. The doctor thought something and said, “Then I think it is better to do some tests, come with me. You have to do some basic formalities and don’t take tension OK!”

When Joseph and Dr Jon were discussing and finally going somewhere then Lauren was sitting on a bench nearby, she was looking so sad and she was thinking about Nina, she was thinking that “Nina was a very naughty girl, she loved to play all the time and she did not like to do study at all. The most common problem with Nina was the complaints from the school. And one of the most common compliance was about the lines. Nina always used to draw curve lines, even using a scale she was unable to draw a straight line.” Lauren was crying because then she knew that Nina was no more with her. Suddenly the thought had made her so emotional, she also remembered once Joseph gave a slap to Nina for this carves lines she used to draw and Lauren had hugged her tight and trying to stop her crying. But then there was on one in that hospital who could hug Lauren to make her crying stop.

She was thinking about the worse day of her life when she was cooking something on her kitchen and suddenly received a call from Nina’s school. She thought this time the school authority must be going to rusticate Nina but she had no idea that Nina will be rusticated from the school of life. When the school authority had told Lauren about the school bus accident and mentioned the name of the hospital where everyone was admitted then she was not in herself. Somehow she managed to call Joseph and said to come to that hospital immediately. When Lauren reached the hospital and searching for Nina in the reception then Joseph came. They came to know that Nina was taken into the ICU. Both of them rushed to the ICU. They managed to see inside of the ICU from the small round glass window. Their soul trembled after watching what they had seen inside the ICU. The doctors and the medical stuffs were just covering Nina’s body with a white curtain and the monitor of the ventilator was showing a straight line. After remembering those things Lauren suddenly remembered that Joseph used to get very angry with Nina about the matter of those curve lines. And that day when finally the line was completely straight but Nina was not in this world that she could be appreciated. Lauren wiped away her tears thinking that those curve lines might be a hundred times better than straight lines.

Somehow she managed to control herself and then a nurse came to take her to the test room. Lauren looked at the nurse and said so slowly, “Can you please give me a glass of water.” Lauren took a long breath and went with that nurse to the test room. Joseph was looking so tired and he was sitting silently on a bench outside of the test room. He had no idea when he suddenly got asleep on that bench. He was woke up by a nurse and then the nurse said, “Mr Joseph, doctor Jon is calling you. Please come with me, sir. That nurse took him to the cabin of Dr Jon. “What is the matter, Jon? Is everything all right?” Joseph asked curiously.” No Joseph, not everything. But till now I am not so sure about it so it is better not to comment on her condition before getting the reports on my hand.” Doctor Jos replied. “When the reports will come and what happened with Lauren?” Joseph asked seriously. “Look, Joseph, just relax. There is nothing serious and you don’t have to wary about it. Okay! She will be all right. Now you just go home and take rest. I will inform you as soon as the report will come and one more thing, Lauren will stay here.” “How long she will have to stay here? What is the problem? You can tell me.” Joseph asked. “There is nothing serious my friend? You just go home now and take rest. I will call you later.” Doctor Jos advised Joseph and walked away with two consolation pats on Joseph’s shoulder.

Next day doctor Jos called Joseph and said to come to the hospital. Joseph went to the hospital directly from his office and entered to Doctor Jon’s cabin. Dr Jon said to Joseph, “Mrs Lauren has a brain injury and I don’t know why it is increasing day by day. I think you may have to take her the mental hospital.” “What! Do you want to say that Lauren is becoming made? Ho God! What the hell is happening with my family? Tell my Jos, what should I do now? I think I’m also going to be a mad soon.” Joseph reacted miserably. “Look Joseph, you take Lauren back to home and I will give some new medicines and some new guidelines as well. And you have to give me the updates about her condition after giving those new medicines regularly. Do you get it? If some improvement will happen then we may have no need to go to the mental hospital but if not, then I think [PAUSE]. I think you understood what I am trying to make you understand. And one more thing, hide all the things associated with Nina from your house to somewhere else.” After completing the discharging formalities Joseph went to meet with Lauren. As soon as Lauren saw Joseph she had hugged her and started crying and saying, “please take me out of this please, just get me out of here. Now!” Joseph and Lauren reached home at about 10 pm and Lauren went straight into the bathroom. After a long bath she came out and made a cup of coffee all by herself and she was looking normal and quite relaxed.

