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Crying in Tokyo

Feelings have been coming up about how I felt the need to hide my sexuality starting in this country before I ever did so in the US

4/27/2024

I just cried as emotions have been coming up from being here. Being surrounded by people who smell different and yet completely familiar has been confronting, especially when they’re men. I think my child self has been left behind here in someway.

Growing up I was already different by being multiracial and multicultural, but adding being quietly gay underneath all that I think was too much for my kid self to handle. I had to compartmentalize everything best I could, and those parts of myself are starting to coming back little by little.

I was worried that A’s joke responses to my verbalized interest in the men around here were coming from an inner disgust she had with me but that has never been the case. Yet I feel that for myself.

I think to cope with how I grew up, I had to really hide my sexuality as deep as I could because I was already needing to hide other parts of myself to varying degrees.

I just had a moment where I visualized hugging my inner child/adolescent who had all these feelings and felt absolutely no one would understand them or him. But I do.

He felt unloved and undesirable in 2 cultures, 2 countries. So it’s not surprising that this is coming up now that I’m here. I feel I’ve already started the healing work of this aspect of myself when it came to my experiences in the US, but now I think it’s time to incorporate how this connects to my even earlier experiences in Japan.

As a kid I know I had immense attraction to my male peers growing up, and felt that there was absolutely no one or no where that these feelings would be valid and lovable.

And here I am at an older age finally realizing that I have felt unlovable and undesirable for so long in more ways than I realized.

The work of healing is so long and difficult, and just when you think you’ve understood the extent of the healing work you must do, your awareness of your wounds grows larger and it feels like I’m back at square one again.

I know that’s not the case, but it feels like it is when I’m hit with these things.

As a love letter to myself at every age, I need to say this:

I love you. I love you endlessly and unconditionally. Your attraction to the same sex is valid, relatable, and tough to deal with on your own when you feel different enough already.

You don’t need to hide these feelings deep within you anymore, because I’m here to feel them with you. I’m here to navigate everything with you. You are safe with me. You are taken care of with me. You can trust me because I know exactly how you feel.

I am you. That’s as close as you could possibly get to someone. So please know you're not alone and that it’s literally impossible for me to ever leave your side because there is no separation between us, only the illusion of that sometimes.

I’m breaking that illusion. You’ve been needing my help and love and support for so long, so I’m here to give it all to you. There’s nothing dirty or unlovable about you. There never was, and I appreciate that you did your best to manage this on your own but those days are over. We’re in this together now, always and forever.

You have a direct line to me always and forever, and there is nothing that could ever possibly change that.

Thank you for living life the way you have so far - we’re going to usher in a new life that incorporates everything you experienced before and expand it into more love energy.

I see, feel, and hear everything you do, so you’re never alone. Please continue to talk to me because I have an infinite space within me for you to fill.

I love you.

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I dreamed I could connect with Misa finally

I think I went on a journey to reconnect with the kid that was left behind in Neptune Promenade through my projection of Misa. I think it means we’re both going to be ok.

04/22/2024

In this dream I was on my way to a KBBQ/yakiniku get together with a class of sorts but the scheduling had worked out so that I could pick up and drop off Misa before my event.

She was both younger than me like she is now and yet felt as if she was also a young adult at the same time (so maybe I was older than I am now?). When I picked her up, we got to talk a little bit about how her life has been. She felt cautiously cheerful/optimistic. She was preparing for a trip in a few days where she was meeting a good friend of hers and I felt so happy to hear her talk about something she was enjoying about her life.

She still seemed to struggle to talk about herself emotionally but I made sure to prioritize giving her space without pressure. I think it helped.

I arrived at Neptune Promenade (a version of it where each apartment was another reality - basically an infinite number of realities masking itself as a singular apartment building). It was actually another apartment where I was to go to have my class food meetup.

As I dropped her off at one of the units that opened up to a sort of “home” for her, I was able to tuck her in and wish her goodnight. While she was much bigger and older in my dream, she was literally at the same time the same little girl I’ve always known.

I felt like she truly appreciated the gesture of me picking her up and that made me laugh as I made clear to her that it was the highlight of my day getting to talk with her and connect (as short as it may have been).

