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How do you spend your nights?

Overthinking and imagining scenarios that will never happen

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Lights up. Rafe Cameron.

Rafe Cameron x Reader

Summary: You’re John B’s sister but secretly dating Rafe Cameron. Sounds like a plan for disaster. Although things might just work out in the end...or not?

Warnings: A few curse words, implied smut, and probably grammatical errors.

Words: 4K+

A/N: I am so sorry it took this long to post. I had to deal with some personal things. So this song is basically about being who you are no matter what. Just doing what you love. So I thought it was fitting Y/N be a Pouge while Rafe be a Kook. Anyways, I just want to say once again that all of you are incredibly sweet!! Thank you for all the love and support. Don’t hesitate to message me if you have any constructive feedback or requests. I really love it when I hear from all of you. Also I know times are hard so if any of you need to talk, please message me. I promise I’ll listen. Anyways once again thank you and I hope y’all enjoy your day! Don’t forget to TPWK!!💓

What do you mean?

I'm sorry by the way

Never coming back down

Can't you see?

I could, but wouldn't stay

Wouldn't put it like that

What do you mean?

I'm sorry by the way

Never coming around

Be so sweet if things just stayed the same

Being a John B’s twin sister definitely came with some perks. Everyone knew not to mess with you or else he would beat their ass. It was like you were untouchable. It was a great feeling. Although growing up a Pouge is great, it still has its not so great moments. Sometimes not know where your next meal is going to come from. Better yet, not having hot water. Sometimes not having water at all. Although one day your life got flipped all the way upside down.

You didn’t expect it to happen, it just did. One minute you were at the chateau than the next you were in bed with Rafe Cameron. You always had a little crush on Rafe but you had to keep that deep down inside and locked away. Until that one crazy, insane, amazing, and almost too got to be true night?

You were drunk as shit, wondering the beach all alone. Just to come across a drunk as shit Rafe Cameron. “Oh God,” you thought. Although when you got a closer look at him, he was beaten and bruised. You secretly brought him back to the Chateau to get him cleaned up. Then came the kiss, then they sneaking over, then the sex, then the “I love yous.” Time really flew during the last year you’d been macking on Rafe Cameron. You enjoyed it though.

It was currently 3 AM in the morning and you were sitting cross-legged on Rafe's bed watching the news because nothing was on. Suddenly you heard the bathroom door creak open, which cause you to jump lightly. The next thing you saw was Rafe Cameron with his towel on his hips, hair still wet and messy. God the sinful things you were thinking of at the moment.

“Hey Y/N, you okay?” Not trusting your voice you just shook your head up and down. He had no idea the effect he was having in you at the moment. Your sex life was not it’s best right now, seeing as though Rafe was always trying to please his dad. Also that no one technically knew about you and Rafe. He promised he would make time for you but it was hard. So you decided to savor the little moments.

He turned around to get some clothes out of his drawer and you trailed your eyes up and down his body. His body was amazing. It’s like he could sense you because he turned around and saw you staring.

“Alright now I know something is up with you Y/N, so it’s better you tell me because I don’t want to force it out of you.” You really didn’t want to tell him that you needed a good fuck. You just really wanted to be intimate with him and show him you loved him. You had been feeling empty inside for the last week and you needed him. So you made the choice to say “Rafe, do you still love me?”

He was still in front of you but he grabbed your ankles and pulled you to the end of the bed. He leaned down with just his towel on. You had a clear view of his glistening chest. He put his hands on your thighs and looks you in the eyes. In a deep voice, he said “of course I do baby girl, did I do something to make you doubt that?”

You signed then you looked down but he grabbed your jaw and said “answer the question.” You knew he knew what you wanted. This is why he got dominant all of a sudden. So you decided to play into his game. So you gave him a sad face and said “it’s just that we haven’t spent any intimate time together in a while and I miss your touch.” You ran a hand over his stomach up to his shoulders. Then you lent over and whispered in his ear “I want to feel you.”

He slowly leaned in and attached his lips to yours. He straddled your hips and pushed you back onto the bed losing his towel. You whimpered at the sight of his semi-hard cock. “You want that baby girl?” He rasped. You nodded your head and he quickly disposed of your shirt and shorts.

He took a look at you and stared for a while, making you very insecure. He hadn’t seen you like this in a while so maybe he didn’t like it? His voice went deep and said, “Don’t cover your beautiful body.” He always hated it when you were insecure about yourself, so he always reminded you of how pretty you were. You were ripped from your thoughts when he kissed behind your ear and whispered: “tonight I’m not just going to fuck you, I’m going to make love to you.” That alone made you moan.

He was clearly turned on, seeing as though he hadn’t had you like this in weeks. He all of the sudden pushed into you slowly, in and out. Whispering sweet nothings in your ear. You moaned “Baby I’m close” he gave you the cockiest smile. You kissed your neck leaving apparent red marks. You both were a moaning mess as your highs hit. You both lay there panting for a while.

He went to the bathroom and got a washcloth and cleaned you up and made sure to be sensitive around your entrance. You found one of Rafe’s shirts and you out in your shorts. He was sprawled out on the bed motioning for you to come to lay down with him. You layed your head on his chest while he played with your hair. He rasped “I love you, baby, I’m sorry I don’t spend enough time taking care of you. I promise I’ll be better because you mean the world to me.”

You smiled up at him and gave me a kiss on the nose “I love you too Rafe.” Then you both drifted asleep with the news still playing in the background.

All the lights couldn't put out the dark

Runnin' through my heart

Lights up and they know who you are

Know who you are

Do you know who you are?

You were suddenly awoken by the sound of Rafe's door being slammed open, Sarah came running in. Sarah was incredibly sweet and kind. She told the Pouges that you stayed at her house with her. When in reality you only stayed over most nights because of Rafe. You basically lived with them. Ward really didn’t care because since Rafe was with you, he had changed for the better.

You heard Rafe holler from beside you “Sarah get the fuck out of my room and leave us alone.” You smacked Rafe but in return, he only pulled you closer. Sarah unexpectedly screamed, “Your brother and the rest of the Pogues are almost here.” That was enough for you to bolt to Rafes' closet. You kept all your clothes there. You heard a loud knock from the door downstairs and froze.

Sarah whisper shouted “both of you get dressed, I’ll stall them. You quickly put on your high waisted shorts and an orange crop top, with some white converses. You ran Rafe's brush through your hair and decided you looked presentable enough. You kissed him on the cheek and told him to wait a while before he came down.

You ran down the stairs and saw all your friends, their faces immediately lit up. John B engulfed you in a hug. “Woahhhh Booker, you’re going to kill me. Have you been working out?” He laughed and playfully elbowed you. As he was pulling away he noticed your neck, purple bruises, curtesy of Rafe Cameron.

“Y/N. What the hell are these?” You felt your stomach churn. Oh God, you are done for. Then all of your friends were looking at you, JJ was seething. He was always really protective of you. You confidently tried to say “I know it looks bad but I have an explanation.” Kie glared at you and said, “who was it?” Sarah could sense something was about to go wrong so she said “It was me!”

Everyone looked at her in shock and so did you. Sarah happily said, “I was trying to teach her and yeah that’s what happened.” No one bought that story what so ever. As if matters couldn’t get worse Rafe Cameron strutted down the stairs.

Your eyes followed him and so did everyone else’s. Pope leaped up and rushed over to examine Rafe's neck. Then Pope shouted, “He’s got them too.” Everyone in the entire room started to see red. You didn’t know what to do. Was this really happening? No more hiding. John B hollered “Are you macking Rafe Fucking Cameron.” Everyone was staring at you, even Rafe. Okay, here it goes.