Next morning when Lauren opened her eyes she heard a female voice. The voice belonged to Emma, Joseph’s sister. She had come to Joseph’s place as Joseph had to go to his office and that was why Emma would have to take care of Lauren. Before leaving for the office, Joseph had come to Lauren’s room and when he saw Lauren was already awake, he sat on the bed and kissed her forehead and advised to take care of herself and insisted that he will come back as soon as possible and then he left out from that room. Before living the house he told something to Emma and left. Joseph was on his way and he had not even on the halfway to his office when his phone ringed. He took a look on his phone and saw Emma is calling him. Suspiciously he received the call and trying to say hello. But Emma had not given a single chance to Joseph to say anything. She was sounding so afraid and saying, “Come back right now.” Joseph reduced the speed of his car and asked, “What the matter? Does anything happen to Lore? I mean Lauren.” “Joseph come back home as quickly as possible. Lauren has fallen from the stairs and blood is coming profusely from her head. I have no idea what to do now. Please come back soon.” “Call the ambulance. I am coming.” Joseph replied.

Joseph immediately took a ‘U’ turn and derived his car as quickly as he could. But it was too late. When he had reached his floor and saw a crowd in front of his house door. Somehow he managed to enter inside through the door and saw that Lauren was lying on the floor and she was covered by a white curtain. Emma, some other relatives and some neighbors were also there. Joseph sat down near Lauren’s body and slowly removed the cover from her face. Lauren’s face was completely red with blood. Joseph screamed pathetically when he saw Lauren in that situation. He gently took Lauren’s head in his lap and broke into tears. In the meantime, the police had arrived and tried to disperse the crowd. When the police entered inside the room everyone except Joseph looked at them but suddenly something happened that made everyone bound to pay attention to Joseph. Joseph was laughing, laughing louder and louder. Suddenly he started behaving strangely. Screaming and laughing loudly, he kept punching the floor and began to spit out of his mouth. Everyone stared at him for a while and then Emma and others in the room tried to stop him. Joseph was just behaving like an insane crazy. Suddenly Joseph fell to the floor and fainted.

He was taken to the hospital by some of their family members and on the other hand, some other people took Lauren’s body to the nearest cemetery for burial. In the hospital, Joseph tried to strangle a doctor and then he started running aimlessly. It took a long time to bring him under control and eventually the doctors were forced to give him an injection of anaesthesia. Emma was there in that hospital and witnessing all the unbelievable drama happening. The doctor came to Emma and he said, “You should better take him to a mental hospital. Give me a couple of minutes to ready the transfer certificate.” According to the statement that Emma gave to the police, that day when Joseph left of his office and Emma closed the door and went to the kitchen of making some breakfast then she suddenly saw Lauren was finding something. Emma said, “When I saw her, I immediately came out of the kitchen. When Lauren saw me coming she screamed and started running towards the door.” But you said you closed the door after Joseph left, right?” The police inspector asked Emma. “Yes sir. I did.” Emma replied. “Then can you please tell me the exact reason why we don’t found the fingerprints of Lauren on that door. I am asking this to you because; Lauren had fallen down the stairs and according to you that how she died. And to fall down the stairs she had to open the front door to go out. Is not it Miss Emma Jonson?” Emma said,” I don’t know sir. I really have no idea.”

Emma was asked for some other questions and then the police authority decided that they would let her go. According to the forensic expert’s report, there was nothing suspicious on the dead body so it was declared that Lauren’s death as an unintentional accidental death by the police. That fingerprint issue was suppressed under other new cases.

Six months later when Joseph was finally discharged from the mental hospital. He came out from the hospital all along and his eyes were finding someone. Suddenly his eyes were stocked in a point and a little smile came to her face. There was a lady who seemed to be waiting only for Joseph. That lady was also smiling after seeing Joseph coming. Joseph went near and hugged that lady. If you are thinking that the lady must be Joseph’s sister Emma. Then I must tell you that the lady was not her. She was ‘Lore’, Joseph’s first love. If you are an attentive reader then you must have noticed that Joseph once mentioned the name 'Lore' before when he had received a call from Emma. Joseph had met with Lore when he was in college and they became very close friends and that was just a matter of time that their friendship had become into love. They decided to marry each other but as Joseph had a rich family background and that’s why Joseph’s father didn’t accept that relationship and eventually forced Joseph to marry Lauren, who was the only daughter of Mr David Jonson and was the best friend of Joseph’s father. After getting married Joseph and Lauren came to London. Although 5 years had passed of their marriage, they didn’t have any child. And finally, they decided to adopt a child. Nina was just a three-year-old beautiful girl when Lauren and Joseph adopted her.