After I left, she texted me a long text talking about her feelings about our dad and how she felt that at an early age she was really misunderstood and unseen by him. I wasn’t surprised to get this text because she was still at a point where texting was easier for her to communicate her feelings and I was grateful for any communication at all.

I also was overjoyed that I could 100% validate her feelings/experience in my response because I had done the work to recognize my parents for who they were. A past me would have easily made excuses for my parents and would have tried to communicate those excuses to her. It would have come from a place of “love,” of course, but unhealed love that was unwilling to recognize the pain they caused me (and therefore unwilling to recognize Misa’s pain as well).

A past version of me would have taken this honest text from her personally (completely subconsciously), because it would have reflected back to me the hurt child that felt he had to endlessly be understanding of his parents’ shortcomings while never feeling understood himself.

But here I was in the dream, crafting an understanding and validating response to her honest and vulnerable expression of truth. Instead of feeling like my worldview was threatened, I felt my relationship with my sister deepen because I was able to embrace her in this moment where she was holding her hand out for connection.

This dream coming after what was revealed about her the day of the 4/8 eclipse tells me that things will be better eventually. She has emotionally been on my mind and I hope that in spirit I have been able to commune with her and fully see her, and that she has felt that.

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The setting being this inter dimensional Neptune Promenade (a dream setting I’ve actually been to before) combined with her being older and younger at the same time makes me wonder if she reflects back to me the child I was back in Neptune Promenade. She’s around the age I was back then.

Maybe through connecting with and validating her, I have reached a new milestone doing the same for my inner child. I know he felt unseen and misunderstood by both parents in different ways, and it was like I revisited Neptune Promenade to see him again, this time able to fully hear out his truth, unclouded by my unhealed pain.

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Leaving for Tokyo soon

I’ve been hit with romantic saudade out of nowhere for the first time in a while as we’re packing to live in Tokyo for a month.

04/20/2024

Today is apparently the Jupiter-Uranus conjuction, a rare and incredibly significant celestial time where the energy will be felt before and after for a while. On top of that, the ascension symptoms have been moving through me like waves. Each time it does, I feel better equipped to respond to it by feeling it through a little better than the last wave.

I give the above as context before I get into what brought me back to journaling tonight: a wave of saudade has hit me and I need to get these feelings out.

We were watching an amazing documentary on what it meant to be Japanese, and one of the subjects was a half-Japanese, half Belgian man named Tetsuro Miyazaki.

Hearing him speak I started realizing that I found him incredibly attractive. I was explaining to A that he wasn’t necessarily what the world might consider as the most “conventially” attractive man, but that obviously doesn’t matter to me. His voice, his accent, and his physical appearance were incredibly attractive to me, to the point where I started having trouble paying attention to what he was saying.

His accent had some similarities to the Brazilian accent, which is one I find incredibly attractive. I don’t know why this is the case, as my exposure to these accents has been nonexistent up until recently. I think my Brazilian tattoo artist had recently brought this (preference?) to my attention, and since then I have been figuratively scratching my head wondering what all this means.

Combine that with A deciding to randomly play bossa nova music as we began packing for Tokyo, which led me to add more music to my saudade playlist, which THEN led me to look up the definition of saudade because I forgot it.

I haven’t felt this longing feeling in SO LONG. I think my response to it this time is no longer one of anger or invalidation. But to be honest, I feel sad as this hits me.

I want to make sense of the significance of this certain kind of man, Brazilian-esque (Belgian-esque?) accents, saudade, “Austin”, and everything else that has surrounded my longing journey.

I want to be held romantically. I want to be kissed. I want to make love with the man I have a deep connection with.

I’ve felt evermore disconnected from the outside world I used to know. I still feel incredibly lost.

I don’t know if I’ll still have my current job by the time we untether. I don’t know what will and won’t be in my life by then either.

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I’ve decided that if I’m feeling just as lost as I am now after Tokyo and my family’s visit in June, I’m going to book that session with Crystal Clair.

It’s not that I think I’m disconnected from my own guides/higher self - I just feel like maybe it hasn’t been relevant for my journey to have “clear” communication with them so far. Why? Maybe so that I can make choices without relying on strong higher guidance?

Actually, that might not be fully true. When I pivoted my neck tattoo as I felt I was getting messages, I saw the confirmation messages validating that I made an aligned decision with pivoting. So I do have communication/connection…it’s just very quiet and subtle.

