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REJECT RENDERING RETURN TO ANIMATION RAAAAAAGH

some stills from the thing ^_^

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now i've finally gotten some aziraphale's under my belt, it's time to take note of what i've actually learned by tracing all these screencaps!!

i hope someone finds this helpful. if you're into this kind of thing, there have been loads of other refs shared in the good omens reference library!

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The real significance of Crowley’s name:

I don’t know why I never thought of this before, but I did now.

In the Hebrew translation of Good Omens, Aziraphale is spelled as אזירפאל, and Crowley as קראולי. Someone who didn’t know about Good Omens or how to pronounce Crowley’s name would probably pronounce it as קראו לי, (Kar-ooh-lee). I know I instinctively did as a native Hebrew speaker, and I know how it’s supposed to be pronounced! But that’s not important. What’s important is what it means.

The phrase קראו לי means “they called me.” This is often used when referring to what one’s name was, for example, when introducing oneself, one uses the present tense קוראים לי. But קראו לי is past tense. In context, it can also mean “they called for me,” as in being summoned. Both of these meanings apply to Crowley. One of Crowley’s main characteristic is his shifting of names. He was called by many names, Crawly, Anthony, whatever name he had before the fall…. Crowley was also called for. Crowley was always being given orders, always being summoned.

What’s even more interesting is the way Crawly is spelled in Hebrew. It’s spelled קראלי, and, such as before, can be pronounced as קרא לי (Kra-Lee). This change in spelling and pronunciation transforms the phrase into a command: “Call (male) me.” Who could Crowley be asking to call him? After his Fall, he would be bitter, begging for anyone to call his name, perhaps his angelic name. Time passed, and he gave up, changing his name to past tense.

Another interesting point is that in changing his name in Hebrew, Crowley is only adding on letter, a ‘ו’ (Vav). Adding a letter to one’s name is significant in Biblical sense, but especially adding a letter that is a part of God’s Holy Name, י-ה-ו-ה (Yud, Hey, Vav, Hey). This is symbolic of a person’s intrinsic connection to God. The best example is Abraham and Sarah, whose names were changed from Abram and Sarai.

Now we’re going to get even more spiritual.

It is said that each letter in the Holy Name of God represents a different approaches to God. The ‘י’ in it’s shape is not grounded. It is consumed entirely by the the Heavenly world, without any connection to Earth. The ‘ה’ in its shape shrouds a grounded marking. The grounded being is unable to reach up, and its purpose is entrenched solely on Earth. What’s special about the 'ו’ is that it is a connector. It is a literal line connecting the top and the bottom. It channels the spirituality of the Heavens to the Earth, and the ingenuity of the Earth to the Heavens.

Crowley is a 'ו.’ In being a Fallen Angel, he brought a piece of Heaven down to Earth. This was his purpose. He would ultimately channel the two worlds, which he and Aziraphale did in adverting the Apocalypse.

Whether he knew it or not, in adding the one tiny 'ו’ to his name, Crowley was accepting his role as the connector, the bridge. He never knew what they called him, or what they called him for, but he was destined to connect two realms. That’s how Crowley is special. He’s not quite an Angel, not quite a Demon, and has the imagination of a human.

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I've been glued to Twitter all weekend waiting for the official WGA announcement. I'm so nervous 🥴

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I've been glued to Twitter all weekend waiting for the official WGA announcement. I'm so nervous 🥴

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Genre of character: submissive like a guard dog is submissive

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Hey y’all, so I have an Etsy shop now!

I’m taking digital print commissions for what I’m calling galaxy pets:

There’s only a listing for “medium” in size at the moment, but I’ll have small and large up soon. I also have some digital print commissions for pronoun Hollow Knight related things, as well as a couple ready made prints. (One of which is the red heeler galaxy pet above).

Here’s my shop below!

Have a look if you’d like! I appreciate it :)

-Ridd7e

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Hey y’all, so I have an Etsy shop now!