Everything was going perfect in there life after Nina had come to their life. Their life was full of happiness and Nina was the trigger of that happiness. Joseph’s business was also going very good and Lore had lost in some untouched corner inside of his mind. But one day Joseph suddenly saw Lore in a shopping mall. He was shocked to see Lore in London. From that day everything had changed for Joseph. He could no longer love Lauren and Nina as he did before, as they had become like poisonous to him. The world he had decorated by his own hands that turned into nothing but a dark place for him. He only wanted Lore of the rest of the life.

“How are you Jos?” Lore asked. “What do you think?” Joseph replied and added, “You are looking gorgeous my love. Didn’t you miss me, dear?” “Yes, I did.” Lore replied carelessly and immediately asked, but first you tell me one thing, is not it a tough job for you? I mean to say that how did you manage it?” “Of course it was a huge headache for me. But to achieve something special, we need to do something tough.” Joseph mentioned. At about One year ago Joseph met with Lora in London and since that time they started to meet each other frequently in the coffee houses, restaurants and they used to watch movies together and started to spend time together. All of this was going on unnoticed by Lauren but on the other hand, their old hidden love was blossoming so quickly in their mind. And then they made that fatal decision that Lauren has to get out of their way. “Would you now tell me the whole story or will you want to keep the suspense until I die?” Lore asked Joseph. Joseph smiled a little and said, “Let’s sit in the car and then I will tell you, dear.” They got inside and Lore started driving the car. Then finally Joseph told Lore the whole matter.

“First I had managed some experienced and clever people who can fail the brakes of the school bus without living any clues according to my plan. After that I did the toughest thing of the plain, manipulate Lauren and gave her the wrong medicines day after day and to ensure that those drugs would help to destroy her brain slowly. And the masterstroke of my plain was to do blackmail Emma and engaged her in this drama. She had done her job effortlessly. That day she was Emma who pushed Lauren down the stairs and even I have the audio recording of the call that Emma did that day to me to tell about the accident. And believe me, that was also an important and integral part of my plan. And you know the rest, right. To do a little bit of action by me and Emma and I need to continue the acting in a new role of a mad husband and look here we are. Literally, the drama classes of our college helped me a lot to make it a great success.” Lore was very happy to hear the whole story and she took an apple out of her bag and gave it to Joseph. When Joseph gave a bite of that apple he saw the apple was completely rotten from inside though it was so shiny and beautiful from outside. Then Joseph remembered a thing that Lauren often used to say. She used to say that it is the toughest thing to understand a person from outside because no one knows what is inside of them.

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What is your name?

That was a fascinating day and also a nice morning to start learning the initial chapters of love. I was a kid and most probable I was in class eight then. As every morning that day, I wake up with a lot of tension about my studies and tried to complete all the basic works as early as I could that all of us used to do in the morning. Then eventually when I was quite ready to give a jump to my bed, No! Not to go to sleep again but to start my studies. And give a jump to the bed was my habit. There was a study desk on my bad where I used to do my study. There is a window in my room and there is no wonder about that because there must be a window in everyone's room. My dad made a small reading table specially ordered for me. The desk was on the bad and it was in front of the window. A straight street can be seen from that window till to its end and in the one side of the street there is a small but well-shaped playground just a few steps away from our house and in the other side of the street, there are houses one after another. If somebody sits in front of the window where I used to sit for my study then that very person can see a very complete view of outside. I used to sit there for my studies and hardly look outside. That morning I just took an unintentional look at outside and don't ask me what did I see. There was a girl on that street. She was so beautiful that my eyes were stacked on her and I was completely spellbound. I couldn't able to see anything else, like, everything was fade away completely. I could only see the puzzled but aesthetic face of her who was looking at the playground. My eyes were not that much weak in that point of time, I suppose. Because I could see her mesmerizing big bright glowing eyes clearly, her outstanding ponytail hairstyle and her spiffy pink lips were creating sweet pain in my heart. Then I didn't have any idea about love or anything related to this. But at that moment I got a feeling that I had never experienced before. I got an adrenaline rush on my body. She was slowly walking on that street in a green jumper no that cold morning of winter. The body language of the girl was so suave and she was so polished that I was startled by her aura. I think I smelled her stupendous aroma from that window though she was standing at least 100 meters away from me. But then she entered into a house which was beside the street.