I’m finding that I just need to trust that everything really will be ok and work out for my highest good. My human’s only job is to follow my joy and feel all the feelings that come up as I’m moving through life.

I don’t know what to do with all the breadcrumbs and puzzle pieces I have right now, but maybe that’s because it’s all meant to come together as my journey unfolds.

I’m starting to feel balance returning to me. I thought that maybe this longing would last longer but maybe I’m becoming more proficient in sitting with my feelings so there’s no need for them to ruminate anymore? idk.

Who knows, maybe the saudade will come again in another hour 😓 but that’s ok! Then I’ll feel it through like I am now.

Thank you for listening. My deepest gratitude to you.

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Journaling after taking a break

Emulators, Pokemon, Super Mario Sunshine, nostalgia, ending therapy, 90 Day Fiancé, Emmy Rossum, the future. So much has happened and I’m entering the next season of my life.

12/14/2023

I have some updates since I stopped journaling.

I figured out emulators and have been able to play games I wanted to play or played as a kid. I’ve only just started getting into my catalog of games, but already I’ve played and finished:

SpongeBob SquarePants: Battle for Bikini Bottom

Pokemon Pearl

Battle for Bikini Bottom is a game I really loved as a kid and it still holds up! The game mechanics, the different levels, and the pacing. A 10/10 game for me, personally.

Pokemon Pearl was amazing - I chose to play it over Pokemon Diamond because I wanted to see how the gameplay differed. It was very similar to Diamond, except this time I was able to finish the game. This was the first Pokemon game I ever finished (beat the Elite 4 and Cynthia to become the Pokemon Champion). I caught Palkia and my team consisted of Empoleon, Haunter, Crobat, Kadabra, Palkia, and an HM Pokemon.

Emotionally I have been healing and re-connecting with my inner-child as I’ve been playing.

The current games that I am playing are:

Super Mario Sunshine

Kirby: Nightmare in Dreamland

Crash Bandicoot

Playing these games is such a trip. There are a number of other games I wanted to start but my Odin can’t play them at full-speed so I need to wait for the Odin 2 to come in.

I’ll be gifting my Odin to Aprille once the Odin 2 comes in. I originally didn’t plan to buy the Odin 2, but once I understood the setup process and the fact that the Odin 2 could handle all the PS2 and GameCube games that the Odin couldn’t, my decision became clear.

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Another update: I’ve decided that I’ll be ending therapy this upcoming December session. This wasn’t something I was sure about until I got a confirmation that my card on file had expired. I’ve been listening for a sign on when it was time for me to move on from therapy and that was it.

It’s been a long time coming and I’m literally not the same person I was when I started. It’s almost surreal that I’m closing the book on this specific aspect of my life, but I know I’m ready for it.

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Another update: I’ve been feeling nostalgia like crazy. I almost don’t feel I’m here fully nowadays. I’ve been feeling like I’m seeing the world as I did in Okinawa and high school and college. It’s as if all the timelines within me have begun to combine and condense within me so that they all exist as one. It’s been an unsettling and overwhelming feeling, although not unwelcome.

I don’t feel that I’m ready to make sense of what’s happening within me yet, but I believe it will make sense in time.

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Another update: there was a Black Friday deal on MAX and I got it as a surprise for us so that we could watch 90 Day Fiancé. We’ve been doing so for a few weeks now and it’s been incredible revisiting the show and who we were the last time we watched it.

I know that many people see the show as just another “trash reality-tv” show full of drama but we see it as so much more than that.

We see courageous people making courages decisions, choosing to be incredibly vulnerable in front of the entire world. Their stories move us and we constantly talk about what comes up within us as we watch them embark on their journeys.

Even today, we were talking about how the people on the show “90 Day Fiance, the other way” were playing these roles in their lives and decided to say goodbye to it all and embark on brand new journeys for themselves. This is why we loved the original show, because we understood and were invested in the risks people took to pursue what they felt was for them.

It’s inspiring.

Tonight’s episodes led us to revisit the move to Chicago and how we felt we were similar to the cast in making that decision. I even saw a TikTok I watched during an ad-break of Fiona leaving Shameless – I had never seen the clips before because I stopped watching a season or 2 before.