“Listen before I say anything I need you all to sit down.” With help from Sarah, you got all the Pouges to sit down. You were standing with Rafe behind you. “Yes, I’ve been dating Rafe for about a year.” The whole room erupted into chaos. There were screaming and hollering. All you wanted to do was disappear. You turned around and Rafe saw a few tears fall from your eyes. He hated this for you. He held you close as everyone watched. He kissed your forehead and said, “come on baby it’s going to be fine.”

You wiped away your tears and said “I love him.” You glared at everyone. John B stood up and said, “Dad would be so disappointed in you.” Rafe felt you tense up and he knew what was coming. He wouldn’t get in the way because you needed this.

You were the one seeing red now. “John booker Routledge. Don’t you dare tell me what my father would think of this situation. Dad would be happy for me. He would be jumping off the walls knowing that I’m happy. The truth is you’re scared of me growing up and you still see me as a little girl. You think the entire world revolves around you, well guess what it doesn’t. Also guess what John B, DAD IS DEAD AND HE'S NOT COMING BACK. Get over yourself, I accepted and moved on. It’s your turn.” You didn’t mean to be that harsh but it definitely came out that way.

Everyone looked at you with shocked expressions, even Rafe had no idea what to say. It was an unsaid rule that no one mentioned your dad around John B. That was the first time someone had confronted him about it. John B looked at you with pain in his eyes and said “Don’t bother coming home. As for your boy toy, I hope that he gets a couple of good fucks out of you then runs away.” Now it was Rafe's turn to see red “what the fuck did you just say?” He seethed. You pushed his chest back, telling him to just leave it alone. With that all of the Pogues left, leaving you and Rafe.

You broke down into sobs and curled into his touch. After a while, he willed your tears and said “I know baby, I know. He just doesn’t understand. I love you so much. I promise I’m not here just for a couple of good fucks.” You sheepishly said, “I love you too and I’m sorry for this happening.”

He looked you in the eyes and said “Do not be sorry for your brother's actions. Now come one let’s go back to bed.” So you both played in bed all day just enjoying each other’s warmth.

Shine, step into the light

Shine, so bright sometimes

Shine, I'm not ever going back

Shine, step into the light

Shine, so bright sometimes

Shine, I'm not ever going back

Shine, step into the light

Shine, so bright sometimes

Shine, I'm not ever

You woke up once again feeling like shit. It had been exactly a week and 3 days since your fight with John B. It never got easier through the days, every word said replaying in your mind. At least you got to wake up to the man you loved every morning. This morning you woke up with Rafe watching you. He seemed all too excited to be waking up at 7 AM on a Saturday. You groaned at how happy he looked.

“Y/N, I have an idea.” Oh, great an idea from Rafe Cameron was never good. You muttered an “mhm” which meant keep going. “So there’s a movie night on the beach tonight and I was really hoping you and I could go. We could go to the beach, have a picnic, then go to the movie thing. We could make a whole day out of it. Please?” He looked at you with his bright blue eyes. How could you say no to that? Seriously how?

“Fine. But only because I love you and you’re adorable.” He tackled you in kisses and hugs. “Oh my God Rafe please do not suffocate me.” He practically pulled you out of bed and forced you into the shower. You did your hair and decided on wearing a flowy summer dress and sandals over your red bikini. When you walked out of the bathroom his jaw nearly hit the floor. That was the first time you had actually got dressed in a week.

“Y/N. Baby, you look amazing.” You smiled, you honestly felt amazing. He layed kisses all over your face again. “Come on Rafe, don’t make me change my mind!”

Rafe drove the newest model of a jeep, which you absolutely adored. He held your hand the whole way to the beach and he occasionally kissed it. Every time you felt a little blush creep to your cheeks. It was amazing that he still had that effect on you, he thought.

When you guys first got there you decided to read “Pride and Prejudice.” You loved reading, it was your favorite thing to do (besides Rafe.) Rafe really was happy that you were enjoying yourself but he decided it was time for you to get in the water with him. He didn’t want you to overheat after all. “Come on Y/N, it’s time we got in the water, yeah?” You knew he would not give up. It was better to go then let him pester you for the next hour.

So you stood up and pulled your dress off in one quick motion. You looked at Rafe through your sunglasses and saw he was staring. “Well, are you coming or not? Because if you want to keep staring at me, I’m going back to reading.”

He jumped up and walked towards you mischievously. You could see that sly smile playing in his lips. That stupid, beautiful, amazing, and cocky smile. You were ripped from your thoughts when you were being thrown over Rafe's shoulder. “Rafe! Put me down, I can walk by myself.” You screamed.

“Oh Y/N, not after that smart comment you made.” He was about waist-deep in the water when he flung you back in the water. When you hit the water it was cold but it felt nice. It was good you were finally enjoying yourself. When you emerged from the water Rafe was laughing at your soaking state. “Haha. Very funny.” You stated.

When you both decided it was time for lunch, you watched Rafe get out of the water. His hair was wet and messily styled. He was dripping water and his swim trunks were fitted perfectly. He whispered in your ear “now who’s staring?” You took your book and whacked him with it. “Ouch,” he exclaimed in an overdramatic way.

You both sat down and ate the ham sandwiches Rafe had packed. They were actually not half bad. He had packed a few bears but you guys shared one, you always like it that way.

After a few hours of swimming, sleeping, reading, eating, listening to music, and other stuff, you decided it was time to pack up. The movie was going to start in a little bit and you guys had to go to the other side of the beach. When you both got to the car, you changed into underwear and out your sundress on. Rafe changed his shorts quickly and put on a polo shirt. Rafe started to drive and when you looked in the car mirror your mouth opened wide.

“Rafe Cameron! Why didn’t you tell me I had mascara all over my face.” You quickly wiped it away. He giggled and said, “you looked beautiful either way.” You gave him a death glare.

You guys arrived and Rafe set out two chairs, a few blankets, two pillows, and his two beers under one of the blankets. “Here you go, princess.” He said. You looked at him and just pulled him in for a quick kiss. “Thank you” You muttered against his lips. He pressed a kiss to your temple and said “You’re welcome baby girl.” You heard Topper holler something about Rafe being “pussy-whipped.” Rafe was focused on the movie, but you turned around and winked at Topper.

What do you mean?

I'm sorry by the way

Never going back now

Be so sweet if things just stayed the same

That’s when you saw them. The Pogues. They were all there. When did they get there? Rafe could sense your tension. So he turned where you were looking and he saw them too. He whispered in your ear “It’s okay, nothing is going to happen. I have you.” He gave you a reassuring squeeze and you both continued to watch the movie.

When the movie was over you packed up your things up but Rafe said he had to wring it out. You rolled your eyes at his choice of slang. As you were bringing stuff back to the jeep a teenage boy came up to you. He just stood there for a second but then he said: “hey baby girl, you looking for a man?” You cringed at him calling you “baby girl.” Only Rafe could call you that.

You merely just glanced at him and shoved him off. “Oh come on princess don’t be a bitch. I could show you a good time. You would be lucky to have me.” He said. He started to feel you up.

“Get off of me you asshole.” You hollered.

He was grabbing you in places that even Rafe wasn't allowed to do in public. You pushed him off again but all he did was back you against the car. He ran his hand up your side and said “It’s going to be better if you just comply. Let a real man show you how it’s done.” You were about to spit in his face when you felt about 200 pounds pulled off of you.

“Oh, God.” You thought. This was about to be bad. Your boyfriend Rafe was definitely a hothead. He called it being protective of his girl but it was definitely anger issues. The next thing you saw was the boy pinned to a tree by Rafe. The boy was obviously afraid of what was coming next.

