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yeah hyperfixation can be inconvenient sometimes but when i’m between hyperfixations life is like meaningless so

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YOU🫵. i've been looking for your blog ever since i saw the words "xaeyrnofnbe i love you please don't go bald" on one of my fics so i can tell you that i don't think i'm ever gonna forget that. so thank you for a baffling compliment and thank you for caring about my beloved au

oh my god hi i feel like a celebrity just saw me recording their concert and started singing directly to me

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TWELFTH LABOUR IS COMPLETE!!

Twelfth Labour

Summary: My rewrite of AtS season 5, in which season 4 never happened, Cordelia lives, Angel and Spike rekindle old feelings, and Connor sits at the center of it all, faced with the struggles of heroism in a world he doesn't understand.

Link: https://archiveofourown.org/works/63598909

Finally, the main fic for my flf au is complete! All 15 chapters have been posted for a total of 41,495 words. Once again, this is really just the core story arc and plot beats, and a lot of the real meat can be found in my other works in this series.

Also, I'm currently working on a 3 chapter fic that focuses on Angel and Cordelia's friendship over the events of Twelfth Labour (and touches briefly on the unresolved question of what Spike and Buffy left in Sunnydale), as well as 2-part epilogue to resolve the series as a whole, so be on the lookout for those if you enjoy what I've written so far. :]

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whirlwind/fanged four textposts

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ok it’s like so bad. but. i’m ashamed to say that hearing that goddamn leprechaun vampire say “don’t think that makes me some kind of a deviant, do you?” changed my brain chemistry irreparably

who's accent in Buffy was the consistently worst in your opinion ( I think its Molly, the potential slayer)

oh my god yes not only were they annoying but they couldn't do british accents AT ALL. (why not just have them be american??)

but honestly as an irish person i'd have to say angelus. david boreanaz could not do an irish accent to save his life (it was actually kinda offensive...) and while his acting improved especially in angel his accent never did. i'm convinced that's why spike still has his british accent but angel "lost" his.

thanks for the question!!

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i actually refuse to buy into the “Angel and Angelus are completely different” propaganda. i’m not sure if that’s unpopular or not, so i’ll say that i refuse to believe that Spike buys into that.

like, he’s the one person in the world who understands the whole soul thing and also one of two people who knew Angelus well enough to know that he had a personality outside of murder. he had motivations and thoughts other than hurting people, i’m absolutely sure of that.

anyway i think Angel and Angelus are very similar. Angelus is just Angel without a conscience. like Liam was a bar brawler before he was sired; if someone upset him, his instinct was to fight. i think that translated very easily into Angelus’ sadistic tendencies. i think Angelus was based on Liam’s personality and Angel’s just. grown up since then. so he’s less of an instigator, but he’s still a very abrasive person.

they act differently but they’re as much the same person as a 70 year old man is to the guy he was at 26

in my head, Spike believes that too. he talks about “when we were evil”, not “when you were Angelus”. he blames Angel for making him a monster. he (like i mentioned in a prev post) still calls Angel “Angel” when he doesn’t have his soul. hell, he calls Angel “Liam” once! i think he categorises them as the same person, which is why he hates Angel so much. not in a “you’re a different person now” way but in a “you made me and then you changed your mind” way

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i actually refuse to buy into the “Angel and Angelus are completely different” propaganda. i’m not sure if that’s unpopular or not, so i’ll say that i refuse to believe that Spike buys into that.

like, he’s the one person in the world who understands the whole soul thing and also one of two people who knew Angelus well enough to know that he had a personality outside of murder. he had motivations and thoughts other than hurting people, i’m absolutely sure of that.

anyway i think Angel and Angelus are very similar. Angelus is just Angel without a conscience. like Liam was a bar brawler before he was sired; if someone upset him, his instinct was to fight. i think that translated very easily into Angelus’ sadistic tendencies. i think Angelus was based on Liam’s personality and Angel’s just. grown up since then. so he’s less of an instigator, but he’s still a very abrasive person.

they act differently but they’re as much the same person as a 70 year old man is to the guy he was at 26

in my head, Spike believes that too. he talks about “when we were evil”, not “when you were Angelus”. he blames Angel for making him a monster. he (like i mentioned in a prev post) still calls Angel “Angel” when he doesn’t have his soul. hell, he calls Angel “Liam” once! i think he categorises them as the same person, which is why he hates Angel so much. not in a “you’re a different person now” way but in a “you made me and then you changed your mind” way

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in my work of fanfiction i am going to hold the villain responsible for their actions by making them have sex with the person they tried to kill, which will effectively address all the relevant moral issues by being hot.

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Angel would lie his ass off. “oh no i tried and i couldn’t get in” or “oh no i was invited in already”. he has never in his life admitted to anything he doesn’t want to

In BtVS pride month episode the school hangs big rainbow 'everyone is welcome' poster, so now vampires can just walk inside. Now Buffy has to tear it down wihout Cordelia calling her homophobic

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no because the bible says “whoever feeds on my flesh and drinks my blood has eternal life” and Lestat told Louis “drink from me and live forever”

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Only day you can rb this

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rip Darla you would have loved using “cunt” as a compliment

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THIS HAS ABSOLUTELY MADE MY FUCKING DAY

BRO WHY DOES HE LOOK LIKE HES ABOUT TO BURST INTO TEARS 😭😭😭

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that parrot is staring at me from my shelf right now!

i will say…beanie babies popped off with these even though most of the birds based on real birds are inaccurate

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wait a second is Buffy’s middle name the same as Spike’s mother’s name?

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the more i think about Liam/Angelus/Angel, the more i think that he just never learned how to process emotions like a normal person.

he started drinking to drown out his problems (probably his feelings, really) when he was a young adult (either very late teens or early twenties) and then he became a soulless monster when he was 26, so he tended to kill/torture people instead of feeling things.

then, he gets cursed with a soul, and he learns that no amount of alcohol drowns out almost a century and a half of hurting and killing people.

so, sober and endowed with a conscience, he still has absolutely no clue how to deal with any of his emotions. because he stopped even trying to do that back when he was young.

so, yeah, he’s emotionally stunted and stuck with the mentality of an alcoholic man in his early twenties. it puts a lot of his behavior when he’s with Buffy into perspective, actually.

anyway, this turned out longer than i expected. i might post more analyses on Angel’s actions (specifically, right now, i’m thinking about why he killed his sister. do not tell me it’s just because he was evil.)

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i’m a firm believer that this was Angelus and William’s dynamic for the first few years together