I was moved to tears because we are all Fiona/Emmy Rossum. We’re all actors playing out these roles – be it mother, father, sister, brother, friend, lover, etc. It’s only when we decide that we no longer want to play this character anymore that we can experience something new and different.

Yes, the show intended to continue with YOU in it, but you always have a choice to choose differently. And when you do, it can be hurtful for the other actors around you still committed to their characters. But in the grand scheme of things, it’s a decision you have to choose for yourself if you want something more for your life.

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With everything that has happened (there’s definitely more but for now this is all that is coming to mind), I know I am entering a new era in my life.

I don’t know what my relationship with journaling like this will be moving forward, but I know that I will journal as I feel called to it. I don’t think I will be checking in on a daily basis anymore, and that is ok.

This space was never meant to be permanent or un-changing. Just like me, it will morph and evolve over time. I can’t see where it will go, but that’s the beauty of the journey.

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Tried making music

This morning was completely unexpected and I realize I am still self-critical when it comes to music 😪

11/19/2023

My dreams lately have felt very profound and yet I have so much trouble remembering them.

This morning I heard a song in my dream and immediately went to try and get it out onto Logic. I was only able to get the melody out, but I felt like a total failure because I couldn’t get the chords down.

I haven’t felt motivated to make music in a while, so I don’t know where this came from. I guess there are still parts of me that are self-critical when it comes to music.

I understand that.

It will take time for me to fully heal any music wounds I have. But I do know that I’m so much more healed now than ever before, and I take comfort in that.

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Watched Bashar, Life of Pi, and Puss In Boots: The Last Wish

Something is coming for us, I’m feeling it so much now

11/18/2023

Aprille surprised me with 2 gifts: a book “I think our son is gay” and a livestream from a Bashar transmission.

The book brought me to tears because it reminded me of myself in high school and the kind of support I needed from my parents back then. It was incredibly healing and I felt very seen by Aprille.

The Bashar transmission was about reflections and was incredible. Learned a lot and I’m blown away by the synchronicity of the transmission and the examples of reflections I saw after it.

The movies we watched were so significant. They had a lot to say about reflections and spirituality. Pure beauty.

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Something is coming. Great change, or…idk what. I’ve been saying this for a while now, and this time when I say it, it feels closer than ever.

I don’t know when/what/how.

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My AYN Odin came in but I haven’t opened it

I’m going to figure this emulator stuff out, I swear!

11/17/2023

I’m waiting for the R36 to come in so that I can understand ROM/BIOS structure and what not. I’m super excited to set everything up and get going though! All of this is brand new to me and I have confidence in my own abilities to figure this all out!

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Watched Allegiant

Finished the last movie and surprised at home much truth was in there!

11/16/2023

Finished up the trilogy! Definitely worth it because there’s so much truth hidden in plain sight there. The experiment, genetics, division, and more.

It’s funny that it can be hard to get to with the movies being so kooky.

Yes, kooky as all hell 🤭

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Watched Insurgent

We also ate pizza and had boba. I’ve completely lost any concept of time.

11/15/2023

Such a kooky movie what fun 🤪

The spiritual significance that I took away from the film was the idea of the “sim.” The simulations are basically a hall of mirrors where you have extreme scenarios play out to reflect back to you different aspects of yourself (so that you can understand them).

The “this isn’t real” scene from the last movie still stayed with me as I watched the movie today. My personal takeaway is that the entire trilogy is a “sim”, in the same way that our lives are a “sim.”

Our entire reality is a hall of mirrors that reflects aspects of ourselves back to us.

I’m seeing more positivity and peace reflected back to me nowadays.

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Watched Divergent

What a kooky fun ride it was.

11/14/2023

Bruh Thanksgiving is next week I don’t believe it.

Anyways, watched Divergent for the first time ever (I think I only watched the first half of it before). It’s just as corny and kooky as I remember it being, and I loved it 🤪

We intend to watch the entire trilogy while it’s still available on Tubi.

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Also I haven’t made a record of it here but I’ve been growing out my facial hair for the first time in my life. It began on a whim, I just stopped shaving and didn’t feel motivate enough to do so. It’s been a month now and I have a full-on beard which is something I never thought I would do (at least my younger self never thought).

I doubt I’d be recognizable to my younger self.