Rafe hollered “You have 5 seconds to explain yourself before I break your neck.” Luckily there were only a few people there. You looked around hoping they wouldn’t be there and sure enough they were, looking straight at you.

The guy wheezed back “Dude she has a nice ass on her, I just wanted to hit that.” He let out a little chuckle. This wasn’t going to be good.

Rafe's fist collided with the boy's face over and over and over and over again. He hollered through the punches “Don’t ever disrespect a woman like that ever again. Women deserve to be treated with the respect you would give to a man.” (I find it extremely disappointing that the only way to get a man to back off of me is to tell him I have a boyfriend. They will respect another man before a woman)

You screamed “Rafe! Stop it. He’s had enough, he gets the point.” There was no way you were getting him off. Then you saw someone running over. You thought “Who is that, wait that’s John B! What’s he about to do?”

John B grabbed Rafe and pushed him away. He stood between the boy and Rafe. John B grabbed the boy by his shirt and said “If you ever touch my sister like that again I will not hold him back next time. Now get the fuck out of here before I beat your ass.” The boy just ran off looking as if he’d seen a ghost.

You ran over to Rafe and held him. He looked and you and said, “Are you okay?”

You playfully hit his arm and said “what the fuck do you mean am I okay? You’re the one who just beat the shit out of that guy.” He was about to respond when you heard a voice clear behind you. You were met with 3 pairs of eyes watching you.

John B said shyly “can we talk?”

You laughed dryly. “Why” is all you said.

“I just need to say a few things,” he replied. You nodded telling him to continue. “Okay so first of all I think I can speak for everyone when I say we’re truly sorry. We have treated you like shit for the past week. What you said was completely truthful, I don’t want you to grow up. I remember you as this little girl that I always feel the need to protect. I know that it’s your life and you can make these decisions now. I support what decisions you make. After what I’ve seen Rafe do for you, I understand. I don’t want you to get your heartbroken and from what I can tell he won’t break it. I love you and I’m so sorry. Please forgive me. I want my sister and my best friend back.”

You ran over to him and gave him a big hug. “I’m sorry for being harsh about dad.” You replied. You motioned for the rest of the Pogues to join the hug. Kie had a tear running down her cheek and she said “I’m really sorry Y/N. I miss you.” You only cried in response.

Then the unthinkable happened, JJ motioned for Rafe to join the hug. He was hesitant at first but he joined. You all stood like that for a while before JJ said: “okay enough with the circle jerk.” All of you laughed through the tears.

When you all pulled away John B bro hugged Rafe. You were so proud of them both. Pope then said, “anyone want beers at the chateau?” Everyone raised their hands.

All the lights couldn't put out the dark

Runnin' through my heart

Lights up and they know who you are

Know who you are

Do you know who you are?

You all got back to the chateau and decided it was time to put all the tension to rest. John B brought out all the beers, of course, you and Rafe shared one. You guys were all laying in the hammocks talking of various things. Then JJ said, “so now that we’re going to be seeing a lot more of him, I need to know his intentions.”

You leaned into Rafe's chest and muttered “oh my God.”

He sarcastically replied “fine I’ll let John B handle this.” You turned and looked at John B, giving him a warning glare. He gave you a smirk then said “As long as you guys don’t fuck on my couch or hammocks I’m fine.” Rafe practically died choking on his beer. All of the Pouges burst out laughing.

“Too late.” You said quietly. Rafe looked at you with wide eyes. He heard you. He ran his hand up and down your back. Then gave you a kiss on the temple.

You couldn’t be happier that the Pogues and your boyfriend were getting along. Everyone deserves love right? It doesn’t matter what kind. Love has no labels. You loved Rafe and he loved you, there was no doubt about it. It worked out in the end. That day John B came over and yelled at you had been the worst. Rafe picked up your missing pieces and put them back together. The principal of the thing is don’t be ashamed to do what you love. When the lights come up, just be who you truly are.

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Adore you. Rafe Cameron.

Rafe Cameron x Reader

Summary: You’re a pouge and Rafe is a Kook. This relationship will never work, that’s why you hide it.

Warnings: A few curse words, implied smut, and probably grammatical errors.

Words: 4,500 on the dot!

A/N: Hey you guys! Sorry this took so long to post, I had to deal with a few personal things. All of you are incredible!! Y’all are so sweet!💕 If anyone has constructive criticisms or requests please don’t hesitate to message me. Also do you guys thing I should write for anyone else? Just message me what you think. I’m so glad y’all like my fics! Thank you for all the likes and comments!💓 Don’t forgot to TPWK!!😌🥺 (Dont hesitate to message me if you need to talk, I’m here for you!)😘

You’re a pogue. You live on the cut. You work at the wreck. You hang out with John b, JJ, Kiara, Pope, and Sarah. Although Kiara was your best friend. You had known her the longest. Pogues and Kooks aren’t supposed to be friends, much less associate with each other. Although, Kie and Sarah were different. They both proved they weren’t snobs and they definitely knew how to have a good time.

You really didn’t go to Kie’s house a lot but you did go to the Cameron’s sometimes. Sarah insisted that you and Kie came over today to help her pick out a hairstyle for midsummers. They both were Kooks so of course they were going, but you were a Pouge. That meant you’d either be working the event or not going at all.

All three of you were up in Sarah’s room talking of various hairstyles and makeup plans. They both weren’t excited about the event but to tell the truth that’s all you had dreamt of since a little kid. All you wanted was to be invited to that party, wear a nice dress, and dance as though you would never again. You were pulled from your thoughts when you heard Kie and Sarah bickering on which flower crown to wear. That’s when you said, “Hey guys I’m going to go get something to drink from downstairs, I’ll be right back.” They both nodded and went back to dealing with the crown.

As you were grabbing a can of cherry coke your hand slipped from wetness and dropped it. Then out of nowhere appeared Mr. Rafe Cameron. He grabbed it for you and said “next time try to be more careful” then he gave you a cocky wink. You blushed at his comment. He could obviously see the effect he had on you so he said “you’re adorable when you blush.” He definitely knew how to get you going. So you lent over and gave him a quick peck on the lips. He then deepened the kiss.

Walk-in your rainbow paradise

Strawberry lipstick state of mind

I get so lost inside your eyes

Would you believe it?

The truth is you and Rafe had been secretly dating for 6 months. You both knew how your friends would feel about it so you decided to keep it to yourself. Thing is you saw something different in Rafe. You weren’t exactly sure when you started crushing on him. Maybe it was when you would see him coming out of the water, glistening. Maybe it was when you found him one night I’m a rage and helped calm him down.

Just so happened one night at a boneyard party Rafe found you all alone sitting on a log, watching the stars. You remember the conversation so vividly “hey y/n what are you doing out here all alone?” You glumly replied, “Oh you know just living it up.” The conversation went on for a while until there was a comfortable silence. Although you believe that comfortable silence was so overrated.

You really weren’t the type to be brave and do something so daring, but at the moment it just felt right. You all of the sudden grabbed him from the back of his neck and attached your lips to his.

“Shit, Rafe I’m so sorry. It’s just I’ve wanted to do that for a long time. Maybe it’s the alcohol in my system or it just feels right. I really don’t want to ruin our friendship and I hope this doesn’t make anything weird. I know you look at me like a Pouge. I thought maybe if I did it you would feel the same way. I know it’s completely stupid and I’m so sorry.” He had a little smile playing on his lips. Then he replied, “just shut up and kiss me again.”