I had a lot of questions in my mind. Like, who is that girl? What is her name? Why she is here, in our area? Has she come to that house she just entered? Why she is so beautiful? And so on. That was the first time I saw her and I was absolutely fascinated.

In those days I was very concern about the matter of my study because I just became an average student from a bad student and strongly wanted to become a good one, but honestly, that morning when I saw her for the first time, I was unable to read with deep attention. I was so curious about that incident and I started thinking a lot about that.

Those were the beautiful days when all the boys and girls used to come tougher to the playground and play joyfully. I was the 'James Bond' of our area as I had all the equipment of the games that we used to play those days, like, carom board, cricket bat, ball, football, racket bat and even the net which must be needed to play badminton had also belonged to me, so every one of my friends used to give me an extra priority and attention. Each of one loved me so much because I was not only the champion player of our area and the provider of the paying equipment but also a very humble and polite kid as well. So everyone always wanted to be in my team. From childhood, I was very good in every sport and game and I used to play with some players who were at least 15 years older than me. When I entered into the ground, a wave of happiness would flow through everyone and I could see the joy on their face. I was quite habituated with those expressions and tried to maintain my attitude. I used to give orders to then and they perfectly followed that.

I certainly remember that was the season of badminton and that day when I returned from the school and quickly eat something little as everyone was waiting for me at that ground and some of my friends were sitting outside of my house to take the play equipment. Finally, I finished my food and went to the ground. My entry was always mind-blowing, I used to be in the front and everyone used to come behind me with the playing equipment on their hand, as we are going to a terrible war. Sometimes the old memories make me laugh. Every day we started our game at about 4.30 pm and everyone used to come to the ground at that time. That day I was deeply engaged in that match when suddenly I felt something. I felt that someone was watching me. That was the girl. When I relished that she was watching our game, I became more desperate to win the match and trying to show her all of my skills. I thought to dominate with the racket bat but for the cause of over excitement, I was doing clumsy mistakes that everyone should laugh at me. That was a fish out of water kind of situation for me then. I heat losing but we lost that match for my extra effort or we could have been easily won that match. I was frustrated and tried to take a look at that place where she was standing but she was not there. She had left. The house was right on the side of the street and if anyone tried to see what is going inside of that house then it can be seen through the window. So I was trying to take a look inside the house but unfortunately, the window was almost closed.

Next day morning the first thing I had done was to come to the window of my room and looking for her eagerly. That warm filling was unforgettable. After a long wait when she suddenly came out on that street, I used to take a long breath and stared at her for a long time. That was must be a Sunday as we went to the ground probably at 11.30 am. As there was already a nice shaped badminton coat in that ground and without the net we could use that of 'kabaddi' as well. So we used to play ‘kabaddi’ on our holidays on that coat at about 11 am. Our game was going well and as usual, my team was winning and in that pint of time, I heard a ringing sweet smile coming slowly from that narrow path beside that house. My heartbeat was getting faster. I understood that the girl was coming but I wanted to make it sure. I wanted to see her but for that, I had to turn around. I couldn't able to raise the courage to look at a stranger. And when the stranger was a beautiful girl then it was quite tough to do that for an inexperience kid like me. I just sensed that she was standing behind us and looking at our game. I got desperate once again to show my skills and also wanted to show her that I am best. I remember, I was wearing a light jacket and that was my team's turn to go for a raid and I went for that. Four of the opponent team player caught me and I just opened my jacket and manage to escape. That was a hypothetical move from me and including me everyone was laughing. Then I went to my opponent team to take my jacket back. I took it from them with an arrogant smile and turned back in style, putting the jacket on my left shoulder I returned back to my team as a king came back to his kingdom after occupying the enemy's kingdom. When I was returning I finally looked at her, she was also smiling till then. I hold my breath and looking at her without blinking and then suddenly she looked at me too. I think I had given a wired smile and when she relished that I was looking at her, she just down her head with an extra smile and handled that situation smartly by touching her hair softly. That had given a huge blow on my young heart.