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Watched Get Out

Was a very good watch and I’m happy I still enjoy watching movies 😊

11/13/2023

I watched Get Out for the first time, being around 6 years late to it. Really enjoyed it!

I’ve already seen Us and Nope, so I wanted to see what Peele’s first venture into filmmaking produced. I get the hype now 🤭

Nowadays horror isn’t something I’ll watch, but I made an exemption for Get Out because I have really enjoyed Peele’s take on the genre and his previous works. The artistry of filmmaking really comes through with his movies and that makes the watching experience that much more enjoyable.

Eventually, I think it would be fun to make a movie or TV show. Who knows!

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On an another note: I have been observing the thought (in a very wholesome way) that we’re being watched more and more. This thought had already crossed my mind a while back. Especially after watching Truman Show during my early awakenings, I figured that being here on Earth meant that you were being watched throughout the universe to some degree.

I hope that our lives make for incredibly informative and entertaining watches 🤪

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A good stay-in day + a walk

Another chill day at our spot talking, healing, eating, watching tv, going for a sunset walk, and more.

11/12/2023

Today was another chill, stay-in day that also involved a sunset walk. We continued to unpack our childhood programs and it felt incredibly healing to do so.

Aside from that, I’m itching to start gaming! I’ve ordered some emulators and while I know the setup process may take some time, I am super excited to play a bunch of games 😭

We also watched episodes from a show about Virgin Voyages cruises and it’s got us even more excited at the idea of being able to ride on one!

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The Event is coming

Finished reading Ladyoftheforrest444’s book and it filled me with so much joy and hope! Also finished the “women tell all” episode of the Golden Bachelor.

11/11/2023

I finished reading Ladyoftheforrest444’s book of prophecies and they resonated to much! It filled me with so much love and hope for what the world will look like in the future.

We’re supposedly very near the “event,” and while I don’t know if Aprille and I are first wave lightworkers, I think at the very least we’ll feel the event when it happens since we’re both pretty sensitive to energies nowadays.

I loved the book and I am filled with joy at the idea of running Love energy unrestricted through me 🥹🥰

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Speaking of hope, we finished the “women tell all” episode of the golden bachelor and that was the word they used to describe what the experience brought up for them.

This has been my favorite installation of the bachelor by far (in reality, it’s the only one we would actually watch consistently).

I think the show existing is reflecting back to us our collective interest in hearing from more people in life. There are so many stories that are still waiting to be shared and I want to hear them all 🥹

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The days have been way longer than normal

Time is being wonky and I also bought the AYN Odin!

11/9/2023

The days have felt much longer than usual and there was a guy on TikTok that confirmed so for me. He even said that in the next few days that some significant news and things would come out?

Anyways, I bought the AYN Odin! I decided on it because it was the most powerful and highly regarded emulator at it’s price point by the community (more or less), and I believe in myself that I can figure this out!

It was me betting on myself, and I know and feel it was the right decision.

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Emulators!

The days are getting long and time is getting wonky – I want an emulator because I want to play some cool games! 😎

11/8/2023

I have been intently researching and thinking about emulators for a few days now and I feel like I want to pull the trigger on a handheld solution soon.

I’m between getting something like Retroid Pocket 3+ or an old android phone with a controller accessory.

The nice thing about an old phone would be that it would have a much nicer screen and slightly better performance. The nice thing about the Retroid is that it is a dedicated handheld.

I had come across emulators before but felt far too intimidated by the setup process to do anything about it, but I’m not in a place that I am willing to put in the work to figure out how to get the gaming console of my dreams (or close to it).

If there’s a chance that I can play so many of my favorite systems – even GameCube and PS2 on the same device – I need to see it through!!

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Part of the reason I’m interested in securing some sort of gaming situation is to deal with the long days. The days still feel heavy and I feel very little motivation to do anything at all. The only thing that has been giving me excitement is games!

Once I can figure out an emulator situation, I think I’ll spend some time reconnecting with my inner child through games 🥹

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3 days since we came back from Puerto Rico

It’s been a few days since my last entry because I have been completely exhausted and depleted. The trip was life-changing, though, and I am a different person now.

11/7/2023

This marks the first time I’ve actually missed days of journaling since I began a couple months back.

