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“Do it scared” “do it badly” it’s time to drop the guide for do it alone

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Well I found a way to distract myself from It All during the TWW but I'm not saying because it's unhealthy but it's also kind of put me in a mindset of not caring whether I get pregnant this time or not which all other methods have failed to do so unhealthy coping it iiiiiisssss

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There has not been a single day in 2025 that I have not felt weird and bad in some capacity.

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oh ok

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So rude that you can’t say “okay, I’m done thinking about that” and then actually stop thinking about it

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Look I'm a big drama queen on here but I'm smooth as fuck in Real life like no one even knows that I think about throwing myself off a bridge a million times a day I make everyone laugh often I'm strong af don't get it twisted!!!

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I'm not going to write what happened to me yesterday on here because I don't want to leave a single trace of it anywhere on planet earth (no nothing to point to me not conceiving this cycle) but if you KNEW what happened you would know that ImbeingsobraveaboutitImbeingsobraveabout Imbeingsobraveaboutit

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I bet it would feel so good to get a lobotomy that wiped my memory every 12 hours or something

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''i wasted those years'' who cares. you lived the only life you could've lived in those moments

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Well. From today I've had enough and I'm becoming THAT selfish bitch. No one gives a flying fuck what I'm going through and expect me to be perfectly gracious always. Not anymore. Bye bye snip snip!!! ✂️ ✂️

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Was schedules to ovulate yesterday and this morning my temp is up to a typical post-O temp, 36.76. So I guess I really did ovulate. With two follicles I know you're supposed to ovulate both within 24 hours of each other but I wonder with such a sudden temperature rise whether the second one ovulated or didn't make it before my body started producing progesterone. One if them was slightly smaller than the other after all... Well I hope both of then ovulated because that would increase my chances somewhat.

On a TMI note, this time around I made sure sex happened every single day starting a week ago just to have all bases covered. Also, perhaps it's because of being on the injections or having two follicles but my sex drive was through the roof and more fertile mucus than I've ever seen in my life.

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Just finished my check up. My two follicles are now over 18~19mm and my LH test says I'll ovulate in the next 36 hours. My endometrium got a teensy bit thicker and is now over 11mm. Not that I can even get that excited about it at this point. I guess I'm just glad that I know my endometrium is thick enough this time and also I have a slightly higher chance with two follicles instead of one. Still, knowing how cursed I am, at the end of the visit I told my doctor I'd be back when my period came. Now my new doctor is very stoic and matter-of-fact but when I said that he looked at me with sadder eyes than I thought he was capable of. I was like yeah I'm a depressed and cursed bitch what of it. Anyway he told me to consider continuing with ovulation induction treatment a little longer before moving on to IVF. LOOOOOOL

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being depressed and resentful is so embarrassing I feel like a cartoon villain

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Insanely copious amounts of fertile mucus since Sunday. Too bad it's just a by-product of heightens estrogen from the injections. And too bad according to the internet a single Gonal-f + TI cycle only has like a 15% chance which is essentially less that a Clomid + TI cycle and LESS than a IUI cycle. Which means I'm basically expecting another failure.