'Rima' was one of our group members who had just got out by my deliberate and intelligent raid went to meet with that girl. When I was trying to take a look at that place they were standing, I found every time they were looking at me and laughing. I got panicked; I thought my pant must be busted from the back but when I took a look, it was all right.

Next day I had come to know that their family had come to stay at rent on that house. That day when we were starting our game then I was highly optimistic that she will come to play with us and believe me that day she finally came. Honestly, she was very bad about the matter of sports and games. The way she was holding the racket bat was very funny. She was not a strong player and that was the reason that everyone suggested her to play as my partner. That times the feeling, OMG! I have no words to mention that. I was trying to teach her how to make a good shot, how to do the service, about the footsteps and all but I relished the badminton was a tough game for her. Literally, I was playing all along with my opponent team and if the cork used to go to her then we were losing one point for sure. That was the best match of my life. When she was saying sorry to me in a shy manner, after relishing that she was not playing well and giving a pretty smile, my god! Till now the memory of that smile takes me to paradise. We lost that match. I heat losing though that loss was more costly than a win for me.

Next day at 4.30 pm I just took a look outside from the window of my room and I saw that she was already on the ground with others and everyone including her was looking for me. I went to the ground and once again she was my partner but I did a huge mistake that day. We were playing and I was about to make a sharp smash and suddenly she came in front of me and I ended my shot on her head. She was crying and I was shivering. In that circumstance, I couldn't even say that the fault was not mine. We managed to take her to that house and expecting huge babble but her parents were so polite and gentle that they just said to us, 'it's okay kids. Go and play boys, she will join you tomorrow.' That night I was swamped with thoughts, I had barely thought anything else without that matter. I was feeling so sorry for her and decided to say sorry to her next day. Next day at 4.30 when I was sitting on the veranda and putting my sports shoes, she suddenly came to my house and started calling me. Hearing my name in her voice was a charming feeling I must say but I was a little afraid then. I went out and she was in front of me. Before I understand something she suddenly said, "I am so sorry for what had happened yesterday, that was me to blame, for this. She shocked me again. Then she came near me and held my hand tightly and started dragging me behind her to the ground in front of all and she was saying to me, "Today you see, I will play well and I will never come to your way again." I remember, for seven or eight hours I didn't wash my hands. She was going deeper and deeper into my heart day by day.

I noticed every day she used to come on the street at about 7 a.m. I planned to play a game with my family. From childhood, I have an extraordinary talent to do unbelievable planes and I also know how to execute them perfectly. I started a drama with my family and trying to make them understand the benefits of a morning walk. After convincing all of them I started the morning walk to just meet with her. The first day of my morning walk on that season was one of my finest memories of my life. After wandering some local streets I pre-planned to take that street to return and I had also taken my watch with me because I knew I might need to see the time. The time was almost 7 am and I entered in that street just like an official hero of Bollywood. But the best moment was when I saw her from far. She was standing in front of that house; she was in a red jacket and black pant. As I slowly going closer, my heart rate was increasing. And then I saw the best view of my life. She has gently untied the hairband of her hair and softly held the band with her lip. Then she straightened her hair and took the band back softly from her lips and tied the hairband again. That moment was captured on my internal storage forever. When she saw me, she smiled and trying to say something to me but I didn't stop there, I left like I hadn't seen her.

Usually, we would start our game at half-past four in the afternoon and that day everyone was there on the ground except her.

Rima was the girl who talked to her the most. So I asked Rima about that girl. Rima said to me, "Don't you know that she had left." I asked again, "When and why she left?" Rima didn't know anything else about her. It was like lightning strikes on my head. I run back to my room. That was a huge shock for me.

It's been almost eight years since that incident and the nameless fine with her photograph, with all the details about her, is lost in some dark corner of my mind.

Now I didn't wake up early as before. Even the habit to give a jump the bed does not exist anymore. My eyes have not that much power now. A few days ago when I was sitting on my room with a storybook I saw a girl on that street and strangely she was looking like that girl. My heart was saying that the girl was none other than my first love but my mind didn't want to obey it. That unpredictable matter was reawakening the mild pain of my heart. Somehow I convinced myself and started reading the book. After some time someone rang our doorbell and I went to see who that was.