I have a tendency to be very “all-or-nothing” about many things, and journaling has been no exception. Now that I’ve missed a few days, I feel a lingering shame that I could not be “consistent.” Which isn’t actually the case – as I write this now, I see that the idea of consistency is something I get to define. And on top of that, I get to decide how important it is to me, and in what way.

I think it doesn’t matter if I stopped journaling for years on end. The fact that I ever did it in the first place is great!

Ultimately, I don’t know how long I will keep up this practice. Maybe I’ll drop it when it doesn’t fit into my life anymore? Who knows.

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We spent the last morning in PR at a cafe and the beach. I used the time at the beach to really soak in what the wind felt like on my skin.

I loved that feeling.

The flight back went relatively smoothly, and we got home easily. We were completely exhausted, and that exhaustion continued into the next day. To be honest, it has since morphed into the continual “reality is off” feeling.

I’ve been too tired and too off since returning to journal. And now that I am journaling again, I find that I’m still talking about reality feeling off after all this time. I wonder what that’s about?

I may not sound it, but I’m actually very happy to be home. I have rested nicely back in my bed and feel cozy as usual.

I’ve been taking it easy when the energy feels this demanding/heavy. And I get the sense that it will continue for a bit. What’s a bit? I don’t know 🥴

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Puerto Rico was amazing. I feel so much gratitude for being connected to a place like that. The fruit and the wind I miss most.

I’m forever changed from that trip, and it truly felt like I was there for a month. Coming back to Chicago was like coming back to a city I left a long time ago. Since we flew out on Halloween (just like with NY last year), we have felt like there have been major shifts in timelines. Or energy. Or both?

Maybe there’s still more to come.

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Day 4 in Puerto Rico

The last full day is over and it was spent so well.

11/3/2023

This was the second day in a row that we started the morning by going to the super food cafe. Finally learned the name of the very friendly lady working there: Setafani.

Her (elementary age?) son was there too because apparently today was an off day due to something happening with the Department of Education?

She apparently picked up English by working in Condado which is super impressive. I also learned from her that Puerto Ricans don’t have English class as a requirement in school. That goes completely against the idea that so many content creators spout: “they speak English in Puerto Rico!” It’s really not the case 🥴

I was able to help her understand the difference between “weird” and “rare,” because she understandably thought that the latter was reserved just for meat. She had meant to say that it was rare to find individuals so eager to learn Spanish in her experience. She ended up saying it was weird 😆

We talked about a few different things, but the thing that I was most curious about was if we came off as tourists/latinos/Spanish speakers. She said that while we did look like tourists, we also had a look about us that suggested we might be mixed race. She correctly guessed Aprille’s ethnicity and was surprised to know mine.

She even said that I didn’t really come off as Puerto Rican, which now reminds me that our Uber driver on the way home (with whom I also struck up conversation with) also figured I was Mexican based on my Spanish and the fact that we were from the US 🤭

Part of me felt a little dejected because I know I would like to be accepted by my own cultures, but at the same time I understand that my life experience is unique and if anyone is going to validate it, it’s going to be me.

She was so warm and friendly – definitely a highlight of the trip. She suggested we move down here after hearing that we’d like to live somewhere warmer eventually ☺️

When we thanked her and said goodbye, she did the same and told us to come back the next time we’re in town.

We absolutely will!

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After taking care of work stuff at home, we headed off to Old San Juan for the last time.

We started the day with frozen tamarindo drinks in plastic cups for $1 each 😭 it was SO GOOD and the perfect thing for the hot weather.

We checked out some spots that we didn’t yesterday and ate food at a new restaurant. There we did have a miscommunication with each other, but we were able to clear it up after walking around a little more. We saw the rest of old San Juan and ended the day at the “I heart PR” sign where the cruise ships dock and called an Uber to Veyvé again.

With tamarindo drink in hand, we walked home. Saw cats, the ocean, and felt the cool breeze of the night.

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Of the things I’ll miss, I think the quality of the food and fruit I’ll miss most, alongside the warm night temperature. Those alone are enough to warrant another trip back – even an extended stay.

This entire trip has me so excited for Tokyo! Along with that, I really want to take a cruise with Aprille. Being near the ocean so consistently has been a gift, and I am full of gratitude for this experience 🥹

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Tomorrow morning we plan to hit up a cafe, hangout at the beach, and then head to the airport.

A perfect ending to a perfect trip 😊