sapphirescales.
` mm. okay. ‘
she’s pliant, loose-limbed. she doesn’t
believe angel, but it seems … important
to angel that she does. so, she gives in.
and then. angel’s face so close to her
own. her mouth, soft, at the corner of
raven’s.
her breath catches in her throat, eyes
wide, and honey clear. she can’t look
away.
` —- okay. ‘
angel’s hand shouldn’t hold her cheek like this,
shouldn’t be warm against the soft curl of her
ear. and it’s hard to not, to suddenly devastatingly
not --- but, she does. because she doesn’t want
raven’s disappointment, doesn’t want her regret.
doesn’t want them to avoid each other.
she clears her throat, her throat that bobs and
swallows.
fuck it, she thinks. fuck this feeling; the heart, the
chest, the punishing pit of the stomach. she won’t
be subtle, she won’t tiptoe. she doesn’t want to
be soft and quiet, the two of them water in the
palm of the other’s hand.
cradling raven, it’s easy to push her up so she’s
sitting and off her lap. she stands and pulls
raven by her hand, grip warm, so the fuck it
sentiment isn’t harsh anywhere but inside her
own head.
“Let’s go and get something to eat.”
at the doorway, a false spring in her step, she
lets go of raven’s hand and turns to her, holding
the doorframe, hiding her body.
“And -- if you don’t want me to kiss you, you
gotta stop looking at me like you do, blue.”
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cryhavok.
After a silent moment Alex ducks his head as
he starts laughing. It’s kind of a rusty sound,
but when he throws his head back and keeps
laughing it’s unmistakable.
“—turns out being this hot
gets doctors going pretty
good, at least.”
that’s cute. the laugh. endearing in the kind of
way that makes angel’s eyebrows do that
i’ve-seen-a-puppy thing before she schools
them.
“ --- that’s gross.”
“and hugely inappropriate. and
your abuse of euphemisms
disgusts me.”
she hands him her magazine.
“could you fan me?”
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ruinaa.
she refuses to look at emma. even a sideways glance, which
she sneaks from behind the fall of her hair, feels like too much.
“Yikes,”
emma does. emma looks exactly like that and josephine hopes
she at least has the decency to – never reveal any of it.
“I hope not.”
“I’ve had one about her in the past week so
--- no lie --- I’m leaving the brotherhood.
I gotta go.”
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sapphirescales.
something crosses angel’s face, just for
that split second, that raven can’t put a
name to, right now. she will, later, and
she will think over it, and wonder, but
she lets it pass without comment. with-
-out the ability to comment.
` i’m not talking about my skin, though. ‘
almost as a direct response, like a silly
protest to angel fixing the scrunch of
her nose, a furrow starts across her
brow. she reaches up and twists one of
angel’s braids between her fingers.
` but, maybe. i used to think i was all
alone. just me, being different on the
outside. charles is different in ways
no one can see, but not me.
but then i wasn’t. i met you. and i met
darwin, and i know emma and azazel.
—- maybe, one day, it won’t be just me. ‘
her hand drops to her side. angel, in
spite of the fire, and the glittering wings,
and the sharp whip-crack of her wit, has
always been the soft roll of her eyes, the
deep brown of them, downcast, as hank
pulled the curtains shut at the base.
raven feels suddenly so small in the face
of angel’s soft hands, and the slope of her
shoulder making the light glow around her
like a halo.
instead,
` my pasta’s not that bad. ‘
angel scoffs, and it almost sounds normal.
“It really is.”
she picks the thread out of the knee of her jeans,
leaning over raven. her hair touches her forehead
and she tucks it behind her ears so it won’t.
“There’s something wrong with all of us,” angel
says, after she’s thought about it for a while.
“ --- But ... I don’t think it’s this.”
with raven’s head in her lap, it’s easy to put a
hand on her cheek, to lean down and press a
quiet kiss to the corner of her mouth, to her
almost-cheek.
she swallows and sits back up, and strokes the
baby hair off raven’s forehead.
“ --- It’ll be okay.”
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@ruinaa
angel keeps staring even as emma walks
past them into their shitty hideout kitchen.
“ --- don’t you think Emma always looks like
she knows about every dirty dream you’ve
ever had.”
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cryhavok.
Alex thinks about saying, it’s not lava, because
he’s seen lava and he would know, but then he
realizes he doesn’t know what it is and that it
totally could be lava because maybe all lava
doesn’t look the same.
He’s still pretty sure it’s not lava, but not sure
enough to protest.