There was a girl with those big charming eyes, with that incredible beautiful smile and coincidentally with that ponytail hairstyle. That was her. I was surprised and shocked to see her. Why and how she had come after at least eight years letter, I had no idea. I was so nervous to see her that I forget to say something. Then she said it that soft manner, "is that Mr. Roy's house." I felt a little hesitant, and then after a little pause, I just replied, 'No.' she immediately turned around and took her steps forward to leave. I was standing on the veranda and watching my first love was going away. I wanted to call her but the tragedy is, I don't know her name. And that was too late to ask her name because she had already left.

I have a lot of questions in my mind. Why she had come after such a long time? Did she recognize me or forget about me? Didn't she really know that this is not Mr Roy's house? Why did she leave in such a strange way? Did she want to tell me something that she couldn't because of fear or any other reason? Does she also have the same feelings for me?

I really don't know that am I ever able to see her again in my life or not. But one thing I know is that she will be there in my heart forever. She was my first love, my dream girl. If I have the good fortune to meet with her again at least once in the future, I will ask her one question, the question will be, "What is your name?"

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Why Almost?

Why did I use to wake up early in the morning every day, not to go to my school but to see you before you left for your college?

Why did I use to sit on the stairs of our main entrance and waited eagerly for your return?

Why did I use to dream that in this Durga puja you and I both of us must be going for a long night pandal hopping?

Why always my mind determined to give orders to my eyes to find you everywhere without any hesitation?

Why I tried to find funny and weird excuses to talk with you?

Why every time I got that filling when you call my name?

Why did I use to dial your number every day but unable to click the call button?

Then I was in class twelve and I still remembered that rainy night when you had come to our home as a stranger. You clicked the bell and I had opened the door. The other side of the door that was you, totally wet and a smiling cute young guy looking almost at me. You were asking for a room to stay as you had come to do MBA in our city. You father had given you our address. We had given the smallest room we have on the first floor at rent. My dad was famous in our society as a choosy man though he allowed you to stay with us as your father is an old friend of my father. It was just a matter of time that you almost became the favorite fellow for our family members. I still remember when you completed your MBA cores with good percentage then everyone was so happy. Everybody really loved you so much. Even I, who considered herself highly conservative and zero per cent emotional girl, made you my best friend and almost got attached emotionally with you.Then I was almost in my twenties. I was almost fond to go to my medical college with you on the backseat of my dad's bike as my dad used to give his bike to you. You used to drop me and went to your college. I almost love to wait for you on the bus stand. When your hand had touched my hand I lost myself in you and suddenly found again. I remembered that feeling when you looked at me and smiled. I thought I was almost in love with you.

But why almost? Why I was not sure, was that love or something else?

Was that really 'love' then why? Then what was the valid reason behind that you were unable to understand my emotions and feelings? Why you were unable to see 'love' into my eyes. And why I was so stupid that couldn't manage to tell you that I love you! Yes, I really do. We spent a lot of time together and also had a lot of chats. But why we never talk about our emotions? One day you told me that you will never forget our family and when you will leave our house then you will click a picture of our family. I remembered that endless night and I didn't know why I was crying after realizing that fact that one day you will go?

Then you got the job. In one side that was almost the end of your huge struggle and on another side it was the start of my huge pain as that was the reminder that you will leave one day. That day, after analyzing the condition of my heart, I finally realized that I love you so much.

That was a normal morning for everyone except me when you were finally leaving our house and shifting to your new flat. According to you, the flat was provided by your company. And in that circumstance, I really wanted to hug you and cry, request you not to go and wanted to tell you that I can't live without you. But I just managed to ask you, "Do you forget to take the family picture?" You said, "No! I already took it. "My head was down as I didn't want to show you my tears and I asked you slowly," when and where is it?" You just smiled and said, "I have printed the picture on my heart."

I was so stupid that I asked again, "Am I there too, I mean, in that family picture." You said so seriously, "No you are not on that picture." I was almost asking you, "why?" immediately you said, "stupid, I said I had printer the family picture on the outside of my heart than tell me how you will be in that picture as you are already inside of my heart." Then you left.

I was so confused about your comment. You said I am inside of your heart. Then I was not that much mature to understand the double meaning type sentences. I had almost lost my night's sleep and the question, "do you like me or not?" was the only reason for my miserable condition.

I was in pain. But I didn't know why I was in pain? Why my mind was so puzzled? Why my every breath was taking your name? Why my heartbeats were bringing your memories? Why I could feel a wave of huge emotions inside my veins? Why my eyes used to get wet without my permission? Why I was so along without you?