It felt like electricity coursing through your veins. It felt like butterflies were swarming your stomach. He grabbed around your waist to pull you in more. You gently tugged at the end of the hair, which in response he let out an almost silent moan.

When you both pulled away, you were panting, instantly want more. “So I can’t help but noticed that you kissed me back. Does that mean you feel the same way about me?” He was trying to catch his breath. He finally was able to say “I’ve felt the same way since that day you comforted me after my dad was on my case.” You were incredibly happy but at the same time wondered why hadn’t he just said something.

“Y/N, your eyes are beautiful. Every time I see them I get so lost in them.” You started to blush with butterflies forming in your stomach, once again. He lifted his thumb to his lip and gently wiped “strawberry lipstick, you should wear it more often. So every time I kiss you, it will taste this sweet.”

You don't have to say you love me

You don't have to say nothing

You don't have to say you're mine

You were immediately startled when Sarah came into the kitchen. How long had you been thinking about that night at the boneyard? Suddenly she ran and gave you the biggest hug with Kie right behind her. They both were screaming nonsense. “SARAH CAMERON AND KIARRA CARRERA, WHAT ARE YOU GUYS TALKING ABOUT!!?” They both looked at you with wide grins and Kie said “How would you like to go to midsummers with me.”

You couldn’t trust your voice, so you started nodding profusely. You all started screaming practically bursting your own eardrums. Wait. Rafe. You quickly glanced around to see him sitting there with the biggest smirk on his face. You couldn’t tell what it was for but you knew he was excited for you.

They both half screamed and half cried about going shopping. Seeing as though midsummers was in a few days. “Come on Y/N, now it’s time we pick out your hairstyle.” Oh God, you were not prepared for this. You told the girls you would head up in a second.

As soon as they left, Rafe was at your side. He held you in a tight hug that let you know he was very excited for you. You couldn’t help feeling a little bit sad that you weren’t going to midsummers with Rafe but you weren’t going to complain. “Y/N, I’m really happy for you baby. I know you’re going to be absolutely gorgeous, per usual.” You knew Rafe could read you like a book so he could sense a little disappointment from you.

“Listen to me Y/N, I know that it’s hard with me being a Kook and you being a Pogue. I know people say that the two sides shouldn’t be together but that doesn’t change how I feel about you. I would never force you into anything you didn’t want to do. At any moment you could leave me. I know that I’m not as good as you. You don’t have to say anything, I just want you to know that you mean more than you will ever know to me.”

Honey

I'd walk through fire for you

Just let me adore you

Oh, honey

I'd walk through fire for you

Just let me adore you

Like it's the only thing I'll ever do

Like it's the only thing I'll ever do

You kissed him on the nose. “Rafe, I care for you so much, and I feel the same way about you. I’m not going to leave you, baby, I-“ You were then interrupted by Sarah screaming your name. “I’m coming SARAH!” You kissed him in his forehead and told him it was going to be okay, and with that, you went up to the middle Cameron’s room.

Kie had a curling iron in her hair and told you to sit down. “So Y/N, I think we should go shopping later tonight because midsummers are tomorrow.” WHAT? You had thought it was in a few days, not tomorrow. You quickly replied “What are we doing just sitting here, there’s no time to do hair. I need a dress!!” You definitely had some money from working at the wreck. You knew you would need it for something special, this was definitely that occasion.

You slipped on your brown and navy sandals, screaming a Kie and Sarah to hurry the hell up. Rafe was on the couch scrolling through his phone, when he saw you he shot you a wink. Sarah and Kie grabbed their things and you all were out the door.

When you arrived at the first store it looked so surreal. There were diamonds and pearls everywhere. In the corners, there were long luxurious dresses. Nothing really stuck out to you but it was smart to try on dresses to get an idea of what you want. By the 5th store, you all were exhausted but Sarah insisted you tried on a long red dress with a slit on the left. When you zipped it up, you turned around and saw yourself in the dress. You were beautiful. You stepped out for the girl to see and they were ecstatic. That was the one.

On your way home you guys saw a thin red flower crown with a hint of green. You decided you would borrow Sarah’s gold heels. The outfit you picked was beautiful and you silently cheered knowing Rafe would see you.

You remember the first time you and Rafe almost got caught with each other. Rafe had texted you and told you to sneak over through his window. You had successfully made it but he had an unexpected visit from Kelce. So you hid in his closet trying to be as silent as possible while Kelce talked about some girl he fucked. At that moment you wished you were anywhere but there. When he finally left, after what felt like hours you just wanted to cuddle.

You laid on his chest, while he rubbed small circles on your back. Then he went into a rant of “he wouldn’t care if you guys got caught” and “he would walk through hell just to be with you” or “I adore you so much, baby girl.” You knew he was saying this because you had to hide in a closet for hours. You kissed his nose and said, “baby it’s fine, I made it out alive.”

Your wonder under summer skies

Brown skin and lemon over ice

Would you believe it?

When you, Sarah, and Kie arrived at the Cameron’s you guys were exhausted. Kie took off and said his parents needed her home. Then it was your turn to depart “by Sarah, I’ll see you tomorrow at MIDSUMMERS.” She elbowed you in the stomach. As you were walking out the door Rafe came out of nowhere and offered you a ride home. You gave him a confused look but agreed. Sarah of course thought nothing of it.

When you guys got in the car you said “Rafe, what if Sarah found out.” You knew that she probably hadn’t but it still crossed your mind. You were so deep in thought about everything that happened today, you didn’t realize the car had stopped. Wait...this wasn’t your house. “Rafe, what are we doing at the beach?” He grabbed your hand and happily said “thought we could spend some time together.” God, he was absolutely adorable.

As you ran out of the car to a place that looked secluded, Rafe let the moment sink in. You were really his. You looked beautiful under the sunset of the summer sky. He doesn’t know how he got so lucky or why he was blessed with you. His thoughts were soon gone when you screamed “HURRY UP RAFE, YOU’RE SO SLOW.”

You don't have to say you love me

I just wanna tell you something

Lately, you've been on my mind

When he finally found his way to the rock you were sitting on he said “Y/N, I need to talk to you about something.” He thought this was the perfect opportunity to pull a little prank on you. You looked at him with adoration in your eyes then suddenly they turned dark when he said the words “I’m back on coke, I relapsed.” You thought he was joking at first but this is something you guys don’t joke about.

Before you and Rafe were dating you knew he did coke. You knew that it was a daily occurrence. Everyone could see it destroying his life. It mentally hurt you to see him like that so one day you told him to decide between you and coke. That day he stopped, he’s been sober for 4 months. You told him if he ever went back to coke you were leaving him because it took a toll on you. It depressed you to see him like that all the time. All of a sudden your ears were ringing, you started to see red.

You started to talk then paused to keep composure. “Did you do it willingly?” He responded with “I’ve been doing it for a while, I’ve been visiting Barry and getting it from him. He was laughing so hard on the inside while your heart was breaking. You started to cry and sob because you knew he had just ruined the relationship. “Y/N! IM KIDDING, THIS WAS PRANK.”

You looked him in the eyes and replied “You’re disgusting, Rafe Cameron.” You hurriedly got your bags from his car and started walking to your parent's home.

“Y/N, please. Wait. I just wanted to play a little joke on you. I didn’t mean any harm.” You were relieved it was a prank but you were furious. It had caused you so much pain before. You didn’t want to see him or talk to him. “Rafe if you care about me, you will leave me the hell alone this instant. With that, he drove away. He fucked up bad and he knew it.