I’m taking digital print commissions for what I’m calling galaxy pets:

There’s only a listing for “medium” in size at the moment, but I’ll have small and large up soon. I also have some digital print commissions for pronoun Hollow Knight related things, as well as a couple ready made prints. (One of which is the red heeler galaxy pet above).

Here’s my shop below!

Have a look if you’d like! I appreciate it :)

-Ridd7e

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This is me! I’ve posted more artwork on this blog so I figured I’d reblog here. Have a look!

Thank you kindly ^v^

Hey y’all, so I have an Etsy shop now!

I’m taking digital print commissions for what I’m calling galaxy pets:

There’s only a listing for “medium” in size at the moment, but I’ll have small and large up soon. I also have some digital print commissions for pronoun Hollow Knight related things, as well as a couple ready made prints. (One of which is the red heeler galaxy pet above).

Here’s my shop below!

Have a look if you’d like! I appreciate it :)

-Ridd7e

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God this is so true and it makes me feel many things. It also makes me think of the dichotomy between what Aziraphale knows of Heaven, what Aziraphale feels about Heaven, and what Aziraphale does in relation to Heaven.

Aziraphale often seems to be in a state of cognitive awareness but emotional denial, and yet sometimes that emotional denial informs that cognitive awareness, and vice versa.

From before the beginning, we see Aziraphale to be a very empathetic being, even if he doesn’t always know what to do with that empathy, and a large part of this seems to be because he experiences emotion in a pretty saturated way. He’s very expressive; when he’s got any kind of energy in his body it becomes obvious in how he holds himself. He’s tense, either overly still, or fidgety, flighty, and when he’s happy he’s loose, cheery, “exaggerated” in manner even, such as when he enjoys a meal. We don’t exactly get a direct glimpse inside his head, but we don’t need to, to understand that he’s often caught up on whatever he’s got going on inside it. He’s not exactly familiar with the complex concepts of morality that Crowley tries to teach him, but he also isn’t not familiar. When Aziraphale lacks a cognitive understanding, he tends to make up for it in the emotional one, and vice versa, even if it’s not conventional by any means—the point is that he isn’t the best at putting what he understands to be true, into actual application, and he isn’t the best at translating his emotional understandings into practical action, not without a lot of practice first, at least. He argues with himself constantly, and it’s likely that his early awareness of Heaven’s capacity for cruelty is because he was all anxious and up in his head about doing right by it that he noticed all the little things that meant doing wrong by it as well. It’s very difficult to move forward and feel confident in your decisions when your brain is constantly handing you arguments in favor of both sides, (regardless of if those arguments are equal and fair). I think this is why his choices and thoughts tend to be so polarized as well. He’s been building up all this knowledge and emotion that make up one big argument for and against Heaven for thousands of years, and the way he processes information makes what was already an overwhelming ordeal even more so.

The fact that he’s come so far is a testament to the work he has done. The fact that he refuses Heaven up until Crowley is offered a place is a testament to where his faith truly lies.

TLDR: I’m emotional and I just rambled; I don’t really think there was a deeper point to this aside from: Aziraphale’s an anxious fellow, and he’s been doing exposure therapy under the guidance of his radical goth best friend, and also he’s autistic.

Thinking very hard about how in that first scene Aziraphale is the one with less faith in Heaven. The Starmaker is bright and optimistic and full of faith and trust that asking questions is a safe thing to do. But Aziraphale? He's anxious from the start. Already worried about the Starmaker getting into trouble. Already aware of how Heaven has the capacity for, if not cruelty, apathy.

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he's connected the dots. he's connected them.

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Look I hope they don’t forgive each other immediately but I do hope they forgive each other mutually, not because it’s the easiest thing to do, but because they’ve talked about it and now have an actual understanding.

I keep seeing posts about one of them crawling back to the other, whether it be Crowley once again because he’s always come back for Aziraphale in the past, or Aziraphale doing it for the first time, realizing he’s made a mistake, (which might be necessary to a certain extent this time). But I hope that’s not the majority of how it goes because I feel like it would be a missed opportunity to showcase how their relationship dynamic going forward has now changed. (And for the better.)