I had no answer to those questions. I just wanted to know, is that all happened in first love, is that all happening only with me or you are also going through the same situation. But there was no one to whom I will ask those questions. I wanted to ask you, but I thought that might ruin our friendship. But I had accepted from the core corner of my heart that you were mine. You were mine just like the sun of the eastern sky. As the sun travel throughout the day and next morning come back again to the eastern sky, just like that you will also come back soon. I was sure that you will come.

And one day I saw you from our balcony and run down as soon as I could. I opened the door and that was almost like the first time. I couldn't even express my happiness. And then you gave your wedding invitation card to my dad and requested everyone to come to your wedding ceremony and you requested me especially to come. I was unable to control myself. I wanted to shout, wanted to hug you in front of all and tell you that I love you, wanted to tell you that you can’t do this to me, you are mine, only mine. But I couldn't. I said, "yes! I will go." And just then I wake up and relished that was just a dream. My face was suffused with perspiration. My throat was almost dry. Everything was messed up. Every time an illegitimate thought used to whisper in my mind. I thought I couldn’t pull through myself from your memories. That night, eventually I thanked god as that was just a dream.

I used to wait for you every day. I thought one day you will come. But why you didn’t come, then I had no answer. Every day, with some excuses, I tried to convince myself. I was going through a huge mental trauma and almost stopped my study. My family members were too worried about my condition.

After a long wait, I thought you forgot us completely. I remembered when the whole world was against you then that was me, who swear to support you. When you were nothing, I found everything in you. And now you have everything so I am nothing for you. But I don't blame you, this is my fault.

And when I was thinking that everything was almost over then finally we received a phone call from your father. Then I understood the valid reason behind the overall matter that why you were not coming, not even trying to contact us. We came to know, that you told your father not to tell us about your condition. You didn’t have any job, didn’t have any flat. You just wanted to hide the reality and for that cause you left.

I never thought that I will meet with you in the hospital. You were almost fighting with death. When we reached the hospital my legs were quivering. My heart was almost in an ominous condition. Your family members were waiting outside of the ICU and we had joined them. After some time the doctor came out, shutting the door softly behind him. Hardly showing any signs of what we were saying to him. Your father anxiously asked, ‘is he now out of danger, doctor?’ The doctor bit his lips and replied, ‘look, we tried all possible ways. If my words can save his life, he shall not die. But in this case, honestly, it is almost time to start paying. If anyone want to meet with him, I think it is the high time. I am shifting him to the normal bed. I am sorry.’ Then I saw you for the last time. Everyone was trying to talk with you, but you were motionless. I held your hand and finally told you that I love you. You just pressed my hand and I understood that you love me too. Then it was a very annoying situation for the medical staff as that was getting very loud and very tough to control all of us, virtually they forced us to go outside of the room. All of us were praying for you but in that case, your disease was more powerful. You never told anyone of us that you had cancer. My heart was almost broken; I was almost crying like a newborn baby, I was almost behaving like a mad. Ask me why? Because without you, I am incomplete. Without you, it is almost me.

But then I swear that I will never give up or chose any wrong way. I am a strong girl who will never quit. I will heal my broken heart, I will accept and embrace my pain and I will make it the key to my success.

Today I am missing you so much. Because it has been five years since you left us. And now I am dressing up. Ask me why? It is so easy; I am getting ready to go to the hospital as I am a doctor now. I am a cancer specialist. I am almost happy now as I almost got all my answers. As I know I am in your heart and you are in mine. That makes me fill great and let me tell you one thing, I will try my level best to fight against this disease and I am almost ready.