Honey

I'd walk through fire for you

Just let me adore you

Oh, honey

I'd walk through fire for you

Just let me adore you

Like it's the only thing I'll ever do

Like it's the only thing I'll ever do

You went home and furiously slammed the door to your room and started sobbing. How could he pull a joke on you like that? Maybe you were overreacting a little but when he was on coke it killed you on the inside. You had seen your boyfriend slowly killing himself. Even if I was just an innocent little prank it still brought back memories. These memories were the ones you wish you could forget.

Your phone started buzzing in your pocket. You knew who it was but you couldn’t talk to him, not right now. You sent it to voicemail and he called back 1...2..3..4..5..6 times. You just decided to shut off your phone and take a shower. When the heat of the shower hit your back it instantly soothed you. You took about 30 mins just to relax, then you got out and did your nightly routine. You curled up in your bed and finally turned your phone back on.

You were in shock there were tons of missed calls and texts from Rafe. There were only a few texts from the rest of the Pogue group chat. When you went to Sarah’s messages it said “hey, did something happen with you and Rafe because he’s been a crying mess since he got home.” You instantly replied, “nothing I can think of.” It hurt you that you made him feel that way but it wasn’t your fault. He really hit a memory inside that you wished to forget. You decided it was best to call him back.

You called and the phone rang for half a second before he was on the line. Y/N? His voice cracked, he sounded like he had been crying for hours. “Yeah, Rafe it’s me.” You could hear him exhale on the other side of the phone in relief.

“Listen, baby, I’m so sorry for pulling that stupid joke on you. I really didn’t mean any harm. I know that something that I’m not supposed to joke about and I don’t know why I did it. I know the mental toll it took and you. I felt so bad knowing that you were at home sobbing your heart out and I couldn’t hold you. Y/N, please I would do anything to make you stop hurting. Please forgive me? I swear I’ll be more careful.”

You sighed knowing he had no bad intentions. “Yeah Rafe, I forgive you. Just please don’t even joke with me like that again. You know that broke me into pieces.” He replied, “I promise, I promise, I will never ever do that to you ever again.”

Then he said “so can I come over because I still feel bad and I really want to see you.”

You thought this was the perfect time to tease him, “you can see me tomorrow when I come over to your house to get ready for midsummers.”

He huffed in annoyance, “but I want to see you now!!”

“Byeeee Rafe, I’ll see you tomorrow!” Then you hung up on him. You could imagine his face at that moment, shocked but wanting more. It was late so you decided to go to bed, trying to contain your excitement for tomorrow.

I'd walk through fire for you

Just let me adore you

Oh, honey

I'd walk through fire for you

Just let me adore you

Like it's the only thing I'll ever do

You woke up to the sound of your phone buzzing. There were only a few people it could be but you secretly hoped it was the eldest Cameron sibling. Nope, it was actually the middle Cameron sibling. You saw a text from her that said “Get your lazy ass over here, we’ve got midsummers to get ready for.” You groaned, eyes still puffy from crying last night. So you got up brushed your teeth and got dressed. You grabbed your bags from yesterday then headed to the Cameron’s.

You dang the doorbell several times and you heard Rafe holler, “I’m coming, chill out.” He definitely didn’t know it was you, he probably assumed it was Kie or something. When he opened the door his face went into a frown. He sees your puffy eyes and palish face from crying. You gave him a small smile and you were about to say something but Sarah came to the door and dragged you upstairs.

She had her hair done and she makes up done. She looked absolutely gorgeous. You always wanted to be as beautiful as the Kook princess. She told you countless times you were soooo pretty but you were just very insecure. “Okay, so how should I do your hair?” I think just leave it down and straighten it. So you went and took another shower, you made sure to moisturize and all that good stuff.

Sarah sat you down at her vanity and started blow-drying your hair. After she was done with that she plugged up the flat iron. She suspiciously went and closed her door then she said “Y/N we need to talk.” Oh God, not that sentence again.

“So what’s going on between you and my brother.” You practically choked on your spit and said “what do you mean.” She looked at you with knowing eyes while continuing to do your hair.

“Y/N, I’m not stupid. I see the glances you give each other. I hear him talk to you on the phone, all the time! He was crying last night and this morning you show up with puffy eyes! I’d rather you tell me then lie to me about it.” She had an expression you couldn’t read at the moment.

“Okay Sarah, you want to know? Rafe and I have been seeing each other for a few months.” Her mouth dropped. Then she put on a little cocky smile of hers.

She screamed “I KNEW IT!! I mean I didn’t know it but I did know it. Y/N, if you really care about him then I’m not mad. I don’t know why in hell you would want to be with him but that’s your choice. I’m really happy for you.” You got up and hugged her really hard. She was so sweet. You muttered, “Sarah you are amazing.”

You decided you wanted a snack before you got your make up done. So you and Sarah went downstairs and you decided to get an apple. You saw Rafe sitting at the bar, so you decided it would be the perfect time to get him back for his “prank.” You made sure Sarah was in the room then you went up to him and kissed him. He didn’t push you away, he only deepened the kiss.

You pulled away and said, “you know your sister is right there, right?” He glanced at her and said back “I really didn’t care, if you wanted to kiss then we were going to kiss.”

Sarah eyed both of you and said “hey, just because I know doesn’t mean you two can get all lovey-dovey. I going to go and give you guys a minute. Y/N come upstairs when you’re done.” She then went back upstairs.

Rafe looked at you and said, “so you told her?”

“No, I didn’t, you’re just not good at hiding us.” He elbowed you then you giggled.

His face went serious. He looked at you for a second then said “I’m so sorry for what I did yesterday. I felt horrible. I thought you were going to break up with me, even though you should’ve. I really shouldn’t have done that. It hurt me so bad to know you were crying and I couldn’t comfort you.”

You looked at him with testy eyes and said “it’s okay baby.” He got up and hugged you so tight.

He wasn’t letting go so you had to say “alright I’m going to let Sarah do my make up now. I’m going to get dressed.” He gave you a kiss and then you were off to go.

I'd walk through fire for you

Just let me adore you

Oh, honey

Oh, honey

Before you knew it you were dressed and people were arriving at the house. You weren’t going to lie, you looked really good. Kie suddenly swung open the door to Sarah’s room. She saw you and her jaw dropped, “wowww my date looks hot.” You giggled and grabbed Kie’s hand.

You both walked over to where Pope was working and decided to chat. People were staring at you and it made you uncomfortable. Although there was nothing you could do so you just decided to have a good time. You heard applause and you turned around to see what all the commotion was about. Then you saw him.

He was with the rest of his family, he looked miserable. Then your eyes met and his face visibly heated up. He had a baby blue suit on, he cleaned up really nice. To be honest the entire Cameron family looked like they were out of a photoshoot. You gave Rafe a small smile and he was blushing, it was obvious the effect you had on him.

Ward gave a small speech then the Cameron family went all separate ways. Topper and Sarah were arguing about something. Pope and JJ were working. Kie was with her mother and father talking of God knows what. Then it was just you. You gasped when you felt someone come up behind you and say “want to dance.” It was Rafe.

“Rafe, you know we can’t dance. People will find out about us.”

He looked at you with a small smile and said “maybe I want them to know.” You eyed him suspiciously then you decided he had no alternative motive. Well, it was time. He took your hand and you both walked over the dance floor. Your hands were around his neck and he had him on your waist.

“Rafe...people are staring at me.” You said quietly. He leaned down and whispered in your ear “Well let them stare, you’re beautiful.” Then he kissed the top of your head.

I'd walk through fire for you

Just let me adore you

After a few dances, you decided it was time to go back to your seat. Kie rushed to your side “so that’s new?” Then Sarah replied, “no it’s not, it’s been going on for about 4 months.”

