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Do you sometimes...

Ever just block thoughts of the past? Like not just the hurtful memories. But everything connected to it? And then something sparks some memory of it and then all of the feelings come rushing back. Pain, love, excitement, nostalgia. And it makes your heart ache..

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Speaking of the past...

I tend to think alot about the past. About who I used to be. About what I used to feel. About the music I listened to or what I used to wear. As much as I want to let go of it I just can't seem to do it. It's a longing to be naive again. It's the pain I continue to sit in because I never let myself get closure. It's recognizing the free bird I once was and wondering how I got to be the person I am today. It's the temptation to be that person again. And then I snap back to reality and remember that saying this out loud would crumble everything in my life. My relationships, my family, my life's work. Pretty selfish to destroy it all just for a few seconds of recklessness. Why can't I let go?

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Dying in the silence

There's so much to say but no one to tell. They're the thoughts you can't say out loud but you're screaming on the inside to get out.

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One thing to remember is this: never let anybody put you down. Never forget your self worth. You can't forget. You're valuable, you're somebody's something or someone. You're somebody's hero, somebody's loved one, somebody's son or daughter. You're somebody's inspiration, somebody's yoda, somebody's life-long adventurous friend. You're somebody's apple of their eye, you're somebody's competition. You are just as amazing as the most interesting man in the world. Remember this when you're left with no spirit because your value will never go away or diminish. You are you.