They parted for a reason. It couldn’t have happened any other way. Aziraphale has this resolve about helping; he couldn’t have let things lie in Heaven without thinking about what ifs for the rest of eternity. And Crowley himself is pragmatic, even if he’s also radical. Everything he’s done against their systems of oppression has been partially out of spite and a good old middle finger to the man, but mostly it’s been to preserve and protect what he has/his own, not to change the systems themselves.

He knows that the systems are inherently flawed. He calls Heaven toxic; Crowley is the understander of Heaven and Hell’s systemic infrastructure. But that also means he’s constantly been taking only what he can get. He’s an optimist but he’s a realistic optimist. He has to believe the universe is looking out for him but just because he has to believe it’s looking out for him does not mean that he has to extend that belief down to the root issues. As far as I’ve been able to observe, Crowley’s optimism (in the show at least), surrounds Aziraphale, and the little things in Crowley’s life.

Crowley lives through the casual stress of existence under the system with the air of: “Will Heaven and/or Hell notice a, b, or c? Eh it’ll probably be fine. Let’s hope and move on.” “Will Aziraphale listen and go along? You can only try can’t you? What’s the harm?”

It couldn’t have happened any other way. Aziraphale has resolve to make change, and Crowley needs to see that this resolve is worth it, and he needs to see that this resolve is the protection and preservation of his own—not the protection and preservation of it in its current state, perpetually, forever, but a protection and preservation of its future, and something better, and the opportunity to be anything it wants, including what it already is.

Crowley wants Aziraphale to be free in the same way he feels he himself is, but it’s as free as he believes they can be under the given circumstances, (and he knows that): just an Angel and a Demon going along with Heaven and Hell as much as they can. He needs to be shown by Aziraphale that they can take more, change more, do more than just watch out for each other and look over their shoulders, and then he needs to help Aziraphale take it a step further and dismantle it all.

And Aziraphale knows he can’t do it alone. He doesn’t want to go back to Heaven without Crowley. He probably isn’t even quite sure what it is he can’t do alone, just that he can’t do it without Crowley, who has always been his partner in these things (if even on a much smaller scale). He says this, if even crudely. He says “I need you.”

Aziraphale needs Crowley. Crowley needs Aziraphale. They parted to learn and progress separately, because they need each other, and now they need to reunite to learn and progress together with what they have learned alone.

This isn’t an apology dance situation; this is an “I have fundamentally misunderstood what you were saying to me” situation, and “now let’s talk and cry about it and maybe both apologize for being fools,” situation. But neither of them were wrong. And neither of them were right. And I think one of the best parts of it is that they don’t have to be wrong or right, and they shouldn’t be, because this is their chance to get those shades of grey in their relationship dynamic officially spoken for and established, and it opens up so much for them.

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Someone has to leave first. This is a very old story. There is no other version of this story.

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The more I think about the last minutes the more I’m sure Crowley was saying goodbye from the minute Aziraphale told him he’d said yes to Heaven. He doesn’t confess his love like he’s hopeful, he confesses it like a eulogy. He doesn’t kiss him to make a beginning, he kisses him to seal the end. He watches him go like it’s the last time.

Crowley knows Heaven. He knows they’ll either make Aziraphale just like them, or they’ll destroy him. Either way I think he is sure he’s seen his angel for the last time.

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crowley must have known that aziraphale was also in love with him, he tidied the bookshop, he was planning on taking him to the Ritz after his confession, he had their song queued in the car these are not acts of someone who wasn't sure what the outcome will be.

which makes it so much more painful that he still confessed his love for aziraphale with tears in his eyes and on the verge of a full blown panic attack, he left saying "don't bother" but he still waited by his car til the elevator doors closed. all because

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GOOD OMENS + TEXT POSTS [3/?]

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