You turned to her and said, “actually about 6.” They both looked at you shocked. Kie had a blank expression and she looked at you and said “why him?” You knew that was a loaded question. There were so many reasons you chose him. Maybe it was that he was a generally kind person once you got to know him. Maybe it was the fact that when your asleep he talks to you, but you just pretend you’re asleep. Perhaps it was the way he changed when he met you. He no longer bothered the Pogues, he was off the coke, and he learned to control his hot head.

There was only one thing that could possibly explain it “I chose him because I love him.” You smiled there way. They looked at you with a startled expression, then behind you with a startled expression. They both snickered, then ran off. You stood up and turned around and Rafe was standing there with a startled expression. “Shit” was all you muttered.

“Y/N, you love me?” You muttered sheepishly “yeah I do”

Oh, honey

Just let me adore you

Like it's the only thing I'll ever do

“Y/N, I think. NO. I know I love you too” You gave him the biggest smile. You lent in and kissed him, people started staring. There were oohs and ahhs, some even gasped. He whispered in your ear “want to get out of here?” You smiled and gave him a yes. He took your hand and you both headed towards the beach.

He could tell you were having a hard time walking with your dress and all so he grabbed your bridal style. You both settled on a pier looking over the water.

You were watching the water but you could tell her was staring at you. Then he said, “I hope our kids never have to hide their love.” Wait did he just say, kids?

You turned and looked at him “our kids?”

He looked at you sheepishly and said “yes I want kids, do you?” You leaped up and attacked him with hugs and kisses. That was a definite yes. “I love you Rafe.” he smiled into your lips and said, “I love you too baby.”

He truly adored every piece of you.

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Watermelon Sugar. Rafe Cameron

Rafe Cameron x Reader

Summary: You’re Sarah Cameron’s best friend and you’ve always crushed on her older brother. You knew he didn’t think that way about you...right?

Warnings: Underage drinking, cursing, smut...smut...smut, probably a few grammatical errors.

Words: 2.3k+

A/N: okay so if you guys couldn’t tell I’m doing the entire Fine Line album by Harry Styles. I am going in order and didn’t realize “Watermelon Sugar” was the next song. If you didn’t know this song is about oral and sex. I wasn’t planning on writing smut this fast but here I am. Thank you all for the likes and comments. You all are incredibly sweet. If there’s any constructive criticisms or requests you guys want to give don’t hesitate to message me. Thank you all so much, TPWK. 💕💕

Sarah Cameron had been your best friend since the two of you could talk. The two of you go to the kook academy together. You both are inseparable, so of course, you always went to her house. Their pool was massive and don’t even get me started on the view of the beach.

Although you realized you started going to the Cameron’s for all the wrong reasons, Rafe. You seriously couldn’t help yourself, he was perfect. He was your best friend's brother, you couldn’t think of him like that! When you would walk around the house he would occasionally whistle or shoot you a “looking good Y/N.” It hurt your soul but in a good way.

He obviously had no interest in you, and you tried to forget about him. You even tried to flirt with Kelce a few times to make him jealous. That never worked, you knew he pitied you. Ugh. The only way you could wash him from your mind was...you guessed it...kegger at the boneyard.

When you and Sarah arrived, you had a look around and saw Rafe chatting up a Touron. That made you sick, so to forget about it you practically dragged Sarah through the crowds of people to the keg.

About a few cups of beers and some tequila shots in, you were completely wasted. There was alcohol coursing through your veins. It was all going good until you saw him, he had discarded his shirt probably because of the heat. He looked really good, like really good. He waved a hand at you, dang you were caught staring. You were about to wave back until you felt someone grasp your waist, rather harshly. It was a boy you had never met, he was cute but not like Rafe. Rafe was gorgeous.

Rafe saw your discomfort and immediately rushed to your side. Then what came out his mouth surprised you, “hey, babe you ready to go?” You thought you were dreaming but it was very real. You replied, “yeah we can go now.” Why was Rafe pretending to be your boyfriend? The guy walked away sulking at the fact you weren’t the one he was going down on tonight. When he was out of sight you thanked Rafe but before you could even finish. You puked, right there in front of Rafe. He grabbed your hair, holding it out of your face. He hollered to Topper he was taking you home and told him to tell Sarah. With that, you fell asleep on the ride home.

Next thing you know, you’re being carried bridal style up to your room. “Rafe I want to brush my teeth, please.” Once he made sure you were stable enough to walk, you went to the bathroom. You quickly changed and did your skincare routine. Brushing your teeth felt amazing, seeing as though you just threw up. Once you walked out, Rafe was sitting on your bed. You were sure he would’ve left by now.

Tastes like strawberries on a summer evenin'

And it sounds just like a song

I want more berries and that summer feelin'

It's so wonderful and warm

“Hey,” he said a little too happily. “Hi” was all you replied with. The tension in the room started to get a little awkward so you said “Thank you for what you did tonight.”

“It was no problem, I didn’t want to see another guy in your pants.” Wait, What did he just say? “Wha..what. What do you mean?” He got up and laughed “Y/N, don’t pretend like you don’t know how I feel about you.”

How he felt about you? What was that supposed to mean? “Rafe, what are you talking about.” You could sense him tensing up. “Oh for Christ’s sake Y/N, either you’re playing dumb or you are the most naive girl I have ever met.”

“Rafe, I really don’t understa-“ All of a sudden you felt your lips on his, wait for your kissing Rafe Cameron. You pulled him down by the back of his neck. He wrapped his hand around your waist and held on as of you were going to slip away.

You both pull away at the same time, panting and gasping for air. When Rafe caught his breath he said “Your lips taste like strawberries on a summer evening.” A blush slowly crept to your face. You felt so wonderful and warm at the same time. You reached over and lightly touched his lips and said “I didn’t know THE Rafe Cameron was such a poet.”

Breathe me in, breathe me out

I don't know if I could ever go without

I'm just thinking out loud

I don't know if I could ever go without

“Y/N, you don’t know how long I’ve wanted to do that.”

You quickly put one leg over his lap, so you could straddle him. You lent in to kiss him, when your lips met you knew how much you needed him. He kissed your neck leaving marks all over that you would have to explain to Sarah later.

The way his hands touched your skin, they weren’t rough, they were gentle. He caressed your skin so thoughtfully as if you were just a porcelain doll. There was something so indescribable about what he was doing to you. You just melt into his touch.

Everything felt right in the moment, so you pulled the hem of his shirt. As if he knew, he quickly discarded it on your bedroom floor. You kissed from his neck down his chest and stomach “Y/N, I should’ve said something to you a lot longer ago.” From the way, he was shuffling you could tell that he was about to have a big problem. You raked your hands through his hair and whispered in his ear “let me take care of it.”

Watermelon sugar high

Watermelon sugar high

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Watermelon sugar

You gently ran your fingers over his semi-hard member. He let out an almost silent moan. “No Y/N, I want to take care of you tonight. I want to show you how I’ve felt about you for so long. I need you to know that you’ve always been more to me than my little sister's best friend.” He flipped you guys so you were on the bottom now. “I’m going to take your clothes off now, is that okay?” You slowly shook your head. “I need words, pretty girl.” It took all you had to mutter “yes Rafe please.”

He wasted no time discarding your shirt, then he unhooked your bra with no hesitation. He kissed between your breast and said “your so beautiful baby girl.” Then in one swift motion, he slid you shorts down along with your underwear. His breathing hitched and he went down to your neck and kissed right there behind your ear. “I’m going to make you feel so good” was all your heard before you felt one of his ring clad fingers on your entrance.