“—I—don’t know.
—I don’t feel hot?”
“You don’t look it either.”
a pause.
and then her mouth stretches open in a
huge, silent laugh. it takes her a second
to reign it in so she can tap her fingers
against the dashboard in a little
drumbeat.
“Ba dum dum tsh.”
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sapphirescales.
` you were. you are. i was thinking that, at
the time, and you are. and i’ve seen other
beautiful things but you are. nothing else
compares. ‘
her breath catches in her throat, halting her
earnest insistence. her eyes are caught, not
knowing whether to follow the soft touch or to
watch the smile blooming on angel’s mouth.
she decides, firmly, on the latter.
` —- really? i don’t … ‘
she struggles, again, with words. she hadn’t
ever needed to tell charles anything; he had
picked it out of her head, in the beginning.
and, after, when she had said no, he’d already
known her well enough to guess.
if he couldn’t, they both had assumed it was
irrelevant. but this isn’t irrelevant. her heart in
her throat, and angel sneaking into her room
at night is not irrelevant.
` charles and erik. and then, dar and
alex. and then there’s no one like me.
—- but you’re like me. ‘
and then her nose scrunches, because, yes,
they are alike. from the moment she had seen
the wings unfold, she had known but she isn’t
talking about their mutations. she is talking
about something else. about the early mornings,
right after raven’s woken up, and angel looks at
her, and they don’t have the cover of night or the
drugging sleepiness, and they smile at each other,
like a secret they’re both in on, and go about the
day.
except, raven doesn’t know the secret.
` but even then, you’re not like me. i think
that there’s something wrong with me, maybe. ‘
not beautiful enough, she thinks, familiar with that
old bitterness that rises --- thinking of the kisses
that didn’t happen, of erik appearing in doorways
to steal raven away from their sleepy afternoon
lounges or the middle of films they love. the
bitterness is uglier than she is, though, and
she lets it go with a bob of her throat and a
tight smile.
“I don’t know. I don’t ---”
she sighs, and smooths the wrinkle of raven’s
nose.
“There’s no one like you, chica. No one
else has your skin. --- No one else --- in the
whole world --- who can burn pasta like you
burn pasta.”
she shrugs her shoulders, chin tight, feeling
a deep breath in the middle of her chest for
a reason she can’t name.
“ --- Maybe that’s okay.”
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darwin’s car is nice against the heat, tucked
away in the garage. cold seats and opened
windows, like they could still catch the wind
without moving.
“how are you sweating? you shoot,
like, actual lava out of your body.”
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sapphirescales.
& —- @insectisyd !
her head in angel’s lap, the thick haze around them lulls her into
a sense of security. her hair tumbles over angel’s knee. her eyes,
golden, lazily watch the ends of angel’s hair, just inches away
from her mouth.
` you know, when i saw you that first time, and you
shook your wings out, i thought you were the most
beautiful thing i ever saw in my entire life. ‘
there’s no shyness in her voice, no censure. her words are a little
slurred from the pot, but she’s sure of what she’s saying.
` and sometimes, i think about it. about all those lines
on your skin, about how your wings fold in and out.
about your smile when you were showing us, that first
time.
and then i think about emma, and when she turned to
diamond. you know? fucking diamond. and then, her
damn boots.
and i think that maybe —- ‘
and she pauses, here, unsure. not of what to say but rather, how
to say it.
she can’t explain this to anyone else, can only explain it to angel.
she can’t talk about this to jakob or erik or charles, alex or darwin,
who are all busy with their own … issues. she wants them to be
happy and not feel the way she does, but convincing them doesn’t
help at all with convincing herself.
` do you think there’s something wrong with me? that i’m —-
i don’t know. like this. ‘
“I am the most beautiful thing you’ve ever seen,”
she says, grinning, even though her heart is
throbbing in her throat.
her hand has been lying on the crown of raven’s head,
on her bright hair. while she’s talking angel lets a soft
finger lift from that self-imposed constriction and trail
between her brows over her forehead and into the
middle parting of her hair. the journey is slow, tender.
after, her hand drops next to her thigh. heavy.
her smile shakes.
“--- no.”
“I don’t think there’s anything wrong with you.”
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Zoe Kravitz for NYLON Magazine (July 2015)
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sapphirescales
( crowded against raven’s back with her
hands on her shoulder-blades angel
screams and jumps, whipping her
head around. )
What was that? Raven--
( she drops her voice to a whisper, )
Let’s go back. Cheese on toast isn’t worth
getting possessed over.
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