#respect the girls

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subhadip1408 · 5 years ago

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28th October

Ghost, sprite those worlds make me laugh but I love to read the books specifically oriented about them. That was 28th October and I was in “Kanpur “as my company had sent me there for some purpose that even I was unable to understand completely. That was the second night in Kanpur and it was one of the typical drizzle boring nights. I was on the bed of the most ordinary room of a very clumsy hotel provided by my company. I was thinking that night will going to be a very monotonous night before I suddenly discovered a mysterious old dusty ghost book under the old and almost antique bed. I was so enthusiastic about that book and I started reading it. The drizzle, the cold winds from the window, the hazy lights of the room and sometimes the sound of the clock were making the atmosphere so interesting to read the book. The book was also surprisingly interesting. When I drowned myself into the book and I was literally in a super horror and thrilling position and getting goosebumps one after another then suddenly I heard a sound of water drops coming frequently from the bathroom. I smiled in my mind. I was telling myself in a heavy voice, “who in this world open the tap hmm? Must be there is a ghost in the bathroom.” I was smiling and get up quickly from the bed and placed my phone inside the book that I will easily find out the page I was reading. I turned on the light of the bathroom and went inside. Expecting some paranormal activity eagerly as I love to feel it. But my hard luck that I had felt it long ago or rather never in my life. That was also a useless attempt to get excited. That was nothing but just a stupid mechanical problem of that tap. Which was quite kind of obvious in that kind of hospital, oops, I mean hotel. I just used my full power to tight that tap and waited a while in that expectation if some terrific ghost factors will happen. But I was quite disappointed and I decided to come out from that fantastic aroma of that miserable bathroom. Again took the book and pulled the shapeless blanked and started reading it again.

I strongly remember I was just reading the last line of the 27th page and I really didn’t know when I fell asleep. I suddenly woke up. Before I opened my eyes my ears were hearing a sound once again but this time the sound was not of water drops. This time someone was knocking the door badly. It had taken time to find my mobile phone to see the time. I was shocked because the time was 1.39 am. “Who in this world knocking the door on this time. Are you insane or what?” I shouted. The sound of knocking was getting louder but I couldn’t hear anyone’s voice. I was not able to open my eyes completely despite that I went to the door and opened it. I just manage to open the door and suddenly a woman entered into the room. Then it opened completely, I mean my eyes. As I mentioned before, I never faced any paranormal activity in my life before that night, so I think what was happening with me was enough for my body to started shaking and someone had started some Dj party at that point of time inside my heart. When my entire body was shivering then I understood how brave really I am. Let me tell you why my body was behaving like that. That woman had a torch in her hand and believes me I couldn’t see her face though she was looking at me as she had all her hairs in front her face. My mind was trying to take all the name of gods and spells but failed. I tried to escape from that room but I just couldn’t feel my legs, so I failed. I wanted to shout which was one of my instincts but I failed. I was standing in front of the door and that weird woman was standing near me. It sounds funny to you but believe me it was nothing but a deadly situation for me. Then that woman started her horrible laughter and I, on the other hand, wanted to cry for the first time in my life after hearing someone’s laughter. I decided to run away from that room because I was sure that woman was not a human and I had no other option left. There was fierce darkness outside the room and then I was thinking just like an ignorant, just for one time I thought I should request that woman to give her torch to me, what about that? But I realized that was not a legitimate idea at all. I was just about to start my run and just then that woman hit the torchlight on my eyes and I had fallen from the steps. I didn’t remember anything else.

When I opened my eyes I was unable to understand what the hell was going on. Lots of questions were running in my mind and the most important questions on that time were “where I am and why this place is so dark? Is it darkness or anything else? Is it blindness? I can’t even see my own hands.” yes it was blindness. I was in the hospital. I had broken my left leg along with my left shoulder and also lost my two eyes.

My colleague ‘Santosh’ came to see me. Let me give you the introduction of Mr.santosh, his face is just like an antiseptic raw banana and whenever he used to meet with me he must give a weird smile as I am going to give my two kidneys to him for free of cost. I heat Santosh,but I had no choice besides to tell him the overall story that what happened with me. After three or four days when I was still in that hospital, Santosh came again. He had told me a strange thing which helped me to understand the valid reason behind the overall matter happened with me. I was thinking how in this world I didn’t see that book on my first night in that hotel room. The book must be associated with 28th October. And my doubt was correct. That day Santosh told me that he had come to know from some local people that last year one girl had died after falling from the steps. And she was staying in the same hotel and the most annoying thing was the room number was also the same, the number was 28. And the date was 28th October.

I think she also read that book that night and the book was the only reason for all this peril. Because the cover of the book was decorated with a horrible picture of very ugly old women with a torch and the name of the book was, “The blind witch will take your eye light.” And on the first page, there was a warning. The warning was, “don’t try to read the book, whatever you read will happen with you.”

thank god I fell asleep that night and stop reading the book other ways I could have been dead. Everything I read at that night from that book had happened with me. First, the water drops and then the knocking on the door were the main contents of page 27. Thank god I didn’t read the 28th page.

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