Just that alone made you moan. This experience was all so surreal. Not even 2 hours ago you were trying to get wasted because you were jealous. You were quickly brought from your thoughts when you felt him start to rub your entrance while sucking on the inside of your thighs. “You ready” he questioned. “You know we can stop at any time you feel uncomfortable, right?” You gave a very eager nod. Just as he was about to slide his fingers in, you heard the front door open. Oh no.

Strawberries on a summer evenin’

Baby, you're the end of June

I want your belly and that summer feelin'

Getting washed away in you

“Oh my God.” You whisper shouted. Wait it couldn’t be Tuesday, was it? It was. You forgot that your parents get home today from their trip to Yucatán. You looked at Rafe and you could tell he was very unsatisfied with the fact your parents had just got home. You don’t know what washed over you, maybe it was just confidence or the alcohol from before. You whispered in his ear “I can be quiet.”

His eye went very wide at your statement. You could tell he was having a mental war with himself, do it, and try not to get caught? Or let the girl, he cares for so much be left unsatisfied? It was clear at that moment, he knew what to do.

Rafe Cameron was always the adventurous type. He never backed away from things just because they were tough. He found ways to adapt to situations and faced them head-on. He made the wrong choices most of the time but this time he knew his choice was right. He bent down a just above a whisper said “Alright listen baby, you have to be quite. I’ll cover your mouth if you get a little loud.”

Breathe me in, breathe me out

I don’t know if I could ever go without

“Rafe, please. I need you to make me feel good.” He kissed your cheek and quietly said “that’s the hottest thing you’ve ever said.” Your mouth dropped then formed into a wide smile. You mouthed “Your such an idiot.” Then all of sudden he went from giggly Rafe to brooding Rafe. You could tell he wanted you. There was something different in his eyes. They were hooded and full of desire.

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He began where he left off, right between your thighs.

Oh, it felt just as good before. There would definitely be marks and you would have to hide tomorrow. Although right now everything was perfect. His hands slid over your stomach before his fingers made their way to your entrance.

You let out a very soft moan. He quickly looked up at you with a satisfied smirk. That smirk gave you chills all over. He felt you shiver under his touch like he knew the effect he had on you. “Alright, make sure you keep you’re voice down because I’m about to blow your mind.” You rolled you eyes and started blushing a deep red.

That when you felt it, he had no mercy. He was two fingers deep inside you. “Oh my God” is all you could say. Your body immediately pushed itself further for him. You ached for him all over. He simultaneously pushed his fingers in and out of you, while managing to rub your entrance with his thumb. You couldn’t tell what his facial expressions were at the moment because you had your eyes sealed shut. You were trying so hard to stifle the moans.

You moaned “Rafeeeeee” so quietly. You grabbed his muscular arm and said “please I’m close.” He knew how to push you over the edge, so he went to your ear and said “do it, princess.” That was it for you, you squeezed your legs together and felt your walls come down. You moaned and Rafe took his hand an quickly put it over your mouth.

I just wanna taste it, I just wanna taste it

Watermelon sugar high

Your juices where all over his fingers and you couldn’t help feel a little embarrassed. You tried to hide it but he knew. So he did what he could to make you feel better. He took his fingers up and put them to his lips then sucked on them until they were clean. “Taste like watermelon sugar” is what he said.

You were in shock and awe. Did he really just do that. I mean it worked, you definitely weren’t embarrassed anymore. You were shaking a little bit but you came up to his ear and said “I need you inside me. Right. Now.”

Tastes like strawberries on a summer evenin'

And it sounds just like a song

I want your belly and that summer feelin'

I don't know if I could ever go without

He wasted no time trying to take off his belt before you stepped in and said “here, let me.” You quickly threw his belt and it made its way to the floor with a thud. You cringed and silently cursed yourself for being that loud. Although your parents were probably in bed, half-asleep now.

You gently palmed him through his pants before you unzipped them and took them off. You could see his member growing by the second. You yanked his underwear down and out sprang his cock. Your eyes went wide and you swore he chuckled at you.

You could see pre cum dripping from his tip, so you did what you had seen him do. You slowly put your head down on it and swirling your tongue around it. “Fuckkk yes Y/N.” You silently cheered because you knew he liked that. You felt flipped around and pushed onto the bed.

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Then just out of thin air when you weren’t expecting it, he thrust into you. He grabbed your throat gently knowing you were about to make some noise. “Oh God. Rafeeee. Don’t stop. Pleaseeee.” He responded with “ I wasn’t planning on it.” Every time he slammed into you, it felt euphoric. When you caught a glance of him you could tell he was also enjoying it. Although you knew how to make him enjoy it way more.

You grabbed his shoulders and it took all the strength you had in you to flip him over. He was 6’2 and definitely toned. You leaned down and seductively said in his ear “now I’m going to make you feel good.” With that, you sink down right into his member.

At this point you both were a panting mess, trying to keep quiet. You were moving on top of him, riding him. You both are sooo close to coming. Then you felt yourself clench around him and he shoots right up in you. After a while he got up and went to the bathroom and said he’ll beright back, he was going to go clean himself up. Then it was your turn and when you got up, you immediately started to wobble. He knew it was coming but you didn’t, so he rushed to your side and helped you to the bathroom.

He got you a shirt and some shorts then helped you change. You weren’t surprised he was taking such good care of you. Thing is you saw right past his hard exterior. He was a caring man, who almost always had the right intentions behind his choices. You were the first to lay back down, then he laid down. He pulled you into his chest and kissed your head. “Y/N...I don’t want this to be a one night stand, I want to be more. I’ve suppressed my feelings for long enough.” You giggled and said, “I feel the same way.” You both then drifted off into a deep sleep.

I just wanna taste it, I just wanna taste it

Watermelon sugar high

I just wanna taste it, I just wanna taste it

Watermelon sugar high

Watermelon sugar

When you woke up from your bliss-filled sleep, you felt an arm draped across your waist. Then all the memories from last night came flooding back. You wondered...was this real? You very quietly tried to flip yourself over to see his face. He looked different when he was asleep, very calm. You tried to pull away only to be pulled back. “Think you’re going somewhere Y/N?” You giggled.

You were immediately pulled back into his chest. He pressed a kiss to your temple and rasped “How are you this morning dear?” You answered him with a kiss to his cheek. Then to the side of his mouth. Then to his mouth. Then it turned into a heated make-out session. “Still just as good as last night.” You mumbled into his ear between kisses. All of a sudden your phone was buzzing. When you checked it your face went pale. Sarah...

How are you going to tell Sarah what happened between you and her brother? It’s like he could sense what you were thinking because he ran a hand over your shoulder and told you not to worry. You decided it was best to not answer at that moment seeing as though you were in bed with her brother. That was a different problem you both would have to address later but now, at this moment you both had each other.

You felt him slowly trail his hands down your spine then he reaches the very bottom. You instantly knew what he wants, you wanted the same exact thing. You felt beat pool by your legs and remembered him tasting you last night. He flipped you around. You giggled quietly. He whispered in your ear “I enjoyed last night but I feel like around two.” You giddily responded, “How would your sister feel about this.” His face immediately turned disgusted “please don’t talk about my sister when I’m about to taste you.” You blushed at the suddenness of his comment. He saw your reaction when he took the opportunity to say “I just want to tatse it, watermelon sugar.” This was going to be a long morning.

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[in-my-jamiebower-era]

Golden. Rafe Cameron

Rafe Cameron x reader

Summary: Rafe hasn’t always had the best relationships. He still has doubts and worries that one day you’ll leave him because he’s damaged.

Warnings: Past trama, slight mention of smut, spelling/grammatical errors

Words: 1.7k

*Based on Golden from Harry Styles’ Fine Line album.

Golden, golden, golden

As I open my eyes

Hold it, focus, hoping

Take me back to the light

I know you were way too bright for me

I'm hopeless, broken

So you wait for me in the sky

Browns my skin just right

You had just woken up and by the looks of it, it was around 3 AM. You quietly shuffled under the blankets to warm yourself only to realize that the warmth you were really seeking was absent. When you went to bed, Rafe had you tightly wrapped in his arms playing with your hair. You quickly grabbed your glasses and popped up, looking around your bedroom. Then you saw him on the edge of your bed, his head in his hands. Stifling his sniffles.

“Rafe? Rafe what are you doing? Rafe....baby what’s wrong?”

“Y/N, Just go back to sleep.” You were beyond worried, I mean sure Rafe has his moments where he completely breaks down. You were always there to comfort him whenever he felt that way. Rafe, I’m not going back to sleep until you tell me what’s wrong. You scooted over beside him, hugging his neck. “Rafe...baby please talk to me.” He only sniffled in response.

You hated when he didn’t talk, that’s what he’d been taught by his father. Hide your emotions and put on a fake face. Even if he didn’t open up you would still be right by his side. You knew he would eventually open up but in the meantime, all you had to do was hold him.

“Y/N?” You heard him say. “Yes, baby, what is it?” He merely responded with “Do you really love me?”

You're so golden

You're so golden

I'm out of my head

And I know that you're scared

Because hearts get broken

“Rafe, of course, I love you!” He got up and started pacing the room violently. “Y/N you shouldn’t love me. I’m a screw up. I can’t please my dad, my sisters, or my friends. I know in the end I’m going to screw this relationship up, so why don’t you leave while you have the chance. You are the golden girl, you bring sunshine wherever you go. Y/N you can’t have me dragging you down, you’re going places and I can’t ruin you.”

By the time he had finished with his rant, he had tears down his face. His eyes were bloodshot from crying, his lip was quivering, his hair was all in a knotted mess. God you loved his hair.

“Rafe, honey, what brought this on? Casie! Don’t you understand, I’m no good for you! I’m damaged.”That’s when it hit you, he called you his ex girlfriend. Then your heart shattered. You know that he had problems with his past relationships, they all took advantage of his name and title. He never knew love until he met you. He didn’t think you were like Casie, right?

Rather of getting mad at him, you knew how to handle it. He probably had a dream of you leaving him because of something he did. He always thought it was his fault.

“Rafe, I know you think that I’m going to leave you as Casie did. I promise, I’m not like her. I love you and I’m never going to stop loving you. You showed me things that I could only dream of, you were my first everything. My first kiss, my first boyfriend, my first in bed, and my first love. You are so kind and caring, I hate that people judge you without knowing you. Baby you have to understand that no matter what you do, I’m always here for you and I’m never going to leave. What Casie did to you was absolutely horrible, but baby you know I would never do that to you. I care way to much. It’s okay to be insecure about stuff but just know I’ll always be here for you.” That’s all it took for him to rush over and crumble in your arms.

I don't wanna be alone

I don't wanna be alone

When it ends

Don't wanna let you know

I don't wanna be alone

But I, I can feel it take a hold

I can feel you take control

Of who I am and all I've ever known

Loving you's the antidote

“I'm sorry Y/N, I love you so much. I just don’t want to be alone. I want to be strong for you but it gets so hard sometimes.” You met his eyes and they showed complete pain. “Hey Rafe look at me, it’s okay to break down once in a while. I’ll always be here for you, no matter what. I’m so sorry Y/N, it’s all I ever know. When my mom left it was so painful but then when Casie left me, it took an emotional toll on me. So I’ve just expected everyone to leave, and here you are after 18 months. I know that you love me and I’m sorry for doubting you and calling you Casie. It’s just. I just had a dream that I relapsed and you found out and left me. It broke me completely.” He began to sob again, bunching up your shirt at how hard he was holding onto you.

“Oh, Rafe. Shhhhh. It’s okay baby. Listen to me stop apologizing. You can’t help what you went through and what it did to you. Trust me when I tell you this, hell would freeze over before I left you. Baby, even if you did relapse, we would find a way out of the mess. I’ve told you this and I’ll say it again, I’m here for the long game.”

He had stopped crying and wiped away his tears harshly. Almost embarrassed for being so emotional. You kissed the corner of his lips to let him know that you were proud of him for opening up.

Then you heard something, it was so faint but you managed to make out what was said. “Y/N, I’m going to marry you one day.” He couldn’t tell from the darkness but you were smiling with ready to burst with joy.

Golden

You're so golden

I don't wanna be alone

You're so golden

You're so golden

I'm out of my head

And I know that you're scared

Because hearts get broken

“Come on Rafe let’s go lay back down, I’ll let you be little spoon tonight.” He grumbled at this but you and him both knew that he loved being little spoon. You silently took off you glasses and wrapped your arm around his waist. You pressed a few chaste kisses to the back of his neck and told him goodnight. As you were drifting asleep you felt Rafe shuffle and decided to let him do his thing. He figured you were asleep so he started talking.

“Y/N, I meant it when I said that you’re golden. You are everything I want and more. I know that you will never leave me, no matter how bad I screw up. I know you get scared sometimes that I’m going to break your heart. Always remember, no matter how mad I get and no matter what I do, you are the person I want to spend the rest of my life with.” He then pressed a kiss to your head. “Goodnight baby,” he said.

“I want to spend the rest of my life with you too.” He was immediately flustered and tried his best to cover his blush. He didn’t know you were awake, he didn’t know most of the time when he talked to you in your sleep that you were awake. Although this time you needed him to know that you reciprocated the feelings. “I love you Y/N.” “I love you too Rafe.”

I know that you're scared

Because I'm so open

The next morning you looked over and saw the man you loved, sprawled out all over the mattress, he looked so dreamy. His hair was still a knotted mess from last night. His eyes were puffy from last night, but you didn’t care, he was still gorgeous. “Y/N, you’re staring.” Dang, he really did just hit you with that cliché line. You smacked his chest and silently cursed yourself.

“Rafe, you are going to be the end of me!” You giggled. He looked at you with adoration and said, “Sorry sweetheart, you’re the one who said you’re here for the long game.” You remember you said this last night. At least he knew it and acknowledged it.

You sat up to go do your morning routine and brush your teeth when suddenly you felt his hand on your wrist pulling you. “Y/N, I know I scare you sometimes when I’m open with you like that.” You knew he was referring to last night. “I just really love you and I am very glad that I have you to express my feelings to.”His eyes were a bright blue, they were filled with compassion and love.

“Rafe, of course, baby. I’ll always be here when you need me, can’t get rid of me that easy.” With that you pushed your lips to his forehead and went to do your morning routine.

You're so golden

I don't wanna be alone

You're so golden

You're so golden

You're so golden

I'm out of my head

And I know that you're scared

Because hearts get broken

You quickly brushed your teeth and did your morning skincare routine. You put your hair up in a ponytail and decided it was time to treat Rafe after the hell he had been through last night. You pulled on his favorite shirt lying on the counter, you were in nothing but his shirt and your lace underwear.

When he saw you, his jaw dropped and his eyes became a darker shade of blue. You walked over to him and pressed a kiss to his lips trailing down to his neck. Leaving red marks that simply showed he was yours.

“Y/N, I love you.” He knew what was coming next and it made his heart swell (and other things swell.) You were truly his love and will be forever. Of course there’s going to be ups and downs in your relationship but no matter what if he had your hand, he could conquer the world. You were truly his sunshine, you were his golden girl.

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